What is Life but Pain? ((PAFP)) Can You Show Me? ((Any orientation))

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    A smile makes it's way to my face as I glance down at our hands, then as I glance up at the office my nerves once more get the best of me as I shift my hand so our fingers are laced together. I swallow hard as I peek in to see a woman sitting at the front desk, my heart beating a million miles a minute in fear.

    I smiled at Letha. "Are you nervous? Want me to go in with you?" I asked, smiling. I hope I wasn't offending her by talking to her as if she was little. But Letha seemed very skittish so I tried to keep my voice as kind as possible.

    Letha nods a bit, "Please... I-If you wouldn't mind, anyway..." she says, holding back the tears that are trying to make their way into her eyes. She breaths deeply, trying to keep her calm as she takes hesitant steps closer to the office.

    I nod, giving her hand a confident squeeze. I led her into the office, smiling. "New Student." I announced, nodding towards Letha. "I hope we get a class or two together." I whispered to Letha, squeezing her hand softly again.

    I try to suppress a shiver as Grace whispers into my ear. I feel my face heat up even more as I lower my head and nod faintly, "Y-Yeah..."

    OOC: I was looking at your custom title and your profile pic and i realized that you have 296598.69 fresh kill XD
    IC: I smile, gripping her hand again as the woman behind the desk handed me her schedule. "Here you go." I said, smiling. "We gotta head to our class or classes before we miss breakfast!" I chirped more, smiling. I felt a strong connection to Letha but something seemed off about her and I was determined to find out what was wrong.

    Ooc: Lol, and? XD


    Ic: I force small smile as I nod, "Do we... Have any classes together..?" I ask timidly. Somwthing about Grace made me never want to leave her side, I just couldn't figure out what it is...

    I smiled, looking at her schedule. "It looks like we have, Homeroom, Literacy, Math and art together." I said, studying it. "C'mon, Let's head up stairs for the last 2 minutes of breakfast." I said, chuckling, squeezing her hand softly again.

    I nod as a genuine, yet small, smile makes its way to my face. Gosh, how long has it been since I honestly smiled? My whole life, probably... I've never been shown kindness except when my brother would try and protect me, but... Even then I couldn't be happy... So how does this girl manage after only having known one other for about twenty minutes..?

    I led her up the stairs and towards our classroom. "Just a heads up, Our teacher is crazy awesome. He killed a wasp with a flamethrower he made out of a nerf gun once." I said, laughing. I could still remember it. We sat there during and awesome tutorial of how to make a quick weapon if in a horrible situation. Most of us failed but only two or three people got it right. We were all there when I hear a blood-curdling scream. We all look back to see this fist-sized wasp flying into our room. We all start screaming until he goes over there and calmly sets it on fire. It was epic. I wish she could've been there for it!

    Ooc: that sounds... Amazing! x3


    Ic: I force out a light chuckle, "Sounds great..." I say honestly, though I feel my body tense at the mention of a male teacher. Even though both my parents, meaning both genders, have abused me, I've only been abused sexually by males, giving me a horrid fear of them...

    OOC: I have to go to sleep after this post so it might be a little short
    IC: "Is something wrong?" I asked, rubbing the back of her hand with my thumb. I seriously hope she is okay.. Maybe next Monday I could ask to have a sleep over with her.

    Ooc: that's fine, I don't mind short posts :) goodnight! (I'll also be getting off soon x3)


    Ic: I nod my head slowly, "I-I'm fine..." My voice, however, betrays my words with its raspy tone. My throat had gone dry as it seemed all the liquid relocated to my es which were now prickling with tears. Tingles followed Grace's thumb across the back of my hand and my stomach does a flop at the idea she was worried about me.. I know its dangerous to have friends, and that I would probably be beaten half to death if anyone ever found out, but... Grace just has this feeling of security about her that I cannot even begin to describe. I know I haven't known her for long, but I trust her completely... I care about this girl who's still practically a stranger, which is why I can never tell her the truth..

    OOC: Cool. Trying not to get caught >3<
    IC: I frown, standing in front of her. I was going to confront her but.. She was crying. I sighed, grabbing her arm softly and pulling her into a soft hug. "You would tell me if something was wrong, right?" I asked, worried. The fluids in my stomach started to churn as I sigh, releasing her a bit from the hug.

    I wrap my arms around Grace tightly. I don't reply to her as I don't want to lie, but... She can never know the truth. I resist the urge to rest my head on her shoulder or pull our bodies closer together as I truly wanted to do... This girl is absolutely wonderful. I bite my bottom lip , butterflies erupting in my stomach as my mind gives me the desire to kiss Grace... Is that what this has been, all along..? Do I... Like Grace..? That's even more dangerous... I've never had a friend, none the less a crush. I almost wouldn't even put it past my parents to hurt her if they ever found out. With that in mind, I quickly pull away from Grace, lowering my gaze to the floor, "I-I'm sorry..." I say through my silent sobs as I tremble lightly and slowly take a couple steps backward. Being near Grace would only put her in danger, I just know it...


    Ooc: and now I'm going to bed x3 talk to you tomorrow, Spain~~

    OOC: Goodnight to you as well~
    IC: My heart sank as she stepped away from me. "It's not your fault." I said, walking over. I pulled her into another hug, locking my arms around her as to not let her go. "It has never been your fault." I said again. I didn't know if it would work but It worked with my brother when he went to the therapist after he was at war. He had bursted into tears and hugged the therapist and felt better knowing that it was not his fault.

    I appreciate what Grace is trying to do, but it simply won't work like that, for me... Then even though I know better, I once more wrap my arms around her, ignoring the pain coursing through my body and focusing on the tingles and butterflies. Yep... That's it.. I like Grace...

    I struggled to swallow my own tears. I sigh, feeling words digging out of my throat. "[size=5pt]I love you.."[/size] I whisper, maybe not loud enough for her to hear it though. I just continue the hug, hoping if she had heard it, she could return those feelings. I realized that I didn't just like Letha, I loved her.

    I hear Grace say something, but can't quite make it out, "W-What..?" I ask through my silent sobs as I pull back from the hug a bit to look her in the eye. Something seems to click within me as I stare into her gorgeous green eyes. I don't really know what it is, I've never felt anything like this before... I swallow hard as I bring my hand up and put it on her cheek, "Why..?" I ask softly, more to myself than anyone else, just wondering why I was feeling the way I was...

    "I just.. I don't know. We only met 25 minutes or so ago.. I just don't know why.. Your just so pretty and kind.." I said. I literally didn't know why I liked her. She was very pretty, she was kind and shy. And that shyness was absolutely adorable. I loved that about her.