Can we ever be the same? (PRIVATE w/Nama330)

-3 years prior-

The black paws pounded against the forest floor, his ears pinned against his head. He had to get to her. He had to save her. He was following her scent, and could hear her cries for help. The black wolf let howl come from him, as he neared, trying to let her know he was coming. He had come home to their shared apartment and she had been missing. Gone. Stolen right from under his nose. He leapt over the fallen tree, stumbling on the landing but picking up his pace he heard another cry come from her. He was close, he could see her now, pinned under a large grey wolf. He let off a snarl as he barreled toward his best friend and the grey wolf before a startled yelp escaped his throat as he blindsided from the left, knocking the black wolf over and effectively pinning him from the surprise attack.

He struggled against the other wolf before finally throwing the wolf off and getting to his paws, stand and shaking his fur out with a growl, his amber eyes locking onto the grey wolf. He heard movement and turned in time to prepare himself to another attack. This time from two wolves, forcing him to the ground under their weight. A yelp escaped him once more as teeth broke skin on the back of the neck. His teeth found a paw and clamped down hard, causing a yelp from one of the two wolves attacking him. He managed to get the other off his neck before he moved for the grey one, once again being knocked over by one of the other wolves. He mentally made a note that there were five in total. Five against one. Not good odds. He let off a whimper as they pinned him, teeth sinking into his thick fur, and drawing warm red blood from his wounds. He struggled against them, to try and get back to his feet, but found he was unable. His teeth were snapping at anything, and he was trying to grab hold of any of his attackers, but unable to do so.

The amber eyes locked onto his best friend's, a look of defeat showing in them as he watched her for a moment. Then the pressure was gone. The wolves stepped back, allowing the grey to move towards him. Michael struggled to get to his feet, and finally stood up to his full height, looking the other Alpha in the eyes. The two stood like that for several long minutes before the grey lunged in, easily pinning the black wolf who let off a yelp as once again teeth sunk into his neck. The young alpha felt his body starting to become heavy, then the weight was gone, his amber eyes watched as six of his own pack showed up. His pack forcing the Rogues away, leaving him laying there, his amber eyes on his best friend.

He knew he needed to change back to a human to allow time for his wolf to heal and for him to not loose any more blood, but he was too tired. His eyes started to drift closed, as he watched his best friend move closer. She was saying something, as to what he wasn't sure. But he knew she was saying something. He closed his eyes and felt his body shift down. He let off a pain groan as he laid on the forest floor. He was grateful for getting his clothes enchanted so he was in gym shorts and a grey t-shirt. His amber eyes looked up at his friend and he said tired, "I'm sorry.... I should have stopped them before they got to you." She knew of his 'condition' as he had told her when they were kids about it. She never judged him, nor did she ever ask him to 'perform' for her or anyone.

Michael closed his eyes as he brought his hands up to his face, "I'm so sorry, (Y/C), I promised to keep you out of any trouble I ran into....." He looked at her, and slowly sat up, sore from the wounds but his human form didn't show any sign of wounds. "Let's get you home." He slowly stood, and offered his hand. Upon reaching their shared apartment, he opened the door and led her in, gently closing the door behind them, and locking it. His amber eyes watched her before his lips crashed onto her's, his fear of losing her evident in how he was kissing her. Begging her for more, and yet she was keeping up with him. His wolf inside telling she was his, and he kissed her like it too. He was crossing every line they had laid down, but she wasn't pushing him away. They weren't supposed to do this. He wasn't supposed to be with a human. But everything felt so right and before he knew it they were in his room, or maybe it was her's.

He really didn't care, but she only stopped the kiss now to ask, "You okay?" He nodded and her lips crashed onto his once more. He was sore all over from the fight, but this was worth it.

He left before she was up. Everything of his was gone from the apartment. He knew she didn't hear him leave, and he took all of his things. The only things he left her was his half of the rent and utility money for that money and a simple letter on the kitchen table.

Dear (y/c),

First and foremost I want you to know I love you. I love you, and that is why I am leaving. I don't think I can physically or mentally deal with the day that I can't get to you in time to save you. I know what you are going to say, but please hear me out. I can't bare the thought of losing you, and if keeping you safe means I must leave, then so be it. I won't put you at risk any longer, as you deserve far better than I can give. We both know with me around, you will never find who you are meant to be with. I hope you find him. I hope that by me leaving you live a better and safer life.

-Your Fuzz-Bomb (Mikey Allen)

The Alpha moved through the streets of the small town he had been in for the last three years. He moved into the diner, and sat down with a sigh. Ever since he had left his wolf had been restless and uneasy. He had kept his small pack moving and safe from anyone who might try to hurt them. They had no territory and were a pack of rogues. But this town.... this town had no scent of another wolf, just his. This was their new home. He sat in the diner, his memories of her flooding back to him like a terrible nightmare. He felt awful for leaving her the way he did, but he hated knowing he had to keep her safe every second of the day and being unable to do so. That day had been the fifth time she could have gotten seriously hurt since he had become Alpha. He couldn't bare it anymore and so he left. Cowardly, he knew, but he didn't want to see the day that he wouldn't get there in time to save her. He chose to leave.

Michael Allen looked up at the waitress and smiled in greeting, and ordered his food. He knew her from somewhere, but as to were he couldn't place her. It wasn't until she brought out his food did he realize who it was. "(y/c)?" He asked, watching her, his wolf already knew and seemed far calmer than normal. He felt a pang in his chest as he watched her, and knew he was in for it now. Michael knew he couldn't stay in this town, not if she was in it. He couldn't risk her life, that wouldn't be fair to her or to his pack to have to keep helping him save her. "I didn't know you were here...." He said, his eyes unable to move from her, as he watched her. His amber eyes unable to move from her, and clearly fixated on her.

Plot: M/C left Y/C due to feeling he could not protect her. They were best friends since childhood. She knew of him being a werewolf. Now three years after their one night stand he is in a diner in a new town while his pack is scouting the surrounding forest. Not only are they meeting up for the first time in 3 years, but he finds out that she had a kid... their kid, a son, from their one night stand. He now has to make a tough decision, knowing the child is half werewolf and half human, to either stay or leave. Staying means he gets to be with her and his son, leaving means he leaves them both behind and tries to continue on in life.

Rules:

1. Post 3+ paragraphs per post please. I generally do about 500-800+ words per post depending on muse. This averages roughly to about 4-6 paragraphs for me if my muse is high.

2. To Join just post, a name, age, and a picture (mine is below) of your character.

3. If you want to play the son you are welcome to, or I can play him, either is fine, if you wish to play him take a look at the picture of Michael so you have an idea of what features he might have and the son would be about 2 years old, give or take a few months.

4. Feral Front Rules Apply

5. Cussing is allowed but please keep it in non-excessive amounts (no every other word for every post unless they are fighting then it is allowed)

6. Fade in/out if necessary.

7. YOu may add characters if you want.

8. I love plot twists so throw them in! (Seriously, I will love you if you throw in random plot twists on me and I will probably be doing the same)

9. Have fun :)

Only with Amber Eyes instead of blue

sweet! Can't wait to RP with you!!

omg!!! Look how cute Mackenzie is!! Also Mackenzie would be part werewolf so she does have the ability to change (if you want or she could be a late bloomer)

awwwww!!!! I'm like ooozing over them!!!

okie dokie pokie :)

Mike watched her storm off, his amber eyes not leaving the young woman. He couldn't make a scene, not here in the diner. That would probably end badly for both of them. Confusion flickered on his face briefly, but then again he knew exactly why she was hoatile towards him. He left her. He left her with a note and he deserved the hostility she gave him. He knew this, but as she passed his table again the dark haired male could have sworn he caught the scent of another wolf on her. Odd... most wolves try to stay away from humans, he thought. However, the scent had not been a pack scent like his. It was a loner's scent. He felt frustration and protectiveness flood over him as his amber eyes watched her.

He finished his meal, and sat patiebtly waiting for her to return with the check. When she did he said, "I get the hostility, Lil, no need to chew me out for something two years ago. I'll stay out of your way if you stay out of mine. But I am not leaving this town." His voice firm and clearly held authority like he was talking to a lower ranking wolf. His amber eyes locked onto her eyes, challenging her to say something. Daring her to make a scene. All the while as she was close to him just being near her again was calming the normally tempermental wolf.

He watched her before asking, in an attempt to be civil, "I'm sorry." He already kmew by saying those two words she would probably chew him out. But he continued, "I'm sorry I left. I know it wasn't fair to you, I knew that if something happened to you, I never could havd forgiven myself for it." Of course he had no clue of their child, or maybe he might have phrased that differently. However, hs spoke the truth. He was honestly sorry he left her without talking to her but he knew (a part of him did anyway) that if he had stayed to talk with her he probably never would have left. Or maybe he would have, but on better terms. He did know that hurting her, or consciously knowing he was hurting her killed him on the inside.

The Alpha took the check and paid in cash, leaving a decent tip despite her hostility. "Keep the change." He said as he got to his feet. His amber eyes looked down at the woman as he said, "It's good to see you, Lil. I'm glad your safe." While his face held no emotion, not even his smirk, his eyes showed the pain he felt from her hostility and from the years of making himself stay away from her. The twenty four year old Alpha moved away from the woman and towards the door, look as if nothing had happened between them, as his insides were turning and his chest felt constricted with the idea of leaving her again.

The Alpha moved quietly from the diner, pausing briefly outside it where he took a breath in hopes of calming the agitated wolf inside him but found it did nothing to help him. He moved away from the door and down the street back towards the spot his pack was to meet. Well the spot that his scouting wolves were supposed to have met. He had twenty five wolves under his watch now. Six were children, and three of those were under the age of five. Not to mention they had recently picked up a stray loner who was expecting soon after her mate was killed a few months ago. The entire pack had pretty much moved into an apartment building where everyone had their own 'home'. Of course no one lived alone, everyone had someone rooming with them, except him. He was the exception. His Beta and her mate were across the hall from him and most of his pack were scattered through the building.

The tall male moved silently through the street, picking up pieces of conversations as he moved past people. He stopped once at the park and stood quietly. His eyes scanning the park, spotting two of the pack's children with their mothers, and then his five scouters making their way towards him. They greeted him with the slightest nod of the head and he did the same. "Anything?" His voice harsher than he had intended to be.

"No, sir. No scents except the smell of a loner. But once we make it know that this is our territory now they shouldn't be too much of a problem. They'll either move on or ask to join." The one male, Arthur, spoke with a shake of his head. Michael nodded and the rest moved away but Arthur remained, "You okay, Mikey?"

"Define 'okay', Art." The Alpha's eyes flashed briefly and the regular wolf clearly instinctively became submissive as he slightly tilted his head to bare his neck and shoulder. "Sorry, I saw Lillian today."

Instantly the other's eyes widened. "You did? How is she?" Arthur had gone to school with Michael and Lillian, and had known Mike had told her of his condition but never revealed who else was in their 'pack' except his parents (who had not approved of telling Lily to begin with).

"Mad at me. She has every right to be. But I'm glad she's safe. It was good to see her again." The man's eyes drifted back to the kids and watched them for a moment before looking back at his friend. "You were right, Art, I never should have left her without talking to her. Or at the very least explained why those wolves attacked." He never fully explained to her that his pack had been in a territory war for the past few weeks before their one night stand. He never explained to her to keep an eye out for stalkers, or anything. The opposing pack had been able to attack her because he hadn't given her enough information to keep her safe. That was why he left. Between losing the town as his territory and not giving her enough information to help her keep herself safe.... he left.

"Sometimes, it might just be easier to move on, kid." His buddy said gently before moving away from the twenty-four year old Alpha.

Michael remained where he was for a moment, surveying the park before moving to follow Arthur. The dark haired man heard a small girl say she wanted to go to the park, and looked in that direction. Sure enough Lillian was there... with a small child. If he was acurate he guessed the little girl was around two or three years old, four at the most, but she would be a small four year old if she was. His amber eyes watched the two before his attention was brought back to the man next to him as Arthur elbowed him.

"What is up with yo-" Arthur started before he looked and a simple, "Oh." Came out. Mike hesitated as he wanted to approach, but at rhe same time his eyes were scanning around them. His wolf was uneasy but relatively calm as he watched Lily with the little girl. "Come on, Mike, we need to-"

Mikey moved forward but Arthur stopped him quickly, "Not the time, Mikey, not right now." The man tried to stop the Alpha but the Alpha shot the other a look, and the man moved aside. Michael moved forward now, tentatively as he wasn't sure what was going on. But as he got closer towards the pair, he froze. It was like he was unable to move. The little girl had the same color hair as Lily, and although he could not see her eyes he could smell a wolf. Which meant one of two things. Either the little girl was half-breed, or Lily was now with another wolf. He felt the later would sting more. But he watched Lily and completely unable to move. He forced himself. His feet felt like cinderblocks as he approached the pair, he knew Lily either saw or heard him approach and it was clear that although he was relatively silent the little girl could hear him behind them.

He moved up closer now, "Lil..." he said tentatively as he came up so he was now infront of the pair. He sensed the younger's sudden protectiveness and he held himself like any Alpha would. But his eyes were looking at Lily. "Lily, please." He said, his glaze flickering down to the younger before up to Lillian once more. "I'm not expecting to be allowed back into your life. But if..." his voice trailed off as his gaze moved down once more to the smaller, his amber eyes watching the younger he was half tempted to try something the pack often did with much younger wolves, more specifically half-blooded wolves. However, Mikey thought better of it as his gaze returned to Lily. "I get it if you tell me get lost, but I... I need to know..." Just a simple yes or no.... that's all I need... He thought to himself as his amber gaze watched her blue eyes. All the while his wolf was fixated on the child, almost like attached to it, and it was terrifying him.

Michael watched the small girl in slight amusement. And wanted nothing more than introduce himself as an old friend of her mother's. But Lilian had sent her off to play on the slide before he could do so. She got out her first sentence directed towards him and he replied with the same icey tone she gave him, "I said i would stay away from you. Nothing in my agreement meant a small girl." He replied, the tone icey and harsher than he had meant it.

His eyes flashed briefly as she told him the girl was her's and he had no rights to her. "Right because that makes sense. Keep the person who came back, is the same species as the child, away from the child. That makes perfect sense, Lilian." He practically spat out her name as his eyes flashed again. His face no longer contorted in his anger, nor was there a low growl either. He had clearly become more incontrol of his wolf since he left her, but the eyes still showed the angry wolf inside. "What do you plan on doing when she starts asking questions? I told you a lot, but there was a lot more that I never told you. What are you going to do when she either starts to hang around my pack out of instinct or she will want to turn and go somewhere else? You won't understand the pull to do that that she feels." He spoke angrily, motioning towards the small girl. He had yet to get even a name from Lilian of what the small girl's name was.

"There kids in my pack, Lilian," once again he spat out her name, "so are they not allowed to play with her because they are associated with me? We both know that's a little harsh and to keep you out of my world now is practically impossible." The Alpha took a step towards Lilian, a clear sign of him challenging her, glaring down at her, "I'll keep my distance from you, not from her. If I wanted to I could make it uncomfortable for her, but I won't. Despite what you might think of me, Lil, I actually do care enough to try and help her. For all i know you could have started to fill her head with horrible things about packs. Who knows." His amber eyes watching the woman in front of him, his hostility towards her evident and even he was surprised at how hostile he was getting towards his childhood friend.

His eyes moved towards the playground and watched the small girl, they changed from hostile, and took on a softened look. He realized he was ruining any chance he had to even try and get into her life. He closed his eyes for a moment before looking to Lillian. Daring her to continue.

//hahaha I feel like he needs a time out XD //

Michael couldn't stop the feral growl that rumbled through him. He knew perfectly well that she could kick his sorry a$$ if she wanted to. He had taken time in teaching her how to defend herself against both the human and the wolf side. So he knew exactly what she could do to him, not to mention he hadn't been around for three years so she might have taken classes on self defense for all he knew. But the Alpha knew that he really could only harm her through words, as he never was able to physically hurt her.

Michael really couldn't figure out why his parents never told him. He had them with him, granted they disappeared for times because they were travelling like any other retired couple would do. But not once did they ever mention Lillian or her child. "They never mentioned it to me. And if you really wanted to get into contact with me you already had contact with them... so why didn't you? Or maybe you're just telling me that to get me angry at them." He growled out. Ignoring the fact that he was the one who had left her behind. He kind of felt a stab of treason as his parents hadn't even mentioned her or anything in the last three years. They never questioned his decision to leave... nothing.

"I'm not expecting anything to happen I'm a little pissed off that it seems everyone has known except for me." He growled out, his features contorting slightly as he was losing control. "They never once brought you up. They would disappear for two weeks at a time, and tell me they were off travelling. Not once did they ever mention you or her." He felt he had a right to be mad at this point. Yes he had left her with no contact information but his parents had known and never once told him? That was a little hard for him to hear.

//sorry for such a short post at a party//