The Definition of Alive [bxg, female needed, pafp]

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    Lev had found that as soon as she had left him during the night, he felt rather content, blissful. However as he had settled down to simply allow himself to fully begin to doze happily in his emotions, he felt sudden pain. Grimacing, he looked down towards the stitches upon his legs only to find there was nothing wrong, and with a frown he then turned his attention to his chest only to find with slight confusion that there seemed to be bruises around the area where the stitches held together the skin that no doubt covered where his now beating heart was. Touching the area only produced pain though he immediately covered it again with the shirt he so wore. He had a feeling he didn't want Kaori to know about it, maybe it would go away? Feeling optimistic about that fact, he had merely stayed awake throughout most of the night only to feel a sudden feeling of drowziness and had crept up on him and for the first time he had fallen asleep, curling up on the floor.


    By the time morning had come, he was awakened by Kaori's voice as he mumbled in slight confusion, "H-huh?" He looked around slowly, though his attention had fixated upon Kaori in which he gave her a small smile, "Good morning Kaori."

    Kaori observed him for a moment, "did you...just sleep?" She asked in surprise, walking over to him after the coffee started to brew, "you were asleep weren't you?" She asked. It was the first time he'd ever slept so of course she'd be surprised, she could only suppose it had something to do with his heartbeat finally starting. It made her happy, "you really asleep really becoming more human," she lightly touched his cheek, "if that's the case then you must still be sleepy?" She asked.
    She thought about it, "as long as you've started to sleep then it looks like you really will need that pallet?" She asked. Part of her considered offering to share her bed with him, but she wasn't sure she was ready for that her heart picked up its best at the thought and she looked into his eyes to find any signs of exhaustion, "do you want to sleep longer?" She asked, "if you were sleep leering there that you must feel sore. That can't be comfortable," she stood up and went to the kitchen to get two cups of coffee in case he decided against sleeping. He'd learned his lesson about sipping it so she wasnt too worried on that part however if he was starting to sleep and he did love her, then what other human needs was he becoming volnerable too? Her face flushed, maybe she'd been thinking too much too soon, but he'd already seen her body. She shook those thoughts away and remembered his stitches, it was just too bad those wounds wouldn't heal with all the changed that were happening to hum mentslly.

    Lev had rubbed his eyes, blinking a bit to make himself focus. The drowziness was moving his responses rather delayed and he had to try and focus upon her words clearly to understand them. Sleep he found was a very disorientating thing to wake from, especially if he'd not done such a thing ever before in his long lifetime. In truth, he did look quite cute with how he seemed to be dozing off yet stubbornly holding unto being alert at the same time, though he had closed his eyes briefly as she had touched his cheek, nearly about to doze off back into sleep again. As it was, it seemed like Lev certainly wasn't a morning person when it came to human sleep habits. Though, he shook himself to alertness as he shook his head stubbornly at wanting to go to sleep for a little longer. Any second with Kaori was precious time that he certainly wasn't willing to miss out on. He fully straightened up to alertness, though he yawned slightly as he mumbled, "I feel fine." Though, that was a lie. Despite the grogginess that was plaguing him, he could feel the dull pain upon his chest remembering his discovery of the odd bruises made him immediately shake it aside before any sort of expression could manage to cross his face. He didn't want her to worry so he wasn't going to allow himself to show any expression to make her worry over his condition. She needed to remain ignorant of it until he confirmed for itself that it wasn't anything major. Some part of him however only told himself that he wasn't going to be so lucky. He looked over his shoulder towards where she had moved into the kitchen which made him think. He needed someone to eventually know about this strange condition, but he didn't want Kaori to know and he had a feeling that going to just anyone wouldn't solve his problem either, they would ask about the stitches and he didn't want anyone else to know about his odd situation. Would he eventually have to go back to the labs? The thought sent a chill through his body as without him realizing it, a troubled expression had crossed his face.

    Kaori looked at him, he was so cute when he was sleepy, it was adorable. She wanted to pull him into her arms and keep him there forever. He even insisted her was fine, but poor Lev was hardy keeping himself awake. It was like watching a child who still had nap time. She giggled at how sweet he was to watch, but then, looking at him troubled look, she became worried, "what is it?" She asked, "somethings on your mind and sleep isn't it?" No longer fighting the urge, Kaori wrapped her arms sround his back and pulled him to her chest in a comforting manner. Not that he knew her feelings holding back wasn't as easy as it had been. She let his head rest on her and she leaned back until she laid down on the floor, pulling him with and moving one hand throught his hair.
    "Tell me what's bothering you so much?" She thought laying like that would help him sleep, or maybe it was out of pure selfishness. She liked holding him, even though he was like and child. He had the body of a man, there was doubt. Her cheeks flushed. She traced her hands through his hair some more, and kissed his forehead, "I want you to feel like you can tell me everything, " rather than make conversation she was trying to help him sleep, and maybe she could watch him sleep. He was already so handsome, his hair was so soft, and his smile so innocent, and she was still being purely selfishm

    Lev froze, though before he could confirm that he was indeed alright and most likely lie to her, he relaxed into her embrace as she had pulled him to her chest though protesting a bit. Her embrace felt so comfortable, at this rate he would only surely fall asleep which he didn't want to do. Soon, he was laying on the floor beside her, though looking a bit disgruntled as he moodily looked at her, obviously not wanting to be lulled into sleep but her body warmth was making the drowziness all the more harder to fight, his eyes closing as he heaved a defeated sigh, his arms wrapping around him as he mumbled in complaint, "..I don't wanna fall asleep..." However, this closeness to her certainly was making him on the edge of going to slepp and at the same time keeping him awake. After all, even if he were innocent he was still becoming further aware of her and that meant becoming further aware of her body. He certainly enjoyed her soft body being so close to him, and he certainly felt more drowzy the more he simply laid by her side but he had forced his eyes open as he looked at her as if debating in his mind to tell her or not what exactly had been bothering him. He lowered his gaze as he muttered, "I'll tell you later.. I.. can't keep my eyes open.." He then had fallen asleep, her comforting embrace was certainly too much for him to fight against any longer as he had cuddled close to her, his long arms wrapping around her and drawing her tightly against him.


    The features of his face certainly could be seen far more clearly than before, and his soft lips were parted slightly as soft, quiet breaths left them. He certainly seemed to be good on the eyes when he was asleep, the same could be said for even when he was awake as well.

    Kaori almost had him, he had pouted at first, and he seemed most content and aware all at the aame time. For a moment she thought she made it harder for him to sleep, but he begun nodding off. Her eyes lit up as she observed him and he told her he would tell her what was bothering him, what was bothering him? She had to ponder than bit then, despite all his protest about napping, her passedan out with his arrms around her and her own circling his. It made her happy. He seemed quite com for table where he was asllrmsround so she didnt move from where she was at. Her smile grew upon her lips as she watched him sleep, then at beautiful kiss worth face. He slept so peacefully, and she leaned forward and very gently pecked his lips before lying her head down and watching in silence. She could stay like that forever happy. Whatever was bothering him had worried her, but seeing that smiling face cleansed all her worry and she, too, drifted into sleep. The coffee had already brewed and would sit there to be brewed again, but she didn't care. She could sleep all day and night like that.
    Kaori pulled him closer in her sleep but kept her hold gentle and firm.

    Lev made a quiet sound sound as Kaori had pressed her lips against his so briefly, "Hnngh..." He moved closer towards her as a slight dusting of pink crossed his cheeks as he fell completely asleep in her embrace. However he had eventually woke up, blinking a few times as he moved to get up though finding that arms were wrapped around him he had looked down seeing that Kaori had wrapped her arms around him and he had wrapped his arms around her. He slowly moved his arms out from around her, placing his hands on either side of her to make sure he wouldn't fall upon her on accident when he would make movements to get away. Lev however had paused as he gazed upon her face, he noticed that she certainly seemed far more beautiful to him than before. In awe, he raised a hand and gently threaded his fingers through her blue hair, marveling at how soft it was underneath his fingertips which caused a smile to cross his face only to fade for a few seconds as his gaze trailed downwards slowly to her lips. They were so soft, the feeling of her lips against his was so very pleasant... But he pondered was it simply just pleasant? His face darkened color as he looked away, he knew he had felt an odd sensation before but he decided he definitely shouldn't think about it too much right now, not when she was underneath him.


    Lev gently moved his hands to unwrap her arms from around him and had moved away though pausing before picking Kaori up and pulled her close to his body, allowing her to lean upon him.

    Kaori of course, looked very beautiful when she slept, , her hair flung out behind her, her head off to the side, a light blush and a gentle smile. She hadn't shows signs of waking even when he started moving, but she did give a subcouncious pout as his arms left her. She felt his presence still so the smile remained on her lips, and her body shifted underneath him. None of this had waken her until hands touched hers arms nd begun to unravel them from his.
    When her eyes fluttered open, she saw that the previously sleeping prince, had leaned her arms against his chest anxheld her.
    Her face turned pink, she kept her face low so he couldn't see that she was awake and release her. His developing personality seemed quite shy in comparison to the blank state she'd first met. It was a shyness she adored watching, but that didn't change her heart rate from spikibg. She closed her eyes adored gain and listened for his. She had been sure he would have left her there to sleep alone or even stayed there and watched her, but instead he brought her closer to him. It was so comfortable she could have gone back to sleep, but instead, she opened her eyes adored gained looked up to gins his gaze, "good morning again," she blushed, finding that his eyes captivated her once again.

    Lev had been a bit startled as she had woke up, his face coloring slightly as he murmured, "Good morning." He broke eye contact for a few seconds, wondering if she had noticed his close examination of her. He probably would be mortified if what he did was wrong. Though, he glanced towards Kaori once again, wondering truly if she had noticed but he eventually decided that was an impossibility. Her eyes were closed the whole time, or so he had thought so it wasn't possible she had been aware of him watching her. That calmed him thoroughly, but then he realized he had promised to tell Kaori what had been bothering him which made his mood turn somewhat somber as he looked away from her face. How could he properly show her without worrying her? There seemed to be not much of any sort of way to prevent that which certainly made him more hesitant than before.


    He shook his head slightly as he then smiled slightly at Kaori, though now deciding to take his time. After all, he didn't mind looking upon her face which certainly caused himself to find some sort of peace from his once tumulous thoughts.

    Kaori watched him closely with a slight tilt of her head, he'd looked at her, and then he looked away, it was aways if he'd been guilty of something she didn't know about. She washed away the thoughts that begun to creep into gis mind, her away sired wrapping him and he body pressed closer. Being in his arms, she felt content, and when he looked back at her, she offered a beautiful smile that she only shared with him. That's when she saw the switch of moods, and wondered what had upset him. She recalled what he had said before passing out and as if a spider had crawled up her spine, she shivered. It was subtle, barely noticeable, but when she looked into his eyes the worry was already there. She didn't want to rush him for answers, but she also didn't want to leave him to deal with whatever it was alone. It would be a mood changer, so a hold she a holds about it, or wait? Selfishly, she didn't want to leave his arms a holds kendo dicuss it, but her concern outweighed desire, and she reluctantly moved away from his arms and sat up. Kaori reached out and places a hand on his cheek, "you'll tell me when you're ready, but I want you to know that you aren't alone."

    Lev looked towards her as if he didn't know what to possibly say, her kindness never ceased to leave him in a state of awe. However, he knew that this wasn't something he could keep to himself, it wouldn't be good if he kept quiet about it-- that he knew for certain. He lowered his gaze from her eyes as she had placed a hand on his cheek as he was obviously hesitating though he closed his eyes as he murmured, "Thank you." But, he wasn't going to keep quiet, he knew if he so took up the opportunity to do so, he probably would never tell her and he didn't want to put any sort of worry upon her at all. So, making up his mind he had leaned away from her touch and hesitated yet again due to the problem that weighed so heavily upon his mind. But he couldn't afford to back out of it now, he couldn't especially when it came to Kaori. So, he then took off his shirt without a single moment of hesitation only to show the horrid bruising in full that was one his chest, in particular where his heart was so located. But, much to his alarm, it seemed to have spread a little where the stitches had so held together his left shoulder to the rest of his torso had also gotten the bruises too. But, he thought he saw something like this before when his master had said one time his arm had "went bad", and replaced it with a new one. But, this had never happened before on such a large scale, especially now so he had reasoned in his mind that something like this he shouldn't ever have to worry about. But, unfortunately he was mistaken. He muttered as he looked up at Kaori, "It feels numb but it also hurts a little." Obviously the bewilderment on his face was enough to show that he had no idea what was happening to him, and in truth he did make him a bit scared.

    When Lev moved away the moment vanished with their touch. For a moment, barely a second her cheeks had turned red as he begun to remove his shirt, but any shyness, and nervousness was quickly annihilated by the sight she was replaced with. First time she'd seen him, it was just stitches and a perfectly handsome body, it was for even in her memory, but what she saw with her blue eyes wasn't natural. Her eyes had widened drastically. It was roting where the stitches were, one could almost say he was decomposing. Maybe it wasn't the right word for it, but if there was one thing she could see, if that something bad was happening. She held back her fearful tears, and looked at him grateful that he told her a out this before it got any worse. What could this mean? Was he dying on her? No! She wouldn't lose him, she couldn't!
    Kaori stood up so abruptly that it surprised herself, "he need to get you help!" If there was one flaw about live, if that you'd do anything for love blundly. Including bringing an artificial human to a hospital where artificial was clearly not part of their studies. She paused, realizing she was panicking and making things worse, but he was right that it would worry her, it was right at his heart and if he was any bit human than once it stopped beating, didn't that mean there was no more Lev? She didn't know what to think, but the thought of losing him twisted her heart so she needed to do something. She reaches out and grabbed his hand, "Lev," she muttered, trying to calm herself, "when did this start?" She asked, wanting to hold him but afraid that he might break at her touch.

    Lev was afraid of her reaction, afraid what she would do. It was more out of fear that she would worry herself too much over it, though it had concerned him as well he was keeping a rather level-headed attitude about this considering it did happen to him before, but many centuries ago. Now, this was a different matter altogether. His master, the person whom created him was no longer, and now there was no one to help him. That he was sure of. The people of this time had certainly been more perplexed at his "dead" state rather than making precautions to preserve him, but he was sure like them that he didn't expect to gain a heartbeat. But, even as scared as he was now, considering he had finally begun to feel and he found something so precious to him that he didn't want to let go, he realized that he needed to stay calm.


    He jumped slightly when she had stood up so suddenly, his eyes going wide though he shook his head automatically at her words. No one could help. However, as much as he was afraid at the moment her hand had calmed him though he realized that she was being careful with him. His brow furrowed slightly at that. It didn't make him feel better, instead it made him feel oddly annoyed that she was treating him like he was so breakable suddenly, even centuries ago when this had occurred, he wasn't easily destructable-- that he was certain of. He looked aside as he spoke hesitantly, "I don't know, I found it last night.. I thought it wasn't a problem. It.. happened before." He remembered his whole right arm when he was first created had become rather useless as a result of the strange bruising and his master had replaced it. Replacing limbs constantly over and over until eventually the strange bruising had stopped, but now Lev was bewildered why it was occurring again. Regardless, he sighed as he suddenly pulled Kaori back down and close to him, his arms wrapping around her as he muttered a bit sullenly, "You don't have to treat me like I'm fragile.." He seemed a bit annoyed as he said those words, but he did understand her concern. He just didn't want to be suddenly feeling as if he was easily breakable, it certainly wouldn't make him feel good.

    Kaori was so worried and her thoughts raced around every section if her brain for any answer, how he could be so calm is such a deathly situation. When he said how it happened once before she understood and she couldn't bear to tell him what it could mean now that he was alive, but if they did nothing than she'd have to watch him die and her heart couldn't take that..even if death might not be the same for him, the risk was too grand. She was about to voice her concern and ask what happened the first time, when he pulled her down to him and held her with his strong arms. Right then she was reminded that he would be just as scared as she was and that was why he hesitated to tell her. Claiming herself, she hugged him back, "sorry, I'm just so scared that I might lose you," she kissed him on the lips aoftly, it was the most comfort she could offer besides hugging him, and then glancing at his chest she didn't dare touch it, "we have to do something. I can't lose you."

    Lev relaxed as she had hugged him back, though being a bit caught off guard by her kiss, he certainly wasn't complaining. But her words, he understood it well. His dark eyes turned down to the bruises that so surrounded the stitches and he fell silent for a few moments only to pull her tightly against him, hugging her yet again as he mumbled, "I said I wanted to stay with you forever Kaori, I'm not going to go back on that. I promise." These words certainly were stubborn, but he didn't want her to worry more than she was. If Lev seemed determined to cling to life as much as he could, then surely he wouldn't be easy to take out so suddenly. Especially now, he had his precious person. He didn't want to lose her, he wanted to experience this newfound life with her, and he certainly would have to think about attempting to find a way to possibly find someone who could help him. There was a possibility at that point that he remembered, causing him to straighten up suddenly, but he quickly dashed away the thought. The experiment before him, 1000, surely he couldn't be running about? He only had a vague knowledge of him through his master's eccentric writings of each experiment result. Apparently, this experiment was successful, 1000 had been one who had developed emotions from the start. He couldn't remember exactly what had happened afterwards, but he had a feeling if this experiment was still alive then surely he would help him. But the problem was finding him, he could literally be anywhere where made Lev push away the idea immediately.

    Kaori stayed there accepting his promise, "I won't let go of you without a fight," she knew it was both raw promises, but she felt that he was sincere and that they could find a way to stop Lev from decomposing further. She reached out and ran a hand through his hair and leisured in the moment. She never wanted to move from his arms, but having decided to change the atmosphere for the time being, she hesitantly left his arms and stood up, "how about coffee and some eggs?' she askes, cooking always helped take her mind off things. She walked to kitchen an brewed the coffee again before getting out some eggs. Three, she decided, only one for her. She went sunny-side up with the eggs until they were golden and well cooked before getting out two plates for the both of them. When that was done, she called him over to fake the plates to the table as she poured them both the coffee and joined him, maybe the TV would help lighten the mood?
    She flipped it on and stayed away from the news in case there was more news about the murder. It was nice being with him and if it weren't for the weight of his words she might have been in heaven. She glanced over at him and found herself staring at his chest, not for the stitches or for the decay, but because no matter what was happening to his body he was strikingly handsome.

    Lev seemed a bit disappointed as she had moved out of his arms, though he had been contented by her hand running through his hair. The mention of food had made his stomach give an audible growl yet again, already answering her question. As she had soon called him over to take the plates to the table, he had quickly done so finding the smell of the eggs quite good, it certainly had taken his mind off of what was happening to himself if only for a few seconds. The TV certainly seemed to help ease himself into a more relaxed state, though he noticed her gaze upon his chest which made him feel flustered and of course suddenly shy. The circumstances certainly wasn't like the last time she had viewed him without a shirt on, as then he had no concept of human emotions or human attraction, but now he had an understanding of that. "..K-kaori..?" He hesitantly spoke up, feeling quite flustered from her stare which his face certainly seemed a bit red, though he seemed a bit bewildered as to why she was staring at him.

    Kaori had forgotten that she was staring at him for so long. That chest and those abs, and recalling the feeling of being pressed up against him, it was certainly enough to earn a strawberry blush and when he called her name in that flustered voice of his, it grew in color and she quickly looked away having realized she'd been staring, "sorry..." she muttered, then she said something she quickly regretted, "it's only fair after everything you saw." She clamped her mouth shut and sipped her coffee before moving on to enjoy her eggs.
    It was certainly embarrassing, he'd seen her whole body naked, why did she have to remind herself of that. Her blood rushed to her head, at this rate she would bring back that awkward air from before when he'd seen her and this time she wasn't sure of a way out. She shook the thoughts away like a dog would a flea, and turned to him, instinctively trying to reach for his hand like she'd done many times before. She glanced down as he hand grazed his softly and she them greeted his eyes with that blossoming love between them, "Lev," she muttered, "I've been thinking...and," suddenly the words became a challenge, "would you...." she tried to calm herself, but between her heart and her nervousness, it was a war, "go on a date with me?" Her face turned a crimson and she looked away, did he even know what and way date was? Oh, with the sudden news, what made her the hinges this was a good time to ask. She glanced ask him, "I guess you might not know what a date is?"

    Lev became even more flustered at her apology, though his face certainly turned a bright crimson as he looked away from her at what she said next, "..Oh.." That was the only thing he could manage out, both times had completely been on accident which made him feel guilty either way about it. Surely, she wasn't mad at him for that right? He would feel even more so guilty if that was the case. He decided not to talk about it though, considering how awkward the moment had become talking any further on the subject would make the air between them grow tense again and that wasn't something he was willing to go through quite so soon again. His eyes turned towards her as she had grabbed his attention by lightly touching his hand, though he blinked a few times at her next words, he was about ready to agree though he hesitated and looked away yet again, feeling embarrassed at his lack of knowledge, "No... but I would like to go though with you Kaori."

    Sazuka smiled at him, her heart lifting despite his naive nature, "a date is a thing two people who really like each other go on when they start a relationship," she tried to explain to him in simple terms, it was cute how innocent he was, but it also meant it was hard to find words for him. She had to take the state up, she did promise to teach him about love after all, "I'll take you to the zoo!" Her eyes seemed to light up at the idea for she knew he'd never been or aeen so many animals bedore. The experience was both for them and for him. She wanted to give him the full experience of a first date. For everything to go wonderfully. Kaori wanted every moment with him to be a treasure In case they didn't find a cure. She forced herself to maintain brighter thoughts, thoughts about him, and she continued eating her food. When she was done, she faced him again, "Lev," she liked saying his name, she glanced again at his chest, "you should put your shirt back on. Part of her wanted him to keep it off, to even see more, but her heart rate kept skyrocketing every time she looked his way and it wasn't just because of the date that thrilled her. She constantly was stealing glances at that chest and it made her feel guilty because he probably still didn’t understand such attraction. "You really don't know how handsome you are," the words slipped out of her lips though she hadn't meant for them to and she looked away distracting herself by the coffee.