pity party // private

[fancypost bordercolor=transparent; width: 400px; text-align: justify]The sun had just began taking cover below the horizon in fear of the pale sliver of a moon taking its place in the darkening sky. Birdsongs were drowned out by the chirps and hymns of crickets and cicadas. The pastel sky held pale cottony clouds, drifting aimlessly through space. The silhouette of the feline basked in the dying light of the sun, drinking in the air that surrounded him.

Day by day, he was getting better. Slowly but surely, he was recovering. Piecing his life back together, making the most he could out of his pathetic existence. Still, that proved to be harder than he would've ever imagined. Slipping into depression's icy grip was so much easier than trying to crawl out of it. With a light sigh, the demiboy stretched out his lanky body, seeking comfort in the sunset.

[fancypost bordercolor=transparent; width: 400px; text-align: justify]Billy's dull thoughts had been washed away upon the arrival of Lucid. Seeing the male always brightened him up, even if it was only a little. A meek smile tugged at his features and he returned the nuzzle gently. It had been awhile since they'd last spoken -- before the kits were born, if he wasn't mistaken. He was sure they had a lot to catch up on, however words escaped the demiboy.

"B-Better." Billy finally said after a few moments. It was true; while he was far from good, he definitely didn't feel the way he had in the weeks past. Whatever the reason was, he thanked it. But it didn't appear Lucid was feeling the same way. He seemed awful quiet and solemn, which was unlike the male. He blinked orange optics slowly, taking in his image. "And h-how're you?" He asked, his words softer.

[fancypost bordercolor=transparent; width: 400px; text-align: justify]Billy listened intently, flicking his ears every so often as he did so. It didn't appear there was anything he could really do, as most of the matters were rather familial and out of his hands. He aimed a gentle lick on the tabby's check and a soft nuzzle. "I'm s-sure everything will be o-okay." He rumbled, trying to be as soothing as possible. He'd picked up a lot on how to be reassuring from his time spent moping to others.

"If you e-e-ever need to talk, I'm a-always here." Billy said, watching Lucid carefully. He'd been through his fair share of tough times and, while sometimes he preferred being alone, it was always nice to get everything out. Or at least, it was in his experience.

[fancypost bordercolor=transparent; width: 400px; text-align: justify]Billy found himself smiling at Lucid's words; he'd never been sure in his friendships, always afraid that they weren't as strong as he had imagined. That all of his 'friends' were just pretending, feeling sorry for him. It was one of his many paranoid fears that plagued his very existence. So, to say the least, it was comforting.

His thoughts broke off as he felt the weight of Lucid on top of him. His cheeks burned as blood rose to them, hidden beneath his fur. "H-h-h-hey!" He chuckled, his stuttering picking up as he was clearly flustered. Of course, he made no move to wriggle out from beneath the male. He felt a surge of emotions wash over him, slowing his laughter at the more serious feelings washed over him.

"L-Lucid?" He began slowly, however didn't wait for a response before continuing. "I -- I'm r-really glad I m-met you." He said, blinking his orange eyes as he awkwardly craned his neck to look at the striped feline. "I d-d-don't know where I'd b-be without you..." He trailed off, unsure of where he was going with this conversation, really.

[fancypost bordercolor=transparent; width: 400px; text-align: justify]Billy's smile only grew in size as Lucid replied. Truth be told, the charcoal tabby was glad that he didn't find his sentiments too sappy or weird. As he felt the male's lips brush across his cheeks, he couldn't help but blush, his heart pounding. He couldn't help but let a giggle slip out, slowly reverting to his childish ways.

Then came the request.

At first, the words didn't quite process in his mind. Sleep with him? He blinked once, twice, three times before the words sunk in. He opened his mouth but regretted doing so and shut it promptly. This had to be a joke. He was setting him up, right? The whole clan was probably hiding, invisible or whatever, watching them and choking back laughter. They all probably put Lucid up to this, paid him or whatever so they could all watch him suffer.

But that didn't sound like Lucid. Not really. He doubted that he'd take any sort of bribes or willingly do something so cruel. Still, he couldn't help but glance around to make sure no one was in the vicinity before turning back to the male. "Wh-wha -- r-r-r-really?" He asked, the words eluding him.

[fancypost bordercolor=transparent; width: 400px; text-align: justify]Billy's heart felt like it was in his throat, beating so hard it resonated throughout the entirety of his body. As Lucid confirmed that it hadn't been some horrible joke, he couldn't help but grin again. He'd never kissed someone before, let alone slept with someone. Granted, it was a possibility that he was talking about a friendly nap, however the request didn't seem all that innocent.

For a moment, the silence took on a physical weight as thoughts and emotions whirred around in his mind. Finally, he sucked in a deep breath. "Y-Y-Yes!" He said, unable to hide the excitement in his voice.

[fancypost bordercolor=transparent; width: 400px; text-align: justify]Quite honestly, it was rather hard to excite Billy. He was quite childish at times, however he grew up learning that if he found something fun or interesting, there was always a catch. Thus, he'd learned never to get his hopes up. But this felt different -- it felt right. He graciously returned the nuzzle, smiling like an idiot.

Billy was, on the other hand, rather inexperienced. He'd barely ever hugged anyone; this was new territory entirely for the demiboy. First time for everything, right? "So, y-y-you really want to?" He asked, voice still filled with glee. He wasn't trying to talk Lucid out of it, absolutely not -- he just wanted to be absolutely positive they both mutually consented and he didn't want to back out.

[fancypost bordercolor=transparent; width: 400px; text-align: justify]A wave of relief washed over Billy -- not that he expected Lucid would revoke his offer, but still. His cheeks burned from smiling so much, but that didn't stop him. "R-ready?" He asked, heart pounding against his ribcage.

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[fancypost bordercolor=transparent; width: 400px; text-align: justify]Billy, honestly, felt better than he had since.... damn, ever. He couldn't wipe that stupid grin off of his mug. He was the opposite of Lucid -- he was awesome. He felt like he could do whatever he wanted. But what he really wanted was to just lay there with the male. So upon the shy squeak of a request, he couldn't help but purr out a laugh. "I'd love to," he mumbled, stutter not present. Hey, looked like things were turning around for him. For now, at least.

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