your very voice is in my heartbeat ` open, developments

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[fancypost borderwidth=0pt; width: 450px; margin-top: -10px;][justify][font=verdana][size=8]Where was he...? Everything around seemed so familiar, tugging some hidden emotions inside him as he wandered around. But yet, he had no clue where he was, and was lost as to what his surroundings where, what clans he possibly could be. This most certainly was not one of the islands of BlizzardClan he had called home; he had explored all of the and this land was nothing like any of them. But yet, he felt as if he had lived here his whole life, paws leading him through the trees as if it were just natural of him to be there. In his mind, though, was a whirlwind of confusion. Questions-where amd I, what is this place- scattered frantically in his subconcious, though he never stopped walking. He just continued forward, unable to even slow his pace for a moment. Eventually he just gave up, letting his paws care him to wherever his mind had deemed important for him to see.

He had started to daze off in his thoughts, but the sudden halt of movement snapped him back to reality. Eyes darting around, he realized ge was now surrounded by a large group of cats, all of them staring at him. Normally he'd just do something silly to amuse them, but something stopped him dead in his tracks from doing anything. Each and every feline surrounding him didn't have a face, just a blank white covering where eyes and a mouth would. Gulping quietly, he stared back at them, a strange fear scrambling over his shoulders and down his back. Watching, he saw as one particular feline approached, this one bearing an ebony coat that fell in waves down its thin frame. A strange feeling struck through Helix as the feline approached him, one he couldn't place. A sudden name blossomed in his head, and tumbled off his tongue before he could stop himself. [b]"Leo..?"

That's when everything turned to hell. Almost immediately after Helix spoke, the blank white covering the feline before him's face was replaced with pitch black eyes, and a stitched mouth. Jumping back, Helix's eyes widened as the feline opened its mouth before screeching widly. Clamping his paws to his ears, he watched as the feline melted to the ground, before forming a large, circular object with the same face that the feline had before. A long black tongue rolled out of its mouth, and suddenly the black feline from before was back, only with a much more normal face. Helix watched in horror as the tongue of the creature before him raised up, before swinging down towards the ebony feline. All that came after that was the thump of a body hitting the floor, and Helix's screams of terror.

That was when he awoke, a terrified shout leaving him as he jolted up. Unaware of his surroundings at first, he frantically scrambled around, trying to locate the body of the feline he just saw brutally murdered. After a few moments he started to come back to his senses, breath heavy and labored as his gaze focused in and out. Eventually he just slumped against a wall, staring at the ground with wide eyes. "...It was a dream?" he muttered, lifting his head to see the familiar walls of the small little shed he had found and slept in. With shaky legs he stood back up before heading back to his little makeshift bed of blankets. Still full of shock and a bit dazed, he dropped before, before staring at the ground once more. "Leo... Humpty Dumpty.. Leo...!" he exclaimed, before driving his face into his blankets whike letting out a scared shout.

Memories of his past life flooded in, invading his brain with death, as well as some rocky love that ended in chaos. Whispers sounded in his mind, calling itself Humpty Dumpty, urging him to go kill. Instead, he just slumped down, tears stinging his eyes as he just shoved his face further in his pillow, before crying out. The whispers told him more, frightening him to the core as he sat there, loudly sobbing into his blankets and sheets, very unlike him, but if anyone knew what he just went through, what he was hearing, it would make sense. It woukd make sense why he was so scared, why he wanted to hide forever.

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[fancypost borderwidth=0pt; width: 450px; margin-top: -10px;][justify][font=verdana][size=8]The first thing he heard that broke through the sobs leaving him was the familiar, calculated voice of Inaho. It took him a moment in his pathetic state to interpret what the deputy had said, before he slowly lifted his head from its position shoved in his sheets. [b]"I..." he drew out, pausing when he realized he must've caused such a ruckus and maybe even panic for some. Even Inaho seemed a bit worried, causing Helix to bite his lip before curling towards his bed. "I had a bad dream. That's it," he tried to respond with voice that was stronger than his emotions right now, but the quiver in his mouth caused his voice to tremble slightly. There were tears pricking at his eyes, he realized, before he reached a paw to drag it across the blue luminaries. He was fine. It was just a dream. These whispers of violence invading his mind were nothing but a illusion, left by the traumatizing visions of his nightmare. This would just fade away by tomorrow, right? Though, through these hopeful thoughts, there was this lingering doubt, which caused him to shake slightly.

He had started to blank out in his thoughts, staring blankly at the ground. What brought him back to reality was the feeling of a paw touching his back, causing a startled jump from Helix. He turned to see Dimitri through his tear-blurred gaze, hearing him say something. Suddenly, he felt like there was something digging through his mind, but he had absolutely no idea what was happening. Then, before he realized it, some lost memory resurfaced in his mind. He could make out the shape of some feline, faint music in the background, and flower petals falling from the sky. He had no idea when this happened, and he was sure this hadn't happened in this current life. The sudden thought of it being a memory from his past life caused him to stiffen, but still the memory was taking a calming affect on him.

Hearing Lucina next then, he looked over at her before shaking his head, wiping lingering tears away from his eyes. "N-No, I'll be fine," he muttered between a hiccup. He was certainly much calmer now than he was before, but that calm was quickly washed away when he took sight of Mako. He didn't know why, but as soon as he saw her he just felt whatever happiness he still felt then wash from him immediately. The words that followed just caused him to freeze, confused as to what she was talking about. Sister...? No, Tama was alive... right? Suddenly he was stuck with the sudden fear that he had unknowingly hurt the leader, causing him to shake in fear. Surely that didn't happen, right? The description she gave him immediately made him think as Tama, the only family he really had, but there was a image of a pitch black feline, very pretty. Head falling off her shoulders, rolling down steps... Bringing his paws to his head, he tried to block out Mako's words.

"No... no! Shut up!" he snapped, the things she was saying spurring so much unknown emotions in him, more and more whispers from the unknown source. Listen to her, listen to the mother! She's right, she's right! Just give in, and you'll fell no more pain! Just forget and let me keep the both of us alive, as well as master Glen! Gritting his teeth, he roughly shook his head, as if that would chase out the voices. No, he wouldn't listen to them! He wouldn't kill, he wouldn't do what this... this monster told him to do!

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[fancypost borderwidth=0pt; width: 450px; margin-top: -10px;][justify][font=verdana][size=8]If only he had listened to what Leo said about his past life, he might not've ended up going through as much pain as he was right now. Maybe if he believed the guy this wouldn't have happened at all, or at least in a less frightful way. Like being eased into it gently, instead of thrown in the sea of the unknown past like he was now. All he could do now was try to keep his head above water, try not to get drowned by all this new information rushing at him like a tidal wave. And so far, he was failing in that attempt. He was already being drug down into this metaphorical sea. It would take all his strength to get back to the surface, to control all this. He would be exhausted in the end, but surely it would be worth it, right?

But what if he couldn't get himself away from this? What if it was building up all his life, and decided to dump out on him all at once now? Maybe in his past life, he had done something so bad as to deserve this? He didn't have all of his memories back, just a few, so it was possible. But no, surely that old man called Leo would've told him about it if it were like that? Suddenly, at the thought of Leo, Helix felt his stomach lurch. Was that the same Leo from his dreams, the bespectacled one that got beheaded...? Clutching his blankets, he stared down and thought this over. He had a very good feeling that they were the same person, but when he thought about trying to find him, a sinking feeling went through his chest, like he knew there would be a problem with that.

The soft and comforting voice of his sister drew him from his thoughts and back to the present. Right, he had people here that cared about him. He didn't need to worry about the past, though he still would most likely be worrying about it. It would be hard to forget something like that, especially since he felt that whatever it was that was speaking nonstop to him in his head wouldn't go away. Turning towards Tama to reassure her that he was okay, he suddenly froze in spot, mouth slightly hanging open. 'Kill, kill, kill, KILL! I WANT HER, I WANT HER! POWER.... MADHATTER...!' These repeated in his mind, gradually getting louder until it was screaming. He clamped his paws over his ears, as if that would make them be quiet. [b]"No.. not her... no," he muttered, fresh tears rolling down his eyes as he started to scoot away from Tama. He couldn't hurt her... not his sister, of all people...