What Did You Ex[p]ect?

Skylar sat down across from Danny with Jamison next to her. She glanced over to Danny before back up to Jamison who was speaking to her. She knew that Danny was jealous, it was easy to see. The looks he would give him. She didn't know if anyone else saw but she hoped he wouldn't be called out for it. She felt terrible about it though. She felt as if she were leading him on though she wasn't trying to. She felt like the worst person but she kept it to herself.

Sky was speaking with others at the table as if nothing had happened. She laughed with them and shared crazy stories of work and coworkers. She went and reached for her cup when she thought Jamison was about to jump out of his seat by his sudden freaking out. "What the hell happened to your wrists?" He snapped. She jumped and pulled her hands back as she looked at Jamison. She looked around her as everyone fell silent and you could hear the sound of forks hitting plates as people set their silverware down to look over. Sky looked over to Danny with a slight fear, she didn't want Jamison to freak out. She looked back up at Jamison but couldn't think of anything to say. "Did somebody hurt you?" He asked while raising his voice. There was anger in his eyes. "No." she replied instantly. "Then what happened?" He snapped at her for a reply. She couldn't help the small flinch as he yelled at her. She hated when he was mad, he would yell and have this look in his eyes which sometimes scared her. "I was at work and I was helping moving a couch to where I wanted and it fell on my wrists. But I am ok." Sky spoke trying to calm him down. She felt like a child whenever he yelled at her, he made her always feel like she had done something wrong when he yelled. He seemed to relax as he sighed. "You should have told me, how come I haven't seen them before?" He asked in a much calmer voice. She sighed softly as he calmed down. She didn't realize how tense she was until her body visibly relaxed. "I didn't want you to worry. I am fine. And I have been covering it with makeup." She spoke in a soft voice. He sighed and nodded his head. "Tell me next time." He spoke to her as a demand. Sky gave him a tight smile and nodded her head. She turned back to her plate and glanced up at everyone who turned back and began to eat and talk again. She glanced at Danny for only half a second before at her plate. She grabbed her water and took a sip before putting it back. She had lost her appetite.

Skylar looked up at Danny after a few seconds just in time to catch his look to her. Her eyes went wide and she knew exactly what he was going to do. She didn't want Jamison to flip out on him and she knew very well that he would. Jamison had a very thin temper and he was very protective so it wasn't the best mix. Her heart was race as everyone fell silent and looked between Danny and her.

Sky shook her head as he continued speaking. She really wished he wouldn't have started to say anything. "Danny stop." She pleaded him. It was too late though, everyone seemed to have gasped and looked at her. She glanced at everyone else before back up at Danny. She already knew that Jamison was fuming by the news. She flinched and put her head down and shoulder up as if scared and to protect herself when he suddenly stood up. "You did that to her!" Jamison snapped loudly. Sky looked over to Danny before back at Jamison. She quickly stood and grabbed his arm. "Jamie please. It was an accident." She tried to calm him down. No one else was saying anything, no one knew how to react. "I don't care! He can't do that to you and just get away with it! Like he said there was no excuse!" He then snapped at her. She flinched again and felt small and like a child as his anger eyes stared down at her. "Jamie please relax. I am perfectly fine." She tried again. "You have damn bruises on your wrists because of him." He yelled at her. "Can we please just talk outside?" She asked him in a small voice as she looked up at him with a slight fear in her eyes. He simply grunted and yanked his arm from her grip. Sky took a shaky breath before following after him. Her eyes were watering as she stepped outside to talk privately with Jamison so he would cool down. She felt terrible for leaving Danny in there alone with everyone but she had to deal with Jamison first. She would leave them all to talk.

Skylar hoped it was going ok inside because she knew it was going to end bad outside. Jamison was pasing back and forth and she tried to calm him down. It was very hard to get him to calm down. He had an even worse temper than Danny. She hated when he was upset and went out to drink then came home or to her place when they weren't living together. She would sleep on the couch waiting for him or lock herself in the room too afraid to open the door and face him. She had once and it was a big mistake.

Sky had tears in her eyes along with fear. "Jamie please stop! He jut grabbed me that's it!" She tried to explain. He wiped around and looked at her with anger. She froze where she was and watched him. "He grabbed you Sky! He bruised you! Hurt you!" He yelled. She looked away from him and closed her eyes momentarily. As she looked up she saw him moving closer to her which made her jump and move back but her back hit the outside of the house. "Please stop yelling." She pleaded him softly. "It wasn't his fault. It is not his fault that he has PTSD." She tried to explain. "I don't care! He takes pills for it. He shouldn't have forgotten the damn things and maybe this wouldn't have happened!" He yelled ignoring her plea to keep his voice down. "Yes and it was a mistake! It happens, I am ok." She spoke. Sky looked at him confused though as he started to laugh. It wasn't a good laugh though, it terrified her. "Do you like that?" He then asked with a glare and anger and jealousy laced in his voice. She looked at him in fear and her heart raced, she couldn't control her breathing very well. "What?" She asked confused. She gasped when he suddenly grabbed her arms tightly. "Do you like when men grab you like this? They squeeze so hard they bruise you?" He growled in her face. Tears started to pour down her face. "Jamison please. Stop you are hurting me." She spoke weakly. "Do you like being pinned like this? Held down feeling weak and useless?" He snapped at her. Sky flinched and looked away from him. "Please stop." She cried quietly. He then let go and stepped away. "I am going home. You can think about what he did to you and how you deserved that for not standing up for yourself." He spoke viciously then walked to his car. She watched him as she cried against the house. After he pulled away she quickly tried to wipe away the tears. Her eyes were red and puffy as she took a deep breath and walked inside. She believed what he said, that she deserved it for not being able to stand up for herself, she needed to learn to do that better. She still wasn't mad at Danny and didn't blame him for it at all because it was out of his control. Sky walked back to where everyone was and quickly wiped her eyes again when she felt tears on her cheeks. "I am going to go lay down for a little bit." She spoke weakly and before anyone could ask what was wrong she left the room and went straight up the stairs and to her room. She went up to her room and closed the door but didn't lock it. She laid under the covers on her bed and began to sob once more. Her whole body was shaking as she cried.

Skylar heard the knock and tried to stop crying but it was hard. She heard Jackie's voice and she felt herself relax some. She knew that Danny would be very pushy to know what had happened. She knew everyone was probably freaking out downstairs and she knew Danny would be pacing. He always did that when he was worried. She used to love watching him study the day before a test pacing back and forth with a book in his hands. She bit her lip at her question.

Sky didn't know how to answer, she didn't want to completely lie to her but she didn't want to tell her the truth. She didn't want to give any of them details about what happened. Everyone had thought that their relationship was perfect and they were always happy all the time when they were together. For the most part that was true. "He just has a very short temper." She began. Sky didn't face Danny's mother, she was too scared to. "I was trying to calm him down and it wasn't working. He was yelling... then he left." She spoke quietly. She wouldn't tell anyone that he hurt her, on purpose. She knew now that he probably wouldn't go out shopping with her and her mother. She wiped her tears and sat up finally turning and facing Jackie. She gave her a weak smile. "I am ok. I am just upset." She spoke a more half truth.

Skylar frowned and looked down at the covers. She knew she should tell her but she really didn't want anyone to freak out. She didn't think it was that bad but she knew everyone else would, especially Danny. She didn't know what he would do if he knew of everything that happened with Jamison, not just today but before that as well. She felt her eyes watering again.

Sky looked back up at Jackie with worry. She used to talk to her about all of her problems with Danny and she also would talk to her own mother. Usually it was a fight at Danny's house because they were usually there more often. He own house used to have people around all the time, her parents loved to throw parties so her and Danny would just go to his house. "Jamison has a temper. Sometimes he freaks out a little too much and does things he shouldn't and regrets." She spoke softly. Sky wasn't positive that he was ever regretful but she said it just to try to make it easier. "He was yelling at me for sticking up for Danny saying that it wasn't his fault. I tried to tell him that he only grabbed me and that he didn't hit me or hurt me too bad... but he didn't believe me." She spoke and her voice started to crack and eyes water. "He grabbed my arms and pinned me against the house as he yelled at me. I know it sounds bad but he was so angry and I get that. He was upset and he doesn't know how to deal with his anger or how to control it. I am fine though." She spoke as tears rolled down her cheeks. Sky had looked back up at Jackie. "He is not a bad person. I promise." She spoke weakly. "Can you please not tell anyone that though? Especially not Danny. Please? I don't want any of them to worry about something that isn't a big deal." She pleaded her. She didn't want anyone to know and she hated that she had even told Jackie because she would worry too.

Skylar stared at her with worry as she waited for a response. She knew it was a lot to ask of her, to keep this secret. She didn't tell her everything he did but she didn't ask and hoped she wouldn't. She knew if she told her other and father about it all of hell would break loose. Her mother would cry while her father would call the cops or yell in anger because of what he did to her then beat him the next time he saw him. She was terrified that Danny would find out. She knew he wouldn't wait until the next time he saw him like her father would. He would hunt him down and beat him senseless.

Sky felt herself instantly relax when she agreed. She gave her a weak smile and nodded her head. She wiped whatever tears had fallen. "Thank you Jackie. It really means the world to me." She spoke honestly. She then sighed and nodded her head. She would try to tell her parents but she had to find a way to make it sound not as bad as everyone would seem it is. "Ok. I promise I will." She spoke. Sky then stretched and yawned before laying back down. "I will be down a little later, could you just make sure everyone calms down and tries to stop worrying. I am just going to sleep it off." She spoke in hopes that it would work. She would always come up to her room and lay down when she was upset and eventually passed out from crying herself to sleep or was just so emotionally drained.

Skylar fell asleep once Jackie left. She knew that she was right. She would have to tell her mother and father but she didn't know when. She was still debating on whether or not she would tell Danny or not. She was leaning more towards no though. She would break up with Jamison and it would be over. She still loved him though, even with his short temper and jealous. He did terrify her but she still loved him. Though she did love Danny more and couldn't stay with Jamison knowing that.

Sky slept for a good hour before waking up again. She got out of her bed and walked to her bathroom. She brushed her teeth and looked at herself in the mirror. She slipped off the sweater she had put on and felt her eyes water up again. She looked like a total mess. Her eyes were red and puffy from her crying and rubbing and cheeks tear stained. She had bruises on her wrists and there were faint bruises on her arms where Jamison had roughly grabbed her and had her against the wall. Sky shouldn't have even moved against the house, she should have stayed grounded, though he would have probably shoved her against it anyways, he had done that before. She didn't realize that she was crying again until she felt it on her jawline. She quickly wiped her tears away and put her sweater back on. She couldn't do anything about her red eyes so she would have to go back downstairs looking the way she came up. She took a deep breath and started her way down. Breakfast was probably over by now or just finishing up so she went the other way of the dining room. Instead of going right and into the dining room she went left and into the living room. The fireplace had a fire from this morning and she sat on the love seat closest to the fire. Sky curled up in the corner of it and watched the fire with her head resting on the back cushion. She faced towards the fire and away from everything else as she focused on the sounds of the fire. She only took up half of one cushion of the two cushioned couch that someone named the love seat. She always thought it was rediculous to name a couch a love seat.

Skylar knew that Danny had walked into the room. She could feel his eyes on her and had heard his steps. She didn't know what to say exactly. She couldn't tell him about Jamison and the way he would act towards her when they were alone. She couldn't tell him how he scared her when he just yelled or gives her a dangerous look. He would worry and freak out. Jamison wasn't always that way. He was very sweet to her. He made her smile and laugh and he did make her happy. She would always be on edge though and had to watch her words very carefully just in case she said something wrong and he snapped.

Sky looked over to Danny with a hidden pain in her eyes. She felt drained from the day and it had barely started. She didn't want to go out with her mother and go shopping but she knew it would be a good distraction. She gave him a small smile as she kept her eyes locked with his. She knew very well that he was worried about her. "I am not a wounded animal Danny. You can sit with me." She spoke in a soft voice with a sweet smile of amusement by his distance even though she felt like she couldn't smile. Danny could make her smile without even trying. When Sky was around him she just felt better about everything, she would always find a way to lighten up the mood around him easily because he simply just made her happy. With Jamison when he was upset or something was going wrong she couldn't make anything light and happy. She looked at the negative instead of the positive. With Danny she didn't need to watch her words and she wasn't on edge. She felt safe around him, even now after his panic attacks and when he grabbed her. She still trusted him and knew he wouldn't ever hurt her on purpose... unlike Jamison.

Skylar watched Danny with slight worry. He stayed where he was and not over next to her. She knew he was worried and still upset with himself even though she didn't think he should be. It wasn't his fault and she probably shouldn't have touched him. She had to remember to look up things about how to help with people who have PTSD. She wanted to know what to do if it ever happened again. She wanted to prepare herself for the worst as well.

Skylar kept her eyes on Danny with a frown. She didn't want him to be so worried and upset. He shouldn't have to be, she shouldn't have touched him and she needed to learn to stick up for herself like Jamison had said. He was always right about her. "Danny..." she began as she stood from her seat. She moved to the other couch that he sat at across from where they used to always cuddle. She sat down next to him and looked up at him. "Why are you beating yourself up over this?" Sky asked in a soft voice. Everyone was gone except for their parents but they were all either in the kitchen or in the living room, but most likely in her father's over sized office that he turned has a seating area in it. She grabbed his hand and gave it a small squeeze for comfort. She wanted him to talk to her because she would always be there for him. He that as well. He could always talk to her if he needed it or wanted to get something off of his chest.

Skylar listened to him carefully as he finally spoke. She was glad he was telling her even though she knew mostly why he was upset. She knew her reaction scared him. She would feel the same if he looked at her the way she looked at him. She understood but she just wished he would realize that she wasn't scared of him and she would be there with him through all of this. She frowned when he wanted an explanation.

Sky didn't think she would have to give him one, that he already understood why. She sighed softly and didn't answer at first. She wanted to collect it all first so she knew what she was saying. She looked away from his eyes that she adored and loved so much but only for a moment. She didn't want to look away too long, she didn't want to worry him and she didn't want to miss looking into his eyes before he was pulled away from her again. She looked back up at him with her soft brown golden eyes. "Danny. I love you. I was scared. I didn't know what was going on, I didn't know what to do to try and help you and that scared me. I wanted to be there for you, to be strong for you and help you... and I couldn't." She spoke with a frown of disappointment in herself. "I knew that you would never hurt me, not on purpose. I knew you would regret it the instant you realized what was happening because that is who you are. You aren't the PTSD. You wouldn't do that. And yes I got hurt but I will live and I will be perfectly fine." She spoke and gave him a reassuring smile as she reached over and grabbed his hand. "I wasn't scared of you, I have never and will never be scared of you. The fear that you saw was for you. I was terrified for you. That the war could do such a thing to you, could put you in so much pain when you don't deserve any of it. Yes the pain made me tear up but it was mainly because I was so fearful for you. I don't want you to be going through this and I hate that you do, I hate it more than anything." Sky spoke with a deep frown and a slight anger towards it all. Her features softened though as her free hand moved up to cup his cheek and bring him closer to her. "I will forgive you every time, no matter what you do. It isn't you. It is the fear and violence the war put on you. I love you no matter what and I need you to understand that completely. I don't know if you forgot over these four years, but I still love you just as much and That includes, now, the PTSD. I could never be upset with you for this." She spoke in a gentle voice. She really needed him to understand that she did love him.