he might be a sinner -- private, rhy -- or a gentleman

LEE. · Jan 4th 2015

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[justify][size=7pt][color=black]"[b]Yeah." Lee said. WindClan drama was the least of his troubles at the moment, with concerns of his mental health building up. He was sure when Thousandlies was diagnosed with the Flare that he was an Immune - he hadn't caught it, after all. But recently he had been having flashes of different emotions, bouncing back and forth between sanity and no control.

"That's all you can hope for at the end of the day."

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rhymescheme · Jan 5th 2015

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Hardly. "No. That's not right. The point is to work for change. Hope is stupid." The calico replied, not sure if she was attempting to contradict her own pervious words or just Lee's tacking on. It just all seemed wrong and horrible all of the sudden and she wanted to fix it. But it was impossible.
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LEE. · Jan 6th 2015

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[justify][size=7pt][color=black]"[b]Sometime hope's all you got." he shot back, way too defensively. All he had been doing was hoping recently - hoping that Thousandlies' disease would be sure, hoping that he wasn't contracting it, hoping that WindClan would continue to hold itself together. Sometimes you can't do anything.

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rhymescheme · Jan 6th 2015

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Rhy wasn't sure how to respond to that. Hope. Well it had its place, she supposed, when there was nothing. But hope could be detrimental too. "When if comes up to that, though...it's pretty hard to have it." The young calico apprentice sat quietly, her tail wrapping around her paws.
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LEE. · Jan 10th 2015

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[justify][size=7pt][color=black]"[b]And its not so stupid then, is it?" he retorted. "It's the most important thing you can have. The only thing stronger than fear."

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rhymescheme · Jan 10th 2015

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"Or we could all just kill ourselves and be done with it. But apparently it doesn't work that way." She said, looking over her ethereal body. Rhy, the practical sense, realized hope was well...irrational. And at the same time it was fully necessary to be able to truly live.
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LEE. · Jan 11th 2015

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[justify][size=7pt][color=black]Lee wasn't sure how she knew about the thoughts he'd been having recently, but he was angry at her for knowing them. "[b]How DARE you." he said with thinly veiled rage. "How did you know?" he spat at the phantom.
Of course he had been considering suicide - after all, he was pretty sure he was in the early stages of the Flare.

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rhymescheme · Jan 11th 2015

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Her eyes widened. "What--what are you talking about?" She asked, feeling scared for the first time since she'd gotten back here, without the body. The young calico wondered exactly what he was implying in that. No, she was pretty good at reading between the lines. She just...why did he seem so jumpy about that? He was acting strangely. "Lee -- you're not going to kill yourself, are you?"
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LEE. · Jan 12th 2015

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[justify][size=7pt][color=black]Oh, crap. Back track, quickly.
"[b]No - but after all that Thousandlies went through. Suicide was on her mind for a long time, and I wouldn't be surprised if she had made secret attempts." he said, trying not to seem that he was lying through his teeth. Her disease never got as bad as his was.

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rhymescheme · Jan 12th 2015

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People who attempted suicide and couldn't manage it were a rather special sort of idiot. Rhy had a feeling she would have landed in their graces, had she taken the plunge -- or rather attempted to. Her luck was such that no other end game seemed possible. The young calico narrowed her eyes. "Well no one should. You never know what'll happen to you, if you do." She said darkly.
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LEE. · Jan 13th 2015

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[justify][size=7pt][color=black]Lee sighed, conflicted thoughts running through his head. He decided to leave that conversation as it was, the last thing he needed were more suicidal thoughts. "[b]Just leave it, alright?" he said.

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rhymescheme · Jan 13th 2015

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Her eyes narrowed, but she shrugged. What did she care? Lee was one of the last people she could actually imagine taking his life. Sandy, on the other hand, well she was pretty prone to that sort of thing -- and likely to do it all of the sudden too, so no one would even know. "Fine." Rhy said with a sigh, looking away from him.
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LEE. · Jan 14th 2015

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[justify][size=7pt][color=black]"[b]What was it like - the time from when you passed till now? Was there nothing? Or StarClan? Or did you just wander around?" he asked curiously.

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rhymescheme · Jan 14th 2015

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"Nothing." She said. She didn't remember a thing. She'd been locked away somehow, for a while, and there seemed to be no solution for it. The young calico shivered slightly, remembering. It was more than a little unsettling.
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LEE. · Jan 15th 2015

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[justify][size=7pt][color=black]"[b]Really? So it was like being asleep - time passed but you didn't notice? Odd." he said uncertainly.

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rhymescheme · Jan 15th 2015

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Rhy shrugged. It was blankness, as though it had never happened. But somewhere in her soul she felt as though she had been horribly alone, in some dark stoic place where time did not move, and it was only to endure a lonely agony forever. "It was how it was." She said, feeling a little sick.
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LEE. · Jan 16th 2015

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[justify][size=7pt][color=black]Lee was sort of confused and felt a mix of relief and fear. When he kicked the bucket, there would be no more pain. No more sadness. But no more happiness, no more joy, no more WindClan. "[b]It doesn't sound very appealing." he lied.

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rhymescheme · Jan 16th 2015

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"It's not." But she still felt, on occasion, that perhaps it had been better at one point. Rhymepaw thought from living, well living was likely better, just because you had the potential for happiness. But for the young calico ghost, with her pain and the slow decline she felt in herself...well maybe it wasn't better exactly from this life. "Still, you wouldn't know it."
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LEE. · Jan 18th 2015

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[justify][size=7pt][color=black]Lee shrugged. "[b]Fair enough. If you had the option to come back in another body, would you?" he asked.

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rhymescheme · Jan 18th 2015

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"Yes." That's what she'd wanted before, those times when she'd considered killing herself. It had never been to escape this world, but to come back in a better way, one where she had a chance of being who she wanted to be. Rhymepaw answered quickly. It was not hard to answer that, not at all. Being a spirit was killing her.
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