tw: talking about death/dying
Recently i've been getting super stressed out about dying in the future - even though i thought about it sometimes as a kid, or a few years ago, i just brushed it off and tried to distract myself with something else
it's been getting a lot worse though - it's hard to distract myself from thinking about death and not knowing what happens after - just the thought of not existing here and not being able to experience anything freaks me out
as well as the fact that people can say nonchalantly that someone died but they were a person too, and had their own life and childhood and memories and they're just gone now,
it's gotten bad to the point where i start thinking about it at random times and start spacing out, and ive started shaking and breathing heavily because i've gotten so distressed over the thought of death and dying
it's hard for me to enjoy certain tv shows or movies now, like crime/thriller shows, because i just keep thinking about dying
how should i deal with something like this??
thank you in advance