Eyes Half Closed (Private, Andromedia)

^{(OOC: VIRGASNARE. HERE COMES THE ANGST!)}

^{Andromedia... He'd really fucked up hadn't he? The entire situation when he had first met her was supposed to have been just a little light-hearted fun. Then she'd gone and pressed his buttons, he'd reacted by pressing hers, and now she was undoubtedly pissed with him. Kayn was kicking himself in the ass that he actually felt bad about what he did for once, especially considering that she'd been the one to take things to an extreme in the first place. Yet here was, remorse welling up at his impudent childish actions far too late for it to have actually changed anything. Andromedia and him might never see eye-to-eye, but that didn't mean he wanted her to think he was the scum of the earth. That's essentially what she'd called him more or less with a few more colorful insults to go along with it. The wolf's own family in the Cartel were essentially non-existent at this point, Feliks himself having been gone from the gang more and more despite being their underboss. It had been awhile since he'd seen any of his siblings and he honestly didn't know what fate had befallen any of them which stung him for failing to keep proper tabs on his family. As much as it pained the lupine to admit it, Fourthwall's family and by extension the Rogues were the closest thing he had to family anymore. Kayn was alone in a dangerous world, constantly under influence of dark corruption at every turn. The youth's world was beginning to crumble around him and it had been Astralpaw who had stopped the wolf from losing his shit, even if she wasn't fully aware how much her listening to him had helped.}

^{Then he'd gone and squandered all that good will be being an absolute asshole to Andromedia. Fourthwall trusted him as his apprentice to set a good example and he'd not only failed that, but failed it inthe face of the male's own daughter. Kayn wasn't used to being a fuck up, and quite honestly the crushing weight of failure was driving him insane. It was something so inconsequential in the grande scheme of things, and yet... It was... suffocating. The shadowy wolf wanted to just give up and stop everything. If he couldn't do something as simple as welcome an injured member to the clan, one who happened to be his mentor's offspring of all people, then what could he possibly do for anyone that would truly be of worth? Kayn spoke a big game and was wreathed in confidence most of the time, but it was becoming starkly clear to him that he was no different than the very cowards he insulted. The demon inside would disagree and say that the wolf pup was superior in every way and that his emotions controlled him too much, but Kayn would counter with the opposite. His emotions didn't control him enough. That was the problem. Sometimes he just chose not to care because nothing bad would happen to him if he did that. The thing the young wolf hand't quite internalized was that it had every possibility of doing something bad to someone else. Like Flynn, like the various innocents he'd impulsively killed to shut up the incessant hunger for agony he always felt, like Andromedia...}

^{Kayn lied on the ground with a dull thud, not caring to bother softening the impact. He felt pathetic. The demon child had been granted near limitless power by an ancient entity and what had he done with it so far? Not a fucking thing. The lupine had abused the power to satisfy the creature within him that starved to be fed. To satisfy himself was perhaps more accurate. Kayn couldn't deny any longer that the two were not separate. If the demon was starving, he was starving. If the demon wanted to bath and dance in the blood of innocence, then so did he. It was infuriating to know that his emotions could so easily be bent to the whims of the creature due to their bond, but a part of him actually welcomed. It allowed him to throw away responsibility for his actions. Hurt someone? Demon. Killed someone? Demon. Failed? Demon. Deep down though Kayn knew it was all a huge lie. The only thing the demon did was express its emotions and all he'd have to do himself was ignore the creatures wishes. He couldn't though. No, he wouldn't. It felt too good to simply give in.}

^{Fourth's daughter had just been a small display of that conflict. It had been so self-pleasuring to simply anger her. He could taste her emotions radiating from her demonic hellhound soul. It was intoxicating. It was so much stronger than anything he'd ever experienced, even more so then when he'd tortured and branded Flynn. That was just from pushing her buttons enough to make her angry. How much farther would he haven taken it if they hadn't been alone? That's why he was going to make a concentrated effort going forward to hold back. Kayn wouldn't allow himself to treat the only potential family he had left like shit, no matter how enticing the scent of their emotions were. The Rogues were all he had left, all that kept him waking up in the morning. The wolf was young, but the pressure of the world had already broken him under the sheer responsibility he placed on himself. That was why it felt so good to give in, but he wouldn't let himself do that anymore. Not to the last vestiges of a broken family he had left at least, even if they'd never see him as such themselves.}

^{The abyss furred wolf stood up slowly, a shaky determination guiding his legs. The first step would be a legitimate apology to Andromedia. Kayn fully expected to be met with venom and vitriol, yet he pushed forward following the scent of the female he'd picked up. The pup's heart was fragile, broken, and exposed for the first time in a long time. If he kept himself closed off though it would only lead to the same old thing. Sarcastic humor was one thing, but deliberately feeding off of someone's anger was the kind of pathetic thing he'd have killed someone for. There would be no more such cowardice even if the Fallout child brought him to tears with her truthfully painful words. Pressing on it wasn't long before he spotted the immaculate goddess from afar. The pup quietly made his way over, stance no longer having the signature confident sway the Rogues must have been used to by now. The look in his bicolored gaze as he approached was a soft one, two bright orbs that sang of an unspoken sadness within a heart too often closed from the rest of the world. "H-Hey Andromedia? I um... Wanted to say sorry for the other day. I got carried away and... Yeah," Kayn muttered softly, truth in his words, but generally dominant position taking a backseat. The wolf wasn't good at the whole apologizing thing as it was so the last thing he'd want to do was act like it was an honor for her to forgive him. If he'd wanted to push her buttons more than absolutely, but she didn't deserve that.}

^{The youth plagued by constant threats of failure and moral damnation was incredibly surprised by her words. Her reaction had been the exact opposite of the one he'd respected to receive from the borzoi. The female's voice sang out in apology, voice as sweet as the caramel his gang often sold to people. It was quite clear Kayn was confused by he words based on the furrowed brow he gave, having felt that for the most part that spat between them had been entirely on himself. He relented his confused gaze though, nodding slightly in acceptance of her apology. The femme was graceful in her handling of the situation, humble and soft spoken with her kind words of concession. Andromedia's amendment made him feel even worse about how he had treated the well groomed self-proclaimed queen of kindness.}

^{Kayn didn't quite believe the words she said though. The young pup accepted her apology in full, but he doubted that she hadn't actually meant many of things she'd said. No, he knew how this worked. The demon child had pushed her beyond her inhibitions so that she'd spoken her mind instead of filtering it. Maybe in hindsight she didn't believe she felt that way about the words she spoke; in the moment though there was no denying that her venom laced insults had been grounded in at least some amount of truth. It stung the arrogant wolf's built up pride quite a decent amount to admit to himself that even in apology she was lying to make him feel better. The female's words hadn't meant to hurt though so he didn't hold it against her as she'd just been trying to make things right between them.}

^{The abyss wolf noticed the goddess-like creature shivering slightly and his eyes showed sympathy. Slowly and cautiously, as if avoiding to set off a trap cleverly placed by one of his enemies, he moved closer to her. Gently the young wolf pup pressed his flank against hers in an attempt to offer her the warmth she seemingly desired, hoping that his above average body heat caused from containing the energy of a second soul might offer her some sort of small comfort. She truly seemed to have an affectionate heart worthy of a goddess, and although it might be found insulting to offer such a kind creature the burning heat of a demon, he hoped that it at least might be a show of good faith.}

^{"Apology accepted media, although between you and I, I completely understand why you said what you did. I was really out of line. You didn't deserve any of my bullshit. It's okay if you meant that stuff," Kayn admitted, forcing the words out past his ego. It wasn't the easiest thing he'd done today to admit he was in the wrong. The wolf held fast to his predetermined conviction to do better though, and if that meant he had to put aside his pride to fix the mistake he'd made than so be it. The female said she accepted his apology, but Kayn himself was well aware of how easily one could accidentally hold a grudge over something they thought they were over. A simple sorry wasn't going to truly fix the bridge he'd instantly burned down upon meeting the older canine.}

^{The demon child's dual colored orbs of one part demonic hell fire and one part starlight azure looked at her a guarded expression at her question about him. Had he made it so obvious that he was dealing with his own personal conflicted problems? The wolf's metal gaze of steel held fast as he narrowed his vision on the borzoi hellhound's immaculately beautiful features. Quickly though it softened and the barrier he'd instantly put up in defense at her question quickly fell apart. The truth was that he didn't particularly want to tell anyone about what was on his mind, and more importantly he couldn't tell anyone what was going on behind the broken look in his eyes. Kayn had been born with separate eye colors, but they must have been an omen for what would eventually happen to him because the two vibrant colors clashed with each other in a battle of light and dark much like the one he'd been forced to deal with for the last two months.}

^{The eyes were the mirror into one's soul and all it took was an interested gaze which understood such a thing to hint of the wolf's split nature. "It's... complicated. Long story short I feel really guilty about upsetting you. I wasn't lying when I called you pretty and stuff, but damn was I more of a dick then I'd ever meant to come off as and then I pressed it even more. I know you're one of Fourth's hellhound kids, but I don't think even you guys would quite understand if I told you," Kayn truthfully explained as he offered her an apologetic look for being vague about the subject. Telling someone not that you were half demon or possessed by a demon, but that you'd essentially become a demon wasn't the easiest topic for the wolf to broach. The entity inside cared not about whether the pup told anyone yet Kayn himself deeply cared about it. Explaining such a thing would remove any responsibility from his immoral actions and that was the last thing he needed. The demon child's mentor had already told him to do whatever he wanted, to which he held fast to, but that made it quite difficult to accept that his own actions could be wrong. The youth could hear the thud of the demon's laughter in the back of his mind as he contemplated explaining the difficult situation. It made it hard to focus on anything from the continuous echoing drone of the entity's entertainment. It was sickening because the emotions the creature felt, he felt, and so Kayn found himself cracking a half smile that he himself didn't agree with in the slightest.}

^{Well, the female hadn't attacked him for pressing up against her yet so that was a definite plus. Media did seem a little bit put off balance from the sudden closeness, but he couldn't blame her. A little while ago he had been being a completely terrible person so he wasn't surprised to find her surprised or confused by his gentle touch. Kayn was happy to know though that she trusted him enough still to allow him to do such thing which was far more than he had been expecting as a reaction. At best he figured she'd have politely pushed him away or asked him to move; instead she seemed to be okay with it. The girl's shivering had been considerably reduced from what it had been moments earlier though so he was doing his job, even if that wasn't quite entirely the only reason he'd done it. It was an act of kindness to make her feel more comfortable, but it was also the perfect excuse to get closer to the pretty female.}

^{Kayn had to contemplate though which parts she meant and which one's she hadn't at the mention of having only been truthful about a portion of her vitriol. The pup felt it was better not to ask though as much as he wondered. It would only serve to drop the mood by making her feel guilty about what she said, more than she already seemed to be based on the fact that she'd apologized in the first place. Instead he kept the words fresh in his mind and studied over which of them might have been said with the venomous truth laced within the harshness.}

^{The pup hadn't personally met that particular sibling of hers, but he'd definitely heard a bit about Void. He was the scholarly smart kind of guy which made Andromedia's words make more sense considering they were quite a mature look at things. He slightly agreed in the sense that he'd certainly learned from the experience, but to say that he shouldn't feel guilt over it felt like cheating his way out of the situation. If the female forgave him enough to offer herself as a shoulder to cry or lean on though he figured he'd done enough of a job to at least mend things enough to start over with the borzoi.}

^{Kayn giggled a bit about not carrying burdens. As if. The wolf had carried the weight of the world on his shoulders from the day he'd been old enough to contemplate death and the sheer dark void that might follow after. To be honest Kayn still wasn't sure how the after life worked exactly, but he was acutely aware though that there was something after it. Spirits existed as well as demons and all sorts of crazy stuff he'd personally held council with. That didn't make the cold grip of nothingness any less scary for himself, or for the idea of the ones he cared about entering it. That stuff could all be temporary, or be a terrible existence compared to the bodies capable of taking pleasure in the earthly physical desires the Rogues built there life on. "You're quite the divine beacon of kindness you know? This little demon is unworthy of such radiance. Don't worry I'll try not to worry about things too much though, Astral's given me that advice in the past as well. Easier said than done though ya know?" he mused, mentioning the females sister whose age the two girls both shared. Astralpaw had been there for him too when he needed it. That only further strengthened his desire to take care of Fourthwall's family, perhaps even more so than his mentor even cared to. The hellhound didn't seem to be particularly attached to the offspring who he didn't personally have that huge of a connection with so Kayn couldn't help but feel like he'd go to further lengths for the large family.}

^{"Don't worry though Media, we'll not understand a lot of things together. That's what learning is all about, we gotta start somewhere,"}

^{Kayn woofed softly, making sure to put a careful yet subtle emphasis on the word 'careful'. He wouldn't push his luck with the girl considering what had happened last time, but he'd be damned if he wasn't going to drop some sly hints here and there. It'd be a complete lie to say that he wasn't interested in the shining goddess, even if she herself didn't look at herself like she was much. Luckily Kayn was the type to give her all the attention that she so desperately craved behind the scene.}

^{Andromedia's self praise wasn't entirely undeserving as she'd made the wolf laugh in a way that didn't require the maniacal suffering of another creature, so she'd certainly done something worthy of attention. It felt good to be able to just wind down and relax with someone, and more importantly to be able to genuinely laugh around them. Even if it did accentuate his age quite unfortunately, something the generally much older mentally speaking wolf was quite annoyed with. He was often disrespected or looked at different because of how young he was, which was made quite clear when he'd come across Teutonica only to be looked at like a child by the joiner and Xia. The wolf was a Vanguard of the Cartel and was training under the direct guidance of the most important person in the clan, not to mention that he had the soul of ancient evil that was much older than anyone in the Rogues by eons. For all intents and purposes the pup had the capacity to think much more maturely than anyone in the Blackheart's, at least to his own personal knowledge. Kayn felt he was deserving of respect, but his occasional childish interaction was enough to ruin his credibility. One day he'd be rid of it; for now though he'd have to accept that he hadn't quite grown up yet even with the help of the demon.}

^{Fortunately though Andromedia didn't seem to treat him that much differently for it, perhaps because she was growing up in her own regard still. Kayn smiled at her cute attempt to sound like a true godly being, appreciating the effort she'd put into it. A serious tone entered her voice though and the wolf was a moved by her caring words. She cared enough about him despite his introduction to her that she was worried about the struggles her carried? Kayn leaned his maw closer to her sensitive canine ear closest to him, pressing himself a bit further against her flank in a comfortable show of his presence. "... I promise my goddess. Blissful ignorance sounds good to me," his firm throaty whisper came, the duality of his nature evident in his voice as he spoke. There was a sudden comfortableness to his voice like he'd done such things before, the demon melding it's knowledge with Kayn's own. His tone was soft yet inviting as he spoke his truthful promise to the female, his warmth must have been far more fiery than at first.}

^{Then Kayn pulled away from her so he could look the borzoi in the eyes. His gentle yet intense gaze fell upon her, a dark burning coal of scarlet in one eye and a soothing ocean wave of piercing ice in the other. With confident movement he leaned in, no hesitation slowing him down as he went into kiss the beautiful canine. The wolf could sense her desire to be loved, the demon feeding off of the emotion that radiated off of her. Impulsively he had gone into give her a taste of what she wanted, his mentors' lessons spurring him on to commit fully to the brash action. The leader's daughter had been his first kiss, and while it had been stolen when she wasn't prepared for such a thing, the pup didn't regret the passion fueled touching of maws in the slightest. Andromedia's scent, both physical and emotional, where intoxicating in that single moment as he gave himself over to his more primal instincts. Perhaps he'd let the demon side of him take the wheel a bit too intensely, but the wolf felt no remorse for his unusually tender advance.}

^{Slowly he pulled away and locked eyes with her, determined orbs flaring brightly, outlined intensely by the shadowy black surrounding the two dots of color. "Sorry about that Media. Your dad taught me to take what I want, and well..." Kayn mused with a charming smile slashed across his wolfish features. Uncharacteristically there was not arrogance as often found in his smirks. Instead, there was that same intensity that burned within his eyes. It seemed that whether he was brooding darkly or indulging in his emotions, the wolf knew no gradient. Kayn was either all in or he wasn't at all. The adolescent hoped that the borzoi hellhound daughter of Fourth's wouldn't be mad at him, but what was done was done. The demon child had gotten the opportunity to kiss a goddess and he'd taken it with pleasure.}

^{(OOC: I mean, the shoe certainly fits doesn't it? Can't deny that, I'm just a bundle of cuddly sin~)}

^{Rubies of scarlet matched the fire inside of his own as she panted breathy from the sudden unison of the two canines. The lupine had a pleased look on himself as he admired his handiwork, more than content to find that she'd enjoyed it as much as he had. The scalding hot pleasure of having indulged himself on the soft lips of another was unlike anything he'd ever had the honor of experiencing. Oh how he desired to simply place himself upon her once more in a tender, passionate show of need.}

^{Much to his surprise, she felt much the same apparently. Kayn's eyes went wide with shock as she was the one stealing a kiss this time, delving back into the now familiar taste of the demon's tongue. The wolf melted under her sudden assault of his maw, closing his eyes as he fell into the pleasure she offered him. The confident male returned the kiss fervently and with very obvious desire. Kayn was quick to surrender himself to her as the lamb took hold of her wolf without so much as a word of permission. No, that look in her eyes had been all he needed to let her do as she wished with.}

^{The lupine found himself leaning in as she began pulling away, putting a paw forward to make the kiss last but a moment longer. The demon found himself missing the warmth of the other's flesh upon his. He'd partaken in vicious murder where he'd elatedly tasted the blood of a fallen foe upon his tongue and relished the taste of the metallic liquid, but this... It was something else entirely. Something he wanted more of. From her. The breakage of the second surprise kiss had been the most disappointing thing to happen in a long time, and that included the fire that razed his home.}

^{Kayn let her press herself against him and move closer to his ear without so much as a word, the now breathy need of his panting being the only sound he made. The rhythmic rise and fall of his chest as it pressed out was the only movement he made as she positioned herself to whisper to him. The borzoi's words sent a simultaneous stab of pain to his pride and an addicting shot of pleasure into his heart. Andromedia had one-upped him, there was no denying that and he wouldn't argue the point. Instead he was merely excited to have challenged the goddess enough to push her to such extremes, and to have given the hound who sought validation the attention that she wanted.}

^{The large wolf pup pressed his muzzle into her neck gently, taking in her pleasant earthy scent, but more importantly feeding quite literally on her desire. Kayn brushed himself against her silken smooth fur, nuzzling the female's scruff affectionately as he did so. With the surges of emotion from both himself and her, the demon had tossed away all of his inhibitions and merely wished to love. Her intoxicating scent, her honeyed voice, her perfectly sculpted body; all of it. "Mmm, I can tell. A true goddess after all, you've certainly bested me," he hummed into her neck before pulling back a bit as his jaw found her delicate ear again. "Better doesn't quite do you justice, angel. Perfect is much closer," he whispered, voice a haunting musical instrument that promised of things to come. She was indeed perfect. And she was his. The little lamb had made the mistake of letting the wolf taste of her a second time.}

^{A dominant, possessive growl of desire rumbled from within the pup's chest as he did exactly what he'd told her, take what he wanted. And he wanted more. More of her, more of them, more of her dexterous tongue dancing with his own. Without hesitation he moved in for another kiss, this one brimming with confidence now that he knew what he was doing and that she was in to it. Wolves where territorial by nature, and demons were known for their desire for physical possession. The two personalities clashing and mixing into one had bred an unstable cocktail of ownership. Not that he desired to control her or that she was his lover, or even that he desired for her to be his lover in the future. It was a claim of that exact moment. For in that exact point in time she was his and he was hers, and he fully intended on giving her the attention her family seemed entirely incapable of giving her. If she was a deity then he'd be the demon who corrupted her or fell under her control, and as he let his maw linger on hers he didn't care which happened.}

^{The feeling of satisfaction he felt for eliciting such sounds and reactions from the deity matched the pride she felt for making him become enthralled in their passion. Stealing her very breath from her as the two clashed in a heated joining of desire to which the demon would have never broken if not for the fact that such mortal necessities were required of him. Andromedia was fortunate that Kayn was not a kitsune for in such mind-numbing moments of thoughtless need he would have assuredly devoured her divine soul if given the chance, something she'd been privy to giving him three such times now.}

^{Impatient was an accurate description of the wolf's movements. They were laden with motivation that screamed it wanted her right then and there. Kayn hadn't anticipated going to such lengths when he'd originally shown up with the intent of apology and friendship, and nothing more, but it was clear as the now guilt-free wolf indulged himself in her sweet taste that he felt no remorse for making her bend to his will. There was something about the breathy pants the borzoi left behind after each joining the two had that offered a more sensual obedience than the familiar feeling of his paw crushing an enemies windpipe under foot if they dared to resist. This was a willing submission that was much more intense then the adrenaline fueled rush of combat and subsequent surrender his opposition threw forward.}

^{After the two parted the abyss furred wolf found himself licking his lips in hunger. Kayn let her words hang silently in the air for a few moments as he let her nip and bite at his neck. The wolf leaned his head back, eyes closed in bliss that was much more about the event as a whole than the comfortable light sting of her pointed teeth of which he also quite enjoyed. He let her do as she wished to while another throaty snarl, a softness to this one which was much less aggressive as it was needy. "If perfect is boring, then I invite you to bathe in my chaos," the incredibly flawed demon whispered in turn, loud enough for her to hear while his muzzle was raised upwards to the sky to allow her access to his neck with her teeth. Not a gesture of submission, a sign of incredible confidence. The lupine was the very definition of flawed. He was a heroic with a sense of justice that murdered for fun, a warrior with honor who tortured his defenseless enemies, a loyal liege who'd abandoned his efforts at home in favor of the enemy who encouraged his sin, a poem of deliverance which spoke of damnation. Flawed did not begin to describe the conflicted twin-souled creature.}

^{If Andromedia was a goddess then Kayn was the king of hell. Truthfully perhaps he was, the one thing the demon hid from him was it's past. His darkness was all encompassing and the feeling only intensified with the presence of the goddess whom he'd brought to such passion. Deific punishment might very well have been deserving in full as the demonic wolf knew exactly what he was doing to her. "I welcome your divine retribution in full," Kayn accepted, arrogance and passion tinting his voice as he offered himself to her. He had stolen his first kiss from a goddess, it was only fair that she be allowed to dole out whatever punishment she saw fit. The demon smirked as he leaned into her nipping, pressing her ivory teeth more firmly against the delicate skin of his neck.}

^{Kayn felt her teeth pressing into his neck, on the verge of roughly breaking the skin and drawing blood, and he welcomed the feeling. The demon inside him knew that such wounds would be temporary even if doled out by a divine being such as the one whose sharpened pearls dug into him gently. The passion fueled intoxication of emotions he could physically feel radiating from their combined aura so close to each other was too much for him to even give a second thought towards fearing the deity's bladed canines which so delicately had pressed themselves ever deeper into him. Unbeknownst to Kayn the feral inside of her, the curse of Fourth's children which they all silently bore, spurred on her actions with more sinister intent then he'd anticipated of her. And yet, had the flawed goddess been willing to tell the equally broken demon child, he would have gladly let her partake in the sweet crimson delicacy of his that was infused with the sins of a thousand fallen empires both creatures would never even know of.}

^{The borzoi lowered his head and pulled away with sigh which caused Kayn to open his previously comfortably shut eyes in confusion. His senses where assaulted with the overwhelming feeling of grief, not if his own but of hers. The wolf visibly recoiled from the sudden shift of the emotional mix of their aura, the feeling of it changing so rapidly causing the pup a small amount of physical pain as his mind wrapped itself around the confusing mix of feelings. If the demon and Andromedia had ever conspired to do anything it must have been to break Kayn's spirit because the swirling mix of sensations sent the youth's world spinning briefly, and for a moment he was lost within the whirlwind of change.}

^{Andromedia's words broke him. Kayn wasn't one to get attached to someone, but in his first passionate release of his emotions where he'd fully given himself over to his feelings it had instantly been shut down with rejection. The confidence drained from his wolfish features and it was clear that her words stung more than the teeth that had been pressing into his flesh moments before. The pup was instantly furious with himself for even having allowed himself the luxury of compassion for another because it would only ever end in suffering. Desire had led to a lack of inhibitions which gave way to feelings, and he regretted it now. To think, he'd allowed himself to fly so close to the immaculate sun as a creature born of the night. He was not fit to lick paws of a goddess let alone grace her with the intimate pleasures one as fallen as he could give.}

^{Kayn figured he'd overstepped his bounds, bicolored gaze hitting the ground with a steely stare as he contemplated what had just happened. Of course she didn't want his chaos. No one did. That was why he hated himself and everything he stood for. It was why he took what he wanted instead of asking for it. He was a profound darkness in a world that desired to be ruled by the light. There was no place for him among the embrace of another. If even his father who was a dark knight who served the light in ways the pure of heart could not was incapable of receiving the true love of another being, then hope did a demon born to raze civilizations have at tenderly receiving the embrace of a living deity?}

^{Two-part azure and crimson gaze slowly lifted to look at Andromedia, sadness and confusion evidently slashed across his handsome features. "I... Yeah..." he muttered, at a complete loss for what to say. Every word he could say would be incomplete, a broken representation of what he felt because honestly he didn't know what he felt. He'd just recently met the borzoi, but he'd taken such an interest in her. And yet, it was clear that her own had just been a spur of the moment jolt of passion and nothing more. Her mother spoke of men being wolves, of which he quite literally was, but felt like he was the one who had been used. Andromedia had returned his advances only to completely shut him down immediately after.}

^{Kayn didn't honestly know what he'd done wrong. The mention of his chaotic nature seemed to be the most likely catalyst for what had shaken her from her passionate interaction with the male. The demon couldn't blame the female worthy of deification for removing herself from his presence. To lie with a demon was to delve into darkness and a goddess would be unfitting for such lowly depths. The confused child of suffering itself wasn't sure what to do as thoughts bounced around his head aggressively. Leave? Cry? Act as if nothing had even happened? She'd breathed him in so deep only to rip his vulnerable emotions in half. It was the exact kind of thing that was the reason Kayn distanced himself from people and casually flirted with everyone. Letting someone, for even a moment, touch your delicate heart was the worst thing one could let happen.}

^{"You know, I don't know what I expected. Sorry Andromedia, didn't mean to impose," Kayn bitterly spat, not in anger, but in pain. It was clear that he was hurt, and he hated himself for letting himself be damaged so easily by the female. The lupine wondered if she was satisfied to see the reaction she'd forcibly tore out of him with talons far sharper than the ones attached to her paws. He wanted nothing more to be rid of the confusion welling up within his chest, the anxiety that threatened to suffocate him building up to levels he couldn't handle. A goddess indeed because the gods had never shown him compassion. His home had been burned down and everything he loved had been taken away from him. His dad was never there, instead off doing something with a guy named Deathstroke somewhere Kayn had only heard mentioned by a former now returned member of the Cartel. Even Fourthwall only trained him because he had the potential to be a monster, not out of any particular kindness, and it was his very offspring which had caused these confusing mix of emotions. His demons stalked him at all times despite being one himself. The gods had never, ever done the child plagued with strife any favors. This goddess was no different.}

^{Wide eyes filled with sympathy stared in a stunned moment of shock as the borzoi began crying, unable to bring herself to meet his gaze over something that apparently was eating her up. Kayn had thought her actions had been taken out of selfish disinterest in him, but now he could see that was wrong. The wolf had accidentally brought the fragile female to tears, and despite what she had done causing a general feeling of disgust in himself to settle over him, he felt horrible about making her cry. It was like witnessing an angel who you expected to be free from such sadness finally let herself go in a river of sadness.}

^{Kayn slowly walked over to her and nuzzled her gently, affectionate touch on her an intimate one of love. The wolf didn't know what drove her to say such things, but he refused to obey what she seemingly wanted of him. He personally knew of the self-hatred she was making known in her words. The demon side of him fed comfortably on her suffering, but the wolf whose own heart wouldn't allow him to let the delicate creature cry anymore would not allow that to last long. Kayn made a conscious effort to distance himself from the creature that shared his body, wishing to share a personal moment with Andromedia untainted by the darkness which he was incapable of keeping at bay for long.}

^{A calculated paw carefully raised to find the bottom of her muzzle, gently lifting her chin to look him in the eyes. The tears which freely fell from her scarlet eyes only made his blossoming love for her deepen, desire to free her from such sadness welling up within her. Kayn wasn't entirely certain what events had brought the borzoi view herself in such low depths, but he would not let the goddess fall alone regardless of what warnings she offered. "I-I didn't mean to make you cry, please listen okay? I don't hate you. I'm here for you, I promise. If loving you will hurt me, then I welcome the pain," he whispered softly, sympathy for her pain welling up within him. His voice threatened to break as he started tearing up himself. What had happened to her in the past to make her fear attachment to someone just as much as he did?}

^{The abyss furred wolf moved into to press his head into her chest fur affectionately, moving upwards to rest it against her neck in a loving embrace. The demon plagued pup held the tender moment for a few seconds before pulling back, looking at her ruby crystals with his own pained orbs that leaked unwanted tears. "I-If you'll only give me the chance, I promise I can handle whatever you fear will happen," he woofed gently, eyes pleading for her to allow him the opportunity to even try. Andromedia was the goddess he needed in his life to give him direction, but she herself seemed to afflicted with her own personal struggles. Kayn was determined to bring the happiness he'd seen in her own crimson gaze earlier, and taste the sweet ambrosia of the gods he'd been exposed to once again.}

^{Kayn was going to move into comfort her as she somberly choked on her words. He wanted to make her feel better and tell her everything was okay. Only, it wasn't. What she had warned him about had surely come to pass and now Kayn knew she meant hurt him in a physical sense, not an emotional one. Something about her was off after she spoke those words, but it was made painfully obvious when she finally slumped over. At first he was simply confused what was going on. It hadn't been more than a moment later though that he'd been forcefully removed form her soft embrace.}

^{For a moment Kayn thought he had something to piss her off as he watched the agitated girl search her surroundings as if she didn't know where she was. There was something off about her eyes though. The passion and sadness from before had been replaced with anger and frusration, a distinct lack of sentience in any measurable capacity hiding behind the once intelligent eyes. Kayn was confused as to what had just happened and so he took a few steps backwards to the corner he hadn't internalized they were near. The wolf pup waited for her to calm down and speak to him, and get over what ever he'd done to piss her off so incredibly in the moment to surge forth with rage.}

^{Except she didn't calm down. And then the snapping came. The sudden gnashing of teeth startled the young wolf and made him fall over, narrowly dodging the sneak attack, but losing his footing. The pup crawled backwards the best he could while avoiding each blow that was directed to kill him if landed. His mind raced with confusion worse then when she'd turned him down. This wasn't turning him down, this was an attempt on his life. What was wrong with her that had caused the female to act so impulsively? Andromedia was lashing out like a wounded dog who was being approached by someone when it wanted to be left alone.}

^{The pup found an opening to stand up in between directed snaps of her powerful jaws, but when he did he found himself firmly pressed into the corner. The now beast-like borzoi had him pinned against it, quite literally cornered. Kayn didn't want to hurt her, her really didn't. Every fiber of his being was screaming to kill her while he still had the chance, but the young wolf couldn't bring himself to. It was the exact sort of situation he'd taken training under the female's father to learn, and yet when the time came he was still too weak to bring himself to commit such an act of despair driven murder.}

^{"M-Media w-what are you doing? You don't have to do this! If you want me to g-go I'll go, but please don't k-kill," Kayn whined, legitimate fear filling his voice as the mindless creature snapped at him. It was for more than just his life though. It was hers. The noble Russian breed turned feral would have to stop her madness, or he would have to do it for her. Either option terrified him because neither was guaranteed. The longer he waited, the more opportunities she'd have to tear his throat out before he could call upon his demonic powers. Each word was a chance at death and he no longer had anymore room to back up into. The abyss was drawing nearer for one of them and Kayn was torn as to whether he was mentally strong enough to save his own life if it came down to it.}

^{Kayn closed his eyes as he felt the nipping at his neck, but it wasn't quite a bit yet. The hellhound possessed borzoi was clearly toying with it's food. Submissively he lifted his neck like he had before with the girl; this time though it was purely in a sign of surrender. He didn't want the feral creature that had previously been wracked with emotion to kill him yet he also didn't want to end her life either. The only way he thought he might stalemate the situation was by giving up to the dominant creature. For the first time Kayn trembled with fear, not because of being incapable of defending himself but because his heart wouldn't let him. Emotions had given way to vulnerability and that was never more obvious than it was now.}

^{The wolf's eyes went wide as he felt true pressure build up in this throat, but before the pointed teeth dug into him and spilled a river of crimson the female went limp again. Kayn debated running while he had the chance to avoid the conflict however his stupid heart got in the way again. The wolf felt anger welling up, but it was not his own. The demon was becoming impatient and irritated that the pup kept putting their life in danger. The entity did not wish to return to the depths of where it had been created yet the wolf it resided in clearly was more worried about Andromedia than he was his own.}

^{When the female spluttered back to existence and the feral look left her deific features Kayn released a sign of relief. She was okay, and she was back. Media was very clearly upset with what she'd done though and sympathy was written across his face. He knew the feeling of something you didn't really want to do well. The only difference is something controlled her, while him... It only influenced his thoughts. Kayn had every ability to stop it, he just sometimes chose not to because it felt good to let his darker urges run rampant upon the wold. Where she had an excuse for her primeval aggression, the wolf did not. Not one that really mattered at least.}

^{Without hesitation now that he was confident it wasn't the same feral beast he nuzzled against her affectionately despite the fact that she wouldn't look at him. He didn't care what it was that drove her to do such a thing as long as it wasn't because she hated him, nor did he care about the danger it possessed getting so close once again. "Oh my god Andromedia you had me so fucking worried! Holy shit I thought you were going to kill me, but I didn't want to hurt you, and and and... Oh my god," Kayn spewed forth with worry as he pressed himself firmly against the female, to comfort her, but more importantly himself. Moments before he was worried one of them was going to be forced to lose their life so he was just happy to have her with him again instead of whatever had pressed its' teeth against him moments ago.}

^{Kayn pulled away to look her in the eyes, and there was no anger in his dual colored gaze to be find. Sympathy and worry ran rampant through his crimson and azure orbs of passionate fire. "Look, I don't know exactly why you did what you just did, but that was not you... And you might not believe me, but I know what feels like. I don't blame you. I'm here for you Media, regardless of whether that... whatever that was, comes back into you," the wolf pup assured her. The compassionate lupine could tell how shaken she was and he couldn't blame her. She'd warned him only for him to ignore her warnings. He'd put his life in danger despite what she'd tried to explain. And when it came to pass, the wolf fully understood how that must have made her feel. Andromedia cared enough about him to try and push him away regardless of her own feelings. Kayn respected that conviction, and it was the exact reason that he would refused to move from her side no matter what she would say. The pup would learn to love her, and if he had to, the creature behind the veil of a goddess as well.}