ghosts of my past... [pafp boy needed advaced]

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[fancypost borderwidth=0px; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; letter-spacing: 2px; margin-top: 1px;][align=right][color=black]I keep telling myself I’m alright. The truth is, I’m not, not even close. [/fancypost]
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I woke up around 5 when I heard my alarm go off on my phone from the bathroom where it was charging. Stretching I made sure I didn't wake her as I rolled out of the bed. Stiffing a yawn as I trudged into the bathroom. Turning off the alarm I turned on the radio softly and took a shower and got ready for the morning. Changing into my police uniform. Today the station was having sort of a benefit thing for the police department and the fire station. Updating equipment for safety and stuff like that! I had to go in early but the kids said they would walk over later in the day to hang out with me. Walking down the stairs I stopped when I saw her on the couch. But now something was different, she looked human. Going over to her I shook her gently thinking she was asleep. "Wren...Can you wake up? I want to talk?" But I didn't use the stern voice from last night but my normal one. The sweet voice she had fallen in love with.

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[fancypost borderwidth=0px; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; letter-spacing: 2px; margin-top: 1px;][align=right][color=black]I keep telling myself I’m alright. The truth is, I’m not, not even close. [/fancypost]
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"No, I don't want you to leave. That's the last thing I want." I said looking at her. Giving her a look that said I was sorry. "I'm sorry about last night but I'm not sorry about killing him. It's my job as a cop to serve and protect and that's what I did! He was coming at you and would have probably killed you if he had the chance." Sighing I looked at her and said, "Were having a bbq at the station later. I have to go in to get ready so the kids are just going to walk over if you want to join them."

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[fancypost borderwidth=0px; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; letter-spacing: 2px; margin-top: 1px;][align=right][color=black]I keep telling myself I’m alright. The truth is, I’m not, not even close. [/fancypost]
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Blushing slightly as our eyes meet I smiled and said, "It starts at noon...You guys can have lunch there." My voice soft as she stood up. Her body standing there in front of me. Now I could hold her and feel our skin brush against each other and the warmth transfer between our bodies with each touch and kiss. Standing up I looked down at her and placing my hands gently on her hips I kissed her. It felt different now like I thought it would be. It was even better than before.

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Feeling her kiss back and her hand on my chest I took that as a good sign. Holding her close I felt her warmth against my body and the skin on her forearm rubbing on the back of my neck. Sitting down on the couch I pulled her onto my lap. Pulling back for a moment to gain my breath. Smiling at her as I did that and just simply winked at her with a smirk on my face.
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[fancypost borderwidth=0px; font-family: arial; font-size: 11px; letter-spacing: 2px; margin-top: 1px;][align=right][color=black]I keep telling myself I’m alright. The truth is, I’m not, not even close. [/fancypost]
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"I figured it might seem crazy if I asked you to be my girlfriend and then people couldn't meet you...But now.." I bit my lip as I let my hands trail down her body. Feeling the curves of her sides and hip as I did. "Now that your here." I said softly looking up at her. My brown eyes meeting with hers as I saw the love and passion that filled hers along with mine. "Will you, Wren, be my girlfriend?"
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#dustylooky

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Chuckling softly as I put a fist in the air, signaling a victory. Then I looked over at the clock and saw at this point it was almost 6 and I had to go in in about 15 minutes. "Well continue this later! I promise." I smiled. Keeping her in the kiss as I wiggled my way out from under her. Holding the kiss as I moved away. Finally breaking it when my neck wouldn't stretch that far. Waving at her I said, "Noon!" Shutting the door I stood there for a moment and smiled as I leaned against the door. Running down the stairs I got into my car and drove to the station.
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Pulling into the station's parking lot I ran inside just to clock in at 5:59, one minute before my shift started. Letting out a sigh of relief as I saw Dan, my partner ,shaking his head as he finished off a red bull. Tossing it into the crash can with a clatter. "Good thing you came in when you did! There's some chase down the interstate in the other state coming into our bounds soon. After he crosses over he's our responsibility so." Clicking his tongue I nodded and grabbed the car keys from the hanging key holder. Walking over to the car I made sure my clip was full and loaded into my gun and I had my bullet proof vest on. Tossing him the keys he passed them back, "You should drive, a little hung over after a party last night." He smirked. Laughing I got into the front seat and pulled out. Flipping the sirens on and the lights.
Once out on the interstate I saw the guys car coming towards us and stopped in the middle of the road barracking him in. He flew past us driving to the other side of the road.
"F*ck..." I muttered softly. Whipping out of the position I flew after him. Dan pulling his gun out and shooting at him from the window. Aiming for the tire. But little did we knew he was doing the same thing. Hearing a gun shot, from not one of our guns I instantly felt what it was. A blown tire, and I had just turned. We both seemed to know what would happen in those split seconds before our car flipped. Rolling multiple times before landing in a ditch. Before I could figure out what was happening I yelled in pain as I felt my legs being crushed my the dashboard.
"BECKETT!" I heard Dan shout as he tried to reach over and help me. His face bloody from a cut on his cheek. But before I knew it I was knocked out from blood loss.

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All I remember next was the flash of lights, and the sounds of sirens and metal being torn apart. But I drifted in and out of consciousness. Every time I felt myself slipping back in I heard someone shout my name and brought me back. Each time I was a little different. The first few times it was Dan. Then it was some lady as I felt the side of the car that Dan was on open. Letting myself dangle as the car sat upside down I felt the blood rush to my head and my legs start to grow numb. Shouting surrounded me as they watched to make sure I was alright as they tried to pull the car apart to get to me. I had fallen under once again but when I woke up I was on the stretcher as they rushed me across the highway to the ambulance as they rushed me to the hospital. I could see Dan sitting next to me as he shook his head. Tears in his eyes as they had wrapped a shock blanket around him. Once there they rushed me into surgery because apparently my legs were really torn up and I had some chest damage from slamming into the steering wheel.
"Police had released the name of the two victims." The reporter said as they got a chopper view. "The passenger in the accident was 25 year old Daniel Alexander. Doctors say he was only bruised from the accident and would be OK." A picture of him on the screen as they did talk. Then my picture came on the scree. Of course I wore the dorky smile because when they took the picture Dan was making faces at me. "The second victim, and driver. Is 24 year old Beckett Koch. Doctors say that Mr. Koch lays in critical condition." Naming the hospital they then went back to there regular scheduled program.

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I know lay in a hospital bed, the news playing in the background as the machines beeped all around me. Wires coming from my chest to keep track of my vital signs and a wrapping around my chest where they had done surgery. Uncovered by a shirt or a blanket to avoid irritation of any sorts. One of my leg uncovered and my knee wrapped in what looked like a mix between a cast and a brace. Cuts and bruises on my arms from where the glass had shattered. Dan was at the front door waiting for Wren and the kids to come and when he saw them he ran out to them. "He's gonna be fine, there watching him. Go upstairs, I'll make sure the kids get something eat." Giving her the room number he smiled at the kids and took them to the cafeteria for something to eat.
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#dustylooky

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I heard her speaking as I lay there, trying to talk but the sleep just to over bearing. Finally I kind of woke up and opened both eyes and looked at her. "I love you too..." I said softly, still weak enough to the point where my voice wasn't very loud. Taking in a few deep breaths I realized I must have bruised my lungs or something because of a twinge of pain. But quickly the medicine kicked in like it was just waiting for a few signals of pain.

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