You can't fool your body
You can only fool your mind
Minnow ★ BloodClan ★ kit ★ 4 moons ★ female
BloodClan was her home. Home was where the heart was. Home was a place you were supposed to love, and feel safe in. Home had the people you cared about nearby. Home was... Home. But Minnow didn't feel like she was home, not lately. Had it ever felt like home, truly? No.. She just didn't fit in. No matter what Minnow wanted, she couldn't be what BloodClan was. Cold, ruthless, bloodthirsty, fierce... So why had she joined? Was she just an idiot, a cloud-headed kit who thought everything would somehow be okay? Well, yeah, partly. Honestly, Minnow should've known from the start. She shouldn't have been fooled. But she had been. Minnow had been told that 'blood' didn't stand for death, or fighting, or anything that it sounds like. She'd been told that 'blood' stood for family. A group of cats so close, that it was as if they all shared the same blood. That was what she'd imagined, at least. Silly me...
Felix had been the one to tell her that. Her now best friend, had lied to her the moment they'd met. Minnow knew he'd meant well. Clearly he'd been trying not to scare her, he'd known she needed a home and a place to live, the lie had been the only way to make her stay happily. She should appreciate what he'd done, and get over it. But Minnow, just couldn't. Maybe if he'd told her, before she'd found out elsewhere.. I shouldn't have had to been told. It was clear as day, everywhere you looked. Cats with harsh gleams in their eyes, claws that weren't normal claws, collars made of teeth and who knew what else. And, it was right there in the name. BloodClan. Not FamilyClan, not Happy-fun-timeClan, nothing like that. Minnow felt tears come to her eyes, and she kicked a pebble in frustration and watched it skid away. She had no where else to go. She was, in a way, stuck in BloodClan. A place that scared her, that hurt her, and a place where she felt utterly alone. Especially now. Especially without Felix.
// -Renegade- heeeree it is! You can decide if it's after the capture of Duck or not :)
Tags ★ "speech" ★ thoughts