okay so idk i guess this is a rant??
but i have a lot of medical issues, to put it simply, and my disease is kind of going out of control from a lot of outside factors. my parents and doctors want to put me on this device that would mean i don't have to stab my fingers eight times a day, like i do currently. it's this box that sits on my hip, about as large as the lense of a normal pair of glasses, and 1/2 an inch thick. it stays on forever and is changed weekly.
i had something kind of similar that made me nor need to take the shots in my arms, and did it on and off since i was six. however, this new one is bigger, clunkier, and goes on my hip or stomah instead of my butt. i did a week long trial with it, and it was horrible - it hurt when i slept, when i bumped into things, when anything touched it. i'm a generally fragile person, and it was very heavy. it's been about a year and a half, and i STILL have a scar from it. like, i don't want a hundred little dots across my abdomens every time i'm shirtless.
not only do i have to wear it, but i have to up keep this annoying log five times a day. my doctors swear that this will help me, since all my internal organs resemble those of a 40 year old. she swears that it'll prolong my life and reduce my seizures and all tha other stuff. but honestly, at this point, i'd rather die before i'm thirty than have to deal with the pain of these things. i keep getting told that i have to "make due with the cards i'm dealt", but i'm not being allowed to do it my own way.
idk, i'm just really pissed off right now and they want to do it right before my senior year at a new school, where i'll already be enough of a leper. i'm switching schools because people bullied me for my disease, and i don't need this to carry over with me.