the hardest thing i've ever had to do - stepping down, leaving

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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width: 400px][justify]This was going to be so hard for him. Hopey was crying already writing this post. The tiger cleared his throat, swallowing the lump that was forming in his throat as he jumped on top of the rock in the center of camp. His last meeting.


    "Tribe of Burning Dreams and Taskforce X! Gather for a meeting!" Oh God, this would be so hard. He didn't even know how he was going to do this. He, of course, knew where he would go. But would Stargit go with him? Would Flight of Sparrow?


    When enough members of the two groups had gathered he cleared his throat again to begin. "I am done leading. I've done it for a long time and I've loved it. I helped defeat Deathstroke and in my opinion, I made the Tribe a great, safe place. A better place that can live in peace with the Taskforce now. I am proud of Serefina and Michael and Queen for making the Taskforce a badasx place and for allowing their members to live in harmony with the Tribe. I am proud of Stragit for helping me lead the Tribe of Burning Dreams and I am thankful that she has made me a better man to help me lead this Tribe better." He gazed down at his love and cleared his throat.


    "So I am stepping down. I am also moving to StormClan - to be closer to my family. Of course, I will be visiting her a lot to make sure it is in good hands. Stargit ... you are my General. So you may step up to Prime General if you wish."


    But he had something else to stay. "However, I want you to know that I am so in love with you." He pulled out a necklace that had a diamond on it. When the light hit it in a certain way, it sparkled like the stars in the sky. He smiled softly at his love. "You have made me a happier, kinder, easier man and I am forever thankful for that. I am so proud of you and the motherly way you have lead my Tribe. I love how you are with my daughter and your own daughter. I am so crazy in love with you and I want to have a family with you and be with you forever. Marry me?" He held out the necklace, his olive gaze pleading. [/justify][/fancypost]

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    A small part of her died that instant. Not from joy, but from sorrow. No, no, no! How could you! Her brain screamed as the fem made her way over to Damon, eyes wide and glossy. How could you..


    "[b]Damon, I.." She paused, blinking away the tears that were forming in her eyes. She didn't want to be leader. She didn't ask for this. Star was a wanderer. Staying in one clan for too long would bring her misery, and now that she was tied down to one, what would happen? But.. The tribe needed her.. How could she leave it? She daughter was here and she needed to take care of her. Panther must like it here a lot, so she couldn't possibly leave her here alone.


    "I accept." She finally said as tears rolled down her cheeks. She would be joining StormClan then.. Like she had SeaglassClan. Star didn't want to be alone, and she just wanted to stay as close to Damon as she could possibly be. "I'll try my best, really." She said with a small laugh, trying to smile, only partially successful.


    The fem barely caught his other words and her milky eyes stared directly into the former leader's. Proposal. She had seen it so many times in her life time, but only knew so much about it. It was a foreign concept, but she understood why people did it. If they liked someone so much, of course they wanted to stay forever.. To make it official, and so the whole world could see their happiness. Of course, with marriage came so much responsibility and yes, even fighting would break out from time to time. What was a couple without fights?


    She reached out to the necklace, hesitating before placing her paw atop Damon's, smiling at the male as the stars in her pelt glowed. "Yes." That word alone was so powerful. It meant so many things, and yet, it was just one, little word. "Yes, I will marry you, Damon. I-I.. Love you so much, you have no idea." She was still learning how to love, yes, but what better way to learn it then with the person who cared for her so much? They had only been together for a small amount of time, but did that matter? No, of course not. Damon was special.. He was something else entirely, and he was the only one she would want to spend an eternity with, no matter how cheesy that sounded.


    that muse tho
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    stargit illuminatis-demore[prefers to go by starjelly] | no biological gender [she/he/them/any pronouns] | no biological sex | ageless | 8'3" feet tall | cosmic entity | all free bodies[mainly uses a feline or kirin body] | head of the illuminatis family | born from stardust | loves everybody equally | has an extreme fear of fighting anybody | medium physically and mentally | ref


    Clan


    tribe of burning dreams | attack in underlined white | general | scent manipulation, conjuration, blue blood & tears, invisibility, telepathy | cosmic queen that listens to all | loyal subject to all | bleeding heart | capture is easy/no maiming or killing/ask for major injury | lost and restless | cousin of volatiletimes | naive


    Relationships


    pansexual panromantic | dating damon | crushing on scarecrow(but will never love) | mother of one child[bill cipher] | mentoring no-one | father time xx mother nature | tries to make friends with all | enemy of some | acquainted to many | desires to see better things in life


    LINKS
    Heartchart + Opinions | Storage | Thread hub
    Family thread(currently accepting)

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    The pregnant female came over as soon as she heard that there was an announcement. Coming from Damon, there had to be a good reason she was to come here. As soon as she sat down, that was when she heard. She heard that he was stepping down. This actually broke her heart. Ever since she joined, she had actually became friend with him.




    Now after several months of being a high member here, he was stepping down. "Oh Damon. I'm very sorry that.....you're stepping down." she starting choking up as she said this. She had found Damon to be a better brother figure than her own brother has been. Then she heard that he was proud of how things were now between the tribe and the Taskforce.[color=#C213ff]"Things will remain the same between the tribe and the Taskforce. With Stargits help, I would like to keep things interesting and the same."






    The wolf then heard that Damon was proposing to Stargit, which made her smile. She felt tears falling, mostly because her hormones were all over the place.




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    So Damon was stepping down? A pity, he had been a strong and good leader. It would be hard to see him go, but he was soon brimming with pride as he heard that Stargit would become the new leader. Interesting times laid ahead it seemed and he was going to ensure that he helped her in every way possible as both a loyal Triber and as a close friend.




    Before he could say anything Damon moved onto the next subject... and it tore Scarecrow's heart. Damon and Stargit were going to be married?! The lion ducked his head down and kept his shocked expression hidden within the gloomy shadow cast by his hood. Yes, he had been well aware the two of them had been dating for a long time now, but in some odd way he had still held out hope, that maybe... just maybe...




    'No one is ever going to love you. You need to accept that.'
    Inhaling deeply he pushed down his inner feelings and wore a neutral expression.
    "Congratulations."
    He murmured in a flat tone of voice.


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    She caught someone's familiar scent and turned around slightly, spotting Scarecrow. Her gaze softened as she gripped Damon's paw tighter, the smile spreading even wider. Perhaps they could speak alone after this. She was sure her dear friend was happy for her, right? Why wouldn't he be?


    Yes, a part of Stargit had feelings for Scarecrow, but she didn't understand that. She confused them for a more friendship type of thing, just like she had for Damon so long ago. Except.. Those feelings would never grow to be something more. They would never get to know the light of day, and there would never come a family from the two. Life had had a different plan.
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    [align=center][spoiler=INFO][b]General


    stargit illuminatis-demore[prefers to go by starjelly] | no biological gender [she/he/them/any pronouns] | no biological sex | ageless | 8'3" feet tall | cosmic entity | all free bodies[mainly uses a feline or kirin body] | head of the illuminatis family | born from stardust | loves everybody equally | has an extreme fear of fighting anybody | medium physically and mentally | ref


    Clan


    tribe of burning dreams | attack in underlined white | general | scent manipulation, conjuration, blue blood & tears, invisibility, telepathy | cosmic queen that listens to all | loyal subject to all | bleeding heart | capture is easy/no maiming or killing/ask for major injury | lost and restless | cousin of volatiletimes | naive


    Relationships


    pansexual panromantic | dating damon | crushing on scarecrow(but will never love) | mother of one child[bill cipher] | mentoring no-one | father time xx mother nature | tries to make friends with all | enemy of some | acquainted to many | desires to see better things in life


    LINKS
    Heartchart + Opinions | Storage | Thread hub
    Family thread(currently accepting)

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    [hr]What did she feel? What was she supposed to feel? There was a myriad of naive confusion, of goodwill, of idealism - was it true that one could be in love with more than one creature at a time? Had Darkstar not been her father's soulmate? Was she really a product of a night of mistakes and a rush of pheromones? At first, there was a sense of betrayal, an uncomfortable pressure on her chest that was threatening to crack her brittle heart, her already foggy vision blurring with tears. Her jaw ached, and her trembling turned into a suppressed shuddering as she tried to keep sobs from out her throat. The tabby didn't even know where they were coming from: it wasn't like she knew Darkstar well. Perhaps it was what he had said: to be closer to my family. She hadn't talked to her father in a long time, but there was that lingering whimper in the back of her mind, the question.
    Aren't I family?
    But Stargit's voice, filled with joy... who could argue that this was for the worse? Through the haze she could see the softly glowing outline of her guardian, sense the racing heart and uncertain infatuation, feel a sympathetic happiness that turned her crumpled misery into a bittersweet melancholy. She was still too young to comprehend the full weight of all her decisions, what this shift would mean for her future, but for now she was just mirroring the emotions of her idols, tears and all.
    She approached them in her signature waddle, tail stuck out straight in the air, and when at last the details swam into view she reached upwards and gave them both a kiss on the muzzle: she was still tiny despite her age, of ten moons, but the determination to show them how thankful she was masked all her sobbing all her trembling.
    "I'm coming with you," Flight of Sparrow breathed, olive eyes fixing with the identical ones of her father, "I follow wherever you go." And, of course, to Stargit:
    "And I'll be with you in the Tribe. You means so much to me, Stargit, and you mean a lot to dad." Through tears, "thank you."

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    He wanted to throw up. How could Damon give the Tribe to her.
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