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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; text-shadow: 3px 2px black; width:465px][align=right][color=white][font=georgia][i][size=20pt]So I guess it's over baby[/size]
    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:440px;margin-top:-15px;][color=white][sub][i]Déjà vu again[/fancypost][/fancypost]
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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:350px; overflow:auto; height:160px; margin-top:-235px; margin-right:10px][justify][color=white][sub]Thing's happen suddenly. In a blink of an eye your world can turn upside down. Your world could turn for the better, or in my case your world can turn for the worst after a single night.
    You always see stories on the news, online, any where about a miracle or some crazy thing that happened thousands a miles away that will never affect you. But when it finally happens to you, of course it hits you hard. You world starts to spin and everything goes black. For a minute you think your dead or that life was just a dream and your finally waking up.
    But when you open your eyes and find out that the worst of worse has happened then what do you do? Well what can you do? Everyone's reaction is different.
    If your like me you retreat back into the shell you walked out of so many years ago. You would rather bunch up all your feelings and wait until absolutely you can't hold it anymore and you burst and you just fall apart. If your also like me you cut people off to avoid getting hurt again.[/fancypost]



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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; text-shadow: 3px 2px black; width:450px; margin-top:px][align=center][color=white][font=georgia][size=15pt]Who'd have thought that time don't stop [/fancypost]
    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:450px; margin-top: -5px][justify][color=white][sub]My story starts on a cold winter night. We had gone out to eat and party a little bit. And on the way home the worst things happens. With me driving we get hit, my sister is thrown out of the car, she dies instantly. Our other friend in the back seat and I both mixed up in the wreckage causing serious damage to both of us. With her in the back seat I manage to pull myself out of the wreck and grab my baby sister as she lays on the street bloody and beaten up. Her body losing all of it's life as I hold her for one last time. [/fancypost]
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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; text-shadow: 3px 2px black; width:450px;][align=center][color=white][font=georgia][size=15pt]And somehow girl, the world keeps spinning[/fancypost]
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    {Lewis Redmayne}
    {24}
    {Quiet, shy}
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    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; text-shadow: 3px 2px black; width:450px;][align=center][color=white][font=georgia][size=15pt]I guess I've turned myself into a solitary man[/fancypost]
    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:450px; margin-top: -5px][justify][color=white][sub]I watched my sister and her friend as they sat at the bar drinking. Smiling and chuckling softly as I sipped on a glass of water in an attempt to help sober myself up faster so I could drive us home. We had been out for most of the night, well they had. I had just showed up to drive them back to my sister and I's apartment. Figuring her friend, and kind of mine, would stay the night with us. I mean I wouldn't force her to go home half drunk and just leave her there.
    "Come on Lewis!!" My sister Luise groaned as she turned her chair to look over at me. She had a glass in her hand with a some sort of fruity drink. "Get a drink!!" She chuckled as she took another sip of her drink and set it down. Whipping her mouth with a napkin as I shook my head no.
    "Someone has to be responsible tonight!" I offered back as I took another sip of the ice water and ordered a coke just to go with it.
    Then I heard and saw the bartender crawl up onto the bar and shout. "LAST CALL!" She climbed back down and watched as people scurried over for one last drink before the night was over.
    "Come on girls, we better get home. We can grab some food on the way home." Grabbing the can of coke and holding it in one hand as I dug some lose change and dollar bills out of my back pocket and laid them on the bar as a tip. Looking at my sister as she nodded and pretended to be upset but was to giggly to be. Standing up and placing the now empty glass on the bar. Stumbling a little but regaining her balance as she took her coat from the back of the chair and looked at me.
    "Where would I be with out my big brother!" She smiled as she wrapped her small arms my waist and buried her face in my chest. Smiling and chuckling I hugged her back and kissed her on the top of her head before she pulled back and looked at her friend. [/fancypost]



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    [shadow=black,left]Echo Lynn Smith• •[/shadow]
    [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; height: 200px; width: 200px; font-family: bookman oldstyle; color: white; text-align: justify; overflow: auto;]We had been friends for awhile and Lewis, I had fallen for him the moment we spoke. I have never drank before so it didn't take much for me to get drunk. The night was a blur, but I think it was fun. Luise was drunk too, so Lewis drove us home and I was sitting in the back. I felt sick to my stomach. I groaned and looked up to the front seat. I then felt my stomach do a backflip before I started to throw up in the backseat. I finished throwing up and I felt a blush come to my cheeks. I can't believe that I had actually thrown up infront of the boy that I was basically in love with."I'm so sorry!"I said. I don't know why I thought it was a good idea to drink, knowing that I had never done it before. I only turned 21 a few days ago. I saw Luise unbuckling to check on me and everything just seemed to go black when I felt something hit the car. I groaned as I hit my head against the window, shattering it. I looked up to see a huge whole in the front window and Luise wasn't in her seat anymore. I stumbled out and looks around."Lewis? Luise?"I called out in a slight daze.
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    [color=black][font=georgia][glow=black,2,300][size=26pt]Lewis. D Redmaynet » [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; borderwidth=0px; letter-spacing:4px; margin-top:-14px][color=black][font=georgia]It’s the sound of tear drops falling down[/fancypost]
    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:450px][justify][sub][color=black][font=georgia]Hearing her say sorry for throwing up I just kind of smiled softly and shrugged. "Don't worry about it, it hasn't been the first time someones thrown up in my car." Looking up in the rear view mirror I felt Louise grab some gum from my center console and hand it back to her. And about that time I saw it, I saw the lights flash and the blaring of a horn as a semi truck barreled through the 4-way stop when it wasn't there turn. I felt my body slam against the side of the car and bounce back. Feeling the strap pull me back into the seat and violently throw me. Rolling the car across the street and into a ditch.
    When I came to I heard the driver frantically calling an ambulance and all that. I had forgotten about the girl in the back seat and left her there. Climbing out of the wreckage as I clutched my side. Pulling back my hand and finding that my shirt was soaked in the crimson red blood. Looking around I shouted her name over and over before I found her, laying still on the concrete. Running over I dropped to my knees and gathered my sister in my arms. "Louise! No!" Watching her as she grabbed for my hand to squeeze to ease the pain. Tears falling from her eyes as she tried to talk but I hushed her. "I'm sorry...I'm so sorry..." I muttered. Buring my face in her chest as I felt it rise for the last time and the air escape her red lips.
    Tears now running down my face as I began to sob and shout and then I looked up. Filled with anger as I saw the driver standing there on the phone. Placing her back on the ground as I grabbed a pocket knife from my coat pocket. Flipping the blade out as I walked over to the driver and grabbed him by the collar of his jacket. "YOU KILLED HER! IT'S ALL YOUR FAULT!" I shouted and screamed, steam rolling from my mouth as my hot breath made contact with the cold air. Holding the knife to his throat as I looked him dead in the eyes.
    This wasn't me, I never got mad. I never yelled at anyone or even raised my voice. I felt like a different person but I couldn't stop it. I wanted to do to him what he did to my sister. The only family I had left. The sister I was suppose to protect but had failed to do. [/fancypost][align=center]
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    [shadow=black,left]Echo Lynn Smith• •[/shadow]
    [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; height: 200px; width: 200px; font-family: bookman oldstyle; color: white; text-align: justify; overflow: auto;]I felt tears fall from my cheeks as I saw Louise's body. She was dead and I felt guilty because she was trying to help me. I felt so upset, if I hadn't drank then we wouldn't be in this situation. She would still be in the car. This was it, I was alone again. Lewis was only hanging out with me because of his sister. I watched him start to cry and then rage fills his eyes. I ran over, trying to pull him off of the man."Lewis! Stop! This won't help, this won't bring her back."I cried as I tried to pull him away. Why was this happening all over again? My parents had died when I was a kid in an accident, a drive by shooting and the police came to our house to tell me. My head was pounding, it hurt so bad but I ignored it. All I cared about was getting Lewis out of control.
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    [color=black][font=georgia][glow=black,2,300][size=26pt]Lewis. D Redmaynet » [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; borderwidth=0px; letter-spacing:4px; margin-top:-14px][color=black][font=georgia]It’s the sound of tear drops falling down[/fancypost]
    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:450px][justify][sub][color=black][font=georgia]Feeling the way the drivers body shake in my grasp and the way she grabbed me I realized what I was doing and dropped the knife. Hearing it clatter to the concrete as I didn't pull away from her grasp. Feeling like a toddler as I fell to my knees. Feeling her body fall on top of me as I feel. Tears ran down my already red, puffy eyes and trailed down my cheek. Following the line of my jaw before the tears dropped and fell to the cold ground. Creating a small puddle in the same spot. "It's all my fault..." I whispered as I shook.
    Covering my eyes with my hands as I heard the sirens and saw all the first responders pull up. Watching as the paramedics ran over to my sisters body and picked her up. Placing her in a body bag and carried her back to the ambulance. One ambulance leaving while the other paramedics walked over to us. Helping Echo up before they helped me up. A blanket pulled over my shoulders as they lead me over to the ambulance. Sitting me down as they checked over me.
    I kept my head hung most of the time, almost like I was in shock. Well I guess I was, I mean my sister just died. "How is she...Her names Echo?" I asked softly as I looked over at the dark haired girl sitting on the other side of me. Cringing a little as they pushed around my chest and ribs to see if anything was broken or bruised. And just by the pain I could tell that something had to be at least bruised. [/fancypost][align=center]
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    [shadow=black,left]Echo Lynn Smith• •[/shadow]
    [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; height: 200px; width: 200px; font-family: bookman oldstyle; color: white; text-align: justify; overflow: auto;]I didn't say anything to anybody. She should have been buckled, but I got sick and she was trying to help me. I looked over at Lewis before looking away as the paramedics looked me over."The other girl, why was she not buckled in? The police are going to ask you that."One paramedic said as he looked over me before he frowned deeply as he shined a light in my eye. I felt empty and void of emotion."I was throwing up. I was drinking, she unbuckled to help me."I said softly. If I hadn't drank then none of this would have happen."She told me not to drink so much my first time..."I felt the pain in my head get worse. The paramedic looked worried."There's blood leaking into her eyes..."One of them whispered to the other."She has internal bleeding."The second one guessed. I wasn't paying attention though, I was in my own little world.
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    [color=black][font=georgia][glow=black,2,300][size=26pt]Lewis. D Redmaynet » [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; borderwidth=0px; letter-spacing:4px; margin-top:-14px][color=black][font=georgia]It’s the sound of tear drops falling down[/fancypost]
    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:450px][justify][sub][color=black][font=georgia]"Sir, can you tell me about yourself?" The paramedic asked. I knew the procedure, I was actually a doctor. The paramedics happened to recognize me but this was a test for a concussion.
    "My name is Lewis Damion Redmaynet. I'm 23, and I'm a Doctor and I work at the Micheal Heart Hospital downtown." I muttered softly to myself as I pulled the blanket a little bit closer over my shoulders. As f doing that would bring her back.
    "Calm down Lewis..." I heard a soft voice say as I finally saw the paramedic's face in the lights of the ambulance. It was one of my co-workers. His name was Micheal, he was one of the nicest guys I had ever met. "We'll take you guys back to the hospital and patch you up. You'll be good to go tonight but I don't think your friend will be. They're planning on keeping her tonight for observations." I nodded as I pulled myself into the back of the ambulance followed by Micheal. Shutting the door behind us as we sat down on the bench and headed back to the hospital.
    "Dr.Redmayne." I heard people say as I walked through the hospital to the examining room. I had shed the blanket in the van a while back. Once to the check up room I pulled my shirt off and looked at the area's that were sore. There was bruising but no signs of anything worse. My nurse walked in and placed her hands gently on my chest.
    "Your still working? I though you went home when I did?" I asked, I had come from work to pick up the girls and now I was back here.
    "One of the cases from earlier, the little girl. I stayed behind to read to her before bed and was about ready to leave when I heard you were coming back..." She stopped for a second as she began to wrap my chest up. Her eyes looking up at me as she took a little breath. "I'm sorry about your sister..." She said softly.
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    Should we time skip? Also, he can't be a doctor at 23. It takes 14 years to become a full lisenced doctor. It would be more realistic if he were a med student or an intern.

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    [color=black][font=georgia][glow=black,2,300][size=26pt]Lewis. D Redmaynet » [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; borderwidth=0px; letter-spacing:4px; margin-top:-14px][color=black][font=georgia]It’s the sound of tear drops falling down[/fancypost]
    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:450px][justify][sub][color=black][font=georgia]Crap! I meant to put doctor in training but got side tracked about halfway through. My brain is everywhere right now. Lol, but ya.))


    When I released I didn't want to see Echo. I ignored the fact that she was even such a premonition piece in my life. Considering she was my sisters best friend, always over at our apartment. So when I left I went back to the apartment my sister and I use to call home. Opening the door and knowing she would never walk through this front door again killed me.
    It was my job to go through her room and getting rid of stuff or keeping stuff. But of course I needed to get a hold of people for her funeral. So I had to confront Echo again. Meet me at the coffee shop in about 2 hours. I texted her one night. I happened to just be sitting around the apartment all day. When the accident happened and I got 'injuried' they gave ma nice little paid leave for the rest of the week to take care of everything and recover. But it drove me crazy. Sitting in this d@mn apartment by myself all day and all night with nothing to do. Most nights I drank to get rid of the pain. Of course not enough to get me in any trouble but it helped ease the pain. So when I texted her I was about halfway through a beer and decided I should get out and get some coffee in me.
    Not waiting for a reply I walked into my room and pulled on a grey button down over my bare chest. Black and blue bruises still very promote on my chest. I kept the sleeves rolled down to cover the other scratches from the accident on my arm that would end up being scars. I was ashamed of my injuries. In fact I hated them. Everything I looked at them I thought of her and tore myself up even more. Heading to the coffee shop an hour or so later I took a seat by the window and ordered a small cup of coffee. Watching the window to see if she would show up or if she wouldn't show up and just say that she forgot or something like that.[/fancypost][align=center]
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    [shadow=black,left]Echo Lynn Smith• •[/shadow]
    [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; height: 200px; width: 200px; font-family: bookman oldstyle; color: white; text-align: justify; overflow: auto;]The phone was all I had. The phone and the picture of some boy in my head. That picture made me sad for some reason and I always felt tears start to swell in my eyes whenever I pictured him. I woke up in the hospital and they told me that I had been in an accident. I knew my name was Echo, but that's all I knew. They kicked me out of the hospital once I was well enough and I realized that I had no where to go. I slept in street corners and benches before I found a homeless shelter. That's when I got the text, I felt guilt rise in my chest. Lewis? Who was that? There was only one coffee shop in town so that's how I ended up here. I walked into the coffee shop and looked around, not really knowing who I was looking for. That's when I spotted the boy from my memories. I froze for a few moments before walking over to him. I was still wearing the same clothes that I guess I had on when I was in whatever accident that put me in the hospital. I had washed them dozens of times, but the blood never came off."L-Lewis?"I asked, wondering if he was the one who texted me.
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    [color=black][font=georgia][glow=black,2,300][size=26pt]Lewis. D Redmaynet » [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; borderwidth=0px; letter-spacing:4px; margin-top:-14px][color=black][font=georgia]It’s the sound of tear drops falling down[/fancypost]
    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:450px][justify][sub][color=black][font=georgia]Hearing the bell on the door jingle I stopped and looked over at the door. Stopping when I recognized her walk in but kind of look at me. "You act like you've never seen me before." I sighed as I watched her sit down. Digging the envelope out of my pocket. "Here's all the information you need." Not wanting to talk about the funeral or anything like that. I just felt empty now like there was no emotions inside of me at all.
    Handing her the golden color envelope before finishing my coffee and paying a tip on the table for the people who buff the tables. Standing up and shoving my hands in my pocket before I started to walk out of the coffee shop. Feeling the cold air hit my face as I opened the black door. Accidentally grabbing the door handle to hard and hearing the metal bell hit the glass door. The frustration I had been building up already coming out as I walked out. Pulling the door hard behind me as I jogged down the steps and headed down the side walk. Hearing my sneakers hit the side walk as I looked at the ground. Feeling silent tears slide from my eyes down my cheek. Whipping them away encase some one saw me. [/fancypost][align=center]
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    [shadow=black,left]Echo Lynn Smith• •[/shadow]
    [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; height: 200px; width: 200px; font-family: bookman oldstyle; color: white; text-align: justify; overflow: auto;]I looked at the envelope with a frown before following after Lewis."Whose Louise? Who are you? Why am I invited to her funeral?"I asked him in a confused tone, reaching out to grab his hand. I was more scared than confused. I had no idea who I was and the only thing I could remember is Lewis. He seemed upset and I felt guilty whenever I looked at him so maybe I did something to make him hate me. That had to be it, I did something to him and now he is upset with me. I don't know what I did though is the issue. I don't know how to apologize for something I didn't do."Lewis, I'm sorry so can you please cheer up? I'm sure we can fix whatever happened!"I said with a smile.
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    [color=black][font=georgia][glow=black,2,300][size=26pt]Lewis. D Redmaynet » [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; borderwidth=0px; letter-spacing:4px; margin-top:-14px][color=black][font=georgia]It’s the sound of tear drops falling down[/fancypost]
    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:450px][justify][sub][color=black][font=georgia]Not hearing her first few questions because of a passing car I felt her hand grab my arm. Quickly pulling away as though she was going to grab me to attack me. Snapping my head back at her as she said 'Can't we cheer up? I'm sure we can fix what ever happened?' It sounded almost like she was mocking me. "Let's cheer up!" I said in a very stern tone as I looked at her. My voice getting a little louder with each word. "I'm sure we can fix this!" I repeated mocking her this time.
    "So I'm just suppose to magically cheer up when the only family who has ever mattered to me was killed in my car during a car accident! What am I suppose to do? Just forget it all happened and go on life without my best friend?" My voice harsh, cutting through the tension in the air like a large silver knife.
    Taking a bit of a breath before she could reply. "I thought that of all people you would know..." Turning back around and pulling the hood over my head. [/fancypost][align=center]
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    [shadow=black,left]Echo Lynn Smith• •[/shadow]
    [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; height: 200px; width: 200px; font-family: bookman oldstyle; color: white; text-align: justify; overflow: auto;]I frowned as he started to yell at me and I felt tears come to my eyes."I-I don't understand why you are yelling at me? I didn't know that your family died."I felt tears sleeping down my cheeks and I felt even more guilty. I covered my eyes as the tears continued to fall down my cheeks."Who are you? Why are you so mad at me? Why do you know me? I just don't understand."I was crying now. I didn't know what to do, the person I remembered seemed to hate me. I rubbed my eyes as the tears continued to fall."I don't know what your talking about! I woke up in the hospital and I was alone, nobody knew anything about me. I don't know anything other than my name and you, I remember you but I don't know who you are!"I told him as I wiped my eyes, trying to stop the tears.
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    [color=black][font=georgia][glow=black,2,300][size=26pt]Lewis. D Redmaynet » [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; borderwidth=0px; letter-spacing:4px; margin-top:-14px][color=black][font=georgia]It’s the sound of tear drops falling down[/fancypost]
    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:450px][justify][sub][color=black][font=georgia]Hearing what she said I stopped in my tracks. "She had internal bleeding in her brain...She must have damaged her limbic system." Muttering to myself as I recalled the events. Remembering what other doctors had told me and what my nursing assistant told me when she brought flowers by my apartment.
    Sighing and collecting my thoughts I walked back to her. Taking the palm of my hands and whipped her tears away. Gently hugging her in a way to comfort her. Then after a moment I pulled back and said, "My names Lewis Redmayne. You were my sisters best friend most of her life. 3 days ago there was a car accident that killed her and caused you to lose your memory." I explained. Looking into her eyes and seeing the confusion.
    "Now will you trust me enough to take you back to my place, grab your stuff from your apartment and let me help you by trying to jog your memory?" I asked. My voice still not warm but less upset then earlier. This wouldn't change the fact that I had basically shut down all of my feelings.[/fancypost][align=center]
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    [shadow=black,left]Echo Lynn Smith• •[/shadow]
    [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; height: 200px; width: 200px; font-family: bookman oldstyle; color: white; text-align: justify; overflow: auto;]I buried my head in his chest as he hugged me and I sniffled as I listened to him talk."M-My best friend? I had a best friend?"I asked with a sniffle."I don't remember her, but why do I remember you?"I asked him as I continued to wipe my eyes. I had felt my heart start to flutter when he hugged me."Why didn't anyone visit me?"I asked him with a frown."Aren't we friends, why wouldn't I trust you?"I asked again as I reached out and took his hand with a soft smile. I was still scared and Lewis felt safe, he was the only thing that felt safe.
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    [color=black][font=georgia][glow=black,2,300][size=26pt]Lewis. D Redmaynet » [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; borderwidth=0px; letter-spacing:4px; margin-top:-14px][color=black][font=georgia]It’s the sound of tear drops falling down[/fancypost]
    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:450px][justify][sub][color=black][font=georgia]I'm back! Sorry I just needed a little time to clear my head but now I'm here and I'm full of muse and new ideas.))


    Feeling the way her small hand fit into mine, almost like pieces of a puzzle, comforted me. As if the radiant heat from her skin filled my body and spread around. Reaching every inch of my skin, reaching the tips of my fingers and the cold heart that had seemed to shut down after these last few weeks.
    Watching as the bright street lamps, lights were reflected off of my green eyes and seemed to play little tricks with my vision. Casting shadows where there wasn't anyone occupying the spot.
    Looking up as I saw the red brick, apartment building I began to fish the keys out of my pocket. Feeling the silver of the apartment key against my fingers as I unlocked the main door. Finding the other key to my mail box as I dropped her hand for a moment and walked over to the wall by the desk. A silver panel covered a section of it. Locks here and there indicating where each separate mail box was. '
    Sticking the key into the lock as I heard it click, I grabbed the small handle and pulled open the box. Finding it almost over flowing with cards and small parcels. No doubt, even after a few weeks, cards about my sister. They were all the same, I'm so sorry for your loss, your sister was amazing. or sometimes even those crappy hallmark cards that people just signed when they didn't know what to say. Some letters from people I haven't seen since I was a small child. But news traveled fast, I mean who wouldn't want everyone to know that a family member had died. It got them sympathy compliments and all that stuff. Well except for me, I didn't care if people knew or not.
    Tucking the envelopes under my arm I closed and locked the mail box up again and lead her up a few flights of stairs to the top floor. The silence was almost welcoming. This apartment building was filled with older people it seemed, so of course it was always quiet. The only time it ever got some what loud was when they would invite their other old people friends over for little house warming parties.
    Fishing out yet another key as I unlocked the door that had 627B hanging out it with small, copper letters and numbers. Pushing the stiff door open with my shoulder I stepped in and flipped the main light on. Throwing the mail into a box on the floor, brimming with more bright colored envelopes and small boxes. Pulling the key back out of the lock and tossing it onto the counter as I closed the door. Running a hand through my blonde hair as I slipped my shoes off. "Can I get you something to eat? Drink? Some clean clothes?"
    My sister's room sat untouched. The door pulled shut. Her name still spelled out with the same little copper letters that hung on the outside door. My room had my name on it of course. But I couldn't bring myself to take her's down. I hoped that one night she would just walk though that door and yell at me saying that I haven't done my laundry yet or that it was my week to take the garbage out. You could only hope. [/fancypost][align=center]
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    [shadow=black,left]Echo Lynn Smith• •[/shadow]
    [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; height: 200px; width: 200px; font-family: bookman oldstyle; color: white; text-align: justify; overflow: auto;]My eyes widened as I stepped into the apartment and looked around in awe. I couldn't remember anything about my past, so this was the first home I had been in since my accident. I noticed the box full of letters and small boxes, but didn't say anything."Um, clean clothes?"I was hungry, but I didn't want to intrude anymore than I already had. I walked down a hallway and turned to see a door with the name "Luise" on it. The thought of the name made my chest ache and I reached out and stroked the letters on the door. I felt something wet travel down my cheek and I realized that I was crying. I took the doorknob and opened the door, slowly walking into the room. I noticed some pictures of me and some girl along with Lewis. I picked up a journal on the desk and started to read through it, it was a diary. I blushed as I read about the part about me telling Luise that I was in love with Lewis. Was that why I remembered him? I put the journal down before looking around the room as more tears fell down my cheeks. Why did this hurt so much!? She was my best friend but I had no memories of her. I quickly darted out of the room and shut the door as I wiped the tears from my eyes. I slid down to floor before feeling something drip on my hand, I looked down to see it was blood. My nose was bleeding again, lately I have been getting a lot of nose bleeds. I stood up and wiped my tears before walking to Lewis."How do you stop nose bleeds?"I asked softly.
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    [color=black][font=georgia][glow=black,2,300][size=26pt]Lewis. D Redmaynet » [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; borderwidth=0px; letter-spacing:4px; margin-top:-14px][color=black][font=georgia]It’s the sound of tear drops falling down[/fancypost]
    [fancypost borderwidth=0px; width:450px][justify][sub][color=black][font=georgia]"Ya...Let me go get you something." I muttered softly. My voice hushed and quiet as I talked. Walking out of the main part of my apartment into my room. Looking at the clothes that laid on the floor. The ones I hadn't washed in weeks, my morning routine consisted of picking up something off the floor and if I thought it was clean I would wear it.
    Once at the closet in the bathroom I found some clothes that Echo had left one time on accident. Pulling them out I heard the door open and knew it was my sisters room. I wanted to run in there and grab her and pull her out of there. I wanted to yell at her that that room was off limits to everyone. No one was allowed to touch anything in there in fear that they would mess it up. In fear that she would come home and jokingly accuse me of snooping through her stuff. But I stopped myself. I stood in my bedroom and clamped my eyes shut. Almost praying for the moment that I would hear the door shut and she would walk back out.
    But instead I heard her call my name and I heard her say something about a bloody nose. Walking back out I saw the crimson blood roll from her nose. Flashbacks of my sister laying on the road, holding her stomach where her shirt was now soaked in blood. "Stop...Your fine..." I grabbed a fist full of hair before taking a breath before walking over to her. Laying the clothes on the back of the couch before I helped her up. Taking her over the sink and having her stand over it.
    Grabbing a box of tissues I pulled one out and handed it to her. "Here, just hold this there." Then I walked over to the fridge and grabbed an ice pack and placed it over the bridge of her nose and held it there. "Do your nose bleeds occur often?" I asked. Being a doctor in training I knew signs to look for if something was wrong. Considering that she had brain bleeding from the accident I would hate for her to have any other problems. [/fancypost][align=center]
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