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  • Usually the only traps in territory were the ones set by Beck himself, and the carefully-constructed snares and nets had been dwindling to a complete halt to match the boy's broken mind. So, naturally, one could walk around without fear of being ensnared by one of his traps. Beck himself had nothing to be afraid of, carelessly wandering in the spruce forest below the islands in a hopeless search to find anything lost from his memory. He might of gotten too carried away with staring up at the canopy of pine needles above him, or with ignoring the hateful world around him.


    His paw snagged onto a stiffened branch jutting out of the earth, and twisting his ankle around, Beck tripped forward and his snout planted flat against the middle of a circled wire. He had no time to react as the snare's noose tightened around his neck and the whip-like branch snapped upright, pulling the wire taut. The poltergeist was yanked backwards, the noose cutting into his throat and windpipe as he dangled in the air. The shock was enough to keep him from immediately struggling, but it wasn't long until he couldn't breath. If he wasn't already dead, Beck would of been strangled and hanging limply from the snare by now. Even though he didn't require real air, the boy's face was turning blue, but he couldn't do anything about it. A fuzzy darkness crept in his peripherial vision, and he lost consciousness.


    Amber eyes peeked open, half-lidded for a moment before his mind fully took in the scene in front of him. It was a forest- but his entire world had been flipped upside down. Instead of being trapped by his neck, the dying boy was strung up by his ankles, the tight rope cutting into his skin through his worn boots. This was when he was human, when he was alive.


    A flood of events broke down a barrier in his mind. A month ago, he had had been attacked by a guard dog, leaving a nasty bite on his arm and although he knew how to stop bleeding, he didn't know enough to prevent infection. There had been a family, a dishonest family, yet still an unlucky household of people that were almost as impoverished as he was. They reluctantly took him in, having the decency to fix him up, but never giving him enough freedom. For a full month. Maybe the slightest part of him grew to trust them, like an injured mutt afraid of being put down. Eventually, they sold him out for a cheap reward, backstabbed him, betrayed him, and Beck ran before the guards could search the house. That was the day he learned he couldn't trust anyone, the day he learned that people only helped others for their own gain.


    From there, Beck had to run. All the world had become his enemy, tired of his crimes against their corrupt society and tired of his outcast heritage, and when they caught him, they would kill him. But first, they had to catch him. He wasn't sure when he had shaken them off his trail, but by the time the barking of search hounds, the clinks of swords and armor, and the pounding of hooves had disappeared, Beck had taken refuge in the old forest he called home for so many nights. He grew too careless after that. The scene was painted clear in his mindscape; he had been crossing a river by using a log as a bridge, holding his arms out for balance, when the twang of a bowstring released an arrow spiraling into his back. Pain punctured his lung, and he lost his balance, collapsing into the rushing water below the log.


    He caught onto a rock after being swept downstream, sputtering up blood and water, when a gloved hand gripped him by the shirt, holding him like a pitiful kitten by the scruff, speaking words ringing in the boy's ears. Beck ended up spitting his blood into his killer's face in an act of foolish rebellion. In retaliation, the guards threw him onto the ground, and the air was knocked out of his burning lungs. The arrow was torn and twisted from where it had lodged itself in between his shoulder blades, damaging the tissue even further. And then he was picked up again, and held underwater face down in the shallow river bank. It wasn't long until his oxygen dwindled and he inhaled the sickening water even more- he didn't remember anything after his vision blacked out.


    The guards had left but not without tying the boy's unconscious and bloodied body upside down to the limb of a tree. Beck was left to die. God, he was so cold, despite the sun practically burning up the rest of the forest. He was terribly dizzy, unable to focus on anything for longer than a minute before becoming lethargic again. Originally, he tried in vain to reach up and free his legs from the rope. He couldn't stretch far enough to do more than brush against the knot. Now, he just waited to bleed to death. Beck wasn't sure when the fat tears began to well and fall to the earth below him, sliding past the congealing and sticky blood coating his face. Maybe he actually began to cry not out of pain but of failure when the realization sunk in. He was going to die. Nobody was coming to rescue him, noboy was going to find his body, nobody would ever mourn him. He certainly wasn't scared of the actual end, but he was terrified of being alone when it happened. And when his lungs finally gave up, wheezing out the signature rattle of someone on the brink of lifelessness, Beck gave up, too. He gave up on trying to untie the rope binding his ankles to the branch, and he gave up on trying to at least have a respectable death, peacefully leaned next to a tree, not hanging from one. His eyelids fluttered in a last attempt to stay awake, but he was tired. Death under the guise of fatigue blanketed over his freezing body, and with a final, whistling sigh escaping past his greying lips, the young boy's form tensed for a sluggish heartbeat. There wasn't any more beats after that. The corpse of Beck fell limp, swaying lightly in the forest breeze.


    The feline's head snapped up, eyes widened in shock. His mind was speechless, still reeling from the memory. It had been a hour since Beck had gotten himself trapped in the snare still tightened around his neck; the sun was high and glaring in the sky. The previously-numbed wound in his back now burned with full force and full meaning, Beck did nothing. His brain wasn't functioning yet, all the ghost could do was habitually twitch as he tried to collect all the overwhelming information washing over him. Anyone to arrive at the scene now would probably be just as stunned. The boy's chin was coated in his inky blood - Beck must of knocked out one of his shark-like teeth when he tripped, and his crooked ankle dully throbbed. But seeing someone hanging from a hunter's snare, even if they were mostly unscathed, would be worrying to must. Everyone should be out and about by now, someone was bound to stop by and try to help the shocked ghost.

  • CHESSPIECES.

    blizzardclan / medic trainee / male [♂]


    A shriek of horror and surprise erupted from Chesspieces' lips as he stumbled upon the hanging figure of Beck. It was something out a horror movie for the medic trainee. Despite Beck being the only live-in ghost of BlizzardClan, the thought that Chesspieces had stumbled upon an actual dead body seemed to be the cause of his fear.


    The horror seemed to vanish as he realized it to be Beck. That didn't, in no means, make his reaction time slow. He thought it was rather strange to find Beck hanging though. If a ghost was stung up, did that mean they died all over again? How would one explain that? Shaking out his thoughts, the winged unicorn galloped over. He then noticed that Beck was actually awake!


    Chesspieces' eyes grew somewhat wide. "Hang on, Beck. I'm going to cut you lose." The alabaster equine nickered. Without waiting for a response nor thinking of the consequence of simply cutting the line, Chesspieces turned his gaze to the hunter's trap. Without second thoughts, the winged unicorn lifted himself onto his hindlegs. With a toss of his head, the horn on his forehead made a quick, clean cut.


    Unable to keep his balance any longer, Chesspieces landed back onto all fours. "I didn't think you, of all BlizzardClanners, would get caught in a trap. Are you hurt?" Chesspieces asked, taking a step or two away from the ghost. A recently-promoted trainee, Chesspieces knew very few things on what to do in such situations but he was determined to help in someway. Even if it was to get an understanding of what was wrong for his mentors and Jacob.


  • It burns. Maker, does it burn. His breath flutters in his lungs, his heart skipping a beat as he stumbles where he is. He's tried to get used to the pain reverberating off of the ghost, it's a constant drabble of pain coming off him. But this is different, this is different and Maker help him, it hurts. The one-eyed wolf not so easily makes his way over to the pull, his paws shaking. Mumbled words form on the tip of his tongue, tumbling out faster than he can stop it.


    "Shaking, silent, scared. Can't get down, let me down, pl--" He can't breathe, taking in shaky gasps as he comes closer. His spine burns, screams with a phantom pain of being shot and for a moment, he falters in his steps, slipping in the little bit of leaves. "Freezing, friendless. Why me?" Once he actually reaches Chesspieces and Beck, the wolf looks.. haunted, tired. "A downed dog, bloodied and bruised. It's okay, it's over." It's not meant for Chess, it's not meant for anyone but the ghostly clanmate.


    Cole has to sit down quietly, trembling faintly. "They didn't give the boy what he wanted." A soft murmur, his gaze moving over the deputy. His legs are shaking from the pain stabbing between his shoulder blades, his head feeling like it was going to explode. "You are safe here, there are no monsters." Cole considers those who'd strung him up monsters, and those that had turned him. A child, too young to really fend for itself, brought up by things it couldn't control.


    He remembers, too suddenly, that Beck had told him to stop talking in riddles, ears pinning slightly to his head. They had come out faster than he could stop them, they had come out because it had hit him too fast. Cole wanted to help, he just wanted to help but he couldn't do that if he just kept making people uncomfortable.


  • His senses were still returning when something charged out of the treeline. The simple movement awoke the survivalist panic in him, finally kicking and squirming at empty air in the snare as the equine approached. When Chesspieces announced that he was going to cut him down, Beck paused for a moment and flinched back from the rearing hooves and instinctively, ducking his head down as the spiralling horn swiped at the taut wire. It was snipped into two, dropping the boy into a crumpled heap of trembling auburn fur, the snare barely loosened yet still around his neck. He lifted his head off the earth when the medic trainee spoke, yet kept his eyes fixated on the remnants of the trap and the disturbed ground. The irony of being ensnared by a hunter's trap only earned a harsh and faked chuckle from him. The apparition fought back a wave of tears, distracting himself with giving himself a check over for new injuries. Peri was right - Beck really did end up hurting himself every day almost, until he looked like a beaten and bloodied zombie. The hunting wire had scratched at and strangled his neck, causing the skin underneath to bleed out of irritation and a clear ring of parted fur exactly where it had tightened. It was likely the raw tissue would end up bruising, but Beck didn't mind too much. His wrist had swollen to a degree, and he didn't seem to want to move it, but again, only a minor sprain. What really caused him concern was his oily blood flooding into his maw and the suspicious gap in his upper row of teeth. Swiping a blue-stained tongue over his fangs to investigate, it was discovered that his entire canine was missing. "Fuck, that was my favorite tooth," He mumbled under his breath to himself, lisping through the clotting blood. Beyond that, he thought he was fine, despite his breathing hitching into staccato wheezes as he began to regain his wits.


    Until his facade of nonchalance shattered once the enigmatic words of Cole hit his ears. Beck's eyes widened to match the wolf's, and a shuddering exhale left his searing lungs as his form doubled over in all-too-familiar pain. A sharp hiss left his grey lips. "How the hell do you know that?" The poltergeist was a clever kid, he understood what Cole was referring to even though he was speaking in so-called riddles. Forgetting that Chess was present, Beck jerked to his feet, stiffening into a aggressive stance, a coiled spring ready to snap and lunge at the mutilated wolf in his anger. But he remained still, coppery eyes flicking between the two of them and glinting with hurting hesitation. The boy gave up again, legs buckling underneath him as he lowered himself back to the ground. For a moment, it appeared like he was going to cry, but after a moment of internal scolding, the scorching tears that had started to well faded away. Without his mind's consent, heaving words began to spill out of his mouth, on the verge of sobbing. "They, they killed me. They didn't even care- nobody cared. I wasn't buried, I wasn't worth it, I-" His voice trailed off as his dulled eyes stared into the unseen, replaying the scenes over and over again like a broken record. It left an ugly bruise, a festering wound on his cold, pulseless heart, it had healed with amnesia, and now, it had been reopened with twice as much venomous hatred dripping from it.

  • she was out exploring again, as she normally did. merlin had been making toadstools into bouquets for her, and had been handing them out one by one to the fairies as they surrounded the girl. luckily for the girl, the summertime heat was just leaving the pine forest, and had not yet claimed the territory in its bitter cold and blanket of snow. she was completely transfixed on merlin's world before chesspieces scream ripped through her peaceful play. she didn't recognize who's it was, though immediately assumed someone was hurt. with merlin following from above, the young dragon followed the source until she came upon the three.


    her throat felt dry seeing beck up there, a rope tightened around his neck and dangling from the tree. she assumed the scream must have come from either him, or chess, but that clearly did not matter now. the ghostly blizzardclanner was in his own trouble, but considering he was already dead... he should be okay, right?


    "bet nothin' could kill him. not even being hit over the head with a frying pan." the purple raccoon chuckled beside her, and she elbowed him before taking a few hesitant steps toward them.


    "when you were alive?" without merlin's commentary, she can't make much sense on her own with this. ghosts and such weren't a topic she was exactly adept in either. "are they still around? maybe- maybe we can beat them up!"