Three days. For three days Lavendercrown had locked himself up in his own hut refusing to leave his home to get out there in case someone tried to hurt his babies again. He wouldn't let that to happen again, ever. Nothing was more importand to him now then making sure he gave a safe birth to them so the prince had decided to remain in the only place he knew he would be safe. In here no one could come for him not without getting past patrols and even if they did Lavendercrown had his birds to alarm him about it, the only creature on this earth he actually trusted. So all he needed to do was to stay in here for - how long was it left now?, two weeks?. Yes, two weeks, he would never forget which date his prectious babies would get born into this world, and oh how he looked forward to meet them his little princes and princessess. It would be excited to see how many he would get and if they where boy or girls, but thier gender mattered little for him in the end because they where his and he would love them, he swore he would. Love them more then anything in this world, and then, and then he would give them the world. He would become king like he was destined to be and then he would create a kingdom there they would be safe and happy.
Lavendercrown was seating on his bed, humming as his used his mind power to stitch together one of the stuffed animals he planned to give one of his darlings once he or she was born. His whole room had got redecorated to prepare for the day when the children would arrive. He had planned it before that awful man had taken him but it was his loyal and beloved birds how had gather everything for him. So he had everything he needed, being fully prepared for thier arrival even having baby beds put in his room for them. There was four, he had started at that and if he got more then that he could fix more later on. That was of no issue for him. On the nights they would sleep in his bed anyway actually looking forward to have all of them laying by his belly, nursing them and get to sleep next to this warm little small bodies; a warmth he had never felt before so apart of him wondered how it would feel like because as far he could remember had always sleept in the bed all by himself alone night after nights. But that would change now. This children was going to change alot in his life.
"Wandering child of the earth
do you know just how much you're worth?.
You have walked this path since your birth
You were destined for more
There are those who'll tell you you're wrong
They will try to to silence your song
But right here is where you belong
So don't search anymore. "
Lavendercrown started to sing a lullaby for his prectious future babies, his voice soft and angelic. A pleasant voice to listen to. It hold warmth and this love only a mother could carry for thier child. Somewhere he had readed that babies could hear thier mothers voice even when being inside of thier belly, so Lavi had started to sing for them everyday, singing this lullaby to them or humming the melody of it so once they got born they would know it was his voice. Right from the start they would know, being comforted everytime they heared his voice.
He stopt singing as he went over to humming this lullaby instead as he lifted up one of his paws to rest it on his big swollen belly, that big belly that had been disturbing the prince in the past, to have felt ashamed and disgusted to get a big fat belly but now - now he didn't cared at all. His self image seemed to dim away no longer feeling a need for perfection because that had only been a image for the outside world, to not let them see the real him but this children oh he wanted them all to get to know the real him. Every single day he would treat them like they where perfect, being the most fantastic and beautiful creature on the earth because that was what they where and he didn't wanted the world to take that away from them, to taint them and ruin them like they had done towards.... - ah, no such thing mattered anymore. This children had made him realise life were so much more then try to live up to everyone's else expectations just to get acknowledged and accepted.
" Oh my baby darlings, your mom can't wait to meet you all. " he said as he rubbed his belly, warmth and love shinning in that smile as he glanced down at his belly like it was a prectious jewelry to him. He looked forward to meet them, to finally get to see them. Once they got born and was here with him, he would never have to feel alone ever again. He would do his very best to be the perfect mother to them, to be this parent he wished his own parents had been towards him. Never would he let them fight over a crown, or who would carry thier family name. He would make sure of that, to not negelct anyone of them or favoritism one of them in front of the other. All of them would be just as importand to him and he would make sure they know that every single day.
The stuffed animal was finally finished, made into perfection. Lavendercrown looked proudly at what he had made before rosing to his paws to carefully jump down from the bed so he could place the stuffed animal inside one of the beds. However, just as he had landed down on the ground felt a sudden pain inside of his belly. It made the prince flinch a bit in a sting of pain but he thought nothing more about it then one of his children kicking inside to let him know about thier existence. " One of you are a very lively little one, aren't you?." he said after taking in a breath to let the pain pass. One more try he would then take to reach towards the bed with the stuffed animal, but then he was about to take that step Lavendercrown felt the same pain like the second before just this time more intense and painful. It hurt so badly that the stuffed animal fall towards the ground as the prince crounched down towards the floor.
It hurt, it hurt so badly. Lavendercrown gritted his teeths realising that something was wrong. He could feel it, like the mother instinct inside of him screaming that something stood not right here. This sort of pain, it wasn't normal and it was still to early for him to go into labour. Like a cold wash of water this panic come drowning him out of the blue, this fear pulsing up inside of from nowhere in alarm. He needed to found help, someone how could help him and his little babies. He couldn't do this alone and he did not wanted to lose this children, he just couldn't. Founding himself strenght to lift himself up from the floor the prince stumbled himself towards the door through gritted teeths as he tried so endure the pain, and oh, the prince was to focused on his goal to even notice the blood that started to drip down from his back to land on floor to leave blood traces. He didn't notice, he just needed to reach that door.
Lavendercrown pushed the door open as he dragged himself out from there facing a late evening with dark clouds in the sky, and this smell of rain that would start to pour down from the sky at any moment. Moving forward his weight feeling like a rock that was holding him down. Still, he struggled himself through the forest, the cold and chilling day to head towards camp but the walk was far and oh the prince had never before felt so foolish to pick a hut out from camp, to isolate himself away like this. A fool, he had been a fool completely ignoring the risk or the possibility he had to give birth out in the forest all alone. He didn't wanted that, he felt so scared to do this all by himself. Someone, he needed someone here right now. " Val!...Chica!..." The Honor tried to weakly call out to the names of the very people he had always said to dislike, to look down on but now in his most desperate of time called out thier very names, that in itself should mean something because in a time like this they where the one he was prepared to lay down his trust in to help to save his babies.The fight seemed to last forever, the reach for camp being so far away and out of reach and no one seemed to have heared him, to come for his help when he needed it the most. He wouldn't make it, and that alone terrified him.
An other intense pain then hit the Hamrik prince once again making him release a hiss of agony as he crumbled down towards the ground. It was no use, it seemed like he had no choice then to do this all by himself. Weither he liked it or not this children was coming today, tonight. But he needed shelter away from the rain but where?. It was difficult to found a big enough of a hole for a lupurca to crawl himself inside to give birth in. I don't have a choice. He was alone in one of the most terrifying moments of his life he had ever faced without anyone there to seek comfort from. Alone like always. No one would come for his cry of help. The only one he could ever count on was himself.
With no optionals at all the pregnant lupurca laid himself down under a tree, the only possible shelter he could found before the real struggle begin, and the pain, the pain it was so unberable, so horrifying. But he keept himself strong and through the whole birthing contunie on to fight until the very end. After it was over he was so exhausted and apart of him just wanted to close his eyes but he couldn't, he had to see his babies. With the little strenght the lupurca had left manged to lift his head up to take a look at his angels and he was to blind to see the horrifying truth. To notice all of the blood he had lost, to much blood. All the mother could see was his six babies laying by his belly, this destined ones he had been waiting for his whole life. " Oh my angels, you're finally here. I've looked forward to meet all of you." he said as he gazed down at them with absolute joy and awe, adoring every single one of them and they looked perfect, absolute perfect.
The mother leaned down his head to touch one of them with his nose, and it was then he noticed how cold his baby was. Retreating his head back come to notice how still all of them lay, unmoving, not even seeing thier chest moving up and down like it should. " W..what?." why wheren't they moving?, shouldn't they...shouldn't they be crying? all children cried when they first arrived into the world, right?. And why wheren't they feeding from him?. Why wheren't they?...he didn't understand, or rather he did not wanted to. " Hey, why-what's wrong?. Come on now little ones...You...you need to feed."he said, his voice shaky and so was his smile as the prince one more leaned his head down to touch one of the bodies to push it closer towards his belly in a desperate attempt to make it feed from him. But it didn't move, not making any sound or showing any sign of life at all. It was by then the cruel reality started to kick in and Nathaniel felt this sort of heartbreak he never before had felt in his whole life. His heart, it was bursting. " No, no, this..this can't be happening!. Please, oh god no please." his voice broke, and as he glanced down on his dead babies bodies how laid in his own blood this tears started to roll down from the prince cheeks. Yes, Nathaniel Hamrik, the prince how never cried, never broke down ever bursted out crying; releasing a none-sound scream in aboslute despair of heartbreak over founding out his children was dead. That he had given birth to a stillborn litter.
" I'm sorry, i'm so sorry, please come back to me, i..i beg you." he cried as he brought all of his six prectious angels close towards him so he could bury his face into thier lifeless bodies to mourn over thier deaths which had been to soon, far to soon. "I'm sorry, i'm so so sorry." He was sorry for it taking him so long to realise how importand they had been for him, for pretending he didn't cared for them and that he had convinced himself to believe they where nothing more then a tool he could use to strenght his own position in Solaris kingdom and The Sanctuary. He hadn't meant it, he swore he hadn't meant it!. " I love you so much. please don't leave me!." in this cruel world. He needed them. It had taken him a such long time to realise that everything he wanted all along had been growing inside of him. Lavendercrown had thought becoming king would fullfill his life, to cure this loneliness he had always felt inside of him. He had thought if becoming king he would get everything he had always wanted, to finally found a place to call for his own, to belong to. He had created this perfect picture of himself to allow himself to create a delusion of a perfect life to be someone that would get accepted and acknowledged by the world. He had seeked happiness in the life of luxury, in diamonds and jewlery that he had ended up lost with the unability to see the truth, to realise what he actually lacked in life and truly wanted. It hadn't been the crown he had wanted, not truly, it had been to found love. Yes, yes all the prince had ever wanted was for someone to love him, to see him and accept him like his own parents never had. To stop being just a shadow how not was importand for anyone. He wanted someone to care, and so he had thought if becoming king he would gain all of that. To be loved and adored by his people. They would all see him with that crown on his head no one would be able to look past him.
Far to late he had realised that all he had ever wanted had been what this children would have given him. A love that never would fade. They would love him for who he was and not for having a crown or not. His children would never bedray him, to throw him aside like his own family had done. His children would be his crown, his prectious diamonds and jewlery. But now... - now they where all gone. Just like that. His future he had planned for him and them, a future he had pictured in front of him where now all destroyed. Nathaniel Hamrik had just lost his only chance to ever found happiness, to feel complete. The most importand thing he had ever come to found in this life had got taken away from him. So he cried, and cried, and cried while embracing his dead prectious darlings that never would get to live, to see the world. He cried as the sky opend itself up and the rain fall, drowning them all.
That day Nathaniel Hamrik lost everything.