maybe you [ p ] could save my soul

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    [size=20pt]jason lucas mordecai[/size]


    [fancypost bgcolor=; bordercolor=#212121 borderwidth=0px; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 12px; color: black; margin-top: 0px; letter-spacing: 0px;]jason had been bit two years ago. it had changed his life. it would change anyone's life if he had to be honest. this was the first time he had been back to school in a long time. he decided to take time off after he had been bit because he hadn't had much control of his wolf in the beginning. he still didn't have control, but it was better than before.


    the blonde haired boy was living with it now. he had accepted it. jason had a new life, a girlfriend, a pack, basically a new family. he loved that about it. he was accepted into the pack for who he had become, not what he had been before.


    he was happy to be back in school. he hadn't really thought everything though yet, like his old life; all of his old friends, his old girlfriend. as he entered the school his new girlfriend, ginger; that was really her name, it matched her hair color too, was at his hip. jason stopped for a second finally remembering all of his old life. he shook his head, he was different now, changed.[/fancypost]


    [shadow=black,left]Shiloh Ann Smith• •[/shadow]
    [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; height: 200px; width: 200px; font-family: bookman oldstyle; color: white; text-align: justify; overflow: auto;]Jason has been everything to me when I entered high school. My father was a drunk and never around while my mother was terminally ill in the hospital. Jason wasn't like all the kids at school though, he didn't tell me to get over it and he didn't pity me. He just tried to cheer me up and make me happy. He never failed to put a huge smile on my face. I was always dorky and he always told me that it was one of the things that he loved about me.


    That all changed our sophomore year of high school though. We had been dating since freshman year though all we really did was kiss. I don't think either one of us were ready to take it any further. I was happy and he was happy, but then he began to distance himself from me until he just stopped talking to me. He broke up with me half way into the year and it broke my heart. My mother died a week later and I felt alone.


    It has been two years and people are saying that Jason was back, but he was hanging out with a new crowd. I watched him from my locker as he walked in and I felt my chest tighten when I saw the girl that was hanging all over him. She was pretty, more so than I'll ever be. I made eye contact with Jason before looking away and slamming my locker shut. Who cares if he has a new girlfriend. He was the one who broke me with me so he has every right to have a new girlfriend. Though, I could hear the whispers and my name was one of the things that people whispered.
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    [fancypost bgcolor=; bordercolor=#212121 borderwidth=0px; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 12px; color: black; margin-top: 0px; letter-spacing: 0px;]jason stopped when he saw her. shiloh. he hadn't seen her in so long. he felt ginger grab his arm and start to pull him along. he kept staring at her. ginger thumbed his ear and he quickly turned to face her. he grumbled slightly.


    "oh, come on." she huffed. "we have to get to class." she said. jason rolled his eyes and walked to his locker. he was surprised he hadn't forgot how to put in a combination. he looked at ginger who was having trouble she had never been to human school before. he laughed and helped her get her stuff and slowly walked to his first class with her. he glanced back over at shiloh and sighed a little.


    [shadow=black,left]Shiloh Ann Smith• •[/shadow]
    [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; height: 200px; width: 200px; font-family: bookman oldstyle; color: white; text-align: justify; overflow: auto;]I looked at Jason as he helped his girlfriend with her locker and I didn't know whether I wanted to cry or scream at him. I mean, did he ever love me or was all that just one big lie. I felt tears start to make their way into my eyes and I couldn't help but smile when I saw him laugh."I still love you, Jase..."I hadn't used that nickname in years and it felt good to whisper it to myself. I wiped my tears away and started to walk to class, the same class that I would have with Jason.


    I knew because his name was on the roll and we had a beginning project, it was a history class and we had to choose one of the wars to research. Everyone else already had partners so I was out with Jason and it was stressing me out. I didn't even know what to say to him.
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    [fancypost bgcolor=; bordercolor=#212121 borderwidth=0px; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 12px; color: black; margin-top: 0px; letter-spacing: 0px;]jason sat down toward the back of the classroom. ginger talked to her new found friends. he now couldn't even get his mind off of shiloh. he missed her and he never thought he would see her again, but he did and now he remembered why he loved her.


    he also remember why he left. he couldn't hurt her. he had hurt people before and he didn't want to hurt her. he took a deep breath in and put his head in his hands. he had to get his mind off of it. he had to think about his pack, not about shiloh.


    [shadow=black,left]Shiloh Ann Smith• •[/shadow]
    [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; height: 200px; width: 200px; font-family: bookman oldstyle; color: white; text-align: justify; overflow: auto;]I let out a deep sigh as the bell rang and I moved to seat next to Jason, refusing to look at him."I have no one else to work with so Mrs. Langley put me with you."I said softly as I started to pick at my nails, it was nervous habit. My nails were ugly and short because of it, but Jason never cared about all of that. He would always climb in through my windows and he would spend the night in my room. We would only kiss and cuddle until we both fell asleep, maybe that's why he broke up with me.


    I shook my head, I could spend all day wondering why he broke up with me. Jason looked happy though, I suppose I needed him way more than he ever needed me. I was just content with him being happy."What war should we do our paper on?"I asked him, trying to avoid eye contact.
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    [fancypost bgcolor=; bordercolor=#212121 borderwidth=0px; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 12px; color: black; margin-top: 0px; letter-spacing: 0px;]jason jumped slightly as she sat down next to him and started talking. really he had to be paired with her, her of all people. he could feel her heart rate quicken. he tapped his foot nervously on the floor. he took in another deep breath trying to lessen his heart rate.


    he didn't even answer her question. he stared foward. calm down. he told himself. he finally just shrugged as a response. "don't know." he said softly as he stared forward. "you choose." he said. he had calmed down a little. he knew he could keep it that way. he had to unless he wanted to hurt her and he wasn't going to.


    [shadow=black,left]Shiloh Ann Smith• •[/shadow]
    [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; height: 200px; width: 200px; font-family: bookman oldstyle; color: white; text-align: justify; overflow: auto;]I felt a little hurt at his lack of emotion towards me, though I suppose that I was acting the same way. I wanted to yell and scream while crying all at the same time. I wanted to know what I had done to make him so upset."Um, World War II."I answered as I sat there, not really sure what else to say. It felt so unnatural since I was always able to talk to him so easily."Mom died last year..."I said softly. I thought that Jason would like to know. I always took him to visit Mom and she loved him.


    Mom was so sure that we could get married and she wished that she could be there to see it. I wonder if she could see us now and if she is disappointed that we had broken up."I wanted to invite you to the funeral, but I could never find you."I muttered. I was basically alone after Mom died, though I was never angry at Jason.
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    [fancypost bgcolor=; bordercolor=#212121 borderwidth=0px; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 12px; color: black; margin-top: 0px; letter-spacing: 0px;]jason flinched slightly when she said that her mom died. he suddenly felt terrible. he tapped his foot more. "she was a nice woman." he muttered. she had probably heard people saying that they were sorry a million times. he looked down at the ground.


    he clenched his jaw as he kept staring forward. he slowly turned his head to look at her. she looked more beautiful than he remember. he could feel his heart pound faster. he quickly got up out of his chair and exited the classroom. he leaned against the wall breathing heavily.


    [shadow=black,left]Shiloh Ann Smith• •[/shadow]
    [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; height: 200px; width: 200px; font-family: bookman oldstyle; color: white; text-align: justify; overflow: auto;]My eyes widened as we made eye contact for the first time in two years and found myself staring into his deep eyes. That's when I noticed that the love for me, it wasn't really gone. I could see it in his eyes. I was about to say something when he got up and walked out of the room. I stood up and followed him."No! You do not get to this!"I said with a scowl on my face. I was mad and hurt, I suppose it wasn't a good combination. I was tired of wondering why he broke up with me.


    I stood infront of him with a glare and crossed my arms over my chest."Why? Why did you break up me? You did it over the phone! I thought you were a better man than that!"I snapped. Yes, I was jealous of the girl had the privilege of being able to put her lips on his. I wanted to be able to hate him, I wanted to just get over him."You still love me, I saw it I your eyes."I added softly.
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    [size=20pt]jason lucas mordecai[/size]


    [fancypost bgcolor=; bordercolor=#212121 borderwidth=0px; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 12px; color: black; margin-top: 0px; letter-spacing: 0px;]jason couldn't believe that she followed him, but he should of remembered how stubborn she was. she was so hard headed and didn't just give up like that. shiloh went after what she wanted until she got it. that was something they had in common.


    it also made the blonde haired werewolf angry though. he just wanted her to drop it. "shiloh, leave it alone." he grumbled slightly as he leaned against the lockers. he was trying so hard to keep it buried. he looked at her with pleading eyes. "just drop it, please." he begged her as he balled his fists. he closed his eyes taking in deep breaths.


    [shadow=black,left]Shiloh Ann Smith• •[/shadow]
    [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; height: 200px; width: 200px; font-family: bookman oldstyle; color: white; text-align: justify; overflow: auto;]I shook my head as I clenched my hands into fists and I could feel my knuckles start to turn white."No! I deserve an answer! You told me never to contact you and I respected that! It's been two years, Jason! You can't just throw away everything that happened between us!"I was close to yelling, something that I rarely did. I hated getting angry and Jason knew that. I was usually pretty kind-hearted and soft-spoken, but that was just me being shy. I was shy around people I don't know and that was mostly everyone. Jason forced me to get to know him and I never knew that anyone could care that much about me."You broke my heart, I deserve to know why."I pretended that I couldn't see the pleading look in his eyes. I was weak when it came to those eyes so I was trying not to look into them, afraid that I would fall under some sort of spell. That I would just crumble under all of the pain and start crying, I didn't want to cry infront of him.
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    [size=20pt]jason lucas mordecai[/size]


    [fancypost bgcolor=; bordercolor=#212121 borderwidth=0px; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 12px; color: black; margin-top: 0px; letter-spacing: 0px;]"i said leave it alone!" jason yelled at her as he turned and punched the lockers leaving one huge dent. he shoved past her, angry that she had prodded so much and not just respected his decision. he didn't even look back as he moved his ways out of the school.


    it wasn't even second period and he had already lost his cool. he fell to his knees gripping the grass and taring at it. he told himself he wasn't about to change right here in front of the school, but he was already angry and he could feel the wolf taking hold.


    he changed into a wolf letting out a low growl as he looked back toward the school, then took off into the woods.


    [shadow=black,left]Shiloh Ann Smith• •[/shadow]
    [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; height: 200px; width: 200px; font-family: bookman oldstyle; color: white; text-align: justify; overflow: auto;]I felt tears start to run down my cheeks as he walked away from me, but it was strange. He had never had issue with controlling his anger before. I followed after him, but all I could see him going into the woods. I walked to the edge of the trees before sitting down, hugging my knees to my chest. I rocked back and forth as more tears streamed down my cheek. I let a small sob from the back of my throat. My heart was still broken and I had been so lonely when Jason started to not come to school."Please come back, Jason. I love you, I miss you..."I whispered as I struggled to stop the tears that seemed to endlessly pool over my eye lids. I wanted to be in Jason's arms again, I missed him so much.
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    [fancypost bgcolor=; bordercolor=#212121 borderwidth=0px; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 12px; color: black; margin-top: 0px; letter-spacing: 0px;]the wolf turned back toward the school, whimpering. even in his wolf form jason felt terrible. he walked a little faster back toward the school. he stopped when he heard a howl. he shook his head and walked even faster toward the school.


    jason saw her sitting there crying. he barked quietly and quickly padded toward her. he stood beside her and gently nuzzled her. he looked her in eyes as he kept nuzzling her.


    [shadow=black,left]Shiloh Ann Smith• •[/shadow]
    [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; height: 200px; width: 200px; font-family: bookman oldstyle; color: white; text-align: justify; overflow: auto;]I let out a small yelp when I noticed that there was suddenly a wolf sitting infront of me, though he didn't seem dangerous. I wiped my eyes and smiled as I reached out, stroking his head."Hey there, aren't you the cutie."I had always had a soft spot for animals, especially wolves. They were my favorite animal. I looked into his eyes and something about them seemed familiar. I shook it off as I continued to stroke his fur."You are so handsome, I bet that you get all of the girl wolves."I told him. It was strange how this wolf had made me smile so easily, only Jason was ever able to do that."Is it stupid that I still love him?"I asked the wolf, though I didn't really think that he would answer. He was just an animal after all.
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    [fancypost bgcolor=; bordercolor=#212121 borderwidth=0px; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 12px; color: black; margin-top: 0px; letter-spacing: 0px;]the wolf kept nuzzling her. he licked her face and barked happily. he froze and turned toward the school doors where he saw ginger. he looked back toward shiloh. he quickly turned back towards the woods. he was scared of ginger, she was a pure-blood werewolf, born into all of this, she was strong than him and she was the pack leader's daughter who just saw him with a human.


    he looked back at shiloh with the same pleading brown eyes. ginger quickly came walking over to shiloh, as jason took off into the woods with a howl.


    [shadow=black,left]Shiloh Ann Smith• •[/shadow]
    [fancypost bgcolor=transparent; bordercolor=transparent; height: 200px; width: 200px; font-family: bookman oldstyle; color: white; text-align: justify; overflow: auto;]I laughed as he licked my face and looked at him with those big brown eyes, they looked so much like Jason's. This wolf reminded me so much of Jason, it was almost scary. He even looked at me with the same pleading eyes before running off into the woods."Jason?"I muttered sifts necked shaking my head, that was impossible. Jason was a human being, not a wolf. He had managed to cheer me up though and that was very much like Jason. He hated when I cried and would make himself look like a complete idiot trying to make me laugh.


    I stood up and froze when I saw Ginger standing there."You better feel lucky that you have him. He is a really nice guy and you better not hurt him!"I said with a scowl before walking away from her.
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    [size=20pt]jason lucas mordecai[/size]


    [fancypost bgcolor=; bordercolor=#212121 borderwidth=0px; font-family: times new roman; font-size: 12px; color: black; margin-top: 0px; letter-spacing: 0px;]ginger laughed a little bit. "who were you talking to?" she asked as she stared out into the woods, acting dumb. on the inside ginger was fuming. jason knew better and shiloh really found out ginger just might kill her herself.


    jason changed back into a human after her had finally calmed down. he quickly made her way back to ginger and shiloh. he quickly walked over to ginger and hook his arm with her's. "we should be getting back to class don't you think?" he asked a little aggravated.