Magic Is No Excuse To Be Bad [private]
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She sniffled and slowly unlocked the stall, slumping out she looked at herself in the mirror, she was a mess. Wiping her eyes she took a few moments to call herself down before taking a loud long breath and stepping out of the bathroom and looked around. Persephone was thankful for the fact not many people were in the halls at this moment so no one had the chance to confront her or ask her what had happened. Persephone simply took a soft breath and walked towards the common room, shed finish her studying there and she wouldn't be disturbed hopefully.(c)trexgirl
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Milton took a long breath before darting up and hurrying after Vivian "Viv!" He called quickly grabbed her hand and pulled her to stop "Vivian, I'm so goddamn sorry" He whimpered not able to look her in the eye, his face red and his eyes darting from her to his own feet shakily, he couldn't help but feel extremely nervous to speak to her as he obviously knew that he'd been a bad boyfriend.(c)trexgirl
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I see Milton run up to me and I looked at him with watery eyes as he dodges my eyes. " look at me" I say, my voice stern. " In my eyes Milton" and I see him bring his eyes to mine. " You hurt me. You said you love me but then you dodnt even tell me about your pain or alcohol problems, and fighting other guys, so not okay. It makes me scared. My dad was like that Milton, I dont know if I can handle being with a drunk. " I say, and I looked at him, " are you a drunk? or are you going to stop? are you going to open up to me? cause milton. you have hurt me" I say and I start crying. " But ive missed you so much, I havnt been able to think or sleep" I say as I start to cry.
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I sigh as I start to learn how to dance. which pained me to dance with someone who wasnt Darlene. Most girls jumping at the chance to dance with me. I danced with them well, I held them and swept them off there feet. I was just cold. After I was done, I left the dance class in a hurry as I just needed some alone time. People talking about the new girl and me yelling and how damaged I was and Darlene just frustrated me and it was too much. I get up to the common room amd I see that girl. I felt bad and angry and so i just stayed silent as I went a chair in the corner that was near the fire to settle down and finish the homework I should have earlier today
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Persephone took a soft breath and was beginning to calm down when that god for saken boy entered. She let out a soft sigh and without making any eye contact said softly "I'm sorry". Persephone disliked apologising usually but she truly felt bad for getting angry with him, he was hurting and though of course she hadn't of known she still felt guilty for not sensing it and so putting her pride to the side she felt the need to say sorry "I shouldn't have been so entitled, I'm sorry" She added after a pause.(c)trexgirl
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Milton stared "I don't have drinking problems" He quickly mumbled "I just feel so low lately and I didn't want you to know because I was scared you'd see m as weak" He stared "When Blake started talking to you, my anxiousness only raised and I felt a deep sadness and I guess it just ended up turning me in to an idiot" He took a long breath "I'm so so sorry, Viv".(c)trexgirl
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I sigh and look at him. " if you loved me, you wouldn't be like that over Blake, you wouldn't want to hide your weaknesses from me. we are suppose to be together on this... against the world" i shake my head " Then why drink so much Milton? Why fight so many guys'' I ask as tears streamed down my face but I kept going... I needed answers. My father drank when he was sad too, and I needed to know everything from Milton so I could seperate the image of Milton and my Father as he wasn't a good person and I didn't want Milton to be put in that category.
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I sat down next to the fire, slowly trying to warm up and cool down. It has just been too much lately . I look down at my book when the new girl talks. She apologizes and I let it hang there, in the air. I let it waft slowly over to me just to be stayed put as the silence got thicker and thicker. I wasn't really mad at her, I just blew up and I was just hurt and she wouldn't know... I got that. I sigh and kept looking down at my physics book. " Met her early this year" I say softly. I could tell she was confused so I continued. " Head over heels for her, she was a fith year who was beautiful and incredibly smart and so against on letting me in. I was like a little puppy dog" I say and chuckle at the thought, a soft sad chuckle. " She finally let me in and a couple weeks later of falling madly in love with her and -" I sigh and shake my head " Left with no explanation and she left me to pick up the pieces" I say and shake my head. " I was a partier and a user and when she was gone, girls just wanted me to be that again and I just... couldn't. Im heartbroken"
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Persephone breathed out coldly as she waited for him to reply, maybe he wasn't going to? She questioned but he soon started and she listened, each sentence made her pity him and when he finally finished she didn't look back but softly huffed "That's sad" She said simply, her voice gentle and soothing "I understand, believe me" She mumbled gently looking down at her books "She sounds pretty incredible if she can turn you into a sad soul from a fuckboy" She chuckled slightly but only for a moment "I should of seen you were grieving I shouldn't of got all defensive" She added quickly, her voice still soft and tender. Persephone would of told him a story if it were relevant but she couldn't risk him telling anyone, soiling her mother name scared Persephone more than death it's self.(c)trexgirl
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Milton stared "Because I told you I loved you, I told you I really cared and you don't love me back, I've never experienced love and it hurt so much to not be loved back and I understand that you struggle because of your dad but you cant compare my love to your dad's its not fair!" He whimpered "If I were to constantly use my families lack of love to push you away you'd be hurt yourself, you'd start to question if you really deserved love r even life like i have this past week!" He sobbed. He was hurting.(c)trexgirl
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I looked at him. " You said I was okay for not saying it right away! Im not comparing your love with my dads. Im scared! Im scared for mysle! For me! I not ready to say I love you and that should be fine! That should not be an issue" I say, my voice loud and mad but cracking from my tears. " so how dare you put that on me. I should not feel bad for not being ready! Everyone I love leaves me! okay! So I have a right to be scared! I am damaged goods."
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I sigh and I finally look up at her " Its fine.. You didn't know. So I get it, your new and you don't know any history of people here or actions or drama that we all know... Most kids know not to mes with me, especially right now" I say and sigh. " I couldn't be you, having people wanting to be friends with me because of my parents, fake friends, and everyone knows you and your drama isnt just in the school, its everywhere " I say and sigh " That must suck sometimes, I would lose myself with no privacy"
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Persephone laughed weakly "I'm not gonna lie is bloody annoying having people saying they've seen all of my mum's movies constantly" She smiled slightly turning to face him also "I've gotten used to the fake friends and the constant invasion of my privacy thank goodness though still it makes me feel uncomfortable when their are grown men taking pictures of me but I cant control it!" She sighed softly and looked around the empty common room "I like this school a lot more than my American one" she muttered with a slight, faint smile on her lips.(c)trexgirl
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Milton stared "We're all damaged, Vivian!" He whimpered "we all have baggage we are all damaged so that's no excuse, Viv" He sniffled softly and wiped his eyes and looked her straight in the eyes "I'm sorry Vivian but your not the only person to loose loved ones, to loose all those you've cared about..I wont let you use that excuse it hurts so much so so much when you say it because it's like your expecting me to mess up" He was sobbing "I'm sorry I'm so sorry" He looked away and with that started to walk away, he couldn't talk to her sanely in this state.(c)trexgirl
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I grab his arm. " Its an excuse? an excuse? Im not ready to say I love you and I shall not be punished for that! I should not be punished because you said it first! I like you a lot and me taking a month to say I love you is no problem! An excuse? and excuse? how dare you even say such a thing! I told you about my hurting and im healing! I am healing. I want to be able to love myself and rely on myself before I love and rely on others! I can even love myself! But no no no thats an excuse right? me needed a month or two of time to say I love you because im scared is and excuse right? Its not an excuse its a dam reason" I say and my voice was hurt. " Im going to win. The triwizard tournament. I am going to love myself and be able to look in the mirror. and I will find someone who will understand the time I need and and how much I love them! even when i'm afraid to say it! they'll focus on how much I care about them and not the dam f.cking word. The dam f.cking word means nothing without the feeling and Milton I had that feeling. I loved you and now " I say and i was screaming, my voice was hoarse and tears down my eyes " and now you. you don't care about that feeling I have for you. you just care about the words. and the words mean nothing without the feeling" I say , my chest heaving . I loved him.. I just didn't like the words. Why could be say some stupid term that was like always or forever that let us know we loved each other without saying it? I loved him. I just hated that word and I was just... lost.
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( sorry this one is short, Viv was more like a rant)
I smile at her and I move to a chair that faced her and that was a little closer. " I would hate that. pervy guys taking pictures of me.. but if it was pervy girls like cougars I could learn to like it" I joke with a small weak chuckle. " Hogwarts is normally warmer and more.. tame. Just the Triwizard thing has everyone hyped and the ball.." I say and groan. " As a chosen person I need a date and the only girls who want to go with me just want to sleep with me or make me fall in love with them and its just a lot right now" I say and shake my head at the thought. " I would bring a friend as a date, but the one girl who is my friends has two guys after her and blah blah blah" I ramble on with a groan.
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She snorted "I've already been asked by multiple guys, its pretty annoying honesty" She smiled "I just said no to them all, i don't wanna be having a pg thirteen grope session the whole night personally" she laughed softly and raised her brows "You sure are popular with girls aren't you?" She teased, raising her brows again "I've heard a lot of girls talk about you and I've only been here for one day!" She snickered, quite glad to get off the topic of herself in honest truth.
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Milton took a breath and whimpered "I'm sorry Vivian I cant think straight I'm so sorry" He pulled away and hurried off, his tears swelling up his eyes as he hurried to his dorm, he knew it'd be empty and he needed to be alone, he was talking incorrectly and he knew most of it he didn't mean.
(sorry both are short!)
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"Milton please dont go" I say as he walks away and i hit my hand against the wall. "f.ck" I say. "f.ck f.ck f.ck" I say as i feel myself cryingand I tried so hard to hold it in. I walked outside, going outside where some kids hung out but now it was empty. I paced around in the bitter cold air before I went back inside and I walked through the hallways. Over and over again because i needed to be kept busy.
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I chuckle. " I dont know why I am" I say with a shrug. " Im not the warmest guy around. Im an .sshole" I say and sigh. " I had one night things with girls and then rarely talk to them again.. " I say and shake my head and sigh. " I dont know maybe its because im just slick" I say as a joke as I would never talk about myself like that. I sigh and I yawn and scratch my eyes. " Im just ready for the teenage prgnancys and drama that comes after this dance" I say with a chuckle
( its all good, me too)
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Persephone laughed "With your reputation then I wonder how many will be yours" she teased playfully "I doubt It'll be as bad as the annual summertime dance and there was this girl and she got pregnant by one of the damn professors, it was shocking!" She snorted softly. Persephone considered what she'd wear for this ball ,she didn't want to wear a colour everyone else did, she enjoyed looking unique she enjoyed the attention though she'd never admit that to anyone it was just a part of her to crave attention that sometimes wasn't the most positive.(c)trexgirl
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Milton knew he wasn't the right mind set to talk to her, she was saying things he didn't mean and it was going to torture him in the future if he'd of continued so he laid onto his bed and sighed, maybe she was better off with that Blake, he'd probably treat her better and he wouldn't be such a weak idiot. Dear god what was he saying he loved Vivian and she was his he just had to get it out of his head that she deserved better, it wasn't a good mind set.
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lol idk what to say for Viv, shes just pacing
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I chuckle at that, " I bet she got good grades in his class though" I say with a laugh... Although I really didn't think the good grades matched the pregnancy... not a even thing. and oh god what was the age distance between them? I looked at Persephone and sighed. " Guess were goibg to be loners" I say and I got an idea. "hey wait" I say and I smile. " How about I take you? As friends obviously. You wont be some girl looking for love and I wont be some meat head trying to feel you up mid dance" I say and shrug. " its a plan, and you would get the first dance with me as I was chosen for the Triwizard cup " I say... there would also probably a picture of us in the newspaper as a person in the cup and her would be a great story. I didn't care for the story, I didn't care . The thought of Darlene seeing me in the paper though made me scared... I didnt know why but it did.
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i feel like this rp needs spicing up like a big plot
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alright like what? ahah I need some help coming up with plots cause im out! :)
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hmmm well right now all i can think of is an uprise in death eaters once again and the return of a evil name (no Voldemort but someone once mentioned in the books, maybe a death eater Fenrir Greyback um..idk maybe even a new unknown character i'm not sure
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fire breaks out on the night of the yule ball, no one understands but no magic can stop it and it's an extreme fight to survive as the fire traps in many students??
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OO I like the bottom one!
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okay so should i just skip to the night of the yule ball and also if so who will Vivian be going with??
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Alone for now, we'll see what Milton it blake does and stuff. I wanted like either Milton or someone sweep Vivian off her feet ya know
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Persephone Bumble was excited, she'd not admit it but god was she excited she was going to be in the spotlight for one and the dress she'd choose was eye contacting and flatter her skinny petite frame. Her hair was done quickly but went well with her simplicity, her makeup matched her mature simplicity and everything she wore tied together perfectly. Persephone would take a soft breath before standing at the top of the staircase and carefully walking down, she could feel eyes on her body and she did fell nervous as in honesty she wasn't the biggest fan at revealing her body because she was visibly quite skinny and had little curve to her but she still had a cutesy body in a way she just wasn't as curved and mature looking as other girls.
She reached the end of the staircase and looked around shyly for the boy she'd decided to go with, Nixton she knew it was going to be a difficult night for him since he had obviously planned to go to this with Darlene but she'd try and make it a good night for him, and for her obviously.
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Milton felt anxious to show up alone, he really was frightened because he didn't know whether Vivian had someone, he hadn't seen her the past few days and he was paranoid that Blake may of wormed his way into her while she was upset and if he did he'd never be able to forgive himself in honesty. His suitsuit was smart and simple and his hair was the signature Milton style and on the outside he looked quite polished and put together though on the inside he was the messiest he'd been in years but he had to hide that tonight, he had to get Vivian back, he had to show her he wasn't weak. He walked down the staircase uickly and sighed as he stood around before entering, everyone was waiting for the champions.(c)trexgirl