I can't imagine my life without you PAFP
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“Oh..” I murmur quietly. “Well that’s good isn’t it?” I say softly wanting to see if he was happy or not when I realized he had disappointment written all over his face I got upset. “You are upset because you can’t have a kid with a random girl you fu*ked when we weren’t dating.. you say you want a family with me. You say you want a life a with me. I damn mark you’re not showing it” I say
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VIXENS STORM
Mark looks are calmly "I want a family yes....with you yes...don't go jumping to conclusions. It's just that girl opened my eyes to how short life is" he spoke.
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“I’m not jumping to conclusions mark..life’s short but if your so scared of how short it is that your willing to be upset that you don’t have a baby with a one night stand then.. I don’t know.” I say with a sigh. I stand up. “You say you want to build a life with me. But anytime I try to bring it up you say we’re not ready.”
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He looks at her "You're putting words in my mouth" he spoke quietly before sighing. "I am ready. You're not." He explains "you're too invested, too spotty, you easily risk your life. I want a life and family with you but all you do is cause trouble and still I am there for you"
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I laugh. A sour laugh not a happy bubbly one. “I’m too spotty?i easily risk my life?” I laugh again. “It’s called I care about my patients, I care about my job. I care about making people safe. Because I got into a plane crash.. not my fault.. because army ex boyfriend beat me half to death? Not my fault.” I say. I was dead calm. And that’s when people should watch what they said because I yell an s I scream black it was i scream but when jm dead calm.. that’s when yo I should worry. “I’ve been been ready for a family since i got pregnant with your baby a ykur baby and i miscarried.” I say. “But I’m not ready”
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Mark rose a brow to her calm nature making him smile "Good." He spoke "Communication finally" smiling more. "So you believe you're not ready due to miscarrying and that's okay " he assures tilting his head. His gaze switching from a jerk know it all to a caring and loving gaze. "I'm sorry. I know you love your job but you have a someone...me always waiting for you to return home. Same for you"
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“I deserve my happy ending.” I say quietly. “And..” I pause tears welling up in my eyes “I deserve it with you. I deserve it” I say. I was calm but it was evident I was getting upset
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Mark shifts patting the bed beside him "Come here sweetheart" wanting to hold her.
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I sniffles and I sit down. My eyes drifted down into my lap. “You don’t want this with me. You want someone who isn’t me”. “I want a family. I want something I never had I want a family” tears were rolling down my fheeks
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Bump
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He gently holds her close nodding his head "You will baby, you will" kissing her cheek, rocking her slowly
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I sigh. I bury my head in his shoulder and just as my eyes begin to code my pager goes off
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Bump
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Bump
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Mark felt so content and connected with her until that pager went off, he loosens his grip and sighs
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I sigh “I’m sorry” I say standing up. I pull my hair up and smooth down my scrub top. I walk out
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"I understand" he murmurs watching her go
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Lexie helps on a trauma. The pts parents are panicking yelling
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Mark groans, covering his head with a pillow