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    “I’m sorry for everything Jon. I’m sorry for leading you on and turning out to be a failure myself. I’m sorry I’m not enough. Everything you said was right. I’m a terrible mess and a terrible mistake.” Alexander spoke with more clarity then he had in the phone call. He was right on the edge of the bridge then.

    "I never said you were a mistake.."He soon ran over and grabbed him, pulling him off as he was scared "Stop..just..please Alex..fight..you told me to fight and grow some balls, to own my mistakes...for Aria.."He held his arms "Just..look at me..Im the mistakes Im the one not good enough for you ok? we both know that.."He was trying to distract him so pecked his cheek.

    Alexander frowned some as the other did so. He was blinking some, not knowing exactly what to do. “I don’t know how to fight. I’m not strong like you are Jon. I am really not.” He admitted. He voice was beginning to shake again. He was nearing tears once more.

    "Im not strong and I managed.."He replied "Just..you just take everyday as it is...and you wish for one more day.."He explained "Come on lets go home.."He wanted him safe. He got his bike and started it up "On the back now..promise im a safe driver.."

    Alexander frowned, just staring at the bike for a few minutes. He then slowly got onto the back on it and wrapped his arms around Jonas carefully. “I’m sorry I’m a mess.” He reacted.

    "Dont say sorry..I was a mess and you fixed me.."He replied and drove off, he got to his house and got Aria safe inside "You take the bed.."He put him up in the main room and got him pills and water to make sure he would be ok "Im gonna sleep in the spare room. Keep you comfortable"

    Alexander was stumbling some as he walked alongside him upstairs to the bedroom. “Stay with me?” He asked softly. He truly hadn’t slept well without the other by his side. It showed by the bags underneath his eyes. He slowly laid down in the bed then, letting out a soft groan.

    "Are you sure?"He asked a little hopeful but he couldn't trust this man..he had left him before he would leave again and it hut him. He slowly stripped and got in beside the male with a sigh. "Just rest."

    Alexander had nodded to his original question. He offered him a gentle and tired smile. He immediately shifted towards and snuggled into the other. He was soon asleep. The words he said while he was drunk were completely true. He did love Jonas a lot. He just needed some help at the moment.

    Jonas stayed fast asleep beside him before it got to 7am, Aria cried for her food. He slowly got out of bed and took her downstairs, mixing her meds in with her milk that he warmed he began to feed her as he hummed a little tune. He had to do this now, despite the whole..lawyer. He hoped Alex wouldn't find out.

    Alexander woke up not long after the other did. He had a pounding headache, but did remember everything that had happened. He moved towards the kitchen then. “Jon?” He asked gently. His voice was very rough from sleep.

    JOnas relaxed as he fed her "oh morning"he felt bad for him "pills are in the top cabinet. Help yourself. I'll do breakfast in a moment once I'm done.."he rocked back and forth till she finished. He gently burped her and relaxed now Shen wouldn't puked on him. It was weird since he seemed like a good dad

    “M’kay. Thank you.” Alexander spoke truthfully. He reached over to go and get it. He quickly took some medicine to help with it. “I meant hat I said last night. I do love you still.” He spoke truthfully. He then shifted to look st him.

    Jonas sighed "you scared me alex. I've seen things but.."he sat down cradling the tiny girl "I love you. But I need an apology before I can move forward with you.."he wouldn't negotiate. HE wanted an apology from Alexa for calling his daughter a mistake

    Alexander nodded and took a light breath. “I’m really sorry for everything I said about your daughter. She isn’t a mistake. I just am in a horrible state of mind right now. Everything is going wrong in my life at the moment.” He admitted quietly.

    Jonas sighed "thank you. There all I need"he replied "I just. I'm here for you..I mean. I'm hurt but your hurt so..perfect mix.."he replied not sure what to say. Aria gurgled and he looked at her with a smiled and let her hold his finger "I've got court today.."

    Alexander cracked a weak smile at that. “Yeah, perfect mix.” He echoed. “I just need love and comfort right now. I have come to accept it.” He added on. He raised an eyebrow as he heard his next words. “Do you want me to come with you? I don’t mind.”

    He knew it would be a risk if he saw the lawyer and asked questions but at the moment he needed some strength"I need that too so yeah.."he replied with a small smile "I warn you. It's kinda hard to hear what Laura did to her.."

    “I witnessed it first hand. I will be able to handle it. I e seen a lot of bad things.” Alexander admitted. He offered him a smile. He then moved to carefully hug him. He still had no clue what all hadn’t happened with the lawyer. It would kill him if he knew.

    Jonas knew it would be bad for him right now but he wanted to tell the truth"yeah it's just been hard cause I don't have a job..I had to get a lawyer and had to pay him.

    .."he sighed "it doesn't matter. All that matters is that riri is safe"he relaxed into the hug