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    Hush Shin xD I was only teasing


    Bedda was quiet as she listened to him, fingers toying with the curly hair of his as he sat by her feet. It wasn't uncommon when he was in his wolf form to do such, it was his way to comfort, and just because he is in his human form now didn't change anything. She pulled over what he was saying. She did need control. It.. Yes. He was definitely right, control was something she didn't really have with some people. A sigh left her as she just played with his hair, quiet as she thought about a lot of things. About the work she needed to do, the pack surrounding their borders, her and Jeremiah, the sickness going around, the Gamma and Beta from their Ally pack that was supposed to be arriving this week. Her eyes closed. Sh!t. She thought as she groaned, frowning. "I can't sit around just yet. I have to greet the newcomers. Dammit Jeremiah, that's your job." She said more to herself than to Tobi, rubbing her eyes with her free hand.

    ((Ugh, you guys, I'm dying over here. My muse has been gone for ages and I've been so overloaded with school work, I hope you all understand 😅))


    Eva had closed her eyes in thought, have vaguely remembered something important was going on today. It was unusual for her to forget these things I but the sleep deprivation was really hitting her memory. Sucking in a deep breath she noticed a smell she recognized, besides that of the food.It was an allied pack, she remembered, why were they here? Opening her eyes she stood up, nodding at the others. "I'll be back with some of that mustard and ice cream before the movie is over," she said, sniffling and rubbing her nose before exiting the room. Closing the door softly behind her she walked over to Beddas room at the sound of the woman's voice. That's what she had forgotten! Their allies had sent wolves to help out. Leaning on the doorway she waved a pale hand. "He's asleep right?" she began, having heard Jeremiahs name. "That means it's my job." Her voice sounded somewhat stern but at the same time kind. Her intent was just that, to do her job, but also to keep herself active. Eva wasn't really one to sit around all day, and it was driving her a bit insane. Yet, this new position, one she was in the midst of training for when everything went wrong, was overwhelming. She was still trying to gain that respect and authority. "We will fill Jeremiah in later, when he's rested up," she concluded, trying her best to sound authoritative. Nodding at Bedda and Tobias, she awaited their responses, mostly Beddas, but Tobias was welcome to speak as well.

    ((In trying to make Eva more leader-ish xD))



    Anna smiled when Noah helped her out in the movie. Quickly she settled onto the bed of blankets beside Noah. She was eager to see him a bit happier. Although she was young, she knew how close the others had been to the alpha and gamma, two people she hardly knew. She herself has nightmares sometimes involving the two, but that was it. Actually, she felt a little bad. It was easier for her to smile and laugh then for the others right now, so these past couple of weeks made her feel a bit outlandish. Blinking her eyes she looked up at the screen, hardly noticing the beta leave the room.

    The dark haired girl looked to the younger female and Beta as she stood at her doorway, giving a somewhat sheepish and irritated smile. "Head of security, remember? Kinda don't have a lead sentinel, otherwise whomever they are would be going." She rubbed the back of her neck with her free hand. "So I still have to go. Erik went to get Daniel, as you know, so we should get up and get ready for them. I just hope nothing goes wrong with their arrival, that would just add to today's events."

    Noah pic


    Noah scratched at his ear with his brows furrowed. Ice cream and mustard? Ashley really is weird recently, who would ever torture themselves like that? Then again sardines did not sound much better. With a huff he flopped back onto the blankets knocking his head on Andrew's knee from where he and Kari were siting. With a yelp he rubbed the back of his head sitting up and playfully glaring at the older male. "Wait a minute!" The boy glanced between the two adults with a disgusted expression. "You two better not be eating that weird stuff!" He clarified. "Ashley is growing another person in her stomach! It's okay she eats weird things!" Kari burst into laughter while Ashley let out a playful scoff.

    Ashley pic


    She smiled gratefully at Eva as the woman left. Ashley contemplated explaining that the child was in fact not in her stomach but the boy was eleven so let him think what he wants.

    Kari pic


    Kari flashed another grin at Andrew for going along with it but in actuality she will in fact try some of that combination given the chance. After calming his laughter she looked smugly at Noah. "And are you gonna stop me pipsqueak?" The brunette declared raising an eyebrow unimpressed. The blonde boy raises his chin in a challenge grinning at Kari. "I could take you." Noah declared. The woman narrowed her eyes at the defiance before tackling the boy running her fingers up his sides as he screeches in laughter.

    Daniel pic


    Daniel stayed silent for the moment at the mention of their passed Alpha and Gamma but lowered his head as acknowledgement. His throat tightened at the specific thought of their Alpha before he forced it down refusing to acknowledge those emotions. With a huff he shot a look to Luca at the sharp tone he received and bit back a snarky tone to reply with. Calmly he replied, "She's around eight and a half months." Mister high and mighty can clearly fend for himself with that snarky tone. He had simply been giving the boy a heads up but he would make sure to keep that in mind for next time as they continued to the house.

    SoulDreamer Erik was talking to Daniel xD ))


    Within a few minutes, Erik slowed to a walk as he grew closer to the small group, his breathing even and calm as he approached them. As his eyes took in the large wolf and the smaller one beside him holding a small suitcase, he nodded in greeting. The Beta and Gamma from their neighboring pack finally arrived. Pleased to finally see you two here. Why didn't you notify us when you entered the territory? Had this meeting happened earlier, there would a furious Bedda in our presence as well. Come along, Daniel, Bedda wants you at the house. And you two, I suppose I should properly escort you two to the house. A chuckle rumbled in their heads as his blue eyes watched them. His reddish brown fur swayed lightly in the wind as he stood there, his lean and firm body showed the strength he held, but the quiet and graceful steps he took showed the agility he also possessed. He tilted his head slightly, blue eyes looking between the two newcomers and Daniel alike. Shall we get going, or do you wish to stay standing in the forest? The house is much warmer. I do have to warn you two though, there has been a sickness that I am sure you have heard of going around. Currently our Alpha and Beta both have it, though only our Alpha is resting due to orders from our lead guardian. I'm certain you two remember her? Anyways, let's get going before she skins my hide for taking too long. Even though Erik's words held a serious tone, the playful look in his eyes said the amusement for his baby sister. They said that even though they were in a tough spot, he was still going to try and make everyone feel less stressed and see that there was still good in life to be lived. After all, he didn't like seeing people upset or any thing of the sort.


    "I'm an angel with a shot gun"

    Jeremiah Rivers || 24 yrs || Alpha Male || Crush: Bedda || Interacting: xxx

    Jeremiah's eyes peaked open as he found himself laying in bed, his body shivering slightly though he had the blankets hugged closely to his chest. He immediately knew he hadn't slept long, his body still feeling heavy. However, his stomach rolled within minutes of him coming back to consciousness, and it immediately pushed him out of his comfortable place. His feet stumbled beneath him as he moved through the room, his movement sounding like a herd of elephants within his room.


    Pushing his way into the bathroom connected to his room, he barely made it to the toilet as he once more emptied his stomach of its contents. His felt awful, and he silently cursed his body for not being able to withstand the sickness to be able to do his job. Once his stomach had stopped turning over, he slammed his fist into the floor, his arm now stiff and remaining like so as the loud thud echoed through the floor.


    "Sh*t," he growled stubbornly, his eyes screwing shut as he let out a verbal curse once agian in such a short time. He knew it wasn't normal for himself, but right now he needed to let his frustration out. However, he remained on his knees, afraid that if he tried to move he may fall and make himself worse. However, he did not call out to anyone either. He disliked the idea of anyone seeing him like this, even if they were offering their help. Beading of sweat rolled down his temples, and his jaw tensed as he refused to move. "I can't let this happen."




    "I'm running with the wolves tonight"

    Morgan Woods || 20 yrs || Omega || Single || Interacting: xxx

    Morgan was simply lost in the notes, in a matter of words. Her fingers continued their dance, though she no longer thought of where they were placed or what notes she was playing. She was simply doing as she always did, letting herself subconsciously play her songs. Lost in her own little world of music, and her own little escape from everything that was ravaging her pack.



    "What if I was made for you, and you were made for me?"

    Andrew Waters || 26 yrs || Hunter || Single || Interacting: SoulDreamer  

    Andrew jerked his knee slightly as he felt Noah's head hit it, laughing softly as he watched the boy glare at him. He offered a small shrug in response, as if to say 'hey that was your own fault'. He watched the banter between Noah and Kari unfold, shaking his head slightly. "I don't know, Noah," he said with a teasing tone in his voice. "You and Kari might be an even match since I'm sure I could top you both." He shot a glanced towards Kari, wearing an almost smug expression on his features for once in so long.

    "Fear is a strength as much as a weakness"

    Tobias [click] || 20 yrs || Rogue [click]

    Tobias listened to Beddha, not putting in any inquiry to her words. His own mind was in thought at what he could do. It had been not to long ago that he was officially accepted as an Omega into the pack, the same position as Morgan. He had taken it with a grateful tail wag. Even he had begun to notice a change in his cent that was told was heavily laced with fear, nervousness and confusion, a wolf on the run constantly yet now it had relaxed by many degrees with all the different scents of the pack members interlaced, some stronger than others depending on who he hung out with. Mostly Beddha, Ashley and Eva were what you could detect off of him. Ironically, Tobi heard Eva enter, hearing her words and looking at Beddha. His eyebrows furrowed as he gingerly used his left hand to poke her leg "Must rest." Beddha had been running around all day and if he didn't know any better, all of the work would exhaust her. He did not want to see her bedridden like he had watched the previous members until they became too weak to leave there beds.



    "Embrace the good and forgive the bad"

    Zale Reddington [click]|| 24 yrs || Beta Male [click]

    Zale rolled his eyes at Luca's response. Boy, he had a mouth on him sometimes. He continued following Daniel, his nose keenly picking up Erik's scent nearing. The red-brown wolf appeared shortly later, standing in all his haughty glory. Very similar to his sister but also very different. "Sorry, we were going to that but we ran into Daniel before that could happen. And yes, I do remember Beddha." Zale chuckled softly, keeping pace with the two. A thought at the back of his mind pushed through to his thoughts "What about Morgan? How is she?" The words came out hesitant which was odd for the usually ever so confident and gregarious man. Luca scoffed , eyes rolling to the sky "That was smooth, hotshot." The white wolf thought to his friend, earning him a shove from the Beta.


    "It hurts but I'm okay....I'm used to it"

    Luca Rose [click]|| 24 yrs || Gamma [click]

    The Gamma stumbled to the side at the push, tail wagging at the simple friendliness between them. Luca easily picked up his pace into a smooth jog, moving ahead of the other three as a means to avoid conversation. Socializing was not his strong suit but also his worry for the heavily pregnant woman. If she really was as far along as he said then add on all the added stress she must be feeling from the recent deaths of packmates, she wouldn't have very long until this baby was born. Premature babies in humans was already risky but werewolf children, well, that was even worse. He would much rather get there as quick as possible.

    The_Regalia   Gir and Piggy

    Eva, nodding in agreement with Bedda found herself interrupted by short-spoken Tobi. Nodding again she looked at the guardian with slightly narrowed eye. "Tobias is right, rest," coughing and holding up a finger she paused her conversation. Sucking in a deep breath she continued. "I can welcome them just fine, don't worry. You aren't much good exhausted, I'll take Tobias downstairs with me. Let let Bedda rest Tobi, come on." After her words she nodded at Tobi and shot Bedda a look. Spinning around on her heels, Eva began down the stairs. Around her shoulders her blanket still hung. Once down the beta made her way over to the window where she caught a glimpse of familiar red fur. Erik was back, and by the smell of it he wasn't alone. Rubbing her enflamed nose she swung the door open and watched for the other wolves.


    Summer Dream

    Anna's eyes widened at the rough-housing going on around her as she winced away. Blinking at the two she crawled over and into Andrews lap. Although he was taunting the others and she was afraid that she would be drawn into the okay fighting, she decided to sit with him. Her head tilted backwards to look up at him for a moment before darting back to the screen.

    The_Regalia   SoulDreamer ))


    Erik huffed a chuckle through their heads, motioning the pair to follow. Even with Zale's higher rank, because he was not the Beta of their pack just yet (if at all to their knowledge), the older O'Dyer twin did not feel that sense to obey as strong as normal. Well, he did feel it, but it was Erik. He wasn't always going to listen to the pack hierarchy, at least not when it wasn't his own pack. Being born outside as a rogue did that to a person, but one learns to adapt. Come along kiddies. Bedda is waiting. His tone was playful, holding a somewhat ominous ring to it. After all, they all knew Bedda could be scary when she wanted. As he began to lead the way back for the other two, he heard the Betas' question and chuckled. Mo is doing might fine. You might get to talk to her tonight, Bedda is cooking something special. Try and ease everyone's worry. Something she can do for the kids and Ashley since they're always cooped up in the house. He replied, already figuring his twin had a million things running through her head and still she insisted on doing that small thing. His blue eyes watched the white wolf as he jogged (trotted) in front of them, a light shake of his head. Luca was all business since realizing how far long Ashley was.


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    uoyevoli..   Summer Dream ))


    Bedda shook her head at what both of them said. She was no resting. Not at all. Getting up to follow them, she adjusted her shirt and pinned her hair back with a bobby pin. "Nice try you two, but I'm not resting until tonight. I'll check on Miah real quick and meet you in front." She told them in a serious voice. No matter how tired she really was, she couldn't sit down just yet. Maybe in an hour or two, when Zale and Luca finally settled in and the Beta could help watch over things. Maybe then. Maybe she'll even stay near Jeremiah. Maybe not on that one. Shaking her head to clear her thoughts, she headed across the hall to their Alphas' room, knocking before looking her head in. "Miah?" She said when her silver gaze landed on an empty bed spread.


    "I'm an angel with a shot gun"

    Jeremiah Rivers || 24 yrs || Alpha Male || Crush: Bedda || Interacting: Gir and Piggy  

    Miah heard a voice come to his room behind him, but he still didn't move. It took him a moment to figure out who it was, feeling disoriented and angry at the fact he couldn't get any of this under control. Bedda... Shaking his head lightly, he didn't want her to see him like this, but knew that soon she would find him either way. "In... In here," he croaked, his body still tense and unwavering. He hated all of this. Every second of it.




    "I'm running with the wolves tonight"

    Morgan Woods || 20 yrs || Omega || Single || Interacting: xxx

    As Morgan played, her thoughts began to wander as she remembered that help from their ally pack would be coming soon. Not only that, but she knew the two that they would be sending. Zale and Luca, the Beta Male and Gamma. She was honestly relieved that they would have extra help around here, and she would be lying if she said she wasn't excited about seeing Zale again.


    She remembered meeting the male not too long ago, and she felt they had hit it off rather well. However, she also felt she had been extremely clumsy and nervous the whole time. Really, she felt that she had embarrassed herself more than anything, but still when he had to leave, she remembered feeling a bit down about it. It seemed they had clicked rather easily, and she had enjoyed spending time with him. She shook her head lightly as she got her thoughts back to her music. She was acting silly again.



    "What if I was made for you, and you were made for me?"

    Andrew Waters || 26 yrs || Hunter || Single || Interacting: uoyevoli..

    Drew looked down as he felt a body crawl into his lap, his eyes being met by those of Anna's. He couldn't help but laugh slightly as he gently placed a hand upon her head, shifting so that they both could sit a bit more comfortably. The quiet male didn't often get the chance to simply relax with the pups, and was rather enjoying it after everything that happened. He had already smoked a pack of cigarettes within the last week, and normally he hardly ever smoked at all. Being able to sit around like this was doing him some good, and he knew it. Deep down, however, he was feeling a bit guilty for doing so. He should be out patrolling or making sure things went well along side Bedda while Jeremiah was down. And yet, with little Anna sitting with him, Drew couldn't bring himself to move. Secretly official, the normally quiet, distant male was a soft puppy beneath.

    Summer Dream ))


    Bedda didn't hesitate to walk into his room when he called to her, wondering if he was okay. Following his voice to the bathroom, she frowned lightly, crouching beside him. "Why didn't you call for me?" She asked as she touched his forehead, pushing his hair back before she stood up. Grabbing a rag, she wet it in the sink and wrung it out, crouching beside him again to wipe his face. Her hands were soft, movements slow and gentle. "Are you feeling okay enough to get out the room? Kale and Luca are almost here. Erik is escorting them the rest of the way with Daniel as well." She said as she looked at him, taking a deep breath. It was obvious how tired she was, not that she was going to say that. She didn't have the time to rest yet, despite telling Jeremiah he needed to.


    "I'm an angel with a shot gun"

    Jeremiah Rivers || 24 yrs || Alpha Male || Crush: Bedda || Interacting: Bedda { Gir and Piggy }

    MIah shook his head as she asked why he hadn't called for her, him forehead furrowing as he kept his gaze down. "No.." He murmured trying to get his body to relax once more. "I... I didn't want...you to see me like... this." He words came out more as reluctant than anything else. Of all the times he spoke of Bedda opening up to him, he was still a bit prideful when it came to admitting his own things. Right now, he felt like he needed to keep the vision of pride that came with being Alpha and here he was crumpled on a floor before a toilet. Not a very proud image.


    The feel of her hand upon his forehead had helped though. It was cool against his warmed skin, and the cloth the followed felt great. He let out a soft sigh, though his jaw was tense at the knowledge that Zale and Luca would be here soon. "I should've be there..." He growled, again hating his condition. "This shouldn't... shouldn't be happening." He hit his hand against the floor again, though it was less hard than last time. Clearly he was tiring, and feeling completely useless. He hadn't answered her question concerning whether he could get back to the room, his mind focused on everything that seemed to be going wrong.




    "I'm running with the wolves tonight"

    Morgan Woods || 20 yrs || Omega || Single || Interacting: xxx

    { still on the deck }



    "What if I was made for you, and you were made for me?"

    Andrew Waters || 26 yrs || Hunter || Single || Interacting: Kari, Noah, and Anna { SoulDreamer , uoyevoli.. }

    { waiting }

    Noah pic


    Noah scoffed looking Andrew up and down, sizing the hunter up with a grin. "I bet I could take you!" The boy declared before putting his hand in Kari's face pushing her aside willingly as she let out a huff of laughter. "I could take both of you!" He said as he stood up and crossing his arms in an exaggerated superhero pose he had seen in his comics. Then he saw Anna scramble onto Andrew's lap and pouted indignantly for a moment before sticking his nose in the air and dismissing the idea with a wave of his hand. "Looks like you are out of the match. Can't have Anna getting hurt because of your clumsy combat skills." Noah was of course playing up all the exaggerated poses and statements to make the situation that much more fun for himself as well as egging both adults on because who was Noah if he wasn't a troublemaker?

    Ashley pic


    (Fell asleep)

    Kari pic


    Kari pawed off the boys hand from her face as she watched him stand and then shot a cocky grin at Andrew. Those were fighting words in her house hold. There was nothing better than a good game of pinning each other to let loose and in hostile situations to find the pecking order. This Hunter being able to pin her? Right, she would pay money to see that, she was a Guardian after all. There was a reputation to be upheld considering she had undergone Bedda's vigorous training regime. There was a third version of the game, however, she knew that was the farthest thing from anyone's mind considering he was still recovering from previous feelings so she simply kept her cocky air about her with her chin tilted up in a dare. "I'd like to see you try, Hunter." She stated with the heaviest amount of snark she could muster adding to her arrogant and playful demeanor before looking at Noah's noble declaration for Anna and rolled her eyes laughing.

    Daniel pic


    Daniel followed to the side of Erik quietly listening in and simply being aware of his surroundings. He impressed himself with suppressing his raised hackles at the mention of Bedda's name but simply shook himself out to cover the irritation. "I'm sure Morgan will enjoy some company since it seems as if she gets left out sometimes." The raven stated the obvious. Their group was not perfect and especially after everything that happened with... them, some of the pack seemed to look more isolated than before. There was not often that he would see someone talking to Morgan much especially. Though, he would admit he was guilty of not socializing much either but he was well aware that when he got in one of his moods he would only make people feel attacked so he kept to himself. Not that... he actually cared. No, no one needed to know that he actually had a heart and cared or anything. Nope, let them all think he shut it out when they found their Alpha's own heart had stopped. Already having fowled his own mood he kept to himself and quietly brooded trying to recover whatever semblance of brain scramble he had earlier that had let him relax so strangely.

    Summer Dream ))


    Bedda sighed through her nose, simply leaning forward and pressing her forehead against his own, eyes closed. She didn't say anything to him for a few minutes, just let the hand holding the rag fall as her other touch his cheek, her fingers sliding into his hair after a moment or two. "Just breathe, Jeremiah. It will get better." She meant his sickness, but she supposed it could also refer to their fight and everything else going on. "You're not doing this alone. So come, let's at least get you out this bathroom." Her voice was gentle, but even as she said it, she didn't move from the position she put herself in. "I'mma need you to move, Miah. I can't lift your -ss off the floor. I'm.. I'm not strong enough." For her to admit that was a lot. For her to admit to anyone she wasn't strong enough for anything was definitely something nobody would think she would do. After all, she portrayed herself to be a strong woman, not someone so easily disturbed. Maybe that's why Daniel targeted her so much, because he knew she wasn't as strong as she let on. She was reckless but loyal, completely and utterly devoted to the safety of everyone that she often forgot to look after herself.



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    SoulDreamer   The_Regalia ))


    Erik was quiet as he sensed the subtle change in Daniel's attitude, but he didn't say anything about it. It wasn't his place, and frankly part of him didn't care much. Seeing the way he spoke to his baby sister today was enough for him to be a bit suspicious of him: the Raven haired man had said those words too easily at her. Like it was something he did before. Not that he would know, if Bedda was being bullied still she wouldn't say anything of it. Not to him, not to Jeremiah, not even to Kari and she was almost always with the woman. However when Daniel spoke of nobody speaking to Morgan, the Irishman couldn't help but feel a little embarrassed; he was guilty of it himself. Then again, he was busy lately, usually he did try and talk to everyone when he got the chance.


    "I'm an angel with a shot gun"

    Jeremiah Rivers || 24 yrs || Alpha Male || Crush: Bedda || Interacting: Bedda { Gir and Piggy }

    Jeremiah allowed himself to simply sit still as Bedda leaned her forehead into his, drawing a deep breath like she said. Even after everything that was said and happened, he still relished in having her so close. Her presence, even if he was currently very upset and stressed over everything was calming and soothing to him. Her touch still sent his heart to flutter even though he felt horrible. There was just something about this woman that both stirred him up and slowed him down.


    Hearing she needed him to move, he opened his eyes to look at her, nodding slowly. "Okay..." he murmured, though he wasn't looking forward to it. However, he didn't move quite yet. Instead he moved his hand from its position on the floor, gently grasping her own. He looked at it for a moment before he finally spoke, though his voice was soft and full of regret. "I'm sorry," he murmured, still keeping his gaze down as if he felt guilty. "The things I said... I just... I felt..." His words seemed so twisted and confusing in his head that he couldn't get anything right at the moment, and he let out a rough sigh. "And even after that... You are still here..."


    Honestly, he couldn't figure it out. After the fight, he had expected them both to simply keep their distance from each other. He expected there to be a time when they were simply lacking contact, and yet here she was at his side. Here she was trying to help him and take care of him, and he couldn't stomach the guilt that he felt for it all, much less anything else. He couldn't hold back his apology any longer, feeling as if he would be acting selfish and childish if he continued to do so.




    "I'm running with the wolves tonight"

    Morgan Woods || 20 yrs || Omega || Single || Interacting: xxx

    TEXT



    "What if I was made for you, and you were made for me?"

    Andrew Waters || 26 yrs || Hunter || Single || Interacting: Kari, Noah and Anna { SoulDreamer   uoyevoli.. }

    Andrew looked between Kari and Noah as they both acted tough and mighty. He had particularly enjoyed the stances Noah had chosen to take, rolling his eyes at some of them. However, he shot a playful glare towards Kari as she spoke of liking to seem him try to take her. Sure, she had gone through Bedda's training, and he knew how hard that was sometimes, but he was also confident in his stamina and durability to be able to last quite a while against the female.


    "Clumsy combat skills, hm?" he asked as he shook his head at Noah. "The only clumsy one here is you, boy. Have you forgotten who keeps finding you in your little games?" He looked towards Kari again. "And this hunter has a few good tricks up his sleeve, guardian." However, he then looked down towards Anna, giving a small shrug. "But, of course, we wouldn't want to worry this one, now would we?" He looked over towards Kari again, giving her a playful innocent look. "I also don't want to risk hurting a young woman," he stated, hoping it would get a bit of a rile from her. He knew Kari was very much willing to put him in his place, and could very much handle herself. He was simply enjoying their little banter session.

    Summer Dream ))


    Bedda was quiet as he spoke finally, simply breathing in when he did. "We both said things we shouldn't have." She muttered, fingers curling when his hand touched hers. It wasn't out of discomfort or anything, more like she couldn't exactly bend her fingers the other way without breaking them. She mustered a sad smile. "At least not at that point in time. And not in front of everyone, but we will be okay." She leaned her head back and kissed his forehead, still resting back on her knees in front of him. "We'll get through this day by day. I'm not going to leave you, even if I'm scared about us." She paused. Maybe it was time to just get it out. Maybe it would help some. Maybe it wouldn't, but either way she remembered then of the promise she made to try and open up more to him.


    "I mean.. I'm scared that one day this - you and me - won't be anything anymore. That just one day you'll wake up and look at me beside you and not want me anymore. That one day you'll see the scars on my body and you won't see the story behind them, but the ugliness they have. I'm.. I'm afraid one day, when we're old and gray, you'll wake up and wonder why you even bothered to care about someone like me as long as you have."


    She took a deep and shaky breath. Of course there were other things she had to say, but she didn't know how to. How do you tell your sick lover that you're still being bullied? That, for all the talk you gave, you wouldn't raise your voice or a hand to the person attacking? How could she admit that everyday Daniel decided he wanted to verbally attack her and her worries and fears or belittle her accomplishments or whatever the case that she couldn't - wouldn't - speak up and defend herself? How does one explain that one doesn't want to lose another person? Even when all they seem to do is cause her pain?


    Keeping her eyes on him, every word, every sentence, held a weight. Held a tone of seriousness but also defeat. Defeat because even though she knew he cared, that he loved her, she was afraid to let him in completely. How does someone just take that leap? She took a deep breath. Love is such a scary thing, She remembered one of the female elders telling her as a young teenager when she returned from training with the previous Guardians before her and Kari. But it is also a beautiful thing, so if youu ever fine yourself with someone who you love and who loves you don't hesitate to take that step even if it scares you, Bedda. Not everyone will wait till the ends of the earth for you, but he will. By Lupus, everyone here knows he will. The woman had told her that because Jeremiah had quietly taken care of the older boys and their seemingly subtle attacks on the young O'Dyer twin.


    Now, in the present, she only had two bullies still left in her life that she feared in some way: herself and Daniel. How could she face death numerous times, stand in front of her pack and their alpha and take the blows; how could she train such strong yet gentle women to be furious and feared on the battlefield if she could not stand up and protect herself from herself and a man whose opinion really didn't hold any weight? How could she love the man before her like he deserved if she was still so afraid of him loving her?


    "I'm an angel with a shot gun"

    Jeremiah Rivers || 24 yrs || Alpha Male || Crush: Bedda || Interacting: Bedda { Gir and Piggy }

    Miah was completely silent as she spoke, though his hand tightened around hers as he listened to her fear of him not wanting her any more. He shook his head, slowly, the whole time she spoke of the scenarios, his eyes shutting as his eyebrows furrowed. There was no way. There just wasn't any way that he could do that to her.


    "No..." He murmured, bringing her hand closer to him. He held it close to his chest, becoming silent once more as he simply sat there with her hand against his chest. It took some time before his words came once more, his eyes finally opening and coming up to meet her own. "I couldn't ever do that."


    His eyes held nothing but conviction now as he seemed to search her features, looking as if he was trying to find something. "Bedda... You are always on my mind... There is no way..." His words came short as he brought his free hand to rub his forehead, his headache still there and preventing him from actually communicating the way he wanted to, the way he needed to, right now. He drew a breath as he seemed to press her hand against his chest, his heart beat still strong even though he felt like he was had been hit by a truck.


    "You," he started again, "are always in my head. I... I think about you all the time, even if you're not mine..." All these years, Jeremiah had always felt as if Bedda was always just out of his reach. Day after day, she was never really his even if they were close. Anyone could take her if she let them. There was no guarantee that she'd ever remain beside him. She was free to do as she chose.


    He shook his head again at her, his pale and tired green gaze still fixed on her the best he could. "I... could never look at you and not want you. Ever. You're all I've wanted... For years..." He was positive that he had never actually admitted such a thing to her, honestly scared that she would turn him down as simply wishing to be friends. He knew Erik had picked up on it, but he had never been able to admit it out loud to her. Until now that is, and he wasn't even able to say everything because of the stupid headache that plagued him.


    Listening to her speak about how she thought of them sent his heart fluttering like a silly high school boy, and yet he couldn't do anything about it when he felt like this. Letting out a sigh, his grip loosened on her hand, his own slacking slightly. "There isn't a day... There will never be a day... that I will look at you and not want you... for my own." Never would he look at her and wish she wasn't nearby. No, he didn't think of her like a possession, or even a girl that would let him protect her like something precious and breakable. No, he simply would love to know that she wouldn't leave him like he wouldn't leave her. That she thought of him as hers like he would liked to think of her as his.




    "I'm running with the wolves tonight"

    Morgan Woods || 20 yrs || Omega || Single || Interacting: xxx

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    "What if I was made for you, and you were made for me?"

    Andrew Waters || 26 yrs || Hunter || Single || Interacting: xxx

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