Magic Is No Excuse To Be Bad [private]

It was a couple months in the school year and I was drowning in work. It was late almost every night, doing homework and studying because being a semi successful student wasn't something that came easy. My parents rarely helped, My father and I were not on speaking terms and my mother went to the States to escape him and I guess me. I wasn't really popular in my house as I was often teased for my blonde hair and my shortness as I came to a great five foot in height. Sometimes even the way I dressed which didn't make sense as we all wore the same thing. It bothered me, but I came here for an education and that's what I focused on. My mind was fuzzy as I walked in the halls, caring these project for Astronomy. I spent several nights on this piece of cr.p but it actually did look pretty nice and I was actually proud of it. I had to run to the Library to fact check it and make sure my illustrations were all right because I knew one wrong star and I wouldn't hear the end of it. I walk around the corner, tucking my hair behind my ear, and I feel my body hit against something and next thing I new my project was on the floor... broken. " Oh no!" I say, not even looking at the body who I had collided with. I went to my knees and I tried gathering the pieces up. " This is due tomorrow what am I going to do?" I say. Not to him really but to me as I began to have anxiety about another sleepless night and how in the hell was I going to fix this? Also the fact that before I spent many late nights working on this and now the lack of sleep from those nights were no longer worth it as all my hard work just disappeared within seconds.

It was only a couple months into the school year and I was already bored. By your last year everything becomes still as the classes are actually easier this year and the realization you have to do amazing, And that you have to get a job after this, a life. The thought already scares me. What job would I want? Who am I outside of Hogwarts? The thought made me weary. Like most nights, I was never in my dorm at the expected time, Always doing something that I shouldn't. The night was still young and I decided to make my way to the library where if it came to it, I would work on homework out of boredom. I walk in, It wasn't busy but it wasn't packed either. People studying and some social groups hanging out. I make my way to a table to put down my books, and I see a girl. Ive heard of her, she was suppose to be one of the smartest 5th years. Her nose was probably brown from kissing up to teachers but who am I to judge when I haven't met the girl. She was picking out books when I walked over to her. A smirk placed a crossed my lips as she dropped several books that she could no longer hold. I bend down and pick them up to her shock. " Someones a little clumsy" I say, My voice raspy as I smirked at her. I let myself lean against the bookshelf. " So little miss, What are all those books for? Are you going to read them all so you can tell your teahers that you indeed read them?" I say and I could see her shocked expression go to pissy. " hey hey hey calm down little one, Im just teasing"

I look up, and I see him. He was very cute and I knew he was very popular as I hear the 6th year girls talk about him all the time. "o-oh" I say nervously as I piled up my project and stood up. I almost felt intimidated by him, he was a foot taller than me, very cute and popular and I felt like I couldn't form words. " You don't have to... you seem rather busy" I say as I bite my bottom lip nervously. It was my Astronomy project and I knew he took it also as all 5th years take it, so I knew it would be nice having some help but he made me feel anxious and I didn't know why. I felt myself shiver as I forgot my sweater, and I start slowly walking to the Library as I talked to him. " You don't have to.. Its Astronomy which is already boring, you probably have more fun of people to hang out with" I say, still biting my bottom lip

I sigh " Little one, no need to be like that" I say and I held her arm to help her from stumbling more. " Come on little Hufflepuff , Come sit at my table and prove me otherwise" I say, chuckling at her reserved behavior. She wasn't shy... Just distant. We go and sit at my table and I watch her as she goes and sits down, still a little awkward as she probably wasn't use to teasing or older male attention; which was a shock as she was actually gorgeous. " So little one... What is your name?" I ask looking at her with taunting and peering eyes as I observed her. I felt like naturally I acted intimidating and I never even meant to. Naturally I observe and and make judgments which is something I needed to work on. I needed my eyes kind, not intimidating but I didn't even know how to do that. I've always wanted to be a nice boy, to be the one where girls would call me a gentleman and not an asshole. But I am working on it...

I could feel my cheeks grow warm and pink as he looks at me. " Fine" I say and I even cracked a smile on my face. We walked to the library and we had all the glue in the world. As we glue pieces on , I couldn't help but occasionally looking at him. I wondered what it was like to be popular... To have so many people liking you. The amount of girls he must get... the amount of girls that must like him. " Im Vivian by the way" I say with a shy smile and I continue to glue the pieces. " So" I say. Trying to not be shy for once and act like a normal girl. " Why were you speeding in the hallway? A damsel in distress? Needing your long locks to save her?" I say with a light laugh as I almost teased him, slowly growing more comfortable with him.I tuck my hair behind my ear as I looked at the Ravenclaw boy. What a exciting life he must have.

I chuckle to see Darlene avoid my eye contact. " Nice to meet you, Darlene" I say and smile at her as she avoids eye contact " Nixon Caverly" I say and I could see goosebumps. " How about we study together... No harm in that right? Unless I make you nervous?" I say with a smirk on my face as I opened my book and started working on my homework that actually became fun as I taunted poor Darlene. I knew she didn't get male attention. Not because she wasn't pretty; as she was quite gorgeous. She focused on studies and she needed to know that life shouldn't be all books. You leave this place with memories more than knowledge. I wanted her to live, to make real memories that wasn't what other kids do and the inside of books. I think that might be my mission. To show her the great things she has to do here.

I smile. " I can relate" I say and yawn. " I had two hours of sleep for the past four days" I say and we sat there for an hour or so making small talk as he helped me finish it. " I need a break, my hands are cramping" I say and I rub my eyes and I watched him work, " Tell me about yourself?" I ask and yawned once more. The project was not almost done but it was getting there. I actually felt content. He was actually a nice guy who was very nice and who helped me... I appreciated him. I tried to focus on his words as I was actually so interested in them as I wanted to know this boy as everyone knew him and talked about him so fondly, especially the girls. But as I tried my hardest, I felt my eyes closing and My head made its way to his shoulder as I tried to fight sleep but I grew comfy and I was too tired to be embarrassed. Any other time I would have pink cheeks and apologize but my head found his shoulder and it felt like home. and that scared me.

I see her leave because of curfew and I couldn't help but chuckle. Although I did growl when she called me Nick. I was Nixon, My father was Nick and I tried my hardest not to be like him. I sigh as I pushed the thought out of my head and I finished my home work problems. I did hear the Hufflepuff boys were throwing a party, so I stood and I see one of the hufflepuff boys working on project with a small blonde girl. I chuckle and I make my way to there dorms. There was beer and some oddly mixed drinks as everyone socialized. " Has anyone seen Milton?" I chuckle " Library " I say and I could tell he was annoyed but amused. I took a beer to go as tonight, booze and sex didn't sound good to me which was strange as that had become my normal habit. I walked to my dorm and drank the rest of my beer as I sat on he edge of my bed

I was excited to leave the stressful place that was called Hogwarts. I roll my eyes as I head over to me group. " Oh you wish I would Milton" I say with a laugh. I felt very short in this group. Milton and Nixon were over six foot. Darlene was 5'8 and I was only 5 foot. I see the girls from my house send glares as so many would kill to be in my place and the thought made me uncomfortable. I felt as if I was in the wrong group. I see Nixon with a smirk as him and Milton talked about IDs. A drink? yes please. We head to a pub with food as well as we wanted to start off with food. I reminded sort of quiet as I wasn't as shy around Milton anymore but I didn't know Nixon or Darlene. We get to the pub and I lean into Milton. " Bring that fake ID to use and get me a vodka tonic" I whisper and I could see the shock and amusement on his face and I giggled and raised my brows at him.

I laugh when I got put in with Nixon and Darlene. " Is this the Blondie I saw you flirting with in the Library? Shes a shorty" I say and I elbowed him as we laughed. I see Darlene and I smile. " Well well well, I couldn't be more please" I say. I could see her skirt and it took all my will power to not look at her long legs. I see the short blonde come over who didn't speak to us, but I could see she was shy. " So Milton you have a fake ID?" I say with a laugh and I explained as I was 18 I didn't need one as it was legal for 18 year old to buy and consume alcohol. We make our way to a toasty yellow lit pub as we got a meal and some alcohol. " Vodka tonic? Dam Milton you chose a good one " I say with a laugh and I lean into Darlene " Would you want anything?" I asked but I knew she would say no, she didn't seem like the type to drink.I look at the food menu as I decided I would go the beer route to start slow. I looked at Darlene and god she was so pretty. I wonder how she would be when there was no school work to focus on.

We were all sitting down as we now looked for food. " Darlene, shes in my year. Shes the top student, she doesn't have lots of friends cause she focuses on school work" I whisper to Milton. I sip on my vodka tonic, I was a light weight ish, but this way ill be tipsy and happy. I could feel my cheeks grow pink from the alcohol and I see Darleen get the same drink as me. I hear the boys talk about how tipsy we will be and how there gunna have to take care of us and I just sipped the drink as I looked around. The waiter gave me a shot and I looked at him confused. " These men ordered you a shot" he said and gave Darlene one as these men ordered us two drinks. I smile and look over to see men in suits smirking at us. Ive never had that happen, and I could feel my cheeks go beet red. I take the shot and down it and I started to hiccup. I look over and my tipsy self waves at the guys who gave me a drink and I go and started to sip on my vodka tonic again.

I smile and got Darlene a Vodka tonic, something strong, like Vivian had ordered. " Milton were going to end up with some tipsy girls were going to have to take care of" I say and laugh. " Okay girls no more, we want you to be able to walk" I say as I assumed they were light weights. I look over and I see the waiter bring the girls shots. These men in the back had bought them for them and I growl. My jealousy getting the better of me as I see them look at both of our girls. Vivian's Vodka soda was half gone when she took the shot and I looked at Darlene, Have you had alcohol before? I don;t want you to have too much" I say as I actually cared about her. My arm went around her shoulders, and I glare at the guys who were still checking out both Viv and Darlene. " Milton" I growl to show him the men that were gawking at the girls.

I wasn't really sure why they were jealous... I wasn't much and its not like I would take one of those men to be my daddy or something. It was a free drink and I took it. I ate some bread to sober up a bit , I was just buzzed and lightly tipsy. " Yes yes Im sorry" I say and blush. " Im just happily buzzed and ready to shop" I say with a smile. We get up to leave to head to Oxford street.I feel a body shove me, as the pub got crowded and I grab Milton's hand with wide eyes as my small stature tried to keep its balance. Funny, ive never actually been shopping. All i got was hand me downs and My family was so broken that I just couch surfed with clothes I could find for a while. " If I try something on, Be honest if it looks good" I tell Milton. I didn't need another thing for girls to point out and make me feel insecure. We ran into another Hufflepuff guy and there group as we got to Oxford, The girl in that group quickly jumping on Milton as Ive heard the pretty 6th year talk about him who seemed to send me glares on glares. As I see her flirt I felt not even jealous but almost disappointed in myself that I let myself believe I have a possibility. I looked at Darlene and sigh " Im just going to head into the store" I say as I did.

I smile " A glare will do just fine" I say as we finished our drinks and headed to Oxford street. My hand on Darlene's back just lightly guiding her to make sure she didn't get shoved or lost. We get there and I see Jake who was one of me and Milton's friend. The two girls was a 6th year who immediately made it her mission to flirt with Milton and the other was my ex. " Is this your new girl" I growl " Just a friend Macy" I say with the roll of my eyes. We had been together for a year and a half. Kid love it was. Was, until she cheated on me with my bestfriend. " Jake I think were going to go shopping, You can join us or we can see ya later" I say and I can see the girl on Milton's arm want to stay but they decided to go and I roll my eyes to Milton. " Psycho b.tch" I whisper, talking about my ex. In reality I hated her because she caused me so much pain. I shake away the thought and I turned to Darlene. " What do you want to shop for?"