Resistance is futile...why try? (Private)

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    I let out a soft sigh of relief, despite the small ping of sadness I felt for his answer. Of course he'd say that. What'd you think? He'd say "Maybe I don't know." or "Yeah probably."? Or anything positive? You're two different species entirely. Besides, he probably has his eyes on someone else anyways. You have family on Earth you need to worry about. I cursed my mental self. I don't know what I hoped for. "Don't fuck the computer. That would be beyond the immorality of screwing a human." I said, meaning it as a joke, but the tone in my voice probably made it sound differently.

    "Ha! Like the computer can doing anything," I laughed, but even I caught the odd note that went with the otherwise amusing statement. I turned to look at Ayo curiously, balancing my palms on the edge of the desk. "Something wrong? I know a joke when I hear one, but even that sounded a bit odd," I said, trying not to pry to much and risk making her angry. I knew when to press a question and when not to, and right now she seemed really uncomfortable.

    I shrugged lightly. I knew it was dumb to think he would ever agree. "When I asked the question I hadn't been looking for an actual answer, or I didn't think I know what I was looking for, and yet the answer you gave somehow... Somehow.. Made me a little upset." I said with another shrug. "Probably just the virus making me think that." I said, even though we both knew that was a lie. I wasn't about to admit that though. That'd mean I had already thought of him that way, which I guess I subconsciously had without the virus even making me. When I had called him handsome in both his natural and human form, I had meant it.

    "Maybe," I repeated quietly, looking at the floor thoughtfully. "But I wouldn't ever partner with anyone without their consent. As a matter of fact, I've never partnered with anyone, but still, my morals remain. I don't want to do anything to someone that they are not comfortable with." I meant what I said, and Ayo's comment made me think back to how she called me handsome. It may have been partly the virus, but I also feel genuine honesty from the comment, which was why I felt oddly flustered earlier, as no one really noticed me before. An uncomfortable silence filled the air, and I looked at the floor awkwardly, a weird feeling forming in the pit of my stomach. It was an odd, but nice feeling, but I couldn't lay a finger on it.

    I looked at him through the corner of my eyes. "If it were consentual on my part would you?" I asked. "This isn't the virus speaking either, I swear." I added, hoping he knew that. But I could see why he would think it. I wasn't going to let this virus make me do anything, if I wanted to partner someone I'd do it when I wanted. Not when something wanted me to. I didn't like not having the freedom to choose my options, after living a life where I couldn't I made it a point to be able to make my own decisions. If I wanted to partner with Syphis I wanted to do it if and when it were right for us both, not because some virus told me to.

    The question threw me off guard a bit, because I was wondering about that myself. Did I want to? Well, to be perfectly honest, I'd grown to like Ayo, mostly as a friend, but a little of something more as well. What was scaring me off was the idea that she would not want to partner with me because I wasn't human. I could don the figure of one, but that didn't change anything really. But I didn't want to lie, so I just sighed and decided to be honest. "Well...ummm...mmph, ok, maybe...yes...Because I kind of like you..." I mumbled quietly, rubbing my hands together in agitation and fearing her response.

    I looked at him with a raised eyebrow. "You do?" I said in an incredulous tone. "I.. Jesus this is crazy, but I like you too." I said just as softly as he had. It was no lie either. I had never really felt any ill will towards him, despite the fact he abducted me and injected me with a pathogen he had known nothing of. I sat on the edge of his bed, leaning towards him, elbows on my knees. I licked my lips as looked at him. "Well we put that awkwardness behind us, now what? You've already heard me compliment you before, now we've just admitted to it, so what now?"

    "Haha, well, to be perfectly honest, I have no fucking idea," I said honestly, laughing with a mixture of nervousness and relief. Walking over to Ayo, I sat down on the edge of the bed next to her, rubbing my palms together. Our proximity was making me really awkward about this whole thing, but I smiled anyway. "What do you think? Cause I'm pretty blank after getting that all out," I admitted, another odd but happy laugh escaping my lips.

    I was quiet for a while before looking to him. "You know, I've watched you, paid attention to your responses to questions and all that jazz. You know something I haven't figured out till now?" I sat back, leaning on my forearms on his bed. "Well for one, this bed of yours is really fucking comfortable. I mean damn, it's like a gigantic fluffy pillow holy shit." I crossed my legs, admiring the way the mattress felt under my skin. "Anyways back on track, you said you weren't settling down, paraphrasing of course. Does that mean you've never had relations with anyone before or they aren't something you want to speak of?" It made me curious. Was big, bad and handsome alien lizard Syphis afraid of having a relationship or was he a virgin?

    "Never had a relationship," I answered. "I never had time for them, nor did I find someone that I liked, or liked me back. Liked me for who I was on the inside, to be a bit more specific," I explained, frowning a little. "Everyone sees Syphis the big war hero, but they don't see me. And I'm pretty sure if they saw who I was on the inside - the peace loving softie - they'd shut me down in a heartbeat. So yeah, never had a relationship once in my entire life."

    I stared at him for a long time. "Well then," I smirked slightly. "That's why you look so uncomfortable. So nervous." I sat up, slowly scooting closer to him. "You don't exactly know how to react right now. This is all new to you, is it not?" I looked up at him, raising my flesh and blood hand to move his hair from his face. It did make sense. No wonder he was nervous like he was, he didn't know what to expect. My smirk widened. "That means you're a twenty or so year old virgin." I bit my bottom lip, trying not to laugh. "That's far too much to take in. It's rather intriguing and amusing." I licked my lips. "Please tell me you've at least kissed someone before?"

    "Was it that obvious?" I asked, flushing more as Ayo brushed my hair away from my face. My heart rate picked up as she scooted closer to me. This was so much to take in. "N-Not even a little peck," I told her, smiling awkwardly. "Sargorn don't really have lips anyway, so it's physically impossible for us." I looked at her, unconsciously leaning in closer. I couldn't help it. I wanted to be closer.

    I smirked a bit more. "But in this form it's possible." I whispered, leaning away unconsciously when he moved closer. I could feel his heart rate pick up as I slid my fingers down from his hair to his cheek; I leaned closer to him as he did me. "I can change that if you want," I muttered even softer than before, eyes searching his, briefly flickering to his own lips before locking back on his again. He wouldn't mind would he? "If that is what you want."


    //this is adorable it's making my heart hurt xD

    #I'mdyingherefromlaughter!


    I swallowed, my eyes locking with Ayo. I looked at her lips briefly, before looking back up at her again. My mind and heart was racing. I barely registered what Ayo had murmured, at the speed at which my thoughts were going. A quiet breath escaped me as I slowed my mind enough to answer, but my tongue knotted up a bit. "I-I wouldn't mind at all," I said at last, looking into her eyes and getting lost in them. God, were they always that beautiful?

    I licked my lips before closing the gap between us without a second thought. My lips touched his softly, just a peck at first, but as I moved closer the kiss slowly grew. His lips were soft and warm, the opposite of what I had thought. My eyes closed as I slid my hand down to his chest, fingers balling the fabric of his shirt slightly. My mind was a mixture of racing thoughts and jumbled words. And it was all because I finally kissed him. Just a kiss and yet my mind was a mess. The proximity brought a spike in my body temperature, now more than I had kissed him than beforehand.

    I think my mind blanked out as soon as our lips touched. As if everything had shut down for me except how wonderful it felt. I'd never kissed before, but I swear this was above all others. Ayo's lips were the softest and warmest I'd ever felt, and my eyes lidded as the kiss grew more passionate. I felt her hands ball up the fabric of my shirt against my chest, and a hand slid onto one of her arms, my other to her waist. Good God, so THIS is what kissing is like, I thought, amazed.

    After a few minutes, considering we needed air, I pulled away from the kiss and looked at him, panting lightly. "How was that for a first kiss?" I said softly with a small grin, taking slow deep breaths through my nose. My head was spinning from the kiss, and the fact the virus was at bay for now was wonderful. I could act freely without it trying to put its two sense into my actions. Not that it was entirely wrong about what I wanted, I didn't mind the idea of Syphis dominating me, but I knew for a dead certain fact it was not my purpose in life. The virus can stick a thumb up its ass and take a hike if that's the game it was trying to play. But that is aside the point; right now all that mattered was Syphis and myself and what was happening between us.

    "Amazing," was all I could say, feeling quite dizzy from glee. For once, I didn't mind feeling disoriented, for just to have that kiss was worth it. Shaking my head slightly, I cleared my head enough to smile, but the moment had sparked some dampened down desires and clamors from the body that I had long kept at bay, or rather did not wish to feel. Now they delightfully took their vengeance. "Didn't even realize I was missing out," I said with a dry chuckle, pursing my lips as I looked at hers, wanting to kiss her again.

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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px][justify][sub][font=georgia]I smiled at him, humming softly in contentment. "It doesn't have to end with just the kiss." I said softly, eyes flickering from his to lips. What would he do if I kissed him again? He wouldn't mind would he? No he wouldn't. Just do it. I didn't know if it was my mental self or if it was the virus, but either way I leaned forward again, aiming to close the gap between us again. He enjoyed it, after all, so he wouldn't mind another kiss, would he?
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