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    Maria listened and didnt say anything for a few minutes before speaking quietly "Thats the thing, it doesnt matter hiw much i try to show you how much you matter to me, because you dont believe it anymore"She stood up and went inside tears still streaming down her face as she went into the kitchen and sat down resting her head on the table.

    He listened to her and when she went inside he took a breath. He didn't care if she caught him now. He pulled out a cigarette from his pocket and lit it. He took a big inhale of it as he paced slightly.

    Maria sighed "I wish I was enough"she muttered to herself as she thought over what to do she had to think of Leo but right now she wanted to run off and start again with Matt she went in the cupboards and got a glass of whiskey and downed it before walking into the living room "Maddie you should go"

    Connor felt so usless and didn't know what to think. All he knew is that he hated how she would run to Matt everytime. He just wanted her to stay and love him like he did for her. He honestly only had her and Leo left. If she left him for Matt he knew she would take Leo with. He knew Leo would grow more attached to Matt and knew he couldn't bare to see either of them with Matt.


    Maddie sighed and looked at her. "Ok... I'm taking Leo with. Neither of you are stable. Leo doesn't need the stress. Your getting drunk and Connor is smoking..." She said since she didn't feel like keeping secrets. "That's the only thing he ever hid from you other than his feelings on how he felt like he was being treated... If your leaving him for Matt just go. I'm not trying to be rude but I've been seeing how Connor was bending himself backwards to make you happy.

    Maria sighed "fine take Leo and I'm not leaving Connor for Matt ok I was going to ask him to back off"she said honestly before going upstairs and crying since she had ruined everything and her chances of having a happy family with Connor and she had treated him badly yet she hadn't noticed she knew she loved him but had to let him go

    Maddie sighed and gathered some stuff of Leo's so he would have clothes for the next day. She then left taking the diaper bag with. She stopped and looked at Connor. She took the cigarette from his mouth and stepped on it before putting her hand out. "Give me the pack!" She basically yelled before taking from his pocket not giving him a chance. "This is not the answer to your problems Connor. If you want your happy family to happen then you need to step up and go talk to Maria. You aren't the only one hurting." She said before leaving with Leo.


    Connor just stood there unsure of how to process everything that happened. After a moment he went inside and out his hands in his pockets going up the steps. He bit his lip and went into the bathroom looking at her. "I'm sorry... I just..." He licked his lips. "What am I to you?" He asked calmly on the verge of tears

    Maria had turned to see him and could smell smoke so knew Maddie wasn't lieing she felt horrible about everything "to me. Your the only one who's been there the only one who's put up with me. The only one who I know has a chance of being my fairytale ending and my Prince Charming But I've lost you..I can't let you continue like this...I don't deserve you Connor...if you can't be happy with me you have to move on...Because your happiness is worth me to me than my own. And I don't care if you believe me or not about Matt but I seriously was confuse before today because I'm weak minded and I always let guys get to close to me but now I'm too scared I'm too terrified of losing you"she admitted

    Connor was silent as he listened to her. "I want you... No one could possibly replace you... I just... I wanna make your fairytale come true. I just keep messing up. I never did this before. I never loved someone like I love you. I know you say Matt means nothing to you... I believe you... At least I did... But Lilly and your father both caught you talking to him and talking sweet to him... I'm jealous. I... I love you. I didn't know what I've been feeling till now... I'm jealous that you have so many people to run to. I have no one to run to. I hate that I'm the only one your running from. I hate fighting. I want to make this better. Maybe we are rushing things... Maybe I'm going to slow for you... All I know is we... We are doing something wrong. I don't care what you say. I'm staying. Everytime I leave something bad happens..." He said as he looked at her.

    Maria wiped her tears "we are doing something wrong I'm doing something wrong I been treating you like a slave and I just want you to be free I know you have no one to go to but you have Maddie and she's a good friend but I'm not making you happy you need to be happy because I can't go on with this sadness looming over us anymore I jus wanted to be a good person and I act so selfish because it's not all about me"she took a breath "I'm not sure how to fix this....I want to but I'm just useless"

    He pulled her into a hug when she stopped talking. "I am happy when we aren't fighting. I just want to wake up next to you. I wanna wake up happy. Like we used to be like. I feel like I'm constantly being looked at by what my past was like and how my parents are. I'm trying to be better than them." He said as he rubbed her back

    Maria shook her head but hugged back "that's how I feel, I feel like you keep thinking I'm going to run away with some guy because of my past "she had a hand on his chest and just held his shirt "I want you to stop smoking you are way better than your parents ok"she sighed "I had one glass of whiskey...and Maddie lost her rag with me...I understand but I just had to do something other than cut and I know it's bad but I just want to grow old with you and I want you to look at me the same way you did when we skinny dipped in your old pool and I didn know ill now"she said as she stopped crying

    He listened to her and hugged her with his forehead on her shoulder. "I wish I could look at you the same... But I can't... Because I love you way more than I did than... Now I'm actually scared to loose you..." He said as he relaxed a bit since she wasn't crying. "God... Your dad makes this seem so easy." He thought aloud as he thought about having a family with her.

    Maria sighed and stayed close to him "well it's not he lost everything but me and he knows what it's like to be you but it's not going to be easy it never was but at least we are trying to help improve our lives because Leo deserves better "she sighed rather sad about Leo staying with Maddie "I'm not a good mother I promised to be but I'm not"

    Maria sighed "no Connor I told you no smoking it's not good around Leo he's just young barely two and yet we have already messed up so much but I see how you are with him and I can see that you love him dearly"she bit her lip

    He looked at her. "I know... I just... I love him... But I need a cigarette..." He sighed running a hand through hair now. "Something... Something to get my mind off the fact that... Well everything." He said as he thought of everything bad that happened