♠Always chasing dreams♠ (GxG, paragraph)

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    { Traditional style, With the Best friend theme. Please be advanced, using at least 3-4 sentences per paragraph}


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    Name; Kat
    Age; 16
    Sexuality; Lesbian
    Looks; Medium length brown hair with a side shave. Green eyes. 5''4 and around 120 pounds. Kinda has a aesthetic/grunge sense of style. Has tongue piercing and septum.
    Personality; Upbeat, Kinda grumpy, Very joking and sometimes harsh. Very insensitive, doesn't really seem to care much. But has a soft spot sometimes for certain people.


    (Repost with your Character info then I can start the roleplay)

    The post was edited 1 time, last by KatCatastrophe ().

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    name ; do jumi - call her jumi
    age ; seventeen
    sexuality ; pansexual
    appearance ; jumi is the definition of an average girl. she's petite, slim and all that jazz. she stands at the height of 5'4", making her just about average but she does struggle here there with certain things sometimes due to her not being quite tall enough to reach some things. her eyes are a bit different than most. her eyes are more diamond like shape and carry the normal brown color for Koreans. it's not often they have different colored eyes, maybe from contacts or something but otherwise no. her hair has been through many phases of colors from purple, orange, etc. to now standing at the normal color of blonde. it's about medium length comes down a good couples inches past her shoulders but nothing extreme. she carries the weight of 126 lbs., that's around the normal weight for someone her height. her skin is pale but not too pale, it's about average.
    - scars; just the few usual scars but nothing worth talking about.
    - body modifications; [left wrist] [left thigh] [right shoulder]


    personality ; jumi has always had a bit of an attitude problem. one minute she's fine talking to you and then the next is some harsh comment or question because she's either taking something the wrong way or she feels like you're invading her personal space. she doesn't like getting close to people or letting them in so when she feels like she's getting too comfortable with someone or notices they're getting too personal she quickly shuts down and gets cold. she's not afraid to put someone in "their place" as some would say. she'll get the honest opinion that's unwanted and say what everyone else is scared to say. she's never been afraid of getting loud or fighting someone.


    her looks generally confuse people and make them assume the wrong thing. she's always carried the look of innocent and kindness but that's not really her. she's friendly to you well she deals with you if she likes you or thinks she'll like you. if her comment isn't rude then it's sarcastic, it's one or the other. usually. there may be very few times she's nice but it's not a very common thing and don't get used to it if it happens once or twice around you.


    although she does have quite the attitude is a very intelligent female. sure she's made a few mistakes that would you make you question that but then again who hasn't? she can appear pretty careless about a lot of things and it's true for most things. but like everyone she has those few things she's passionate about. she's always been passionate about perusing a career in cosmetology. when you need something done to your hair or nails done, she's your girl for sure. if asked she usually doesn't turn the chance to do it unless there's a strong hate between the two of you which is very few people. that can sometimes be questioned because she makes it seem like she hates everyone but truth be told to the matter she just keeps her distance with most. she figures the more you're rude and the less people like you, the less likely she'll be attached to someone and have to care when they let her down.


    as if it wasn't obvious jumi is a very independent female. she basically despises depending on others. she's worried that when it came down to it and she actually needed help from anyone that they would never be there for her so she's never been dependent on others. don't get her wrong she does socialize with people but there usually isn't much kindness in her words expect maybe a few here and there. although she hates being lied too, she's a bit of a constant liar. she's forever lying about her emotions and that she needs help learning to trust people. she's always played that strong person who doesn't let much phase her. she's been the type to worry that she'll be looked as a weak person. she thinks that she has to make it seem like she has no emotions or feelings and that she cares about every little but we all know in reality that she does care, she does have feelings but maybe she just need that little push from someone. but there are very few people she does care for and puts all her attitude aside for, sometimes anyways.


    - positive traits ; open minded, adventurous, intelligent, quick thinker, independent, neat, responsible, reliable to get the job done that is asked of her.
    - negative traits ; sarcastic, blunt, harsh, not really patient, reserved, careless about a lot of things.
    - neutral traits ; distant, stubborn, creative, daring, sometimes can be a hard worker, honest, outspoken, opinionated.


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    (Thank you!)


    I let out a soft chuckle, walking from my biology class as the bell alarmed to show that class had ended. Walking towards your locker with a smile, I lean against the locker next to yours. I give you a crooked grin as I shoved my phone back into my pocket. "Hey Jumi, Still coming over after school?" I ask, tilting my head in question then raises my hand to run into through the part of my hair to keep the soft brown strands from my side shave. "I figured we could start a new series on netflix and go get Tacobell or something." I grin as I spoke then readjusted the strap on my backpack.

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    I was caught up in a bit of a daze as I walked towards my locker, I was a bit worried about my English research paper. I was never the greatest when it came to English or doing research, it just wasn't my thing ya know? I heard the familiar voice of a dear friend as I opened locker and I allowed my eyes to land on you. I had honestly forgotten about going over to your house but like always, I'm down for it. Anything was better than trying to stress over the up coming projects I had to get done. I smile softly at you and nod my head, grabbing my bookbag from my locker along with a couple of other things. "Dude, you know I'd never turn down Taco Bell and a Netflix date with you." I responded, shutting my locker. "Can we just leave now?" I joke as I walk slowly next to you.


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    Allowing a soft giggle at your remark, I nod my head as I roll my eyes sarcastically. "Well of course. It's not like Mr.Bancroft will miss us in class." I remarked, giving you a cheeky grin while we walked. I pushed closer against you for a second, trying to allow someone to walk past. "Let's just skip last hour and goooo" With a grin, I pull my rainbow colored lanyard from my jeans pocket and held them tightly in my hand as I walked towards the exit which led to the parking lot. I hiked the strap of my bag again, as it almost tangled with my purse.

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    Oddly enough it doesn't surprise me that you said yes, but was he gonna have any projects that were gonna be due soon? Winter break was coming up much basically meant it was crunch time for teachers and they all decided to through everything at the students at once but he still had about a week or two before that was even here, missing one day won't hurt so I had followed you closely avoiding as many other bodies as possible. The school basically reeked of all different type of perfumes, colones, and body order. It wasn't a good smell but we kinda have to deal with it. While I followed, I slipped my book bag off and searched through it trying to find my wallet. Did I even bring it? Since you were my ride today, I wasn't all too worried about my wallet but since I was coming over later I thought I had brought it. I guess not. I let out a soft sigh and slip my book bag back on. "Do you mind stopping by my house first? I forgot my wallet, I can you give gas money since it is out of the way." I question feeling like a total idiot for forgetting the damn thing.


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    After going to this hell hole of a school for several years, I've completely forgotten the smell and its became native to my directory of familiar scents. I zoned out for a bit while we were walking, my bright eyes flickering side to side softly as I checked the faces of the adolescents surrounding us as we walked down the middle of the hall, then snaps out of it as we reach the doors and walks in front of you to hold the door open for you. "Oh. Yeah sure, And don't worry about Gas money, I got it. Its no problem." I remark, smiling softly as I casted you a glance, giving you a nod to show you that it was really okay.

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    There you go again, letting me get away about giving you money. I do believe there have only been a handful of times you've actually taken it either because I refused to let you not take it or if you really really needed it. I hate how you don't do it but fighting with you about it never got to me too far and I never won the argument. Anyone else would of taken the moment without a second thought but I guess that's one of your good qualities but something does tell me if it wasn't me or someone else close to you offering money that you would probably take it. I could be wrong though. I flash a small smile with a nod not daring to try to even argue with you about it. "At least let me buy Taco Bell then." I offer feeling like you should have some type of payment for doing what I asked, although it may not be that big of deal I just hate how it always looks like I'm usually the one spending your money. It's not like I can't pay for my own stuff, sometimes you won't let me but then again I've also done the same to you. Whatever.


    I walked through the door you held open for me. Where did you park again? You think by now I would remember but I can barely remember what I ate for breakfast this morning. Instead of walking in a direction thinking I knew where it was, I waited for you. You were a good person so why were you still single? We never talk much about love, crushes and all that mushy stuff but the thought often crosses my mind. "Kat, why don't you have girlfriend?"


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    I had always had a thing about money. I was used to money being tight around the house so I had learned to just accept money as it was given but now that things were steady and I even had my own steady stream of cash flow, I often refused when you'd offer to pay even though I knew it made you feel like I spoiled you most of the time (Even though I mostly do). I would once in a very great while would allow you to at least pay for something, I guess today was one of those days. "Hmm, Fine. But only Taco bell. I've got the rest" I said in a soft tone, Smiling as I looked at you while we walked along the side walk to the parking lot.


    I went silent as you spoke, My mind trying to process where that came from and why it came as a shock to me. I just shrugged and mumbled. "I mean. I don't know. I just haven't found the right person-. Wait why do you ask?" I shook my head softly in confusion. I never really have found someone that I really connected with. Besides you, but I never wanted to bother with it and follow that dream in the case of possibly screwing things up and losing you. Finally, I just looked at you and sighed. "I've liked people but it always gets boring and I lose feelings so I gave up on dating for a bit."

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    I knew it was gonna throw you off a bit due to it just popping out of my mouth, but I was rather curious about it. The last time you had mentioned something to me about liking someone was months ago, maybe a year? Either way it's been awhile and worried if something had happened that I wasn't aware of. I was quiet while you answered me, I tried to recall who exactly was your last crush or whatever people called it but I couldn't think of the name. Before I could get all caught up in it, I decided to respond. "You can't give up on something like that, you never know when you'll meet the one." I respond, titling my head slightly while you a pouty face. "Any idea why you lose interest though?"


    I won't lie I've thought about us as a couple and in my head, we work out just fine. But would we in reality? When we butt heads we do it hard and sometimes go without speaking for days, but that's friendship and not dating. I do find you a very attractive person but it's just about your looks either, you have a very interesting personality and you actually took the time to get to know me which means a lot to me. Truth be told, I'm surprised you've stuck around so long.
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    I've never gave thought to other people in all honesty. It was mostly ever only you on my mind but at times, I'd give a bullshit name once in a while just so I didn't seem like a loner or raise suspicions about anything. I had a feeling that there was times that basically screamed "Hey I like you" so I tend to come up with excuses so you don't catch on. I don't know why I never bothered to tell you that I like you, It just never came to mind I guess. "I don't know. I just never felt a connection" I mumbled, knowing I wasn't fully lying. But I didn't have to heart to say its because I was waiting for you.


    I've always felt strongly for you, especially when you were hurt or sad or anything. I tried my hardest to be there for you. Whenever you were sick, I'd make sure to come over with Balloons and candy. If someone had ever hurt you, I was quick to come to your defense. Not even just because I was basically in love with you, but also because you were my best friend and I felt such a strong connection to you. I hated to see you upset. No matter how bad our fights got, I ended up dropping my stubbornness and apologizing.

    [align=center][sub]I felt as if I was playing twenty questions with you, I guess it was to get more information as well as to keep silence taking over as we walked. I've never been the type to really like silence it makes think that I've done something wrong and that you or someone else is upset or mad at me even if I haven't done anything to cause such a thing. Isn't that what they call anxiety? Probably not. Hearing your response made me feel like I was prying a little too much, suppose I should back off a bit seeing as I am invading your personal space. But I am your best friend so it is kinda my job. I wasn't really buying your answer, something in my gut told me you were keeping something from me it was just hard to tell what exactly. "My gut tells me that's not the full truth. Come onnnnn, there's gotta be someone you think or thought you had a connection with." I chuckled, giving you a small playful nudge. "Besides me of course, I don't count. You'd never like me." I added, of course pretty much instantly regretting it.


    I fell silent as I awaited for you to say something, but then again I didn't. I didn't wanna hear the words 'you're right, I wouldn't.' because it would crush me but of course you would never know seeing as all the love and crush feelings I have towards you, I keep hidden. I wasn't willing to lose a friendship because I'm an idiot. What I really wanted to hear was that I was wrong and that you did like me or maybe you'll just skip my last comment, that would be better. I really don't want a comment back on it because I know it'll be the opposite of what I want to hear but maybe in order for me to get over these feelings I do need to hear it, no matter how much I don't want too. But before anything else could be said, we finally reached your car. I awaited for the doors to be unlocked then tossed my book bag into back and sat in the passenger seat.

    I just walked in silence as you talked, knowing fully well you were just going to catch on and shoot it down as a lie. When you said that I could never like you, I stopped for a moment as my heart started pounding in my chest and i forced myself to keep walking. "God why don't I just tell you? Kat just tell her. You have to someday." I thought to myself and then I shook my head and just mumbled. "I haven't felt any connections. I guess I should keep looking again." I glanced at your my bottom lip drawn between my teeth as I nervously looked away and grabbed my keys, unlocking my doors with my keys and started tossed my bag in the backseat, not really caring where it landed.


    I was so scared. My heart was pounding and I knew I had to choose to lie about it or finally tell you. There was so many "what ifs" floating around in my head. I really didn't want to mess things up. You're my best friend, What if you didn't like me back and that you'd be creeped out by the fact that I liked you? I never really got an idea just what your sexuality was. I've always assumed you were straight.

    [align=center][sub]My thing about sexuality was weird. I never really tell anyone who or what I like because I don't get along with most people, no one gets close enough for me to like them, so I never say it was necessary to put it out there. But hell, did you even know? I don't think you did I guess I just assumed you picked up on it because of some of things I said. I heard you answer me and apparently avoid the last comment, I was grateful for it but also sad. I've played out several scenarios like this in my head, this wasn't one of the outcomes but I guess it's for better if you don't comment on it right? Or maybe I needed to tell you how I feel, but what if you don't feel the same? In the end, I would eventually be okay no matter how I wanted us to be a thing, but would our friendship ever be the same?


    Things have been pretty quiet for at least two minutes. I was struggling to find something say because I wasn't sure if I wanted to change the subject, tell you, or just laugh it all off? I could feel my heart rate starting to pick us as I thought about how badly things could end if I told you. Just do it. Tell her, if she doesn't feel the same she'll just shoot you down gently. I mentally told myself as I let out a heavy sigh and shook my head. Okay, lemme be honest with you. I think I like you Kat, I know it sounds so cliche and whatnot but it's true. Now I know you probably don't feel the same but I felt like you needed to know." There. It was done and over with, it was out there but I wasn't ready for a response. I wasn't ready for the awkwardness that was coming, I wasn't ready to lose you as a friend but I guess I should of thought about that before I said everything I just did.

    I had never really gave it thought. There's been times that I've questioned your sexuality but I ended up dismissing it and assuming that you were straight. I just shook my head and started my car, sitting in silence while waiting for the car to warm up and just sat in silence, overthinking. Should I just say it? Maybe just see the results? I mean, You couldn't be too mad or upset, could you? I just never thought there would be a time in this four years of friendship, Where I could have the chance to tell you all the times I've thought about you.


    I was about to open my mouth to admit to everything, Til I heard you speak. I could feel my heart jump in my throat and I fell silent, trying to process what I had just heard. Did she really just say that? Am I hearing things? Can she read my mind? My head was spinning with confusion and My heart was pounding rapidly against my chest. Finally, I just gained the courage and quickly leaned over the center console, Caressing your jawline while gently pulling you closer and pressing my lips against yours, kissing you with all the breath and courage in me. After a couple seconds, I leaned back in my seat and smiled. "I like you too.."

    [align=center][sub]I was struggling to keep my cool while I thought of all the negative reactions you could have or were going to have. I didn't want it to be awkward and weird from then on out, but it was too late to take it back. It was out there and that's how it was going to stay. Just as I went to say something, not sure what but it was gonna something, your lips were suddenly on mine. I froze briefly as I tried to register if it was actually happening or not but once it clicked, I didn't hesitate to return the kiss. When you pulled back I wasn't sure what was going to happen next, for whatever reason my thoughts went south and I was worried things wee just gonna be weird but you said words that I wasn't expecting. Were you lying? And just saying it because you felt bad? No, that wasn't you. Maybe for once in my life something that I wanted was actually happening.


    "A-Are you sure?" I stammered still struggling to process everything. I looked over at you to see your expression and it seemed like you weren't laughing or lying but how could I be? I wanted this thing to happen but now that it seems to be going in that direction, I'm questions everything. Why? You're not usually the type to say something you don't mean. "I didn't think I was your type. I'm an asshole." I'm rambling at this point because I'm struggling with the fact that there's a chance that the person I like actually likes me back. I pulled my gaze to my hands, fidgeting with my clothes as I awaited for you to say something.

    I almost regretted being so forward with it, Almost. Until I felt you press into the kiss. My mind was racing with everything that was going on. This was going too fast but I currently didn't care because to me, It was just the perfect pace. I eventually looked at you after a long silence, trying to form words, anything. But I couldn't find a thing to say so I just stared at you for a little bit, allowing a soft smile.



    I slowly nodded, smiling sincerely. "Trust me, I'm sure. very very sure." I whispered, slowly reaching over and grabbing your hand softly. "I've always liked you. You are perfect to me, In so many ways. Okay?" I whisper softly, searching your gaze as I spoke.

    [align=center][sub]My eyes traveled down to our hands as she you grabbed mine, giving me the reassurance I so desperately needed. "Always?" I repeated the word but it in a questioning way. What do you mean by always? How have did I not know this? How did I not pick up the signs? Was that oblivious or did you keep it hidden? I eventually met your gaze, biting my lip rather nervously. Why was I so nervous any way? Why am I so doubtful of what you're saying? It might be because I've never really been with someone, I was never the type to really get close to anyone but that was only because people aren't always there for you like they say they are. But you, you were different. I dunno what made you want to befriend me or even speak to me, but you did and you didn't give up on me no matter how distant I got with you at times or how rude I was at the start of this long friendship. But my real question was, how come you waited so long to tell me? Why you didn't tell me? Or why you have hidden it from me? But then again, I had done the same thing but that was because I had thought you liked tons of other people. "How come you never told me?"

    I had always been so scared of losing you. I tried my best at times to stick with you and help, no matter how pissed or rude you got at points. I know it seemed annoying but in a way, It helped. I realized I should have told you from the start as seeing the outcome here. I always knew you would at least accept it but yet I still managed to convince myself that I'd lose you and you'd hate me. I looked away and nodded softly. "Yes, Always." I replied in a soft tone. I then looked up at you and allowed a soft smile, then shrugged. "I was so scared you'd turn me down or wouldn't like me. You know how hard I tried to get to this point of being your best friend, and I wasn't quite ready to risk messing that up." In all honesty, I had never been with anyone since we became friends. I had always wanted to seem available to you. There was one fling, but I didn't feel a connection and I just ended up leaving it. I looked at you with a soft gaze, drawing my bottom lip between my teeth as I grew nervous. Am I rambling? I hope I'm not rambling. I thought to myself as I looked down at our hands.

    I guess it never really occurred to me just how hard it was for someone to become my friend, more so my best friend. But if it was such a struggle why did you stay? Why didn't you give up like the others? Why did you put up with me? I had so many questions but I wasn't sure if questioning you about all of it would make you mad and cause you not to want to bother with me ever again. I pulled my gaze once again down to my lap, thinking about all the hell I had put you through. I really am a bit of a horrible person aren't I? Why am I suddenly so insecure? I need to stop, what I'm doing is what's gonna cause this friendship, relationship, whatever you wanted to call it, fail. I can't have that. So with my gaze still on my lap, I nodded my head. "I understand. I hid it too but I guess we should of just came clean about it in the beginning." A shrug left my shoulders as I spoke, my mind still somewhere in my thoughts. Would it have really bothered if our friend ship ended? Or would you have been just fine and replaced with someone else? After all, I'm not someone I consider of how value or importance although I have several people who care and love for me. But most are family, they kinda have to love me and whatever so that doesn't count. "If you whatever reason our friend had failed, would you have actually been bothered by it? Or would you have just replaced me days later?" The question slipped out of my mouth before I could stop it or think about what I was saying. But I do suppose it is okay since we're being honest about our feelings and all.