( I'M GROWING LIKE THE QUICKENING HUES ) pastelblossom's video diary

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Before I begin her video diary, I'd like to keep this timeline, just in case I need a thread, or would like to keep track in general, or someone reading this wants to see where certain things happened.

Note: I had another account before this one, so the first few threads are on another account.

- New Body
- Rogue Attack
- Amnesia/Leaving Windclan
- Joining Riverclan/Name Change
- Leaving Riverclan
- Re-joining Windclan
- Name Change
- Temporary Death
- Return/Mutism
- Telepathy
- Gaining Osiris' Amulet

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The camera clicks on to see an apprentice-aged leopard.

"Hello! I don't know how to start this... Um, I'm Pastelpaw Hadrian-Prior, daughter of Lilystar Hadrian-Prior and an NPC leopard. I'm a guardian of Windclan. I found this video thing, and here I am. I don't know how to explain this but... I wanted someone to talk to, and I guess a video camera is the most I can do without... talking to an actual person who replies and makes me embarrassed and such."

The leopard chuckles, shifting her paws in an awkward manner.

"So I guess I should get you up to speed," Pastelpaw pauses mentally slapping herself as she referred to a material object as a "you", "on my life, that is. What's happened so far and such. Just so you- screw it, I'm referring to this camera as 'you', why not? Just so you get where I'm coming from. This'll be a while."

"I was born into Windclan as a leopard, and I was pretty happy. Y'know how kids are, they bounce off the walls and pretend they can take more responsibility then they can- I wish I was still that self-confident, haha. Anyways, my name was Northerncub back then- wow I haven't used that name in forever."

"Soon before becoming an apprentice I learned I had this power called shape shifting, and I turned into a blue tabby with one eye. Yeah, missing the right eye, I believe. It sucked- and I was stuck like that for the majority of my life. And that stupid missing eye caused me a lot more trouble then I thought. I was attacked by a rogue... lynx? I think it was a lynx... a lot of self loathing followed."

"I hated myself. I really, truly thought I would be better off dead... I thought about it a lot, dying. I haven't told anyone that. After that I walked a lot, getting my mind off of things, y'know? So, I was on one of my self-hatred filled walks when I fell from quite the height and lost my memories."

"I didn't know my name, I didn't know what Windclan was, I didn't even know my own mother. They were all calling me Northernpaw and I just kind of flipped out, I was so overwhelmed- so I left. I finally reached Riverclan and made a new name for myself, Radiopaw."

"Riverclan was... nice. I didn't know anyone, really. No one will remember me if I go back, I can garuntee you. Then I had a nightmare- Lily dying. I didn't know her name, but I knew it was my mother. I thought for the longest time that she was dead, that no one out there cared that I was missing. I hated it- more self-loathing, hehe."

The leopard took a breath, looking a bit shaky. It was Christmas, and she was reminding herself of bad events. It wasn't a great way to end the day

"Eventually I regained my memory and realized that Mom was indeed alive. I left Riverclan- only leaving a note because I was to scared to leave publicly. When I got to Windclan I was glad to be back, but I still felt odd. I didn't fit in. I felt like a stranger to myself. I was uncomfortable twenty-four seven."

"It's like I didn't fit into my own skin. This time I didn't want to die though. I didn't want a bad life to end, I just wanted a bad life to get better. Of course, just my luck, the time I wanted to live I died. Yup, I was hit by a car. Death is weird. It can't be described. It's not anything but it's not nothing. I... I can't describe it. Anyways, I came back not that long after. I don't know how that happened either, but it cost me all my bodies except for the leopard and my voice- but I have one extra leopard body with speech, luckily."

"It's hard to explain but I was kind of happier after returning. I am happier, to say. I understand that all my problems can be fixed now. I like life now- to an extent. Main point is, all that * led me here. From here on out, you'll be up to date on my life."

The guardian took a deep breath. That was a lot. She hadn't told anyone many of her thoughts like she had this time.

"Oh, and Merry Christmas."

[i]The camera switches off
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The camera clicks back on. A day has not passed, but Pastelpaw had something to share. Now there was a new amulet around her neck, that was not in the last video.

"Hello again! I know that I already made a video thing, but something happened that was a bit... odd." The leopard looks down at the necklace. The amulet is in the shape of a crook and flail- and Egyptian symbol for Osiris. Of course, Pastelpaw had minimal knowledge of Egyptian religion.

"A cat I had never seen before gave me a Christmas gift. He smelled like Windclan, although I don't know if he was actually from here. I've never seen him and I haven't seen him since. He was really eery. So this pure white tom stops me and says 'I've got a gift for you'. Of course, I can't refuse a gift, right?"

"I turn to him, ask why he's givin' me a gift if he doesn't know me. He shrugged, tells me he's giving a gift to everyone in Windclan. He gave me this."

The leopard held up the necklace, putting it towards the camera.

"It's nice looking. It also has this green gem where these two stick-things cross at, which is pretty. It looks... empty though, the gem. It's cool. But it's also just... weird."

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