you’re killing me with chemistry || priv.

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    (( vines are honestly the best thing ever

    and i really love how we always find a vine to relate to ewen and eunjae ))


    eunjae nodded when ewen said they could do whatever he wanted. he really wanted ewen to choose, but it wasn’t like he could actually force him or anything, and if ewen left it up to him, then he could decide on what they did. it wasn’t that big of a deal. he was just about to give his answer on what he wanted to do when ewen held his arms out, and eunjae felt his heart melt at the sight. how was it possible for someone to be so cute? that’s what eunjae always wondered when it came to ewen.


    once ewen said that they could just cuddle for now and do something later, eunjae instantly went into his arms. he didn’t need to be told twice that they could cuddle. he waited until ewen was comfortable, and once he felt ewen relax under his touch, he planted a soft kiss on ewen’s head, letting out a content sigh. it felt nice just to have a lazy morning together. their time together had mostly consisted of always going out and doing something, and then cuddling that led to making out or doing something sexual, and just cuddling just to cuddle now, it felt really nice.


    he nodded at ewen’s request to hear about his week, and just as he was about to tell him about it, ewen went on to say to tell him where he wanted to touch him. quite honestly, there were a lot of places he wanted to touch ewen. he wanted to touch ewen everywhere, but he couldn’t just say that. he didn’t want ewen to force himself into being okay with being touched just for someone else’s benefit, and it wasn’t as if he couldn’t wait until ewen was ready to touch him again. but he knew that ewen wouldn’t just accept that as an answer, he had to name at least one place he wanted to touch ewen.


    “hmm,” eunjae hummed, glancing down at ewen through his eyelashes, feeling tired again now that he was back in bed feeling ewen’s warmth and hearing his soft breaths. “it’s already okay for me to touch you in my favorite places though.” he pointed out, referring to the fact that ewen was okay with him holding his hand and playing with his fingers and playing with his hair. eunjae loved doing those things, he liked how tiny and warm ewen’s hands felt in his and how soft his hair was, he was glad that ewen still allowed to touch him there. “what about your waist? then we can slowly go down to your hips and thighs and wherever else. slowly, like i said. i’ll only touch you when you can honestly tell me that you’re okay with me touching you. i don’t want to hurt or scare you.” he kept his voice soft, not wanting his words to sound harsh or anything. he truly meant what he was saying. if it took hundreds of years for ewen to be okay with being touched again? then eunjae would wait hundreds of years.


    “but my week...” eunjae hummed out his words, trying to think of what he actually did all week besides miss ewen. he obviously knew that he did other things, but all he could think of was how much he had missed his boyfriend and how much he was enjoying the current moment. “i had a huge math test on monday, and worst of all, i didn’t have my cute boyfriend there to give me good luck kisses, so i’m sure i failed.” he let out a soft laugh, hoping that ewen didn’t actually feel bad for missing school. eunjae was just joking, but if he accidentally ended up hurting ewen’s feelings, then he would take back everything he said. “i didn’t really talk to my friends much, i think i told you that last night. i didn’t really go to practice either. it just feels weird being around them now. maybe if you want to stick around and watch again next time we have practice it’ll be okay, remember the first time you watched me practice? when we went on our first date? that was nice.”


    eunjae glanced up at the ceiling, sure that if he kept looking at ewen he would either kiss him all over his face just because he looked so cute or end up falling asleep just because he looked so tired. “tuesday was boring, it was rainy and cold and everyone was miserable. but then on wednesday night, i ended up sort of talking to my parents about being gay. i just kind of lied and said that i think one of my friends might be gay, and asked what they think about it. they didn’t say anything good, but i’m thinking maybe if they think some of my friends are gay, they’ll be a little more okay with me being gay? i don’t know, it’s a weird situation.” he shrugged, quickly glancing down at ewen to make sure he didn’t scare or hurt him with his sudden movement. “and then i watched scream twice in a row, the first time was because i missed you and it reminds me of you and the second time was just because i couldn’t fall asleep. i kind of just stayed up most of the night, worrying about you and my future. stuff like that.”


    he glanced back up at the ceiling, letting his hand reach up and threaded his fingers through ewen’s hair as he continued. he was sure playing with ewen’s hair could be classified as an addiction or strange habit of his, possibly both. “and then on thursday, i was super tired so i barely remember anything that happened. yesterday though, friday, i woke up super excited because i planned on coming over to see you if you didn’t come to school. i really missed you, you know that, right?” once again, eunjae looked down at ewen, a fond smile on his lips and his eyes halfway shut. “i’m sorry about making things weird last night and saying that i was planning on marrying you and whatever else. i meant it more like i really love you, not like, let’s go get married and start a family as soon as we graduate. i just don’t really know how to explain my feelings sometimes, and for some reason, when i was thinking of how to tell you how i love you my brain was like ‘tell him you want to get married soon’ and i was like ‘that’s weird but okay’.” he shrugged and let out a soft chuckle, letting his hand fall still, just letting his fingers stay tangled and rested in ewen’s hair.


    “and i’m sorry that i didn’t come check in on you sooner. i don’t want to seem like an asshole that doesn’t really care about you, because i do, i care about you a whole lot. i just wanted to give you some space since you were upset and maybe still a little mad at me? i don’t know, i just felt like that if you wanted to talk to me sooner than yesterday afternoon that you would have called me or something like that.” eunjae pulled his hand away from ewen’s hair and let it just fall to the side, giving another gentle shrug. “i just wanted you to know.” then eunjae went silent, wanting it to just be quiet for a moment. the quietness was nice, he liked listening to the soft noises that ewen made. it just made ewen being there pressed up against him feel even more real.


    “baby, are you still tired? you can sleep if you want, i’ll still be here when you wake up. i’m not going anywhere.” if ewen wanted to sleep, then eunjae would let him sleep. he didn’t want ewen to feel tired, especially for when they went out later that day. which reminded eunjae, he still had to tell ewen what he had planned for them. “oh yeah, if you’re up for it, i wanna go out later. take you out for a drive, maybe even stop at the mall. i definitely want to get you ice cream or something, and maybe we can even pull over at some point and just make out for a little since i know how irresistibly hot i look when i drive.” he let out a quiet chuckle, then slowly shook his head. “if you want me to stay over again tonight, we can play video games together and cuddle again. like genuinely cuddle, it’s nice. and maybe you’ll let me talk to your mom at dinner tonight, since last time we just ran away from her.” he chuckled again, then looked down at ewen. “does all of that sound okay with you? don’t be afraid to tell me if you don’t want to do something or if there’s something you really want to do.”

    ( now i just watch vines hoping i can relate one to ewen or eunjae )


    once eunjae started talking, ewen felt himself close his eyes to better listen to his voice. there was always something so soothing about the way that eunjae spoke. maybe it was the way he spoke with sincerity or his low tone, but there was something about it that always allowed ewen to relax. when he heard his voice for the first time, ewen could have melted. having eunjae speak to him was already something so amazing, but hearing his deep, honestly vividly rich voice say his name and speak directly to him was just about one of the most amazing things that could happen to him. even being able to hold a conversation with skeet ulrich wouldn't be as amazing as having eunjae talk to him for the first time. maybe it was because he was in love with eunjae, but he felt like eunjae was some sort of celebrity whom ewen had supported for years, and only now realizing that he could easily just go up to him and talk to him about anything, almost as if he was a celebrity himself. eunjae made him feel like a celebrity.


    and the feeling of eunjae's hands, that was something else. ewen never thought he would have felt what perfect hands felt like, and he didn't think that soft hands were the best thing in the world. everyone always raved about how soft a person's hands were, and how that felt so nice, but ewen found himself to love the exact texture of eunjae's hands. it was soft, somewhat, but still had texture to it, almost rough at the same time. ewen never found himself wanting to memorize the exact lineage of eunjae's hands, exactly how they were arranged and the exact coordination of the grooves on his hand. ewen realized that if he said this out loud, eunjae would probably laugh at him. he was strangely affectionate, probably because he hadn't seen eunjae for an entire week.


    as eunjae began speaking, ewen felt himself melt into the honey of his voice. as eunjae began speaking about where he wanted to try touching ewen and how he was already allowed to touch in his favorite places, ewen simply nodded. the waist area was where ewen had thought of trying as well. strangely enough, he thought his hips would be a lot easier to get used to than his waist. the main guy had touched his hips, but hadn't gone further than fondling him over his clothes. his waist and under his shirt were going to be the more sensitive areas. already, ewen avoided touching himself in the waist and stomach area when he was bare, so he doubted that he would be comfortable having someone else touch him there. he was willing to try being touched at the waist with clothes over his torso, but going under the shirt would be something he'd need a little more time for.


    as he thought about this, ewen slowly nodded to himself. he began mentally preparing himself for his plan. he knew his own boundaries, or at least he was going to test them out, and only he could really dictate what he wanted to try. he needed to think about how he was going to ease himself into it, he wanted to do it in a way that he would be able to ease himself into the idea of being touched there while not entirely being touched there. he thought of a small idea and reached up to gently take hold of eunjae's wrist. "i'm gonna put your hand somewhere, don't move it for a bit and let it just sit there for a second." he took only one hand of eunjae's and carefully placed his hand on his waist. it was more like ewen let his wrist sit on the groove of his waist and let his hand hang from his back. once ewen had strategically placed eunjae's hand where he wanted it to be, he let his own hands go back to eunjae's waist and pulled him a bit closer.


    ewen felt his eyes open again and he started staring mindlessly at eunjae's shirt as he familiarized himself with the pressure of eunjae's wrist on his waist. he found himself breathing a bit heavily, though he was calm enough that he could easily slow down his breathing. he found himself rather tensed under the pressure of eunjae's wrist, but the longer that eunjae kept it there, the easier it was for ewen to relax little by little. it took a while for ewen to become relaxed under the pressure, and even when he was as relaxed as possible, he was still slightly tense. he was more worried about when eunjae started moving his hand around. he let out a small breath, trying to convince himself to shut his eyes once more. "you can move your hand around a bit. touch anywhere you want, except the crotch region and under the shirt is off-limits." he murmured, slowly closing his eyes to be able to listen to eunjae's words and his breathing once more.


    ewen found it easier to relax once eunjae started talking. even as he started moving his hand even slightly around his torso, ewen found it easier to deal with it when he was listening to the soothing tone of eunjae's voice. he scooted closer to eunjae and buried his face in his chest, though twisted his head so that he would still be able to hear eunjae as he spoke. he listened to what eunjae had to say about his week, how it went and what he did. it sounded like eunjae didn't really want to do much on his own, especially considering he was worried about ewen that entire week. if ewen was worried about eunjae, he wouldn't have been able to spend a week relaxed either. when eunjae spoke up about attempting to ease his parents into the idea of being gay, ewen perked up. he listened closely to what eunjae was saying, and nodded slowly as he processed it to let eunjae know that he was listening.


    as eunjae began the apologies, ewen frowned and quickly shook his head. as eunjae explained that he didn't mean to make things weird with his whole 'i wanna marry you' comment, ewen just felt himself let out a chuckle. "'tell him that you wanna marry him.' 'but why?' 'you gotta.'" ewen jokingly said, imitating eunjae's deep voice and making an even deeper voice for the voice of his brain. "it's fine. i'm weirdly affectionate too. i get it." he was murmuring his words, and melting them into each other, so his 'it's fine' sounded more like an, 'iss fine.' it was because he was sleepy, but there was no way he would admit that to eunjae. as the apologies continued streaming in, ewen continued shaking his head. "it's fine, really. you came at the right time, to be honest."


    as eunjae continued to ask ewen if he was tired, ewen felt himself shake his head and readjust himself into a more comfortable position. "i'm not sleepy." he murmured, his words once again melting into each other. as eunjae began telling him his plans for the day, ewen slowly nodded along, listening to what he had planned for them for that day. they had plenty of time to do whatever they wanted, so if they didn't do everything today then that would be fine. "sounds good." ewen murmured. as eunjae went on to say that he wanted to talk to his mom, ewen just laughed. "why do you wanna talk to my mom so bad? i get you want her approval, but honestly, as soon as i came out to her, she was just happy that i found someone i'm happy with." it was kind of cute, really, that eunjae wanted to talk to his mom. of course he felt embarrassed whenever his mom spoke to eunjae, but if eunjae really wanted to talk to her, then he would deal with it.

    (( somehow they manage to have every vine relate to them in some way ))


    for some reason, the way that ewen had allowed him to touch him felt special to eunjae. he knew that ewen was probably still nervous and uncomfortable with the idea of being touched, but he still let him touch him. even if it was just a simple and light touch, it was still there. it was enough to set ewen off, and yet he still allowed it to happen. maybe he could tell that he missed being able to freely touch him without worry, or maybe he just wanted to be touched by his boyfriend without freaking out. either way, it felt special. everything about the moment felt special to eunjae. with how sleepy ewen was, even if he was denying it, and how he was allowed to touch him and how they were just quietly talking about nothing and everything; it was special to him.

    he couldn’t pinpoint exactly why, and most other people would probably see nothing special about the moment, but eunjae thought it was special.


    eunjae just shook his head and let out a soft laugh at ewen’s impression of him and his brain. “i do not sound like that.” he managed to speak between his soft huffs of laughter. he went back to being a bit more serious, but still kept the smile on his face, as ewen told him that it was fine, that he understood and how he was weirdly affectionate too.

    “you know, just a few hours ago you were calling me gross for being all soft and lovey-dovey with you and now it’s okay? make up your mind.” he tilted his head to the side a bit, allowing his smile to grow. he just felt so happy with ewen, he couldn’t help but to smile like an idiot.


    as ewen went on to deny being sleepy, eunjae just shook his head, pushing back ewen’s hair and planting a soft kiss on his forehead. “but you are sleepy.” he pointed out, carefully fixing ewen’s hair as best as he could; it was still a little messy from how he was playing with it earlier. “you’re mumbling and your eyes keep closing and you’re being extra affectionate. you’re a tired baby, my tired baby.” eunjae cooed at him, following his words up with a soft giggle. he knew that ewen was an eighteen year old boy, one that could easily fend for himself and was probably way more mature than him, but ewen was right when he said he loved talking to him like he was a baby. always speaking so quietly and slowly, giggling and feeling his heart race over ewen’s reaction to everything, the way he always asked him things like ‘aren’t you?’, it was all true. ewen was his baby though, someone he loved and felt the need to take care of like it was his job. because in a way, it was his job. that was part of being ewen’s boyfriend, he had to take care of him. if he wanted all the fun stuff like talking like this, doing sexual things, and just being boyfriends, he had to deal with the not so fun stuff, like fighting, and caring for him when he was sick or hurt. not that taking care of ewen was a horrible thing to do, he actually loved doing it; he just wouldn’t admit it to ewen.


    when ewen asked why he wanted to meet his mom so bad, he shrugged and looked off into the other direction. he had a reason, one that was as innocent as possible, but he liked messing around with ewen sometimes. “ah well, i guess now is the best time to confess. i actually have a huge crush on your mom.” he tried to keep his voice as serious sounding as possible, but as soon as he glanced back over at ewen to see his reaction, the facade was dropped and he snorted with laughter, quickly shaking his head. “no, no, i just... i don’t know, i know you said she approves of me and everything already, i just want her to accept me for more than making you happy. like, even if you told her all these great things about me, i want to prove to her that they’re true, that there’s more than just you being happy to accept me for. after all, i plan on sticking around for a long time, isn’t it important that your mom truly likes me?”


    he shrugged, moving his hands back down to ewen’s waist and gently resting his hands there. “you’re really okay with this?” if ewen wanted to try getting comfortable with being touched again, then eunjae was willing to do anything that ewen thought would help. but he didn’t want ewen to allow him to touch him just for his own benefit, he didn’t want ewen to force himself into being okay with it just because he thought that’s what his boyfriend wanted. “even if like, you say you’re completely fine with it and i’m doing it one day and it makes you uncomfortable, you can just push my hands away or tell me, okay? i don’t want to do anything to you that you don’t like.”




    ( hi !!!! i had some time this weekend to write up a response and i've missed ewen and eunjae so much that i decided to reply to this thread first.

    i'm not sure if i told you, but i'm taking a creative writing class, so my muse is going up little by little ! ^^

    i wanted to write something about ewen and eunjae, i think i'll do that and share it with you. ^^ )


    ewen found himself going in and out of consciousness. it wasn't like he was falling asleep, it was more he was going in and out of a dream state, almost as if he were waking up in a dream. that tended to be his least favorite way of waking up, since he always thought he was actually awake, but would only find out that he wasn't at all awake. dreams were weird anyway, that was something he'd really would have wanted to talk to eunjae about. well, now was as good a time as ever, he guessed.


    "hey baby." he murmured, taking a fistful of eunjae's shirt in his hand and sort of pulling it back so that the fabric in front would stick more to eunjae's core. that made him feel like he was going to get to be a lot closer to him. "tell me about a weird dream you've had." dreams were always something interesting to ewen, maybe mostly because his were always super weird. his mind seemed to like to make movies out of his feelings and his life, so he would often get reruns of the same dream after having ignored an important message from the previous one. it was like his brain and him were completely separate beings, and that just made it even weirder.


    "i'll tell you about one of mine first." he cleared his throat before thinking about which dream he should tell eunjae about. he had had plenty of dreams about him, some being dirty and others just being normal desire dreams. he decided that he would keep the dirtier ones for later, and now was a better time to tell him about one of the cute, romantic dreams. he didn't want to let eunjae know that he dreamed about him a lot, because he felt like that would be weird, even if they were together. he'd read somewhere that dreaming excessively about someone meant you were obsessed with them, and ewen could confirm that he was, in fact, pretty obsessed with his boyfriend.


    "okay, this one was kinda sad, but i'm gonna tell you about it." ewen positioned himself so that he could look up at eunjae as he spoke, looking for any reactions he might have. "so the dream started out like any normal weird dream, it was like i was going through normal dream motions, nothing special, you know?" he paused to let out a cough. "and then, at one point, i'm exiting a store into, like, this giant galleria, and i look on the other side from where i was, and i see you, but you're with someone else." another pause. "this was way before we were together, by the way. i didn't really think that much of it and just turned to walk the other way, but in, like, a second, the person you were with is in front of me and talking to me."


    "so i just nod along to what they're saying, and out of the corner of my eye, i see something yellow and i turn my head towards it, and you're standing next to me, as tall as ever, and you're looking down at and reaching for my hand. when i turn my head, you look up at me and kinda just pause for a second before grabbing my hand, and you start dragging me away. i start calling your name pretty desperately, almost like we hadn't seen each other for so long. you weren't even looking back at me as you dragged me away, you were just dragging me away without doing or saying anything. at one point, you stop and i take the opportunity to try and kiss you, but the second that i put my hands on your cheeks and turn your head towards mine, you're looking at me like," ewen paused. this was the hardest part of the whole dream, but he was going to make himself say it without crying. "you're looking at me like i'm nobody to you, like you hate my guts or something. the feelings i had at that moment were that we had something special in the past, so i was really confused as to why you had been dragging me away only to look at me like that."


    ewen had been talking for a while, so he took a moment to take a breath before continuing. "as i was in my state of confusion, you take the opportunity to turn away from me and start walking off with someone else. honestly, i, i was really hurt. it hurt me so much, but i felt like there was nothing i could do. so i just, walked away." ewen paused. the hardest part was over. "then there was a black screen, and i'm kinda given instructions to stop you from proposing to that other person, but the only hint i'm given about where you're going to do it is that you're going to do it next to water. so my first instinct was to go to the beach. i start making my way to the beach, and while i'm walking, i pass this dock, and i see at the end of it this big black figure. my heart starts speeding up and i think it's you, so i start making my way down towards the figure, but the second that i'm close enough to touch it, it turns into a bird and flies away."


    ewen took a deep breath. "so i'm just standing on this dock, by myself, thinking that i should just give up. i think things like, 'what's the point?' and things like that. but then, i hear, like," ewen takes a moment to chuckle. "i hear the super smash brothers theme song, like the one when a new character is being introduced, and i turn around and you're there, smiling at me and looking at me the same way you do now." he stopped to take another deep breath. "i immediately want to run into your arms, but the second before we can embrace, i wake up."


    ewen let out another breath as he finished his story. he let out a small chuckle, wiping his eyes with his knuckle. "it was really weird." he stopped for a moment to think about what else to say, and he remembered something that eunjae had mentioned earlier about his mother. "oh, and about my mom, she already knows that you're only good for being pretty and making me happy, so everything's set for you." he was just joking and made it obvious by giggling and slightly patting eunjae's chest. "i'm just kidding~" he murmured. he yawned slightly before settling back down. "okay, your turn."

    (( hello !! i was missing ewen and eunjae too, it’s really nice to finally come back to this thread, i didn’t realize how much i missed them until i got this notification

    but that’s really exciting, i’m sure you’ll do really good in that class since you’re such a good writer, and please do share if you do something involving ewen and eunjae!! ))


    eunjae felt his heart flutter at the way ewen said baby. it had become a common thing to call one another and eunjae had heard it out of ewen’s mouth a million times, but something about how sweet and sleepy he sounded just made the word sound a whole lot nicer than usual. he focused his attention on ewen, shifting a bit so the smaller male could have better access to the fabric of his shirt that he was currently tugging on. “yeah?” he whispered, eager to know what ewen wanted to say. he was always eager to know what ewen wanted to say, but as said earlier, with how sleepy and extra adorable ewen currently was, eunjae felt a bit softer and even more loving towards him, even if he previously thought it was impossible to love the tiny male anymore than he already did.


    a weird dream? eunjae blinked, trying to think of the weird dreams he had in his life. in his opinion, all dreams were a little weird, even the concept of dreaming was weird. but he guessed that ewen probably wanted actually weird dreams, like ones where crazy things happened that really had no explanation. his concentration was broken though when he heard ewen’s voice, and he gently nodded, excited to hear about ewen's dream. there was probably a good reason that dreams were even brought up in the first place, eunjae was excited to find out that reason. he was also excited just to hear how ewen described his dream and see the expressions on his face as he explained his dream. ewen was good with words and had a talent of describing things, eunjae was sure that he had told him before, but the way he viewed things and then explained them was something that eunjae thought was amazing and beautiful. eunjae’s best guess was that the way he would speak about his dreams wouldn’t be too different from how he spoke about the world and his experiences in it. he just really liked listening to ewen talk.


    he frowned as ewen said that it was a sad dream. he didn’t really know what bothered him more, the idea that ewen actually had sad dreams or the fact that he was going to hear about it and probably get upset. realistically, it was probably the first one he was more upset about. as ewen went on to tell him about his dream, eunjae nodded every few moments to show that he was still listening. eunjae fell out of the rhythm he had created with his nodding when he heard that he was in the dream. and it was way before he and ewen had gotten together? that was cute. but it was a sad dream, wasn’t it? eunjae really hoped that he didn’t do anything horrible, even if it was just a dream. he never wanted to make ewen feel sad, even if it was completely out of his control and not even actually him making ewen upset. he went back to listening, genuinely curious to see where this all was going.


    eunjae really couldn’t help but scrunch up his nose a bit and smile when ewen went on to describe dream him ‘as tall as ever’. it was cute. the smile quickly faded though when ewen continued the story and went on to say that he had looked at him as if he was nothing. ewen had said that this dream had taken place before they had gotten together, and eunjae had been told that how you think affects your dreams. like if you want to grow up and be an astronaut, you’d dream about space. and if ewen thought that he actually hated him, that’s what he would dream about. it hurt, to think that this was something that ewen had actually dreamt and that this was possibly a way that ewen had felt before. he never wanted ewen to feel like he was hated, especially by him. eunjae would just have to be sure to be a little more loving, if that was possible.


    once again, he was snapped out of his thought process as he heard ewen mention him proposing to this person that he had walked off with in the dream. his eyes widened a bit and he grew even more curious about where this was headed, which caused him to instinctively lean a little closer to ewen. as the story continued, eunjae found out that the sad parts were over for the most part, which was a huge relief. he even delightfully snorted with laughter as ewen said the sound he heard sounded like the super smash brothers theme song. and when he said he was looking at him the same way he was now, eunjae really hoped he meant with a loving look. because eunjae was sure he looked at ewen like he was the only source of happiness in this whole world, like he was the whole world. that’s how he felt, and he hoped that the soft way he always looked at his boyfriend conveyed that.


    as the story ended, eunjae nodded in agreement to ewen saying it was weird. “that was weird. but hey, you can run into my arms as much as you want now, yeah? and the best part is, it’s real life and not some dream where i’m interested in anyone else.” eunjae carefully pushed back ewen’s hair away from his forehead and pressed his lips against the skin gently, planting a loving kiss to ewen’s forehead. he quickly pulled away though and casted a fake hurt look in ewen’s direction when he heard him say that all he was good for wasn’t looking pretty and making him happy. “you’re lucky you’re cute.” he mumbled in mock anger, gently squeezing one of ewen’s cheeks. “i’m glad i make you happy though.” even when he was teasing, ewen was always sure to make him feel good in some way, and by now, eunjae was sure that ewen had picked up on the fact that making him happy was his number one goal in life.


    “my turn.” eunjae mumbled, going back to thinking about the dream he wanted to tell ewen about. he had heard that some people didn’t dream a lot, but eunjae was the type of person who dreamt nearly every single night. most of them were good dreams; either because something amazing happened in it like him magically gaining the answer of how to make everyone happy, or because they were sexual and involved celebrity crushes like skeet ulrich or even ewen himself. he contemplated telling ewen a story about some sexual dream, but he didn’t want ewen to feel like he was mocking him or something about his sudden interest in dreams. he didn’t want to tell him about any of his nightmares either, that wouldn’t be any fun for either of them. eunjae had already found out that ewen was an easy scare, and since he wasn’t easy to scare, he was sure that the things that did scare him would absolutely terrify ewen, and he didn’t want to put him through that. “a weird dream.” he repeated, hoping that something would come to mind.


    and something did. “okay so, this wasn’t as recent as yours or anything. this was like, elementary school, and the only reason i remember it so well was because it’s so weird and i just couldn’t ever forget it. it was probably just because of all the candy i ate before bed or something, at least that’s what my mom always said when i used to tell her about my weird or scary dreams.” eunjae paused, taking a moment to make sure that he remembered what happened and in what order. not that it actually mattered, it didn’t make any sense anyways. “so basically the dream started off normal. it was just me and my cat playing in my room, and then i got called downstairs to eat dinner, so i go and do that, and everything is perfectly normal still. but then, when i come back to my room, my cat is like human sized and is sitting like a person at the edge of my bed. and it totally freaked me out, especially when my cat started talking to me. and she was really smart too, or at least i thought she sounded smart, she was just talking like most adults, which i thought was super smart sounding when i was a kid. it ended when my cat and i were about to play checkers or something together, my mom was actually waking me up for school unfortunately.” eunjae shrugged, feeling like his story was super boring and dumb compared to ewen’s. but really, he usually forgot about most of his dreams since he had so many, the ones he usually remembered were either super happy or sexual, and this was the only weird one that came to mind. and ewen had requested weird, so that’s what he had given to him.


    “oh, there was also this other time that i dreamt about owning a restaurant for ghosts and all we sold was ghost peppers because, well they’re ghost peppers. and then all these ghosts got mad at me for thinking they could eat that just because it has ghost in the name.” eunjae shrugged yet again and let out a soft sigh. “that’s probably not the kind of dreams you were expecting to hear about though, sorry baby.” he whispered, gently running his fingers through ewen’s hair. hopefully that would make up for his lame dreams and stories, plus he genuinely enjoyed playing with ewen’s hair, so it was hopefully a win-win situation for both of them. “i don’t have many weird dreams though, that will be my lame excuse.” he leaned down and pressed another kiss to his forehead, smiling softly as he pulled away. “you wanna go to the beach today? your story got me wanting to go again, and you said i can choose what we do today. we don’t even have to swim this time if you don’t want to, we can just play in the sand and get some ice cream. and we can even make out in front of all the girls that look in my direction since you like to make people jealous.” eunjae let out a soft laugh, hoping that the idea of visiting the beach sounded appealing to ewen. and even though they probably wouldn’t be swimming despite that being one of eunjae’s favorite things to do, he was still excited to just spend the day with his boyfriend. “or if you really want to stay home, can we go to the store and buy all the stuff to make lasagna the way you like it? I wanna cook with you, all the couples in movies always cook together and it seems really fun. and we can even watch mean girls tonight too, since you still have yet to see the best movie of all time.” eunjae reached down and placed his hands on ewen’s hips and gently squeezed, hoping he was okay with that, especially after what had happened to him at the party. “it’s up to you, cutie.”