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BROTHER FORGIVE ME, WE BOTH KNOW I'M THE ONE TO BLAME; WHEN I SAW MY DEMONS I KNEW THEM WELL AND WELCOMED THEM
— HANZO SHIMADA | known as southwind to most | adult [ around four years old // ages at roleplayer's discretion ] | loyal to people not places [ no set clan // no ranking, no titles ] | former honorguard [hp] of amalfi height && former regent [hp] of volary flights | four to five on kinsey scale [ strongly closeted ] | single, no relationships | npc xx npc [ generation 1 ] | brother to genji [ gone missing, presumed dead ] | father to kaida | character bond with his volary flights hawk + two spirit dragons
APPEARANCE / AESTHETIC.
— large eastern dragon | health 80% | scarred dark gray eastern dragon with grey eyes and yellow ribbon. has a color mutation on left front leg ] | reference | full description here
— purebred japanese bobtail | health 60% | heavily injured purebred japanese bobtail with stormy gray eyes and a yellow ribbon tied around his neck | reference | full description here
— INTJ | LAWFUL EVIL / NEUTRAL | METAL ELEMENT | THE ROYAL | ENNGEAGRAM TYPE 1 [ BORDERING 5W6 ] | CHOLERIC | suffers from ptsd, depression and anxiety [ prone to anxiety attacks ] | full description here
INTERACTION / CONFRONTATION.
— difficult and worthy opponent | won't start fights, will end fights | won't run, won't show mercy | powerplaying not allowed | mention SOUTHWIND when attacking | POWERS [ shape shifting && character bond ]
— has no elemental powers of his own, but shares a body with two spirits that possess his form during battle [ YOKAI. ]
[ myers briggs - intj ]
— simultaneously the most starry-eyed idealist and the bitterest of cynics.
— radiates self confidence and an aura of mystery.
— his insightful observations, original ideas and formidable logic enables them to push change through with sheer willpower and force of personality.
— anyone who doesn't have the talent to keep up with his processes, or worse yet, doesn't see the point of them, is likely to immediately and permanently lose his respect.
— will strive to remain rational no matter how attractive the end goal may be.
— brilliant and confident in bodies of knowledge he has taken the time to understand, but unfortunately the social contract is unlikely to be one of those subjects
— stands on his own and takes responsibility for his own actions.
— unimpressed by authority figures and social conventions or traditions.
— can be astonishingly dedicated to his work.
— when presented with unfamiliar territory, such as alternate lifestyles, he tends to apply his receptiveness and independence, and aversion to rules and traditions, to these new ideas as well, resulting in fairly liberal social senses.
— perfectly capable of carrying his confidence too far, falsely believing that he's resolved all the pertinent issues of a matter and closing himself off to the opinions of those he believes to be intellectually inferior. Combined with his irreverence for social conventions, he can be brutally insensitive in making his opinions of others all too clear.
— the very notion of emotional expression is synonymous with irrationality and weakness to him, a display of poor self-governance and fleeting opinion that can hardly stand up to the enduring light of factual truth.
— these qualities of coolness and detachment aren’t the weapons of truth that they appear to be, but are instead shields designed to protect the inner emotions that he feels. In fact, because his emotions are such an underdeveloped tool, he often feels them more strongly than many overtly emotional types because they simply haven’t learned how to control them effectively.
With a natural thirst for knowledge that shows itself early in life, INTJs are often given the title of “bookworm” as children. While this may be intended as an insult by their peers, they more than likely identify with it and are even proud of it, greatly enjoying their broad and deep body of knowledge. INTJs enjoy sharing what they know as well, confident in their mastery of their chosen subjects, but owing to their Intuitive (N) and Judging (J) traits, they prefer to design and execute a brilliant plan within their field rather than share opinions on “uninteresting” distractions like gossip.
A paradox to most observers, INTJs are able to live by glaring contradictions that nonetheless make perfect sense – at least from a purely rational perspective. For example, INTJs are simultaneously the most starry-eyed idealists and the bitterest of cynics, a seemingly impossible conflict. But this is because INTJ types tend to believe that with effort, intelligence and consideration, nothing is impossible, while at the same time they believe that people are too lazy, short-sighted or self-serving to actually achieve those fantastic results. Yet that cynical view of reality is unlikely to stop an interested INTJ from achieving a result they believe to be relevant.
INTJs radiate self-confidence and an aura of mystery, and their insightful observations, original ideas and formidable logic enable them to push change through with sheer willpower and force of personality. At times it will seem that INTJs are bent on deconstructing and rebuilding every idea and system they come into contact with, employing a sense of perfectionism and even morality to this work. Anyone who doesn’t have the talent to keep up with INTJs’ processes, or worse yet, doesn’t see the point of them, is likely to immediately and permanently lose their respect.
This isn’t to be misunderstood as impulsiveness – INTJs will strive to remain rational no matter how attractive the end goal may be, and every idea, whether generated internally or soaked in from the outside world, must pass the ruthless and ever-present “Is this going to work?” filter. This mechanism is applied at all times, to all things and all people, and this is often where INTJ personality types run into trouble.
INTJs are brilliant and confident in bodies of knowledge they have taken the time to understand, but unfortunately the social contract is unlikely to be one of those subjects. White lies and small talk are hard enough as it is for a type that craves truth and depth, but INTJs may go so far as to see many social conventions as downright stupid. Ironically, it is often best for them to remain where they are comfortable – out of the spotlight – where the natural confidence prevalent in INTJs as they work with the familiar can serve as its own beacon, attracting people, romantically or otherwise, of similar temperament and interests.
INTJs are defined by their tendency to move through life as though it were a giant chess board, pieces constantly shifting with consideration and intelligence, always assessing new tactics, strategies and contingency plans, constantly outmaneuvering their peers in order to maintain control of a situation while maximizing their freedom to move about. This isn’t meant to suggest that INTJs act without conscience, but to many Feeling (F) types, INTJs’ distaste for acting on emotion can make it seem that way, and it explains why many fictional villains (and misunderstood heroes) are modeled on this personality type.
Quick, Imaginative and Strategic Mind – INTJs pride themselves on their minds, taking every opportunity to improve their knowledge, and this shows in the strength and flexibility of their strategic thinking. Insatiably curious and always up for an intellectual challenge, INTJs can see things from many perspectives. INTJs use their creativity and imagination not so much for artistry, but for planning contingencies and courses of action for all possible scenarios.
High Self-Confidence – INTJs trust their rationalism above all else, so when they come to a conclusion, they have no reason to doubt their findings. This creates an honest, direct style of communication that isn’t held back by perceived social roles or expectations. When INTJs are right, they’re right, and no amount of politicking or hand-holding is going to change that fact – whether it’s correcting a person, a process, or themselves, they’d have it no other way.
Independent and Decisive – This creativity, logic and confidence come together to form individuals who stand on their own and take responsibility for their own actions. Authority figures do not impress INTJs, nor do social conventions or tradition, and no matter how popular something is, if they have a better idea, INTJs will stand against anyone they have to in a bid to have it changed. Either an idea is the most rational or it’s wrong, and INTJs will apply this to their arguments as well as their own behavior, staying calm and detached from these sometimes emotionally charged conflicts. INTJs will only be swayed by those who follow suit.
Hard-working and determined – If something piques their interest, INTJs can be astonishingly dedicated to their work, putting in long hours and intense effort to see an idea through. INTJs are incredibly efficient, and if tasks meet the criteria of furthering a goal, they will find a way to consolidate and accomplish those tasks. However, this drive for efficiency can also lead to a sort of elaborate laziness, wherein INTJs find ways to bypass seeming redundancies which don’t seem to require a great deal of thought – this can be risky, as sometimes double-checking one’s work is the standard for a reason.
Open-minded – All this rationalism leads to a very intellectually receptive personality type, as INTJs stay open to new ideas, supported by logic, even if (and sometimes especially if) they prove INTJs’ previous conceptions wrong. When presented with unfamiliar territory, such as alternate lifestyles, INTJs tend to apply their receptiveness and independence, and aversion to rules and traditions, to these new ideas as well, resulting in fairly liberal social senses.
Jacks-of-all-Trades – INTJs’ open-mindedness, determination, independence, confidence and strategic abilities create individuals who are capable of doing anything they set their minds to. Excelling at analyzing anything life throws their way, INTJs are able to reverse-engineer the underlying methodology of almost any system and apply the concepts that are exposed wherever needed. INTJs tend to have their pick of professions, from IT architects to political masterminds.
Arrogant – INTJs are perfectly capable of carrying their confidence too far, falsely believing that they’ve resolved all the pertinent issues of a matter and closing themselves off to the opinions of those they believe to be intellectually inferior. Combined with their irreverence for social conventions, INTJs can be brutally insensitive in making their opinions of others all too clear.
Judgmental – INTJs tend to have complete confidence in their thought process, because rational arguments are almost by definition correct – at least in theory. In practice, emotional considerations and history are hugely influential, and a weak point for INTJs is that they brand these factors and those who embrace them as illogical, dismissing them and considering their proponents to be stuck in some baser mode of thought, making it all but impossible to be heard.
Overly analytical – A recurring theme with INTJs is their analytical prowess, but this strength can fall painfully short where logic doesn’t rule – such as with human relationships. When their critical minds and sometimes neurotic level of perfectionism (often the case with Turbulent INTJs) are applied to other people, all but the steadiest of friends will likely need to make some distance, too often permanently.
Loathe highly structured environments – Blindly following precedents and rules without understanding them is distasteful to INTJs, and they disdain even more authority figures who blindly uphold those laws and rules without understanding their intent. Anyone who prefers the status quo for its own sake, or who values stability and safety over self-determination, is likely to clash with INTJ personality types. Whether it’s the law of the land or simple social convention, this aversion applies equally, often making life more difficult than it needs to be.
Clueless in romance – This antipathy to rules and tendency to over-analyze and be judgmental, even arrogant, all adds up to a personality type that is often clueless in dating. Having a new relationship last long enough for INTJs to apply the full force of their analysis on their potential partner’s thought processes and behaviors can be challenging. Trying harder in the ways that INTJs know best can only make things worse, and it’s unfortunately common for them to simply give up the search. Ironically, this is when they’re at their best, and most likely to attract a partner.
INTJs are defined by their confidence, logic, and exceptional decision-making, but all of this hides a turbulent underbelly – their emotions. The very notion of emotional expression is synonymous with irrationality and weakness to many INTJs, a display of poor self-governance and fleeting opinion that can hardly stand up to the enduring light of factual truth. People with the INTJ personality type take pride in remaining rational and logical at all times, considering honesty and straightforward information to be paramount to euphemisms and platitudes in almost all circumstances. In many ways though, these qualities of coolness and detachment aren’t the weapons of truth that they appear to be, but are instead shields designed to protect the inner emotions that INTJs feel. In fact, because their emotions are such an underdeveloped tool, INTJs often feel them more strongly than many overtly emotional types because they simply haven’t learned how to control them effectively.
This is a challenging paradigm for INTJs to manage, especially younger and more Turbulent types who are already less confident than they would like to appear. These feelings are contrary to INTJs’ idea of themselves as paragons of logic and knowledge, and they may go so far as to claim they have no emotions at all. This does not mean that people with the INTJ personality type should be seen as, nor should they aspire to be, cold-blooded and insensitive geniuses living by the mantra that emotions are for the weak. INTJs must understand that this isn’t the case, and isn’t ever going to be.
More mature and Assertive INTJs find more useful ways to manage their feelings. While they will never be comfortable with a truly public display of emotions, INTJs can learn to use them, to channel them alongside their logic to help them achieve their goals. While seemingly contradictory, this can be done in several ways. Firstly, INTJs are goal-oriented, with long-term ideas founded on sound logic. When something does cause an emotional reaction, good or bad, that energy can be used to further those goals, aiding rational and pre-determined plans. Secondly, emotions are figurative canaries in the coal mine, indicating that something is off even though logic can’t see it yet. These feelings can help INTJs to use their logic to ask questions they may not have thought to ask. "This is upsetting. Why? What can be done to resolve it?"
In this way, emotions are not INTJs’ way of addressing a decision, but rather an indication that a decision needs to be addressed. INTJ personalities’ Thinking (T) trait acts as a protective big brother to their Feeling (F) trait – seeing that something has upset the less able sibling, it steps in to take action, letting logic do the talking and resolving the condition rather than complaining about its consequences.
There comes a time though, when logic is simply the wrong tool for the job, when there just isn’t a rational solution to a problem, and it is in these situations that INTJs must use their Feeling (F) trait most clearly. INTJs would do well to practice this from time to time, or at least be aware of it, because however they may try, it is impossible to truly separate emotion from the decision-making process. The fact is that INTJs do feel, and deeply, and this makes them better, not worse.
[ relationship info ]
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( familial - difficult ) —
( enemies - easy ) —
[ natal chart ]
— ( sun )
— ( moon )
— ( rising )
[ global 5 - RCOEI ]
withdrawn, not wild and crazy, private, loner, not relationship obsessed, not swayed by emotions, insensitive to the needs of others, unhelpful, interested in intellectual pursuits, avoidant, does not put the needs of others ahead of self, thinks before acting, very scientific, not upset by the misfortune of strangers, avoids small talk, values solitude, private, does not get worked up about most things, fearless, unaffected by the suffering of others, calm in crisis, not easily excited, won't do much to avoid rejection, not known for generosity, not easily confused, cold, not prone to complimenting others, dislikes most people but tries to get along to minimize hostility, hard to get to know, more dominant than submissive, not easily hurt, driven by reason, influenced more by self than others, rarely worried, hard to impress, not that interested in relationships, hard to influence, not concerned about failing when trying something new, self confident, knows why they do things, not easily moved to tears, not prone to jealousy, not guided by moods
[ enneagram type 1, 5w6 ]
— perfectionist who desires to reform and improve; an idealist who strives to make order out of the omnipresent chaos.
— always aware of the flaws in himself, others and the situations in which he finds himself.
— any inability to achieve the perfection he desires feeds his feelings of guilt for having fallen short.
— can be difficult to live with but, on the high side, tends to be loyal, responsible and a capable partner and friend.
— a serious person; tends to be highly principled, competent and uncompromising.
— an excellent leader who can inspire those who follows him with his own vision of excellence.
— emotionally repressed and uncomfortable with expressing tender feelings; tends to see emotions as a sign of weakness and lack of control.
— fears that he doesn't have enough inner strength to face life, so he tends to withdraw, to retreat into the safety and security of the mind where he can mentally prepare for his emergence into the world.
— doesn't trust easily; he is often ambivalent about others, until the person has absolutely proven themselves, at which point he is likely to respond with steadfast loyalty.
— uncomfortable when it comes to dealing with his emotions, the demands of a relationship, or the need to find a place for himself in the world.
— he is usually somewhat restrained when it comes to emotional expression, but he often has stronger feelings than he lets on. Few people know what is going on beneath the surface, as he an often exaggerated need for privacy and a deep seated fear of intrusion.
— the side of him which is looking for something to believe in, is often very susceptible to the temptation to turn authority over to an external source, whether it be in the form of an individual or a creed. But his tendency towards distrust and suspicion works against any sort of faith in authority.
( type one - the reformer ) People of this personality type are essentially looking to make things better, as they think nothing is ever quite good enough. This makes them perfectionists who desire to reform and improve; idealists who strive to make order out of the omnipresent chaos. Ones have a fine eye for detail. They are always aware of the flaws in themselves, others and the situations in which they find themselves. This triggers their need to improve, which can be beneficial for all concerned, but which can also prove to be burdensome to both the One and those who are on the receiving end of the One's reform efforts. The One's inability to achieve the perfection they desire feeds their feelings of guilt for having fallen short, and fuels their incipient anger against an imperfect world. Ones, however, tend to feel guilty about their anger. Anger is a "bad" emotion, and Ones strive sincerely and wholeheartedly to be "good." Anger is therefore vigorously repressed from consciousness, bursting forth in occasional fits of temper, but usually manifesting in one of its many less obvious permutations - impatience, frustration, annoyance and judgmental criticality. For this reason, Ones can be difficult to live with, but, on the high side, they tend to be loyal, responsible and capable partners and friends. Ones are serious people; they tend to be highly principled, competent and uncompromising. They follow the rules and expect others to do so as well. Because they believe so thoroughly in their convictions, they are often excellent leaders who can inspire those who follow them with their own vision of excellence. Reform movements are frequently spearheaded by Ones. Ones are often driven and ambitious, and are sometimes workaholics. But whatever their professional involvement, they are definitely active, practical people who get things done. They are natural born organizers, listmakers who finish everything on the list, the last one to leave the office, the first one to return, industrious, reliable, honest and dutiful. The relentlessness of their pursuit of the ideal can make Ones tense people who have a hard time relaxing and who unnecessarily deny themselves many of the harmless pleasures of life. They tend to be emotionally repressed and uncomfortable with expressing tender feelings; they generally see emotionality as a sign of weakness and lack of control. They are seldom spontaneous. They have multiple interests and talents however; they are self-reliant and seldom run out of things to do.
( type five - the investigator ) People of this personality type essentially fear that they don't have enough inner strength to face life, so they tend to withdraw, to retreat into the safety and security of the mind where they can mentally prepare for their emergence into the world. Fives feel comfortable and at home in the realm of thought. They are generally intelligent, well read and thoughtful and they frequently become experts in the areas that capture their interest. While they are sometimes scientifically oriented, especially with the Six wing, just as many Fives are drawn to the humanities and it is not at all uncommon for Fives to have artistic inclinations. Fives are often a bit eccentric; they feel little need to alter their beliefs to accommodate majority opinion, and they refuse to compromise their freedom to think just as they please. The problem for Fives is that while they are comfortable in the realm of thought, they are frequently a good deal less comfortable when it comes to dealing with their emotions, the demands of a relationship, or the need to find a place for themselves in the world. Fives tend to be shy, nonintrusive, independent and reluctant to ask for the help that others might well be happy to extend to them. Fives are sensitive; they don't feel adequately defended against the world. To compensate for their sensitivity, Fives sometimes adopt an attitude of careless indifference or intellectual arrogance, which has the unfortunate consequence of creating distance between themselves and others. Trying to bridge the distance can be difficult for Fives, as they are seldom comfortable with their social skills, but when they do manage it, they are often devoted friends and life long companions. Fives are usually somewhat restrained when it comes to emotional expression, but they often have stronger feelings than they let on. Few people know what is going on beneath the surface, as Fives have an often exaggerrated need for privacy and a deep seated fear of intrusion. Because of their sensitivity and their fears of inadequacy, Fives fear being overwhelmed, either by the demands of others or by the strength of their own emotions. They sometimes deal with this by developing a minimalistic lifestyle in which they make few demands on others in exchange for few demands being made on them. Other Fives make their peace with the messiness of life and engage it more fully, but they almost always retain their fears that life is somehow going to demand more of them than they can deliver.
( type six - the loyalist ) People of this personality type essentially feel insecure, as though there is nothing quite steady enough to hold onto. At the core of the type Six personality is a kind of fear or anxiety. This anxiety has a very deep source and can manifest in a variety of different styles, making Sixes somewhat difficult to describe and to type. What all Sixes have in common however, is the fear rooted at the center of their personality, which manifests in worrying, and restless imaginings of everything that might go wrong. This tendency makes Sixes gifted at trouble shooting, but also robs the Six of much needed peace of mind and tends to deprive the personality of spontaneity. The essential anxiety at the core of the type Six fixation tends to permeate the personality with a sort of "defensive suspiciousness." Sixes don't trust easily; they are often ambivalent about others, until the person has absolutely proven herself, at which point they are likely to respond with steadfast loyalty. The loyalty of the Six is something of a two edged sword however, as Sixes are sometimes prone to stand by a friend, partner, job or cause even long after it is time to move on. Sixes are generally looking for something or someone to believe in. This, combined with their general suspiciousness, gives rise to a complicated relationship to authority. The side of the Six which is looking for something to believe in, is often very susceptible to the temptation to turn authority over to an external source, whether it be in the form of an individual or a creed. But the Six's tendency towards distrust and suspicion works against any sort of faith in authority. Thus, two opposite pulls exist side by side in the personality of enneatype Six, and assume different proportions in different individuals, sometimes alternating within the same individual. The truly confounding element when it comes to typing Sixes is that there are two fundamentally different strategies that Sixes adopt for dealing with fear. Some Sixes are basically phobic. Phobic Sixes are generally compliant, affiliative and cooperative. Other Sixes adopt the opposite strategy of dealing with fear, and become counterphobic, essentially taking a defiant stand against whatever they find threatening. This is the Six who takes on authority or who adopts a dare devil attitude towards physical danger. Counterphobic Sixes can be agressive and, rather than looking for authorities, can adopt a rebellious or anti-authoritarian demeanor. Counterphobic Sixes are often unaware of the fear that motivates their actions. In fact, Sixes in general, tend to be blind to the extent of their own anxiety. Because it is the constant back drop to all of their emotions, Sixes are frequently unaware of its existence, as they have nothing with which to contrast it.
[ temperament - choleric ]
Someone who is a choleric personality doesn't like authority, even though they want to be authoritarian. They want to be on top of the food chain and be on top. As mentioned before, they will use any trick in the book. Those who are bullies will humiliate those they do not like because they love to feel superior and want to show that person they don't like who the boss is. When they do make a mistake, they will often blame others if possible, and they will do so to make themselves feel much better about themselves. They do like to define people, but what they do not like to do is to have themselves defined. To them, there is a clear double standard, and that double standard is designed to fit them.
Let's look at the extroversion of cholerics. Some people like to be extroverted to get social satisfaction from people. However, cholerics are not extroverted because of that. They want to be extroverted to speak their mind and because they want to mess around with the affairs of others. When there are brand new situations, and thrill seeks, they will respond to those, just like another extroverted person.
Let's now talk about how they give their opinions out. When some people give their opinions, they may try to sugar coat it in order not to hurt someone. A choleric person isn't like that. Instead, they will say their opinions with no filter whatsoever without considering the feelings on the other line. This is because they believe in people saying things like it is rather than lying about how they feel. In a way, this mindset can be good, but there are times when you should keep your mouth shut to keep the peace.
Let's also talk about how they accomplish a task. Some people are thinkers, and they will create different scenarios in their mind to solve the problem. A person who is choleric is not like that. Instead, they will solve the problem in the easiest way possible and through brute force. It doesn't matter if the solution hurts others. As long as they have the problem finished, it does not matter.
Now, let's talk about the pride of a choleric person. As mentioned before, they hate to admit they have flaws and they always want to be right. When they do admit flaws, it's to feel superior. For example, some may think that admitting flaws is a sign of strength. With that said, confessing flaws without an ulterior motive is rare, and they will instead try to show how right they are.
Someone who is choleric can be a good friend to you if you are supportive of them. They may be supportive back. However, if one argues with a choleric person, expect them to be petty and try to destroy your life however possible unless you come groveling to them.
These people rarely show fear, even if their body language says otherwise. Like being wrong, the only time they will admit to being fearful is if they can get a reward from it. These people may act like they have no fears at all, even if they secretly do. Most people have some kind of fear, but a choleric person may act fearless, and there is no way for you to prove or disprove their fears
Another concept of a choleric person is the idea of tough love. Tough love involves people who are brash and rude to you, but they are doing it because they want you to be a better person as a result. They don't believe in babying you because they feel like they will end up making a problem a whole lot worse. The belief is that they want you to be independent and not rely on others. Cholerics are especially free of any people who will oppress them, and if anyone tries to make them follow the rules, they will bend them until they break.
[ playlist ]
— about today // the national
"today you were far away / and I didn't ask you why / what could I say, I was far away / you just walked away / and I just watched you / what could I say?"
— amazing // kanye west
"It's amazing, I'm the reason / everybody fired up this evening / I'm exhausted, barely breathing / holding on to what I believe in / I'm a monster, I'm a killer / I know I'm wrong, yeah / I'm a problem / that'll never be solved / no matter what you'll never take that from me / my reign is as far as your eyes can see, it's amazing"
— beautiful crime // tamer
"each step I left behind / each road you know is mine / walking on the line ten stories high / say you'll still be by my side / if I could take your hand / if you could understand / that I can barely breath the air is thin / I fear the fall and where we'll land"
— easy // son lux
"easy, easy / pull out your heart to make the / being alone / easy, easy / pull out the heart that keeps you / feeling alone"
— everybody wants to rule the world // lorde
"it's my own desire / it's my own remorse / help me to decide / help me make the most of freedom and of pleasure / nothing ever lasts forever/ everybody wants to rule the world"
— FML // kanye west
"I been living without limits / as far as my business / I'm the only one that's in control / I been feeling all I've given / for my children / I will die for those I love / god, I'm willing / to make this my mission / give up the women / before I lose half of what I own / I been thinking / about my vision / pour out my feelings / revealing the layers to my soul / they wish I would go ahead and fuck my life up / can't let them get to me / and even though I always fuck my life up / only I can mention me"
— happy little pill // troye sivan
"in the crowd alone / and every second passing reminds me I’m not whole / bright lights and city sounds are ringing like a drone / unknown, unknown / oh, glazed eyes, empty hearts / buying happy from shopping carts / nothing but time to kill / sipping life from bottles / tight skin, bodyguards / gucci down the boulevard / cocaine, dollar bills / and my happy little pill"
— I run to you // missio
"oh I run to you, I run to you / I'll keep chasing you, keep chasing you / I don't judge you love, I never have before / we make mistakes, we leave them by the door"
— the lament of eustace scrubb // the oh hellos
"brother, forgive me / we both know I'm the one to blame / when I saw my demons / I knew them well and welcomed them / but I'll come around / father, have mercy / I know that I have gone astray / 'cause when I saw my reflection / it was a stranger beneath my face / but I'll come around someday"
— louder than thunder // the devil wears prada
"what would it take for things to be quiet? / quiet, like the snow / I know this isn't much but / I know I could I could be better / I don't think I deserve it / selflessness find your way into my heart / all stars could be brighter / all hearts could be warmer
— nothing without you // the weeknd
"I realized, I belong to you / I feel the darkness, went away from you / hey, don't stop your lovin', walk out on me / don't stop for nothin', you're what I bleed / I learned to love you, the way you need / 'cause I know what's pain, this is not the same / I'd be nothing, nothing, nothing, nothing without you"
— privilege // the weeknd
"and I'ma fuck the pain away, and I know I'll be okay / they said our love is just a game, I don't care what they say / but I'ma drink the pain away, I'll be back to my old ways / and I got two red pills to take the blues away, oh"
— melodrama // lorde
"and the terror and the horror / when we wonder why we bother / and the terror and the horror / god, I wonder why we bother / all the glamour and the trauma / and the fuckin' melodrama / all the gun fights and the lime lights / and the holy sick divine nights / they'll talk about us, all the lovers / how we kiss and kill each other / they'll talk about us, and discover / how we kissed and killed each other""
— spanish saharah // foals
"now the waves they drag you down / carry you to broken ground / though I'll find you in the sand / wipe you clean with dirty hands / so god damn this boiling space / the Spanish Sahara / the place that you'd wanna / leave the horror here / forget the horror here / forget the horror here / leave it all down here / it's future rust and it's future dust / I'm the fury in your head / I'm the fury in your bed / I'm the ghost in the back of your head"
— stubborn beast // bear's den
"such a stubborn beast / is best away from the flock / you've enough pride for all of us / as you wander your island / unborn and unloved / you set fire to the bridges / that you were carried across
— when you break // bear's den
"tell me another beautiful lie / tell me everything I want to hear / won't you lay here by my side? / I want to fuck away all my fear / and I have seen all that you've seen / and I have been where you've been / no, our hands will never be clean / at least we can hold each other"
— the wolf // leo
"you run like a wolf, like the cold blood through my veins / picking up speed as the drugs overtake my brain / you howl like the wolf, like the sound in my heart / howling for love, howling for a brand new start"