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Male - White Faced Jaguar - 1.5 Years - Windclan - Difficult[fancypost bgcolor=none; bordercolor=transparent; borderwidth=0px; width: 370px;font-size:8pt;line-height: 130%;][justify][color=black]
He'd been on his own for a while now. Months, at least. It wasn't the lifestyle he would have wanted, but it was the one he'd chosen in the end. How could he not after what had happened? It was his punishment, and he'd endured it for a long time, remaining alone in the rogue lands and surviving in solitude. But it had taken an obvious toll on him, and while the food was good enough to keep him in shape one could see the look of exhaustion that came in his dragging steps and sluggish movements. And while he knew he deserved to die and that perhaps a part of him wanted it that way, an even greater part of him wanted to live. The coward in him that wanted to thwart death at any cost, even though it was the only thing that would reunite him with his lost family. And yet he couldn't except his own demise or the insanity that was slowly driving him to the brink. He needed people and purpose, even if he didn't deserve it.
So, it was with great guilt weighing on his broad shoulders that Cry came to a halt on the Windclan borders. Before the jaguar was an expanse of grassland in a dipping, secluded valley, and he could already smell the multitude of animals that lived here wafting up to him from the valley down below. He had spent a great deal of time debating with himself, trying to convince himself that there wasn't even a place to go that he could consider a home. And for a while that had helped him keep himself in line, because if there was nowhere for him to go then he didn't have a choice, but... then he'd heard of Windclan. Of a group that wasn't filled with murderous tyrants and *ssholes looking to ruin the lives of anyone and anything they could. And the temptation had come back full force, until finally...
Well, here he was.
He knew better then to cross the boundary line, so instead he took a seat to wait it out. He could smell the scent trails along the path he was on and could tell this was an area that was well patrolled, so it would only be a matter of being patient. Could he do that, though? Every second the white-faced jaguar stood there was another moment he was debating on leaving, because he didn't deserve the happiness or contentment of clan life. Not in the slightest...
