I never knew pain until I knew you- Open + Depression and trigger warning

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  • Dancingloon was outside of camp. She couldn't keep this up any longer... In both of her clans The Horde and Darkclan she was being put under so much stress and the little fox never said a thing. She didn't cry out for help because that made her feel weak and useless. The three legged fox stopped suddenly as emotions flooded over her brain.


    You're not strong enough.


    She growled and her claws peeled the flesh away from the ground, leaving turned up soil. Ears flat against her head and silver body covered in darkness. Even the stars and fled from her tonight. Her sister was gone...Hellsrain. "I miss you..." she choked out to no one.


    They'll all leave if you don't do something.


    Her mind flashed to both groups, lines between them blurred. They where family. She needed to protect them, even if it meant causing herself pain. She'd get stronger, she'd fight the limits, she'd kill if need be. Her eyes shot open, her cold gaze on the ground below.


    You're useless.
    Finally that was it. The straw that broke the camel's back. She let out a scream loud and strange, like a battlecry. She went off. Anything that caught her eye was gonna get attacked. Trees where left with bark ripped away, plants uprooted, any pest or small creature would be slaughtered on the spot. She was having some sort of breakdown, she didn't know why or how. There were so many people important to her now. She couldn't sit idle and let them die.


    This was the beginning to Dancingloon's spiral downward into a much darker part of herself.

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    His ears perked up immensely, "Dance?!" he yelled worriedly, "Are you ok!" he started to sniffle, this pup couldn't take pain anymore, he doesn't like to see her like this.
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    [justify] Let's get one thing cleared up, katastre never really picked someone's brains for fun. Usually it was concern that drove him to check their mental state, make sure they were okay, figure out what the * they were thinking. Because he had no idea what his clanmates were thinking sometimes. Well, most of the time.


    The scream that ripped the night caused him to flinch, it was far away, and he had no real way to get there fast enough. Beside--


    He felt his bones snap as he morphed into his wolf form. He didn't take the time to let the pain fade as he leaped off towards the sky. Wings whipping through the air faster than she could on land. When she found the area, she gave a slight sign in relief, No one was dead.


    But there was still something wrong. Something she had to fix, and she planned to. She dropped onto a tree branch. Overlooking the scene. Her eyes went to dancer as she murdered a small apology before she pushed. Into dancer's consciousness, her whispers of approval and acceptance, that dancer will get stronger. She would defend, she just had to learn. She aimed push the thoughts into dancer's mind. Hoping she could read them and understand them.


    A form of telepathy if you will.


    Your amazing
    You will learn how to protect
    just give it time
    people love you
    No one will leave you
    I'm right here, dancer.


    Was some of the thoughts that she pressed into dancer's mind. The wolf's eyes were glowing a bright blue, wings arched as she watched from the three she was in. Hoping to calm the fox down so she could embrace her.
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  • First she turned to the pup with fire in her eyes, tears ran down and she opened her muzzle to speak. The words where quickly put down as another voice entered her head. One that was calm. She shut her eyes and let calmer breathing take over. She opened her eyes once more and looked around. Fear, confusion, and regret poured in quickly cementing a few thoughts in her brain. "I...I'm...I didn't..." she lowered herself and gave a whimper. "P-Please forgive me" she muttered. Dancingloon never wanted to cause pain or suffering, never wanted to harm anyone.

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    [justify]Just as she saw dancer speak. The wolf leaped off the tree. Shifting out of her frightening form and into his fox one. He gave her a soft smile. He stayed at a foots distance. But he was inviting her for a hug when he sat down.


    "Dancer..."


    His voice held his concern, worry and understanding all in one word.


    "Your not the only one to have such bad thoughts dancer, I'm sorry for not seeing them before. But I'm here for you, I always will be. Whatever you say I will not hold against you. I'm here for you, and no matter what happens between us, I always will be."
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  • The silver fox looked up at Kat and she knew it was him whispering into her head about this and that. She carefully walked over and let her head rest on his shoulder. Tears pricked her eyes again and she could only mumble out a few weak apologies.

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    "Don't be sorry." he teared up,
    //rushed

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    [justify]he nuzzled into her sholder, giving a smile.


    "Dancer, it's okay. It's okay. Shhh. I've got you. I won't let it happen."


    He was never one to really... comfort someone before. This was a new experience to him, but it was similar to reassuring. Giving them the support they need to carry on. He himself was not sure on many things, but she could not help the fact that hellsrain left, for all they knew she could return.


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  • "Thank you...both of you." She said and looked back at Hoovian. Her ears went up and she looked at the sky, still dark as ever. "The only Heaven I'll be sent to is when I'm alone with you" she muttered to Kat. She smiled at Hoovian again but it was painful and weak.

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    [justify] Katastre gave a smile as he felt her stability stregthen. He felt happy, and let his contentment show on his face. "I was born sick but I love it, command me to be well" he said in return. Casting a glance towards the sky himself. It was a beautiful night, and katastre felt like the luckiest man alive to be sitting by her.


    He was struck with his own love. Like most of the times, but stayed silent, instead silently thanking whatever gods out there to be with dancer on such a nice night.


    "I think a good hunt could do us all well. Right?"


    He looked at the two in return. Planning on keeping this whole event silent with the other clanmates. He didn't want others to know, a thing of respect to keep it secret.



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    "I guess..." he sighed.
    //rushed

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    [justify]katastre gave a smile at the two, flicking his tail towards the south as he explained. "Well, lets get going. Any kind of prey your intrested in?"
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    "I don't really care either," The cheetah giggled.

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