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    Rose was making dinner, humming softly. She looked at him and smiled brightly. "Hi! How was your day?" She inquired. He had this look in his eye and it worried her slightly. "What's wrong? What happened today?" She walked over to him. Her eyes were concerned. She was worried slightly.

    "Had a fight with the director. He tried to make us look rich. But the videos sorted. But, bad news..Ash has booked us for a three month tour..problem is. I leave tomorrow"He looked down at his hands that held the cd with the video. How could he support her While on tour, how would he trust himself in that enviorment.

    "That is not good." She said about the first part. Her face dropped when she heard about the tour. She was just at five months now. He would be getting back close to when she would give birth, unless they extended the tour. "Y-you do?" She asked softly. She bit her lip hard and tried not let too much of it show. "I-I'll be okay. Go have fun okay? Let me know how it all goes." She mumbled.

    He gently grabbed her hand "I...i dont do well touring. Im glad you wont be there to seeme. I will..try and call you every week. It wont be hell but i dont like touring...i dont like leaving you. You keep me safe"He sighed and pulled her into a hug. "I know its gonna be hard.."

    Rose immediately hugged him back and put her face into his chest. Tears had formed and were wetting his shirt slightly. "If you forget I'll call you." She whispered. She slowly pulled away after a little and finished making dinner. She cleaned up after they ate. She then sat on the couch and watched tv.

    She just nodded softly. She let go of his hand and shifted so she was able to hug him and relax that way. "I love you." She murmured. She didn't mean to but she fell asleep on the couch with him that night.

    Timeskip)


    Some point in the tour.
    Ryan hadnt called for a few days, he didnt plan too. Instead he was at this party just on the floor vomiting and crying. This was the worse pain he had. In years. He groaned and tried to drink but he could barely lift anything.
    "Here this cure pains"A man said and grabbed Ryans arm before injecting him with Herion. After that he had been addicted. For the rest of the tour. He didnt speak to hersince he didnt want her to know, little did he know Dave and Kurst had phoned her and told her what was going on.


    Present day.
    A rough, even paler figure walked to the door of Roses home. He looked sick, he was sick. He would call it the flu but it was Withdrawals. He walked in quietly sniffling as he put the three guitar cases down and his backpack slumped of his shoulders. He was just wearing the ssme old ripped jeans, tatty converses and band shirt with a ripped grey cardigan. "Rose?" his soft rusty voice called out.

    Things had been going good. They had been talking every week. Then the phone calls had stopped. She had called him and got nothing but a voice mail box in which she left a message. That is when she got the phone call. It hurt her badly when she heard of his addiction. The money stopped coming in from him and she took up extra jobs just so she could support herself and their soon to be born baby. Her baby bump had gotten much bigger. She looked exhausted when she stepped out after hearing him. She took a few steps towards him but didn't run to hug him or anything like that.
    "Why did you do it?" Were the first words out of her mouth.

    Ryan froze. They had told her. "..I didnt..at first."He mumbled out as his trembling hand pushed the faded sstrands behind his ear. "Uh..I got a real bad case of stomach pain. At this party, a man injected me..i didnt know what it was. Till later. Sorry to be such a huge f*cking dissapointment. Told you I was weak!"he exclaimed before looking at her. He broke into tears as he saw the bump and her exhausted. He hadnt meant to stop the money. But unknown to him while touringhis band had blown up so big.nIt was allover MTV

    Rose's own eyes began to water. She slowly walked over to him. Her own tears finally fell. "I-I just wished you would've called me. And that I didn't have to find out from your band members. I didn't even think you were alive! I thought you might've overdosed!" She let out and hiccuped slightly. She had seen his band in the newspaper when she had looked at it around a month ago. She knew they were getting big. That meant he maybe leaving her and he going on tours more.

    Ryan hid his face "I..I sorry..i..Didnt want you to know..I, it wasnt me"He stuttered as he shoke more. He really didnt know what to say. "I..I wanted you not to worry..Our baby...would be better off without me. I know im a failure Rose! Im worst at what I do best!" He said in ameltdown panic. He grabbed his backpack and got out a plastic carrier bag. "You were always on my mind, I missed an ultrasound. Are..are we having a son or daughter?"he asked as he gave thebag to her, full of souverniers and baby things. Even a ring box which held an engagement ring. His withdrawals and nerves made him shake like hell.

    "No no no. You aren't a failure. I'm just really sorry. I just wanted you to be okay and I was so worried." She admitted. She reached up and wiped her face. She sniffed and hiccuped again. "I want you to get therapy... to help stop your addictions..." she said. She slowly looked through the bag and smiled at all of the stuff. She didn't see the ring box yet. "We are having a girl. You get the princess you've always wanted." She said. She then saw the ring box and her eyes widened as she opens it.

    Ryan watched her andsighed "Well...If you will be my wife, queen and soulmate forever. I really, i really love you. Despite my problems i..your the best thing that happed to me. I want to show you how much i love you."He murmured as he stepped closer to her. "I promise..I will go to therapy"

    Rose looked at the ring for almost a minute. She slowly nodded and smiled up at him. "Yes. I really love you too and I don't want you to be hurt anymore and I want to help." She said. "You are the best thing that had happened to me as well." She admitted. She went up to kiss him when she felt a startling pain. She felt something then realized. "Ry.. we need to go to the hospital. Now." She knew she was about to give birth now. The baby would be coming a few weeks early.

    Ryan smiled wide and it faded as soon as she said that. He rushed his jet lagged self andher to his pick up. It was too early for the baby. What ifsomethingwas wrong? He was withdrawling from Herion he couldnt be a good father. He drove them to thehospital and rushed her inside to get help and holding her hand. (Timeskip to after :))

    The good news was the baby was okay. She was a little small but she seemed healthy enough. The doctor said she would survive. The problem was Rose. There was a complication with her during the birth. The doctors were not able to tell for sure what had happened yet. They were not allowing Ryan to see her yet. They did allow him to see their child though.

    Ryan couldnt help but cry and panic when everything went wrong. He couldnt fight thedoctors so he waited outside. The minute he laid eyes on hisdaughter he fell in love, he wiped his face "Hey angel"he whispered as he approached her crib. Following the instructions he gently held herclose. It was a moment of peace in his stormy anxious mind. "How is Rose? What happened?"he kept asking the doctors as he held thebundle and paced in thewaiting room.


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    Their daughter was still asleep. She could feel the warm embrace of her father and it made her feel comforted. She didn't know what was happening with her mother. When she later would open her eyes, they would be a medium between her mother's green and his blue. The doctor let out a soft sigh. "She isn't well. We are trying to bring her to stable condition. We do not know for sure what happened. We are running some tests to figure it out. For her and your daughter's sake, we need you to stay calm." He said.

    Ryan felt angry andfrustrated. Being irratated from jet lag and the symptons werent helping him but he held his tongue and nodded. He sat downandheld her, He took a silent oath to protect her from this point forward. Even if itmeantfrom himself. "Its alright angel, mommas gonna be fine."he hummed while he called her parents and his band mates.
    Two hours passed and Dave and Kurst were sitting beside the trembling man.