I'VE GOT NO CLUE WHAT YOU'RE THINKING — open, joining

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    ☾ I LOVED YOU BEFORE YOU LOVED ME — Apricot is a boy of little faith. Early on in his life, he had discovered that there was very little worth believing in when things seemed to always turn out the same where ruin and trickery was unavoidable. There were few who deserved genuine trust and in complete and utter honestly, apri himself on good days did not seem to believe that he was worth others finding him to be a reliable figure when that was far from the truth. Ironic as it was, the one thing that he seemed to believe in was that he did not deserve belief itself.


    There was nothing in particular that he could boldly pick out from his past in order to help him in pinpointing why he thought that way. Perhaps he was just the problem which would in complete honestly be quite fitting. It wasn't as if that would be the first time in his short life where he had been more so the issue than the solution. It was laughable and the male would have at least gently chuckled if it were not for the fact that he was the fool of a clown that was being laughed at.


    "Hello? I'm Apricot, here to uh, here to join." Apri called out with slight hesitance, his voice adrift on the wind that had caught the spoken words as soon as they left his mouth. The small abyssinian feline felt smaller than ever when he heard the way that his own voice came out as nothing more than the white breath of a smoker on a cold night. Ears angled back against his head, he hoped that the unintentionally soft spoken words were enough to achieve the intended goal of drawing attention to himself, doing his best to focus on the matter at hand as his mind shifted between deep thought and reality.

    ❝ I'LL BE COMING WITH MY GUNS UP, SHOOTING AT THE MOON TO BRING THE SUN UP ❞ Even if Apricot's words were too soft to be carried on the wind, Aurum had a bit of a habit of roaming the territory in his own time - probably why he seemed to come across strangers so often. But Aurum was glad to hear it was another joiner - someone who meant no trouble - and he offered a warm smile to the stranger. "Apricot, was it?" Aurum asked gently, before giving a small nod. "Well, welcome to Solaris Kingdom. My name is Aurum, it's nice to meet you." he gave another nod and a smile - he hoped that he didn't bother Apricot with his forward extroversion.

    「 this is life in color

         today is like no other 」


    If only she could hear the thoughts of this stranger. Airis would march up to him with a frown and tell him things can always be better. Just because your life in the past was hard, or problems arose, things didn't go your way didn't mean they never would. Though the kitsune herself had never experienced true disaster or heartbreak, she still held onto the idea that you had to keep your chin up. There was no use in hating yourself or being upset. Sadness and giving up would only ensure your future was as bleak as you expected it to be.


    But she couldn't hear the thoughts of the stranger, and so approached completely oblivious. All Airis could tell was what her eyes told her. Apricot looked a little unsure of himself, his voice barely loud enough to be heard. She smiled at him, waiting until Aurum had finished speaking before introducing herself. There'd been quite a few joiners recently, she mused with a smile. That was good. "Hey! I'm Airis, glad to have you with us," She told the newcomer, tone light.



    ☾ I LOVED YOU BEFORE YOU LOVED ME — "Aurum." Apri said aloud after nodding in response to the echo of his own name, fictional brows furrowed slightly as he uttered the name of the leader as if he were tasting it on his tongue. After a few moments of internal contemplation, as if he were thinking about whether he was worth speaking such a name or instead simply referring to the leonine male as just 'sir', the youth allowed a gentle smile to carve itself into his lips, barely reaching his eyes yet still causing a slight glimmer within amber orbs. "Aurum, it's nice to meet you, sir." the feline added in a manner perhaps too formal for the setting but formality was the only thing that he was really comfortable with and as a result, he could not help but stick to his old habits. You could not teach an old dog new tricks, after all and so you could not teach a young Apricot new behaviours.


    As his focus shifted onto the newcomer to the current situation, his mind could not help but wander ever so slightly. Disaster and heartbreak and always been something that followed him like a looming storm cloud with threatening rain no matter how hard he tried to avoid it. It was not as if he had intended on living the life that he had endured and it would be foolish for someone as young as him to completely give up yet it was difficult for him to think otherwise. Perhaps, the positive influence of someone as bright minded as the female before him would consequently be a positive impact on him yet it seemed that for the time being, he was unfortunately caught in his own bubble of negativity.


    Meek smile spreading seemingly like wildfire across his features as he allowed his focus to fix solely on the kitsune, the young male dipped his head slightly in response to Airis' rather cheery greeting. It was quite nice to be face to face with others who were in relatively high spirits, the association seeming to ground him in a way. Although it didn't quite bring his mood as a whole up, it was enough to cause a genuine smile and that was good enough in the meantime. "Ah, thank you. It's nice to be here." he replied in his own airy tone with a 'miss' barely lingering on the tip of his tongue, words spoken as softly as before.