DISASTROUS [►] oleanderpaw's tags and storage

OLEANDERPAW · Apr 17th 2017

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TABLE OF CONTENTS
- tags [updated 4/16]
- playlist
- moodboards
- relationship guide
- heartchart
- to be added

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OLEANDERPAW · Apr 17th 2017

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A BIG BLACK CLOUD, STORMY SKY, FOLLOWED ME
► single | no past relationships | no planned relationships.
► no current squish | 0 maybe squishes | uninterested.
► TATTEREDSTAR x WHITENOSE | gen 2 | mentor: loststar.
► ollie, currently, has no living family that he is aware of.
► current family tree, slowly updated, first version.
► they don't have friends and rarely consider anyone family.
► family has an immensely negative connotation for her.
► will only have a queerplatonic relationship, if any.
► they really just don't do relationships, my aro baby.
► they will call their partners a datemate or a zucchini.
► ½ of nothing.

SO HEARTLESS, SO SELFISH, SO IN DARKNESS
► got into a lot of other arguments because he's very angry.
► got into an argument with lizard over the fate of a fox-kit.
► lost his first mentor, twostar, possibly replaced with loststar.
► he became an apprentice when he turned six moons old.

YOU'RE RUNNING OUTTA HOPE, BUT I'VE FOUND THE STRENGTH
► ollie is pangender which means that they believe they are all genders and so when it comes to pronouns they generally do not care what anyone chooses to use for them. however, if anyone specifically asks they usually say to simply use masculine pronouns as they often prefer those but, again, they don't identify as only male and honestly they just generally do not care about gender and will take anything that's given to them. some often use feminine pronouns as their biological sex is female and, again, they just don't give a fuck.
► ollie has intermittent explosive disorder, which is almost like anger issues on steroids - it's an explosive kind of rage that usually results in violent outbursts and impulsive behavior that one cannot control or predict. it's a psychological disorder that is usually treated with therapy or medication and when it goes unnoticed it can cause serious damage to the person mentally and socially.
► as a kit ollie was ruthlessly beaten by his father after his mother left and while he usually only talks about the minor accounts they were times when he believed that his father would have killed him given the chance.
► ollie is aromantic which means that they do not experience romantic relationships or emotions like everyone else, in fact, they do not experience romantic feelings at all. however, that does not mean they are incapable of loving and caring about people it just means that they can't function and do not want a romantic relationship in the way that everyone else sees it. when they date they would prefer to have something along the lines of a queerplatonic relationship; that simply means that while they have an intimate relationship it is not treated like a romantic relationship and more of a super close friendship, or well, more than a friendship i suppose. they don't want a boyfriend or a girlfriend they just want... a friend, a mate, a datemate or just someone who doesn't seek out that super sappy relationship because ollie just can't give that to them.
► he often talks about his anger like it's a physical thing and has dubbed it "the red"; the red is all of the anger that is boiling up under his skin and constantly begging for ollie to release it. he compares it to being a pot and the red the water that constantly wants to boil over and explode. he tries his best to control this but it is incredibly difficult for him to do so and he's struggling desperately with it; however, he will never talk about it.
► possibly showing signs of psychosis, possible schizophrenia.
► ollie was born in shadowclan.

FOUND THE BETTER PART OF ME, I'LL NEVER LET GO
► MAINE COON MIX | birth| reference | health: 100%
— oleanderpaw is, in a way, a very attractive and pretty young feline and sometimes it is hard to figure out why someone who looks like he does is so viciously cruel. his fur is a pristine white that almost seems untouched by the muck the cats live in and whether that's because he takes the time to groom himself viciously or simply because he never does anything is a mystery that has yet to be discovered. he has a slim but muscular build and with his maine coon genes he is a rather large apprentice and can easily push anyone he wants around with little difficulty; however, he can't exactly run very fast as both his bigger body and thicker fur hold him back. now, while they are indeed muscular (although, i prefer the term lean) they are not exactly the biggest maine coon you will ever come across; yes they do exceed the height of other felines but compared to other maine coons they're... short. however, that doesn't really stop them and despite their smaller height they are not someone who will allow themselves to be pushed around, not ever again. their eyes are a rather complex thing and probably the most fascinating part of the feline as they are extremely bright and do not match the callousness of their personality whatsoever. they are heterochromic (meaning they are different eye colors) with their right being a beautiful bright blue and the left and lime green; now, if you do not think that anymore could be added to the explaining of their eyes you would be dearly wrong. after an "accident" in his childhood she knocked her head the wrong way and her eyes have turned to stay permanently crossed. it doesn't affect their vision much but can be a nuisance when trying to figure out depth and a little bit of something close to vertigo; it's uncomfortable and often times makes them incredibly agitated.
— major injuries: none.
— minor injuries: none.
— accessories: none.
— scars: no current scars.

I'VE COME A LONG WAY
► mental stability: 82%
► estj — the executive | gryffindor.
► disorders: intermittent explosive disorder, depression, insomnia.
— i want to begin by saying that ollie is, by no means, someone whom you would actually want to be around for extended periods of time; she is not someone you would want as a friend, a lover, a family member, someone you just wouldn't want. they are not a very good person and have long ago accepted that they are a rude, blunt, and cruel bastard who seemingly has no filter and no care for anyone else's emotions or feelings. they say things that should likely be kept quite and they are not afraid of telling someone how it is or how they feel, they find no use in bullshitting around a topic and go straight for the kill right away. they don't understand themselves a lot of the time but have grown near apathetic when it comes to anything evolving their emotions or feelings; they don't care about others but it seems they care about their own even less. they are rarely positive and are quick to point out every negative aspect of a situation, they don't enjoy false hope and they don't enjoy making people feel more elated than what is realistic - he's blunt and truthful and he doesn't see the point in lying to gather spirit. they have simply always been like this, well, they've been like this for as long as anyone can really remember but given the circumstances it is not difficult to understand why he is as cold and closed off as she it. they don't have the abilities that allow them to make friends and have a very difficult time socially, they don't really mind because they often prefer to be on their own and often actively push people out of their lives to ensure that he does not become attached. he is very against the notion of people genuinely caring about anyone but themselves and any kind act is usually met with skepticism and aggression, it's not that he thinks he doesn't deserve it he simply believes that it isn't real. they are outwardly aggressive and negative, they have no problems lashing out and will have explosive episodes of complete blackout rage that they cannot explain and cannot control; they episodes are often brutal and end up in some kind of fight or injury. they have a short fuse and are easily agitated, which doesn't really help keep their explosive episodes under control but that is life and there's really nothing you can do. along with being short tempered they are rather impulsive, rash, cruel, and often do not think things through before they act and are content to bullshit their way out of any situation which has worked fairly well for them thus far. they are an incredibly angry and mean person but, in a way, they are a product of what their environment has created and they are only trying to cope in the one way that they know how to.

MADE A LOT OF MISTAKES BUT I'M STILL BREATHIN'
► she is rather medium physically | untrained | still learning.
► she will likely start rights | they will always finish fights.
► they will not kill if they can control themselves
► they honestly have no opinion on war or violence.
► attack in bold BLACK or you may be overlooked.
► ask for capture or injury - pm this account.
► can powerplay peaceful or nonviolent actions.
► they do not allow contact, it makes them uncomfortable.