[align=center][fancypost bgcolor=none; bordercolor=transparent; borderwidth=0px; width:400px; text-transform:;][justify][size=8]It's safe to say that this was the story of a girl whose life began when she changed. The transformation from childhood into adulthood had been noticeable massive. This was what happened when a large heaping of responsibility was thrown onto someone at a young age. I have seen it many times before, with Hotline, Imperialpaw, perhaps even Permafrost had been like that in his early days. Coincidentally, these were also people who had been very reserved -- unknown. On the contrary, you say, Permafrost's life was quite out there, you say. Just look at all those children. Perhaps that was true, but what did we really know about him? He was a leader of two clans, *ed everyone with a vagina and was a tad snappy. Perhaps it was just a mask. Perhaps it was not, people are difficult to analyze, even for me.
Hotline. He - she - he... I cared a lot about him, after all, who would not care for someone who was their only family? I wanted Hotline to be happy, when my father teased him so brutally, I was torn. But I knew... I knew that my great nephew didn't deserve what had been said to him. In fact, everything that had happened. Annabelle's death, Dangerday's disappearance. I loathe it all, but it did not break me. But it broke [i]him. When I look at Hotline, I wonder what could have been. Why was he so reserved, tense? He was certainly a find vice-leader, I always believed in him.
So why?
This is yet another question I cannot answer.
Imperialpaw. Execution, actually. "Lucy, do you think I'm a good person?" I can remember him asking those words to me. As if I was his friend, as if he valued a simple medic's opinion. I was young at the time, we were both very young. I forget what I said back then, but I know what I would have said now.
"Maybe you are Imperial, maybe you aren't. All I know is that you are complicated. I can't tell if you are a good person, because I don't know you."
But there is a theme when I talk about these people. You may not know them. You may be too young. But... they all rose to greatness, all leaders in one way or another. All admirable. People who I longed to be like.
So what about me? What about dear old Lucinda? She isn't reserved at all.
That's exactly my point, did I really rise to greatness? Or was it all just fake? Maybe I was building up to what will happen after. I did end the war, I seemed to have done all these "admirable" things and as such, people seem to put me on a pedestal.
But those accomplishments, they are not great. They may be great to you, they may be astounding. But I know what's great. I know what I have done. These primordial actions that I make. Those are my accomplishments.
I have become a mother to six beautiful children, five girls and one boy. I have learned to see the beauty in somethings that seem hopeless. I hold someone near and dear to my heart, and I can finally build up the courage to explain my feelings to them.
I guess I did rise to "greatness." And these simple things. They make my heart race, when I think about ending the war it does not bring happiness to my heart. Becoming leader, it does not define me.
And the position you hold, the political actions you take, whatever the hell you do while you are here. It should not define you either. You are great, whatever you do.
All I want you to know, that even though we may or may not be related by blood. You are still my family, you always will be. You may not know who I am. And I may not know you. But my tears and aura once walked this place, perhaps where your standing is where my dirty paws have been as well. You do not know my name. So, I guess I will introduce myself.
My name is Lucinda, nice to meet you.[/i]
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[size=8]"ColouredClan, it's time."
Lucinda's voice, more solemn than usual echoed through the crowd. The cold breeze moved her fur. The rhythmic singing of birds could be heard in the distance. Lucy would miss this sound, Lucy would miss this. But it was time. It was her time.
She loved it here, but this place? She did not want to be cooped up anymore. She wanted to travel, perhaps find her friends. She had her family and kids here, and Emptyskies. But who else? Bumblebee, Eden, Impavidstar! She had been here for so long. So many hours of thinking, so much work she had done.
If she stepped down now, Lucy knew that she would step down knowing that ColouredClan had made her proud, and hopefully, she had made them proud too.
"It was so much fun, I loved it. Every moment here, ever since I came here when I was only five months old. It was like a dream. The friends I made, the things I learned. I never thought that I... would matter this much to anyone, my kids, my clanmates. My friends. I was born the runt of my litter in a cooped up breeding center, Paris France. Christmas Eve, my five other sister crawled out of my mother. And on Christmas morning, the youngest of them all followed in suit. The smallest as well, cold, weak. I was separated from her early. And while I was afraid of everything back then..."
Lucinda paused, feeling the tears well up in her chocolate yes, she had to take off her goggles to prevent her vision from blurring.
"I can't afford to be afraid now. Which is why I am stepping down from my place as Commander. It has been almost three months, and that... that is good enough for me. I may not have been amazing, but I ended the war which, to be honest, was the only reason why I pursued leadership in the first place. I know, selfish but... I wanted to ensure a peaceful clan for my kids and future members. Even if it costed half of my life and countless objections to the current leader's ideals. And now that I have done that, I feel like... I can rest easy now. I hope I have done a good job as Commander to you all, I certainly am not strict or mean... But I was once told by someone dear to me that I would do great things someday. I never knew what he meant by great, and I still don't know now."
"But I hope I have been great."
Lucinda lowered her head, giving a happy smile before she looked up. "As for my house. I request you do not clean it out. What I have done it I have is I have turned it into a library for all. I have plenty of books in there, all organized in alphabetical order... I have read pretty much all of them, memorized all of them basically word for word. And I want to share that knowledge with you. Fiction, History, Science. All of it is there..." These were her prized possessions, her whole house was... but she knew... she knew that this was something that people could remember her by. Just in case she found herself losing her way.
"Yuri. I know we do not have the same personalities. At all, really. I don't know who you really are, I never knew. But as my nephew, my family. A Sixx, a Muzikant. The son of my brother. I know that leaving the clan in your hands will prove worthwhile someday. And the advice I have for you, whether you take it or not...
"Your leadership doesn't define you, nor does the person you succeed. You define yourself, and choose who you are. Make yourself the person you want to be. That's what I am doing."
And she shifted down into a calico body. Her birth body, and spread her wings. "Treat him well, ColouredClan, and Yuri. You better treat them well as well, because if I hear anything that makes the fur on my neck stand up..."
Lucinda closed one eye, giving a happy wink.
"You'll be wishing I didn't have your baby pictures!"
And with a last, ecstatic laugh, the commander spread her wings, looking back one last time before she took to the skies. The starting of her own journey.
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That last shred of happiness was the last most have seen of me. But I plan on returning soon. I want to visit three people in particular. I want to visit Ephemeralpaw, Curtainpaw. And most importantly, Emptyskies. I never told him I loved him, and while I think he knows by now, I want to tell him that there will be a day where we live together, and I can tell him that I love him every day.
Oh who am I kidding, this page is sappy as *. I'm definitely trashing this one.
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[size=8]/ hello everyone, ommni here! and i wanted to say that roleplaying in colouredclan was one of the best experiences and opportunities i have ever had on this site! lucy was meant to be an experiment character, to see if i was really willing to get back into roleplaying with her. i starting roleplaying her on may 25th, it's almost been a year! that boggles my mind, and no, i have not lost muse for lucy! in fact, after writing this post i really want to play her, as i feel like she has evolved from this giddy little child, happy cutesy character to someone who really has grown. coming back on this site has also taught me a lot about myself, i actually learned i am way more emotional than i thought. when tams woth eden stepped up to temporary leader for a bit, it was because i was feeling extremely depressed, to the point where i felt like i was hopeless. while i am way better now, part of the reason why i pushed myself to keep going was because tams sent me this hugely motivational pm and well
it made me cry
like it actually did
thanks tams though seriously<333
holy * this got serious think memes ommni
but really thank you for this opportunity! i got to meet so many nice people and see so many interesting characters, i will definitely be hanging around in the chat threads. but it's likely that lucy will not come back, to colouredclan at least. she will def visit