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    Cole perked up as his laptop made dinged, checking his e-mail happily. Though his palms began to sweat as he saw Santiago ask him of his sexuality. Even though he said he wouldn't tease, it was hard for him to believe the other. He has heard that so often, but it never actually happened. Hopefully this time it would be much different.


    Dear Santiago,


    It's a little more complicated than just 'gay'. I am Demisexual Homoromantic if you want to get specific. I have such terrible body and trust issues that i need a serious emotional connection before i can do anything past cuddling with someone. But yes, i do fancy guys. Since we are on the topic, what is your sexuality? You don't have to tell me, especially if you have no idea. I am just curious as well.


    Sincerely,

    Cole

    Santiago tensed up a little when he read the new email. He wanted to trust Cole, but he was a bit nervous about admitting it.


    Dear Cole,


    Alright, I'm trusting you with this, but you'd better not go running around and saying what it is to school. I'm not officially out yet. I'm actually bi. Bisexual and biromantic. My problem is that I've had a crush on both boys and girls and yet here I am still single....Have you ever been in a relationship?


    Sincerely,


    Santiago

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    The new e-mail me the smaller by widen his eyes slightly, surprised that he was being trusted with such valuable information. No one ever gave him a chance before, so this made the freckled male feel at lease a little important. He began to type back, now feeling as if Santiago really did want to speak to him. Get to know him even


    Dear Santiago,


    I'm really happy that you are trusting me with this information. Don't worry; your secret is safe with me Besides, it's not like i have anyone to tell even if i really wanted to. No one listens to me as it is. As for being in a relationship, i wish. Again, I've been alone most of my life, an having someone to hold close is the one thing i have only been able to dream of. I've had crushes, sure, but they have never even looked in my direction before. So no, i have never been in a relationship before. Hell, i haven't even had my first kiss! God, that's really sad. What about you? Have you ever been in a relationship before?


    Sincerely,

    Cole

    Santiago smiled seeing the new email glad he could actually trust this guy. He didn't really trust a lot of people so this was different feeling.


    Dear Cole,


    To be perfectly honest, I haven't been in a real relationship before, like you know a real, serious relationship. I've had flings with people, but those only last like a week. I guess that's what happens when you're known as the stoner kid....Moving on from that, what's going on in your world right now?


    Sincerely,


    Santiago

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    It was nice to read that someone was in the same boat as him when it came to relationships. Well, kind of. Cole guessed that having flings was only meant for sexual purposes, and not an emotional connection. Though he could see the benefit of it. His fingers moved across the keyboard quickly, happy that he was trusted by someone. Better not ruin that.


    Dear Santiago,


    I see. I haven't even had a 'fling', so your doing better than me. Also, don't think like that. You'll find that someone one day. We all will, i hope. Otherwise i'm gonna be out of luck, huh? As for my world, it's not going so well. I'm listening to my parents fight over me. The usual. My dad throwing slurs and telling my mom to kick me out, while she half heartedly defends me. Fun, right? So, how's you day going?


    Sincerely,

    Cole

    Dear Cole,


    It's kind of hard not to think like that when people give you side looks and don't reach out to talk to you so you go out to smoke because it's a good escape...Sorry I'm getting off topic. I'm just by myself today. My younger sister has a soccer game or something like that and all my family is there. They didn't even call me down to go with them. I'm sorry about your parents being crappy


    Sincerely,


    Santiago

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    Cole couldn't help but feel bad for Santiago as he read what he wrote, lips forming a thin line. He knew the other would find someone eventually, just maybe not immediantly. He knew he was destined to be alone, bit that doesn't mean Santiago is doomed. He seemed like a nice boy. Typing a bit slower this time, the smaller male tried to block out the voices increasing in volume downstairs.


    Dear Santiago,


    Don't think like that. I know we don't know each other very well, but you seem like a pretty great guy. It may just take some time to find the one you like. Maybe out if high school is where they are lurking around. Never give up hope. Hey, i would give anything to have my parents leave the house. I wish i was in your situation right now. The silence would be oh so welcoming. Thank you though. It means a lot that someone actually cares about my feelings for once in my shitty life. I'm sorry about your parents too. No one should be ignored like that.


    Sincerely,

    Cole

    Santiago read the message and almost felt like tearing up. It was the sweetest thing he had read. He heard the front door open and the cheering of his siblings and his parents trying to shush them. Guess she won the game he thought


    Dear Cole,


    You are honestly the sweetest guy that I've gotten to know. Look I know we've only known each other for two days now and I have to admit you're a pretty great guy too. Hey if I can get someone I'm sure you can get someone too...Also it seems I can kiss peace and quiet goodbye for today. My family came back and I think my sister won her game cause she's yelling like a maniac. You're right about no one should be ignored. No one should have to disappear


    Sincerely,


    Santiago

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    Cole felt his cheeks heat up to a bright red as he read the message, smiling happily. Santiago thought he was sweet...? He has never been told such nice words before! His heart was hammering in his chest, his stomach doing flips and turns. Oh no. It was happening again. His stupid head was starting to crush on the other. It has only been two days! He knew it would happen. If any man showed him the littlest amount of kindness, he would fall head over heels. It seemed to be happening again.


    Dear Santiago,


    That is really sweet of you to say. I have never really been shown kindness before, so this nice. I hope you are right. I do want to find someone to help me along. I hate being alone and having to manage all by myself. Honestly, i'm not sure how much longer i can keep it up. You are right; no one should have to dissapear. It seems so much easier, though. Much easier than this.


    Sincerely,

    Cole

    Santiago's cheeks started to flustered as he read the next message. He shook his head not really believing he could be crushing on the guy especially after he had only known the man for two days now. He heard his parents talk about going out to pizza and he rolled his eyes assuming they weren't going to let him go along with them.


    Dear Cole,


    You are right, but it is easier, but I wish people like us wouldn't need to disappear. It seems right now my family's going out and I just heard them close the front door close so that confirms that they've pretty much forgotten me. I don't even know what to do anymore. They always do this. Do yuo have an advice


    Sincerely,


    Santiago

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    The small male was glad to hear the front door of his house close, signaling his parents had left. The silence was welcoming, seeing as all they have been doing this morning was fight. His eyes slowly scanned over the e-mail, sighing gently as he read. Advice on family was probably the worst thing to ask him about. Look t his own! Though he was going to try and help Santiago as much as he could.


    Dear Santiago,


    I wish that too. Maybe if more people like us were round, we would have more of a chance to socialize. At least i hope. You probably at least have a few friends t hang out with. Maybe i would gain a few, too. Advice wise, the only thing i can think of is maybe try to involve yourself more? Such as go down to see them when they get home? I honestly am not sure, but that sounds like that would help the situation, yea?


    Sincerely,

    Cole

    Dear Cole,


    I might take your advice on that when they come back. I'm giving you some too. Whenever your parents argue....get out of the house and try to go into your own world. I don't know if that'll work, but it does for me at times. I would also suggest smoking, but I don't think you want to do that. I'm not good at advice. So I do have to ask...do you want to meet up at school? You don't have to if you don't want to


    Sincerely,


    Santiago

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    The request to meet in person caught the smaller male off guard. Did he really want to meet Santiago face to face? Well, of course! Though the fear of the other tossing him aside made him rethink that. What if the other found it weird how he stumbled over his words and flushed pink constantly? Or how he stared at the floor and picked at the skin on his fingers when he tried talking? He didn't want to screw up the only friendship he managed to have.


    Dear Santiago,


    I'm not too sure how i would do with face-to-face confrontation. I tend to fumble over my words a lot and stutter like crazy. I already feel like i make a fool of myself when i speak, and i'd hate to do that in front of you. Don't take it personally. I really do like you- as a friend, that is. I just don't want to ruin anything with my weird antics and strange habits. I want you to see me as a cool person, and i'm terrified that image wouls be destroyed if we spoke in person. I don't want you to see me as some sort of loser.


    Sincerely,

    Cole

    Santiago frowned at the newest email after he read it. He kind of did want to meet up with Cole. He seemed like an interesting guy, but he was scared that Santiago would hate him for how he awkward he was with social interactions. He started a response


    Dear Cole,


    I'm sorry that we can't meet up. Look we'll just keep this on line for now unless you ever want to change it....though I don't think I would see you as a loser. I do have to ask, what would happen if we just bumped into each other at school? Would it be that big a deal?


    Sincerely,


    Santiago

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    God, he felt so bad for saying no to Santiago. He wanted nothing more than to hang out and laugh with the other, face to face. His anxiety and everything that came with it was stopping him. He wanted to have friends, but he was so scared of dissapointing them. Sighing softly, he began to type back.


    Dear Santiago,


    I don't think it would be a problem. I usually keep my head down in the hall, so i may not say anything if we bump into each other. Just

    mutter out an apology and keep walking. Santiago, please don't think of it as me not wanting me see you face to face. I really do. I'm just terrified of making a fool of myself in front of you. Plus my anxiety and depression will work against me to such an extent. To have a friend that i can flee to when my parents get rude. So i want nothing more than to talk face to face with you; it will just take some working up to. Is that okay?


    Sincerely,

    Cole