Alexander was a bit relieved to hear that the other wouldn’t chestnuts on him. He hoped that he was indeed telling the truth. “Stop lying for Carol’s things then. You’re life will be easier. We are going to be getting married someday. Whatever burdens you have, I will have too. Please don’t act like you are in this along. Our relationship envolves two people.” He reminded. He didn’t feel good knowing that Lucas was in a gang now. “I don’t want you to be in a gang. I want my normal Lucas back. I don’t want you to punchiles in the walls or be injured. I want us to be able to communicate and love each other like normal. This changes everything though.” His voice was breaking a little.
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Lucas looked at him as he spoke and waited till he was completely done,
"Alex please..."
He said softly as he folded his hands behind his neck and leaned his head back,
"Please try and understand..."
He pleaded slightly before he walked over to him and sat back down, grabbing his hands in his own,
"I can only do so much to fix what I've gotten myself into but I cant get out of all of it..."
He explained,
"I... when me and Carol broke things off, that night I came over to your apartment with my bag becuase she kicked me out... she threatened to move out of state and take Michael... I panicked and said I would pay everything if she would stay... I cant let me son leave... I joined the gang for the extra money so I could afford a better life. So you wouldn't have to worry about it... I'm sorry... I shouldn't have done this... please Alex I'm so sorry..."
He explained and pleaded, his hands shaking as he held Alex's hands
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“What do you expect me to do if you don’t come home one day? What if I hear that you have died on the news? How am I supposed to feel about that? I will never know if you are safe or if you aren’t.” Alexander’s voice was shaking a lot by that point. He was on the brink of crying. “You are always going to be tied with them. I know he is your son, but those weeks before I moved in with you were terrible. I barely saw you due to the fact that you were with them.” He had to pause once more. “I wish you would’ve spoken to me about this sooner. I have a right to know! E-Excuse me.” He whispered and stood up. He pulled his hands away from Lucas and rushed to the bathroom. He shut the door behind him.
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Lucas watched him go before holding his face, shaking his foot in the process before standing up and walking over to the door,
"Alex..."
He mumbled slightly as he knocked on the door, sitting down beside the door after some time passed and leaned his head back against the frame,
"Alex I'm sorry..."
He said again as he shut his eyes, a single tear falling down the side of his face
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Alexander didn’t want to exit the bathroom due to the fact that he was crying a good bit. This all was very overwhelming and he knew that Lucas didn’t understand that. It was about ten more minutes before he carefully opened the door and stepped out. He was sniffing some as he did so. He looked to be quite sad. It wasn’t hard to tell that he had been crying.
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Lucas shut his eyes as he waited for what felt like an entirety for him to come out before he heard the door handle move, he opened his eyes quickly but slowly got to his feet and looked at him, frowning a bit,
"Alex...?"
He said soflty as he looked down at him,
"This is up to you... I'm not going to force you to stay..."
He whsipered gently as the sadness showed through his eyes as he looked down at him, he knew he had messed up and he honestly wasnt sure if he would ever be able to fix it
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Alexander still had a few tears falling down his face. Those were the ones he couldn’t help. He took some shaky breaths as he reached up and wiped them away. “I’m not going to leave. I still love you. But you need to fix this whole situation before I can ever forgive you.” He managed to keep his voice steady as he spoke. He was clearly having a hard time with it though.
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Lucas was truly surprised to be honest but he didn't know how to fix any of this to be honest,
"What are you wanting me to fix Alex...I cant promise anything..."
He said soflty as he grabbed his hand in his own and pulled him closer toward him
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Alexander seemed to be hesitant as he did so. “I want you to tell Carol to get her act together and pay for her own things. You also need to get out of that gang. I am not going to be with you if you are in it.” He confessed. He didn’t know how to feel knowing the other wanted to be in a gang and do all of these things. He was sniffing some still.
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Lucas sighed softly as he leaned his head against the wall,
"I can do one out of the two. I cant just enjoin the gang, your mot allowed to leave"
Hs explained,
"But I can ask for a certain position not out feild"
He said soflty as he hoped maybe that would be enough for him,
"Leaving a gang is when pass in a fight or get killed becuase your weak"
He explained soflty as he confused to hold his hand tightly in his
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Alexander managed to lift his gaze to look at the other male. His eyes were wide and held a lot of sadness them. “Do that then. I just want you out of that situation. F-For now, I am going to sleep on the couch and all. I-I can’t act like nothing happened.” He whispered. It was clear just how sad he was. He slowly pulled from him and took a seat on the couch.
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Lucas sighed as he watched him go but didn't push his luck any further and gave him some space. He went outside and sat down on the porch, watching the environment around him and just thinking about life in general
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Alexander was trying his absolute hardest to keep himself together and to not cry more. He took some very deep breaths to do so. He stayed in the same spot for quite a while before he stood. He made his way to the kitchen. He figured he might as well start cooking dinner like he normally did. There had to be some sense of normalcy in their lives.
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Lucas stayed outside for maybe thirty or so minutes longer before coming back in. He grabbed the gun and bullet and put then away and put the money in a shoe box in the closet. He sighed as he walked into the bathroom and looked at himself in the mirror, mumbling under his breath as he walked back out and sat on the couch, staying silent
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Alexander was almost done cooking by that point. He had just made some pasta and sauce for them. He carefully brought the plates over to the table. He lifted his head to look at Lucas. “Luc, dinner.” He called out gently. He could tell that there was something more wrong with Lucas other than what he was telling him. He bit his bottom lip softly.
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Lucas looked over and stood up, walking in and sitting down at the table,
"Thank you..."
He said soflty as he looked at the food with a blank stare before starting to eat. He felt like he was loosing his mind, second guessing every single thing he did, all of the stuff he had worked hard for felt like it was starting to crumble
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“You’re welcome. I know you have to go to work later on. You said you have the night shift, right?” Alexander inquired. He was clearly trying to keep their relationship on decent terms, even if he wasn’t the happiest with the other male. “I can make some dessert for when you get home.” He offered.
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Lucas nodded,
"That would be nice."
He said with a small smile getting back to eating. Lucas finished his plate with a couple minutes before getting dressed for work. He walked over to Alex and grabbed his hand softly in his own,
"I'll call when I'm fixing to leave work"
He said soflty as he kissed his cheek and headed out
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Alexander was glad to see that the other wasn’t being cold around him. He hoped that he wouldn’t get angry and take it out on him though. That was his biggest worry. “Okay. I do love you Luc.” He spoke truthfully. He leaned into the kiss on his cheek. He then moved to clean up.
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Lucas went to work, once there he found himself basically doing everything, everyone seemed to had called in or thata what it felt like at least. He operated the machines while stacking the pallets, a couple of his stitches had busted in the process but with a shot of liquid and a stapler, he quickly fixed that problem and moved on from him. Finally ending the day at work a d heading. He had forgot to call prior but it was already late again so he didn't want to wake him