It was late at night, so late she figured no one else would be up. For once? She didn't really care if no one knew where she was, or about the fact if something attacked her she was dead, since she couldn't scream for help. Bloom just wanted to run away from life, she'd kept strong the whole day, but she was just the same weak kid unable to protect what was dear to her!
How many times could one fail the same person? Well you ruin his childhood by not letting him explore out of camp, you get captured while going after him, and he gets captured coming after you. Shortly after? He gets kidnapped again and tortured to the point that he is rendered blind, and you can't do a damn thing! Finally he becomes a freaking zombie, who you could never protect, cause half his organs are visible! Lastly you get the nerve to run away from him, and can only cry when he comes to hate you for what you did!
Now that was exactly what the apprentice was doing, no sniffling or anything, mute she couldn't make those sounds. So BloomingPaw just looked into one of the pounds, as her green tears fell into the water, dispersing before her vision. She'd even been so focused on him and GhostKit she let her other four siblings go forgotten! How had she fallen so far? They needed a female figure, a confident, they needed her, and now she found herself unable to stand by they're side. Bloom couldn't even stand by her own side!
She came to Wind Clan to get better, but it seemed leaving had only made things worse. She went from failure, to the bane of her brother's life, left behind by her first love, her best friend was dead and that just so happened to be her brothers ex-girlfriend. It was all so stressing, and literally the only thing she found herself cpaable of right now was sitting there, with the green tears rolling off her cheeks, gaze at the sky, moon reflecting foregone in her eyes.