ghosts of my past... [pafp boy needed advaced]

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    I watched the pain in her eyes as she told the story. Someone else who felt the same thing I did I guess you could say. I always felt like everyone just saw there siblings as well...Siblings! I basically saw them as my own children! Not in a creepy way where they called me dad and everything! But I think she got the point. Standing up I walked over to her side of the bed and not knowing if this would work I wrapped my arms around her and feeling her like she was a person I pulled her into my side. I comforted her by dragging my hands threw her hair. "She's in a better place now...Now she doesn't have to ever worry about her father again." Tears in my own eyes as I recalled some of the memories with my drunken father. Telling the kids to hide in my bed room as he threw beer bottles as me and they broke on bare skin and tore it. But I never backed down, screaming back at him as he tried to hit them but I always took the punches. Who could tell we had a fight the night I took them. My lip was busted and I had a large burn going up my arm where he pushed me against the hot stove.

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    I cried softly as he held me. I leaned into his embrace, laying my head on his chest. I sniffled and exhaled shakily, trying to calm myself down. I looked up at him and wiped my eyes. "Why are you being so nice to me? You don't even know me..." I whispered as I looked away, tears still in my eyes.

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    I smiled at her and turned her head back to me and whipped her eyes. "I'm being so nice because I can understand some of the pain." Hugging her I said, "I watched my mom die slowly from Cancer and I was the last one to see her before she died. After that my dad blamed me and began to drink. But no matter what I would never let him touch the kids. I would always tell right back but as you can see he never got better. When I turned 18 where I was a legal adult I got an apartment and got the kids out of. Took them to school. And one night he came over in a drunken haze and before he left he signed his legal rights over. Giving me permission to finally adopt these guys and become there legal guardian.

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    I blushed as he wiped the tears from my eyes, our eyes meeting. I watched him as he told why he knew my pain. I exhaled and watched him with sad eyes. A man as sweet and caring as him shouldn't have gone through all that. I leaned my head against his shoulder and pulled to knees to my chest. "My boyfriend killed me..." I whispered randomly. I gently grabbed his hand, trying to feel some kind of warmth from the living. "That's why I'm dead... We got into an argument and he pushed me down the stairs... To cover up what he had done, he convinced my family and friends that I had committed suicide..." I continued, standing as I walked over to the top of the staircase, no emotion in my eyes. "That fades bloodstain? That was me... In 1992." I whispered, a single tear running down my cheek. I don't know why I was telling him this. I guess it was because I couldn't tell anyone else before and now that I was able to, I took the opportunity.

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    I followed her to the staircase and ran my hand over the faded stain. I looked at her and whipped her eyes and placed my hand on her cheek. When our eyes had meet I felt something, happiness. Pure happiness. Not forced happiness to cover up how sad and scared I was. Smiling at her I said, "Well that guy was nothing but scum." Then I gently placed my lips on her. Spreading my warmth as I held my hand on her cheek. Pulling back I said, "Your a gorgeous person. You know..."

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    I leaned into his touch as he touched my cheek. I looked up at him, our eyes meeting. In that moment, I wasn't afraid anymore. I exhaled shakily, shyly looking down at his lips as my cheeks glowed pink. Then, he kissed me. And I kissed back for a moment before he pulled away. I looked back into his eyes, my blush deepening. "No... I didn't know that." I whispered with a soft smile, biting my lip as our eyes met.

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    "I think were going to like it here." I smiled at her softly and hearing one of the kids get up I said, "Just hang around here...They might be able to see you." Going into the kitchen I finished off the cake and seeing them all come around the corner I lit the candles and began to sing as the boys jumped in. Lilly blushed as she sat down and we all hugged her and kissed her. Serving the cake I brought out the present and as soon as she saw her present she hugged me and began to play. I smiled and seeing Wren I told the kids,"I think were going to stay here guys. It fits us but as soon as we can we can go out and get some paint for everyone's rooms!"

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    I smiled as I watched them. They were so happy with the smallest things. I exhaled and sat on the edge of the couch when I looked up, the boys were looking at me curiously. Then, they got Lily's attention and she turned, looking at me. My eyes widened as I stood. I just remained silent. Could they really see me?


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    I smiled at them and knowing they could see her I said, "Guys, this is Wren. She use to leave here a while back." Waiting for there reaction. The boys looked at each other and smiled widely.
    "That's wicked!" The both said at the same time as they shrugged it off and went back to the cake.
    Lilly stood up and walking over to Wren said in her cute voice and wide eyes, "Your super pretty!" Then smiling she went back to playing.
    I walked over to her and smiled, "Told you they would love you!" Ruffling Lilly's hair I pulled out an extra seat for Wren.

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    I blushed deeply as they seemed to react positively. I smiled down at Lily as she called me pretty and I felt my heart skip a beat. I had always wanted children, it was always a dream of mine, even when I was a little girl. I could care less about being married because I could raise my children by myself. If I could, it would be great to have someone I love by my side. But if I didn't have anyone, I would've done it myself. I smiled at Beckett as I sat in the seat he had pulled out for me and I pulled my hair to the side, the blush still evident on my tanned cheeks. I bit my lip and watched Lily play and I watched the boys bicker about the cake and I couldn't help but smile. I had always loved kids. I looked back at Beckett, my eyes sparkling. I was so happy that someone could actually see me. I mean, what better people would I want to finally see me? "I'm so glad they like me." I said with a small laugh, some of my bangs falling in my face. I brushed them behind my ear and looked up, our eyes meeting and my heart skipped a beat. I felt warmth inside me that I hadn't felt for so long.

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    "There great kids...I figured they would..." I smiled softly as our eyes meet. Feeling a spark as my hand found its way to push a lose streak of hair behind her ear. Smiling she didn't feel cold like I had expected but warm like she was alive. Was it me? Kissing her softly I pulled back and said, "Can you eat anything?" I reached over grabbing a piece of cake for myself and waited for her answer. I wasn't sure how this would work. But maybe some how she could come back and we could make this work. Until then I would just try my best to make her happy, the way she was before she meet that guy. Genuinely happy.

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    I looked up at him as he brushed the hair out of my face and I smiled softly, my blush still evident on my cheeks. I looked at the cake and shook my head with a sigh. "Trust me, I tried. I miss Subway the most." I groaned as I thought of Subway. I blushed. "I love food, what can I say?" I giggled softly

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    I smiled at her and eating the cake I heard the door knock and stood up. I wasn't expecting some one but looking threw the peep hole I saw him, standing there in his drunken glory. "Wren. Get the kids and go into Lilly's room and lock the door and don't come out until I tell you guys to!" I saw the boys stand up and grab Lilly's hand and the other grab the castle and retreat into the room. Then he hit the door and began to curse and shout. Swinging it open I saw him standing there as he began to shout at me. "YOU DON'T LOVE ME! YOU NEVER HAVE! YOU AND THOSE STUPID BRATS!" Calling me every name in the book besides my own and accuse me of stealing them. Going to the kitchen I grabbed a copy of the legal paperwork I filled out in order to adopt them.
    "I ADOPTED THEM! I WENT BEFORE A COURT OF LAW TO GET THEM AWAY FROM YOU! Your not our dad and you never were! You're just so miserable @ss drunk who doesn't deserve to live!" I was louder and angrier than I had ever been! 23 years of all of this being bottled up! All of this rage and anger I had felt so many years came flowing in a form of words. "YOU GET THE H*LL OUT OF HERE OR I'M CALLING THE COPS!" Then I heard the bottle break and felt the hot blood running down my face. Feeling the open wound on the top of my head I pulled my hand back as it was covered in blood. "GO TO H*LL!" I shouted as I walked out of the apartment. "You don't control us anymore and you never WILL EVER AGAIN! I WON'T LET YOU HAVE THEM BACK!" The blood dripping into my eyes as I simply whipped it away and the blood that had traveled into my mouth I formed into a glob of red, bloody spit and spit on his white shirt before going back inside and slamming the door shut.

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    I ran up the stairs, making sure they were in the room before I slammed it and locked it. I gulped and looked around. "Stay in the corner..." I told them as I licked the door. I rushed over to them, exhaling shakily as tears swelled in my eyes. My parents had some fights, sure, but nothing this bad. The only time if been around this kind of fighting was with my own boyfriend. I held Lily and the boys close to me, trying to shield them from the screaming. I exhaled and jumped with a small yelp as I heard a bottle break. My heart rate spiked, worrying for Beckett. I let silent tears fall so I wouldn't scare the kids by showing I was also scared. I bit my lip hard, trying not to shake as I waited for Beckett to give us the all clear.


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    Cursing under my breath I felt the top of my head and winced it pain. Blood still running down my face. "You guys can come out now." I called as I went to the kitchen sink. Filling my hands with water I began to splash it into my face washing the blood off as it all mixed together and swirled down the drain. If I could afford it I would go to the ER so they could get the glass out but I couldn't afford something that expensive! Especially right now. Sighing I hung my head and wetter a cold towel and placed it ontop of my head to try to stop the bleeding long enough for me to get the worst of the glass out.

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    I came out of the room, letting the kids run out before I did. I walked over to Beckett, my eyes laced with worry. I walked up behind him, putting my nimble fingers on the cloth. I looked at the wound and my eyes saddened. "It needs stitches... There is a first aid kit below the sink." I said as I crawled under the sink, grabbing the kit as I opened it, grabbing a needle and thread. "Sit." I commanded.


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    Sighing I sat down in the chair and looked at the kids as they stared at me with worried eyes. "It's going to be OK guys! I promise! You won't ever seen him again." Lilly walked over me and hugged me and I kissed the top of her head, "I love you baby girl..." I whispered softly as she smiled up at me and they went back to playing. Turning my attention to Wren I placed my hand on her arm. "Thank you for doing that...I really do appreciate it."

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    I looked down at him as he hugged Lily, saying he lovedhr. I sighed and finished off the stitches, making sure to clean the wound and then clean my hands. I turned to him as he grabbed my arm, thanking me for what I had done. I smiled up at him softly. "It's no big deal. I'm just sorry you had to deal with that for that long." "I wish I could have helped." I said softly and looked down.


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    "This is my battle to fight." I answered to her last comment as I stood up and took he hands. "I needed to face him once and for all and now that I've done that I can move on. Get a job, go to college, the kids go to school..." Brushing a piece of hair away from her eyes I smiled softly, "I'm just happy some one else is here..." Its kind of hard to talk about 'adult' like things with kids. Jobs, school, struggles. They don't quiet get it or they do and then you scar them for life.

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    I smiled softly as he brushed the strand of hair from my face and I looked up, into his eyes with a slight blush to my cheeks. I bit my lip. "Yeah, that's true." I said softly and exhaled, turning to put up the first aid kit. I stood back up and faced Beckett, running a hand through my hair. "I was so scared for you... When we were upstairs. I felt useless because I couldn't do anything to save you..." I said, murmuring the last part.


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