You can't fool your body
You can only fool your mind
Minnow ★ BloodClan ★ kit ★ 6 moons ★ female
Thump. The sound of paws hitting the ground could be heard, before a shrill squealing sound, which was abruptly cut off. Minnow had just successfully stalked and killed a mouse, though she'd almost missed it by hesitating. Revolution would've called her out on that, but he wasn't here right now, so Minnow had space to breath. The she cat took a few steps back towards BloodClan's central area, but strangely, didn't leave the mouse in a free-for-all pile as she normally did. Even more strangely, Minnow settled down, and began to eat. That's right, eat. The she cat had been getting thinner for weeks now, due to her eating less and less. Why had she stopped eating? Minnow lived in a bloody world, and she wasn't the most ideal candidate to survive here. Things happened, things went wrong, a lot. The caramel and white molly often felt that everything was out of her control, and she hated feeling so helpless on top of everything else that was wrong with her. Minnow had realized that she could control her eating habits, and so far that had helped calm her emotions. Besides that, she'd been bullied about her weight, and this way she killed two birds with one stone It wasn't healthy by far, but once she'd started, Minnow was finding it hard to stop. She knew restricting her intake of food was bad, but... If it helped her mentally, could it be that bad?
The answer was, maybe. Only yesterday, Minnow had eaten even less than normal, she'd gone without food for about twenty four hours, give or take. That was enough to cause the girl to pass out, and that had scared her. Scared her so much, that Minnow had decided to try slowing down on the whole 'starve yourself' thing. At the sight of the mouse in front of her, Minnow's thoughts had gone instantly on guard. Giving up will only prove every cat's point. But I'm not giving up. Just trying to, be ok. She would eat enough to get by without passing out, and that would be enough. Her stomach seemed to have other ideas. It seemed to curl up at the smell of the mouse, and Minnow nipped off and swallowed a chunk reluctantly. Why is this so hard? Why must her body act so stupid? When she didn't eat, it gave her so much pain for days on end, but when she finally did feed it, it wasn't doing much to encourage her. Because it's finally accepting what you're doing. Don't confuse it into going back. You don't want to go through that pain again. No, no she didn't. Minnow was determined not to pass out again, but only managed another mouthful or two before her stomach gave a confused twist, not used to another meal besides the small one she ate in the morning. Minnow sighed gloomily, not noticing that another cat had seen her struggles.
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