UNTIL I DIE ALONE - pafp.

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From the eyes of most kids in the house, this party was the most insane thing they'd ever experienced. House parties were already such a wild ride, but none were more wild than this one. However, from Kadin's eyes, this thing was a curse. He just wanted to play his guitar, sing his songs, and be done with it all. There was the promise of a couch to crash on after it was over and food, and all he had to do was the one thing he loved. Of course, they also wanted him to hang around after his set - which he hadn't been expecting to get cut short by the arrival of an actual dj. What the *? He was the performer here! Well, apparently he was just there to entertain before the 'real' entertainment got here. Besides, his sad ukulele songs were totally killing their vibes.

Begrudgingly, he was told he had to stay in order to get that nice couch and all the food in the pantry. He supposed they just wanted to keep things interesting. Unable to stand the predictable crap blaring from the stereo, he retreated to the kitchen, though that was just as cramped and uninteresting. So, he decided to sneak upstairs, finding the calming quiet and dark of unlit bedrooms so inviting. Unfortunately, most of the rooms were closed off and he didn't want to sneak in or anything - that'd give the wrong impression, he imagined.

One bedroom was open and unoccupied, but it was not the bedroom itself that filled him with relief. No, it was the window, which he was lucky enough to find lead straight out onto the shingled roof - he adored houses like that. He could sit out under the stars for a little, have some peace and quiet in the crisp nightly autumn weather. He was not equipped for such weather, but honestly the feeling of the cool air hitting him was a blessing in itself. He loved the cold, even if the weather always made him sad.

So, he heaved himself off the safety of the windowsill and onto the sandy colored shingles, enjoying the cold as it nipped at his bare feet, or the feeling of the cold shingles hitting his back as he laid down on them. He realized anyone could come up here at any moment, but he'd only left the door partially open and just assumed people wouldn't want to leave the glamour of the party to sit on the roof like he had. [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost]
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[fancypost bgcolor=rgba(288, 288, 288, 0.6); border:none; width:250px; height:260px; margin-top:10px; padding:5px; overflow:hidden;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:250px; height:260px; padding:0px; padding-right:22px; overflow:auto;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:247px; min-height:260px; text-align:justify; padding:2px; color:#000; font-family:arial; font-size:10.5px; line-height:90%;]Kadin was enjoying the brisk, cool air that was gently blowing against the skin of his exposed feet or gently brushing aside his deep brown bangs. He was feeling peaceful at last, allowing a soft sigh to slip from between his lips while his eyes were shut reverently. He had stargazed for a moment or two, but the sky was stark and nearly barren, with just a few twinkling lights from fading stars and old satellites. It was a new moon, which left the sky looking even emptier than it already should've.

He was stirred from his peaceful silence by the sounds of another, someone who had clearly similar intentions to himself. He did not stir at first, but as he heard them heave their way onto the roof too he sat up, looking to see who had found him out. He hoped nobody was pissed he'd been up here.

Watching an unfamiliar girl join him, he cleared his throat softly in hopes of garnering her attention. "U-um..." he began, though he was uncertain of what to say. "Trying to get away from the party too?" He asked softly, a little awkward but not wanting to sit there in total silence. Well, they could definitely do that after they at least said something, otherwise it'd likely be even more awkward.

He was not a social sort, really - Kadin liked the tranquility of nature, seclusion in the woods was a preferred spot. Otherwise, the only crowds he liked were at concerts, because he really fucking loved music.

Grassy green eyes looked her over curiously; or admiringly if you will. He wasn't staring or anything - he was mostly just curious. He was quick to brush some of his own bangs back so they looked better, the breeze had pushed them around a bit and it probably looked kind of funny. That was no way to make a first impression.[/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost]
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[fancypost bgcolor=rgba(288, 288, 288, 0.6); border:none; width:250px; height:260px; margin-top:10px; padding:5px; overflow:hidden;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:250px; height:260px; padding:0px; padding-right:22px; overflow:auto;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:247px; min-height:260px; text-align:justify; padding:2px; color:#000; font-family:arial; font-size:10.5px; line-height:90%;]Kadin listened as her voice picked up again, from the dim street lights he could make iut her figure a bit. He felt a pang of sympathy as he startled her, almost panicking as he thought she might fall.

"I was supposed to handle that music," he said somewhat bitterly, "They stopped me so they could blare their crap instead" he wondered if he was being a bother at all, but honestly he didn't care very much then.

He allowed their moment of silence to settle comfortably in the air, he even laid back down to watch the sky. He listened, though, as she spoke up again. Her voice cut the thickness in the air, but he didn't mind at all really. "Not at all. If you need a break from the crowd it'd be awfully rude to kick you out; it's not my roof to claim" he hoped desperately he wasn't being awkward at all. Or at least, he wasn't being too awkward.

He felt her eyes on him, butdid not point it out - it was no bother to him. He hated eye contact, but a few curious glances were just fine. He let a soft sigh slip past his lips, not being bothered by her prescence all that much. He did want this to be a private time but, he supposed he had no need to fuss over it for very long. And hey, she wasn't being rude or overly chatty - could he really complain that much?

"Not much of a party person either? Or do you just need a little brake...? If you don't mind my asking" surprisingly, he was being s little talkative. Not that Kadin was overly stoic - he was much too emotional and passionate really, but he tended to be rather shy. In fact, the realization he was talking to a seemingly nice girl made a little color rush to his cheeks.[/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost]
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[fancypost bgcolor=rgba(288, 288, 288, 0.6); border:none; width:250px; height:260px; margin-top:10px; padding:5px; overflow:hidden;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:250px; height:260px; padding:0px; padding-right:22px; overflow:auto;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:247px; min-height:260px; text-align:justify; padding:2px; color:#000; font-family:arial; font-size:10.5px; line-height:90%;]His eyes followed the few weak, twinkling lights in the sky for some time as silence had settled between them, listening as she spoke up again. It seemed she wasn't keen on parties either. "That makes two of us, then" he chimed up with a soft chuckle.

"Being dragged to parties like that sucks" he commented, almost more to himself than to her. "Me? - I was supposed to be down there playing music. I was promised a place to stay for the night and I was even getting paid for it. They kicked me off early, haven't paid me yet, and I'm really only sticking around for the couch to sleep on after everyone leaves" he admitted with a bit of a giggle. It kind of sucked, but he was totally chill about it too. Damn, those drinks must be stronger than he thought - he'd only had a few and he was being so honest. Normally, he was quite the withdrawn sort.

Kadin was never keen on lying - but within the last year or so it'd become a habit. Started out with little lies to his parents, escalated into pretty deep shit, and now he was here. Funny how things worked out like that. He'd gone from a cushioned home, safely tucked away from the world. Now, he had been plunged headfirst into it and he seemed to be struggling under it a little. Yet, he felt more free than he had ever felt in his life. He was not an uptight sort - if the hair and the barefeet didn't give that all away.

His eyelids fluttered closed, but he was not falling asleep - he just liked spacing out like that best of all. Truthfully, Kadin felt as if he was out of his body altogether at the moment - he was projected out into another world while his body hung low here on earth. His mind was always somewhere else really, he was always the spacey sort. He could imagine himself in a billion places, and he loved to imagine all the possibilities good or bad. It was a wonderful escape from everything going on.

He let out a soft breath he hadn't realized he was holding in, and wondered if the girl thought he was strange or something. He lay completely still, save for the gentle dipping up and down of his chest and the slightest twitches in his hands or feet. His feet were rather cold, he noted - but he liked it. Gave him a little shock to keep him going. All he needed now was a cigarette, and he would feel completely at peace. He knew very well the habit was bad, but it was long standing and he didn't care enough about himself to stop. Thinking about it was giving him cravings, so he forced his eyes open as he turned to look for the other girl's figure. He hadn't heard her leave, but he didn't hear her there either. [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost]
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[fancypost bgcolor=rgba(288, 288, 288, 0.6); border:none; width:250px; height:260px; margin-top:10px; padding:5px; overflow:hidden;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:250px; height:260px; padding:0px; padding-right:22px; overflow:auto;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:247px; min-height:260px; text-align:justify; padding:2px; color:#000; font-family:arial; font-size:10.5px; line-height:90%;]He wondered what she might be thinking about him. If she thought he seemed interesting or strange or a mix of the two. If she thought he was being annoying or wanted to talk more. He always wondered what others thought of him when they spoke with him, especially the first time they spoke.

Enjoying the bliss of the quiet moment, he watched as she settled down closer to his level, and though he was sure she wouldn't see him well in the dark sent her a small, friendly smile. Then, he turned back to look at the sky, but his gaze did not remain on the sky very long.

"Not really honestly. Seems alright, though" he shrugged. Truthfully they had only met so long ago, but the guy was pretty chill and was fine with him staying so long as he was at the party of course. He was a bit loud for Kadin's liking, but he'd happily suck it up for a warm place to stay and eager ears willing to hear his songs. Bringing his arms up behind his head, he relaxed a little more against the hard shingles. Honestly, if he wanted to he could fall asleep right here - not with the girl here of course, that'd be a little rude and definitely awkward. But Kadin was not someone who was too picky about such trivial things as a napping spot - hell if he had it his way, he'd sleep nestled safely in a large tree. A bit odd sounding perhaps, but he really loved nature that much. And tree climbing was one of his favorite pastimes.

Still, the weather was becoming a bit too chilly for even him to stand it, and he'd hate to make himself ill or freeze to death when he could easily get in a gig and a nice place to stay the night. This guy's parents were supposed to be gone all weekend, so no one would get mad if he hung out, and the guy seemed completely cool with giving him somewhere safe to stay.

The wind picked up, and the sound of dead leaves crunching and crackling as they hit the pavement on the street below could be faintly heard beneath the deep bass that thumped from the downstairs. It seemed things were getting more dance-y down there, the bass was heavier but there wasn't any noise from vocals or anything that he could hear. Honestly he couldn't wait until they finally died down back there.

He didn't miss home much, really. He didn't miss arguing or sneaking around, forcing himself into a mold that just didn't fit right. But, sometimes he missed the quiet of the night; waking up before the sun rose and listening to the nightly world from his window before falling back asleep, or the sweet smell of tea on the kettle. That...that he did miss. He supposed his parents were glad he was gone, things must've been so peaceful there. Something in his heart wanted him to believe otherwise, and yet still he was convinced they were glad he was gone. If they did miss him, it was their own fault anyways. [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost]
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[fancypost bgcolor=rgba(288, 288, 288, 0.6); border:none; width:250px; height:260px; margin-top:10px; padding:5px; overflow:hidden;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:250px; height:260px; padding:0px; padding-right:22px; overflow:auto;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:247px; min-height:260px; text-align:justify; padding:2px; color:#000; font-family:arial; font-size:10.5px; line-height:90%;]"Yeah, pretty much," he admitted with a soft giggle. A comfortable air was settling around them both now, allowing him to relax a little more as she seemed to follow suit.

He noticed she seemed a little chilly, but all he had to offer was a light sweatshirt. He'd freeze his ass off in a few weeks but for now, it'd have to do. "Hey uh, you want my sweatshirt? It's pretty damn cold up here" he sat up finally, resting his elbows on his knees and looking over the other. He was surprised she hadn't asked for his name yet, or mentioned his accent - those were common questions. He was glad, though; it aucked answering the same question a thousand times over.

"I'm Kadin, by the way." He added in softly, quick to tug off the fabric of his sweatshirt and pull it off, ready to hand it over if she so asked.

Looking back up at the sky for a moment, he watched for any lights worth seeing, but the sky remained unchanged. "I wish city lights didn't burn out the stars like they do" he spoke wistfully, and honestly.

(Sorry this is horribly rushed) [/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost]
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[fancypost bgcolor=rgba(288, 288, 288, 0.6); border:none; width:250px; height:260px; margin-top:10px; padding:5px; overflow:hidden;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:250px; height:260px; padding:0px; padding-right:22px; overflow:auto;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:247px; min-height:260px; text-align:justify; padding:2px; color:#000; font-family:arial; font-size:10.5px; line-height:90%;]He didn't realize how chilly it actually was out until he had the sweatshirt safely in his arms, ready for her to take. As it turned out, she didn't even want it, but he didn't immediately put it back on either. "If you're sure" he said softly, instead covering his thin frame with it again and feeling a little better.

"Amara - that's a really lovely name," he complimented genuinely, just after she had complimented his own. "And uh, thanks" he added in softly. He thought her name was really pretty, it wasn't one he thought he had heard before. His own was nice enough, he didn't care much one way or another, but he supposed he was lucky he hadn't been stuck with a very common name. According to his parents, they'd heard it in passing and his mother had insisted on it. His father had wanted something more 'professional' but his mother had won that argument and they'd stuck him with Kadin.

Bringing his knees up to his chest, he wrapped his arms around them and hugged them tightly, resting his chin on them. His toes were rather cold now - the downside to being barefoot as often as he was. He should've been used to it maybe, but it was still rather cold and he couldn't help it as much as he tried. Biting down gently on his lip, he allowed silence to settle between them again for a moment as he was unsure of what else to say.[/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost]
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"No need to thank me," he commented softly, not moving as the wind picked up and brushed his bangs in his face. He liked the wind, even if it was so cold tonight, just because he liked the feelings of a nice breeze running through his hair or blowing gently around him. It calmed him and he didn't really know why.

Feeling her eyes on himself, he looked in her direction curiously, wondering himself what she really looked like. He loved seeing the doversity in different people, it just...fascinated him a lot. Tilting his head, almost as if he were a dog, he tried and failed to get a good look at her profile in the lighting without staring too much. He couldn't make out details, but what he could he agreed eith himself he really liked.

"Astronomy? Sort of - I love stargazing and finding constellations if that counts for anything" he let a soft giggle bubble from his lips at that, a sweet smile falling onto his features. "What about you?" He decided to inquire, figuring he could because she'd asked him.

He hoped he wasn't a bore, or that he wasn't being too awkward, which was definitely a trait he carried.[/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost]
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[fancypost bgcolor=rgba(288, 288, 288, 0.6); border:none; width:250px; height:260px; margin-top:10px; padding:5px; overflow:hidden;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:250px; height:260px; padding:0px; padding-right:22px; overflow:auto;][fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:247px; min-height:260px; text-align:justify; padding:2px; color:#000; font-family:arial; font-size:10.5px; line-height:90%;]He huddled a little within himself, shielding his face from a strong gust of wind. He ducked his head lower, resting on his knees, and waited a moment before popping it back upright again sweetly.

"They're not so hard to learn really" he reassured softly, "And I can't really make it out right now, but that might be Orion's belt" he was quick to point up at the sky, squinting his own eyes to make it out better. "I love stars and the sky so much - very beautiful" he admired softly, wondering if she could see it too. "Plus I like learning the stories behind some of them - how they got their names and such"

He rested his head on his knees again, his focusing on nothing in particular as his mind began to wander to innocent thoughts. Biting gently on his lip, he remained silent for a moment before returning to the present - and he was quick to face the other with an innocent smile. He couldn't help it much when he spaced out like that, he had a very active imagination (or so he'd been told).

Gently wiggling his cold toes, he wondered if she was cold again. Well, he knew she was but he wondered if it was really bothering her. Taking a strand of his dark locks, he began twirling it between his fingers absentmindedly. "You're not too cold are you?" he decided to ask softly.[/fancypost][/fancypost][/fancypost]
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