Magic Is No Excuse To Be Bad [private]

I leave the room and I pace around in the hall a bit. I knew it wasnt the dark lord... but it had to be someone who wrote my name in that cup... but for what purpose. I see Milton come out and at first I fight, I pull my wrists but finally his grip kept me at bay and I calmed down... kinda. " I know no one is mad. I know that. But I didn't put my name in... I cant put my name in so who did? I cant do this... the Triwizard cup.. I cant. I won't. I know someone put my name in there... something bad is going to happen" I say and I feel my eyes tear up " Like cedric! oh gosh who put my name in there" I say to Mlton, my voice raspy and desperate and loud almost like a shrill cry. I hear the door open and I see Blake. " Leave! you have done enough by trying to separate us and fighting with my boyfriend!" He puts his hands up " Im not the one who gets drunk every night and fights me and other random dude" I looked at Milton and I knew it was the truth, the way he reacted, the shock but disappointment. I grab his face and I bring his face down to mine. " I still smell booze" I say and I backed away from them. " Both of you guys suck. f.ck you guys both." and I see the door open and I don't even bother looking and I walk off.

( hmm I wanted everything bad to happen at once so her character could be alone in the most drastic time ya know? so she can row and hopefully Milton.)

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I see Vivian leave and I sigh. I step down from the podium, I was in the center of the hall. " till death do us part" I say and The professor glares at me. " Nixon no one will die" and I just chuckle. " Tell that to Cedric. Just because the dark lord isn't here doesn't mean theirs not something new out " and she grumbles while I just shrug. " Press begins tomorrow right? Good" I say and everyone begins to get up from dinner, everyone excited and aslo scared about what this Triwizard cup would bring. I see the knew girl confused and I looked at her , answering before the blonde who was a stuttering mess. " A fith year was chosen. Like in Harry potter and Voldemort times... So we are all just trying to figure out wether its a coincidence or calculated... If i was Vivian I would run too" I say with a chuckle.. not because it was funny, it was just kinda like " this is f.cked" kinda chcukle. I shrug " Well excuse me, I have to prepare for my glory" I say so spitefully as I loosely walk away as I head outside the dining hall.

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I hear Milton yell behind me and throw a hit and I just kept walking. What have I gotten myself into? I shake my head as I go up to my dorm, grabbing my cat, He was silver Persian so he had a smush face and he had an attitude but he never failed to cheer me up. I put him on my lap and I pulled out a pencil and pen... Maybe its the staff members? I crossed that ouit. I had no vendetta against me.. The dark lord? no hes dead... Who would gain from me being picked from this? I sigh and I start writing a letter to my father, asking for advice. We never talk much as he would so ocsionally beat me and did awful things.. but he was a Triwizard cup victor back in his day and I needed to make sense of this. MAke sense of everyone and everything, including myself. I see Nixon come up and I look up. HE tries to comfort me and I sigh. " I just need alone time Nix. Go be a stud. I know your hurting too but Darlene.. she isn't coming back"

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I sigh as I leave to my dorm. EVeryone hyping up because 1) im obviously in the Triwizard tournament and im going to win. 2) This is the first party I will have been in since Darlene where im not a sad asshole... but maybe still 4) we have the new girl whose famous I guess and everyone was just excited in the Slytherin house. I stopped by Vivians dorm as we have been close friends for a while since Milton and since Milton has gone A wall and so did Darlene, it just left us broken and now in the Wizard cup. " You know they will be a party in your honor" I say as I sit on her bed and pet her kitty. she comments about Darlene and I sigh " I know. I know she isnt. I just need time to heal. and so do you. I know your family and I know whats going on with Milton and Blake and those other girls who bully you, your going to be a victor. Ill makesure of that" I say and squeeze her. I let her be and I head back to Slytherin.. Oh what will happen to me. I felt so cold.

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I sigh as I sit in my bedroom. Petting my cat and hating eveything. Milton was a drunk who beat up guys when she wasn't asleep and that was scary. A lot like her father and that made her even more scared. Blake was an arrogant beast who didn't even respect boundaries or relationships. I sigh and I felt my eyes tear up. I liked Milton so much... he kept the bullies at bay and liked me for me even though I was shy and broken and damaged goods. I sigh and I laid down with my kitty as I tried to not cry but tears slipped out. I was so f.cked. I don't have Milton. I dont have family. I have to do this Triwizard cup when I'm not supose to do it and someone put my name in there and I needed to know why and how and I get to be alone for the winter ball. I sigh and I grip onto my pissy kitty harder. This was all f.cked. I was f.cked.

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I rolled my eyes as people hovered over the shiny new toy that was a new girl. What didn't this girl have? Rich parents and looks? Why didn't people do that to Darlene. She wasn't pretty and smart and the whole god dam package and she f.cking left. She left she did. I sigh and I take three shots. Forget her. Forget her. Forget us. I smile as my friends were hyping me up and if was working.. ish. I wasn't normal but I was a lot better and having fun or whatever. Most girls came up to me and I kinda blew them off. But maybe I should get a rebound... maybe if I felt like it. My heart still hurt. The guy stood next to me who was leading about this new blonde." Have you met her?" I groaned. " no" answer he kept going on about how I must. " so what her parents are rich and famous! It doesn't make her a good person! " I snap and I sigh and I grab another drink to feed the anger and sadness that boiled me up into one bad stew.

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I sigh as I get myself up. I needed to stop melting and I needed a drink. I set my kitty aside. Lets go. I put on jeans and a tube top with a jacket. I sigh, i just wanted Milton, but I was mad and disapointed and just I dont know. I walk down to the Common room , and The big part was In slytherin for all the victors. I made my way over, kinda fearful, kinda off. I just needed a drink. I walked in the doors and I hear a cheer " Vivian!!" A Gryfindor yelled and I gave a shy smile as the hype began. I feel Nixon hug me and I hug the kid back. " Alcohol. now" I say and he nodds and wisks me away to the table where I made myself a strong drink. drink away the problems. Funny becauseI got mad about Milton drinking and fighting but this time, I had a reason to drink, and the reason was him. Blake comes over and I roll my eyes. " Go away" and he sighs " I am truely sorry Viv. I was out of line and I didn't respect you or Milton. I hope you can forgive me" I just nod " I don't wanna talk to you" and he sadly nods and walks off, and with that I took a big gulp of my drink as some kids began to talk to me. I was so over it.

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I sigh as I drank, the hype of the party still up, but suprisingly the two chosen ones were not hype. Funny. I see Vivian come in and I rush over to her " You made it!" and she only replied with 'alcohol' and with that I took her where it was and I let her be as I knew she was going to drink, I just had to keep an eye out for her, I had to take care of her for Milton as I knew he would want someone to. I see the new girl come over for a drink and I look at her, she was pretty short, pretty cute. Darlene was tall, or taller, and with brown hair and these blue eyes- Nixon stop. Not everyone can be Darlene and thats a good thing. Darlene fucked you up. I sigh and looked at the famous new girl. " Made any fake friends yet? Or should I say fans" I say and chuckle. " Maybe by the end of this night I can get your autograph and fan girl about it in my bedroom" I say, my voice flat but dripping of sarcasm and playful wit. She was awfully pretty, but I didn't feel the need to flirt or sleep with her and maybe it was because I was fucked.

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I sigh against the table as I shugged my drink. and then another and then another as an hour went by. soon I was a stumbling drunk and I felt a guy touch me and I look up and see Blake . I was so drunk and so Hazy. " Take me to Milton" he sighs. "you arn't talking to him right now Viv" I feel my eyes tear up "but I need him" He sighs and he bends down to look at me "you don't need anyone" I sigh and he helps me too my room. He gets me into bed and I sigh, I rub my eye with my hand and he leaves me alone. which shocker as I thought eh would harass me. I sigh and I lay back into my bed. I guess I did not need anyone.. I needed to believe that and I would do the Triwizard cup by myself.

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I roll my eyes. I could tell she was kidding but she came off as loud and obnoxious and just stuck up. I brush her off with the roll of my eye as her high title and action were just so loud and entitled. I sigh as I took a sip and I see Blake talk to Vivian and I walk over to him." No hands of" he explains hes just going to take her to her dorm so I walked behind them. I wasnt going to let that prick touch Miltons girflriend and he didn't as she just kept asking about Milton which made my heart hurt a bit for Milton. I was growing tired and I decided just to head to bed, but I decided just to have a one night stand. SO i got this girl named heather, she had big breasts and was pretty and was already all over me when I said hey. so I just took her up to my room.

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Lmao me too

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As I was doing my duty I hear that rude drunk girl stumble in and I groan. I threw on sweats and I looked at the girl " just go" I say and I frowned as I followed the girl. Stupid moral compass. I sigh and I ran up to her " okah I'll help you find your room" I say and I grab her waist to help guide her. I can't believe I was helping this posh rude girl but I was because I was a gentleman or I hoped I was. I found her room with the other girls passed out in it and I help her to her bed " here you are " I say and I help her in her bed and I helped her take out off her shoes and get into bed

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// yeah! I wasn't eiether thinking about a big plot with her dad or something twisted like that or maybe even a simple thing one with blake because he knew he could out Milton and in her time of need help her and wtf should we do for te challenges in the triwizard cup

I sigh as I didn't get much sleep... I missed Milton but I had lost my anger I was just more sad and more... almost betrayed; scared even. I walk into the library and I see blake and Milton sitting together and I sigh and just go to a table by myself. Shivering since it was so dam cold and I didn't have Miltons sweater to steal anymore.

Blake-

I sigh as I had to work on my studies here which was a bore so I heard to the library where everyone was hanging out mid day. I se Milton and I sat next to him. I see his eyes roll. " Vivian got drunk last night. " I say and I sigh as I felt a little guilt and thought he should atleast know. " I walked her back to her dorm-" andI see Milton looking at me in anger as he thought of the worse and I shake my head" despite what you think. I wouldn't do that to her... she was drunk. Besides she kept asking for you, she was crying to. And I had to tell her you guys were fighting and she only wanted to see you" I say and I sigh and I look up to see a shivering Viv at another table... " she just has eyes for you" I say and sigh. Almost disappointed. I stood up and grab my books " either your going over there or I am"

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I sat in te hall , getting my lessons done so I could so "happily" join in on the dancing lessons. I hear the new girl say a question and I just answer it without even looking up. " it's like a chance for love... it's something to make you feel like you have control and like an adult. You being someone there because you care and you just want to enjoy one peaceful moment of love and happiness before the chaos of reality strikes . It's the calm before the storm. " I say and sigh. I had a tux all picked out when me and Darlene had planned to go. Everytime I opened my notebook I saw her notes next to mine, the ones that would help me study as she would always help me. I sigh even harder , my heart aching and I stood up. "

Some people just don't have that anymore" I say coldly, not even at her just in the air, letting it sit and sit and then linger back to my shoulders like a cloud. I get up and I grab my dancing shoes. I had to have someone with me as tradition as a person in the triwizard cup... I just I didn't know if I was ready as all girls just wanted me to love them or sleep with them and no one understood that I just couldn't. I just couldn't. I needed time and time wasn't a thing that we got. I was stuck and it hurt more as I just couldn't get over her and I couldn't accept that I needed to move on and no girl was even remotely interested in what I'm going through or even care. And it made things harder.

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Blake-

I looked at him and shake my head. " you are pathetic. I didn't do this to her. You did. All I did was tell her the truth. You did this. Your actions did this" I say and shake my head. " Now if you excuse me im going to go over to her like a man, instead of ignoring her or cowarding away. Ive said sorry. Ive tried to talk to her.. have you? Hell she got chosen! Shes freaking out and here you are" I say and shake my head and make my way to Viv.

Viv-

I was sat reading spell names, trying to memorize the important ones. I see Blake come over and sit next to me. I didnt even say anything. I had no energy to say anything. "whats going on?" he says, his voice fragile and soft and I sigh" you. and Milton.. My Milton couldn't tell me he was in pain or what he was doing. My Milton hasn't talked o me. and you are the sick bastard who wanted all this" I say and stand up and gather my books. cursing as i repeated spells under my breath as I left.

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I cracked. Oh fuck. I cracked. I walked over to her and I took the book she had in her hand and threw it on the ground. making a huge echoing noise. My voice loud and heavy, making the hallway boom and people stare. " Like dust? like dirt? No I talked to you like a f.cking human Miss perfect. I explained the ball. How it f.cking meant to me and other kids at this school! How dare you make that into sarcasm and childplay when thats how we feel about a dance! Do you know what its like? DO you know what its f.cking like to be me! The love of my life just left me without a word. We had plans for this f.cking ball! I dont need you out of all people to yell at me like your hot sh.t, especially when all ive done is f.cking explain how This ball meant to us! I answered your dam question! So how dare you yell at me! Judge me like that! and Talk to me like that! When you have been the one person I have talked to nicely in a f.cking month! Im sorry I just wasn't enough for you! This ball meant everything to me and now she is gone " I yell, my face red, and my veins sticking out in my neck as I yell. I was so angry, and in the end it just hurt. My niceness wasn't enough for her like I wasn't enough for Darlene. I didn't even say anything rude to her. I explained how important this dance was because it brought love and she had the right to shame me on that when I answered her question truthfully without any meaness? I was broken and she had the right to just- I hear everyone go silent and I see a teacher storm out and glare at me. " Nixon. My office now!" and with clenched fists and teary eyes, I walked off.

( I hope that made sense.. basically hes upset because he didnt say anything rudely before.. he talked aboit how the dance meant to him and kids at this school. and then hes upset she thinks shes being treated like dirt when he talked to her nicely, and was the nicest person hes been to, and then kinda hit hard as the ball brought up Darlene and how sad and broken he is.. yada yada yada)

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