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    [tt]|| Andy Lites||



    "I can't explain why I starve myself, why I hurt myself in every way. But I can tell you part of the reason. I do it, because I hurt myself so you don't have to. I've been cutting for 3 year, but recently they're getting deeper and deeper. I've been malnourished for 8 months, I was put in the hospital and stayed there for 15 days to gain weight... 8 months ago I weighed 118 pounds, A pretty healthy weight.. 2 months later I had lost 10 pounds, dropping fast. 2 months ago I weighed 97 pounds... now I way 74 pounds, a deathly weight. I can see my bones.. well they can.. all I see when I look in the mirror is fat. I'm slowly killing myself."


    I looked at my image in the blurry, mirror of my high school bathroom. My face no longer had color, my cheek bones more than noticeable. My lips were now as pale as my face, making them look thin and Dark circles shadowed my grey eyes. It wasn't a different person in the mirror, but I realized how different I had looked just months ago. My bones, day by day, became more pungent, and there was no hiding it. I wore blue jeans and a dark sweatshirt, both way too big on me. I use to wear a pant size of 6, but Now I was around a one or 0. I couldn't buy clothes that would fit though, I didn't have the money.
    The only skin visible on my body was my scrawny face and bony hands, that I couldn't hide. I sighed, feeling guilty that I had just eaten a nasty school lunch and had emptied it in the toilet just moments ago. I mean.. it was nothing new, I did it every day, more than twice. I bent over the sink, rinsing my mouth out, in hopes to mask the smell of my breath. My dark hair use to be so thick and pretty, now it was mangled and thin.
    I exited the bathroom, walking back into the lunch room. The aroma of food made my guilt twice as bad as my stomach growled. Just like everyday I'd have at least 45 minutes left of lunch to sit alone and wait.
    I crawled onto the hard bench of an empty lunch table, hiding my face within my straggly hair. Fumbling with the cuff on my sleeve, I bit my lower lip, letting the suicidal thoughts slip into mind.


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    [font=times new roman][color=black]Liam Adams
    17 and a Half


    I quickly finished my lunch, smiling as the food disappeared as usual. No, it wasn't magic; I was a growing boy, as my mom would still say, and I ate a lot. Not an understatement, by the way. I threw the last pieces of trash away, and stood up, stretching. A few of my friends carried on with their talking and joking, and I turned away. I spotted a dark haired girl where she usually was, somewhat hiding in plain sight. She often got weird glances when my friends walked by, which were odd to me. She looked nice enough, if people took the time to talk to her. Who knows, though? I didn't have a 'fancy' phone, like everyone else, so maybe something had gone down online, like on Instagram or Kik. Whatever it was, I decided that I should talk to her. Give her a friend, so then she won't be so alone all the time. I walked up somewhat slowly, bending over to get a better look at her hidden face. "Hey, is it really that bright out? I mean, I know it's bright here, but that bright? Why would you want to hide your face like that? I bet it's really pretty."

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    I had just say down when I voice completely startled me, I practically jumped, moving closer to the wall. I looked up from the safety of my hands, meeting the eyes of a boy the looked familiar. I processed his words, not sure what to say, no on talked to me. "I.. I.. Don't know." I shrugged, feeling really cold as usually. The last few weeks I was always freezing, though it was the middle of summer. I shook my head, my hair falling around my face in tangles.
    I was unable to look at him anymore and averted my eyes.. Why was he talking to me? He hadn't given me a rude statement or wasn't making fun of me. "No.. It's just cold.." I admitted.

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    [font=times new roman][color=black]Liam Adams


    I laughed slightly, setting my hands on my hips. "Yeah, it's cold during the middle of summer. I bet if you actually got into the sun you'd feel a lot better. Haven't you ever seen a flower? They grow even more beautiful in the sun." I was surprising myself slightly with how chatty I was as well as how much I was complimenting her, even though I barely knew her. Hey, everyone can use something positive once in a while...

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    I was surprised by the comments.. How could anyone think I'm beautiful. My mother always told me I was fat and ugly and her biggest mistake.. She was right. I looked back up to him, trying not to show the depressing feeling that swam through my irises. I just wanted to walk away and act like that never happened.. I wasn't use to anybody talking to me. especially like this. I shook my head, my hair falling into my eyes.. I had not Idea how to answer that, so I kept my mouth shut.

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    [font=times new roman][color=black]Liam Adams


    I looked at her, frowning slightly. "Hey, come on, at least smile... Seriously, this school is already dreary enough! We could use a few more pretty smiles." I laughed slightly at the end of my words, hoping I could bring her spirits up. I wasn't very skilled in this kind of thing, but I figured I could try my luck at it. Who knows, maybe one day I could become the new Doctor Phil...

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    I wasn't able to look him in the eyes, "I guess I forgot how to." I said, shrugging my thin and frail shoulders. I pulled the sleeve of my sweatshirt over my hands so only the tips of my fingers could be seen. I wanted to be a turtle and stick my whole body in a shell and never come out.

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    [font=times new roman][color=black]Liam Adams


    I leaned forward, pushing the edges of her mouth up in a smile. "Here, let me help. Honestly, I have to help everyone around here! Some people would barely be able to walk without me here." I laughed brightly, trying to ward off the dark feeling I was getting from the girl. Not like I would become dark and sad, it just made my helpfulness disappear and make me want to yell at everyone. Nothing major.

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    I was so shocked he had touched me.. He hands were so warm.. Was I really that cold? I looked up at him, realizing how happy he was.I wish I was that happy. I sighed deeply, not saying anything. I wanted to cry as I looked at how happy this boy was. "I don't know.." Was my answer..

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    [font=times new roman][color=black]Liam Adams


    Glancing around, I grabbed her hands and pulled her up. "Come on, you're as cold as death. Get up, we're finding sun. Now. No exceptions." I smiled, slightly surprised how light she really was. I hefted her up, and held her hand as I swiftly walked over to the bright sun. I instantly felt hot, but it seemed like this girl needed the sun, so I stayed.

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    [color=black][tt]|| Andy Lites||


    I was taken by surprised as he pulled me off the bench with ease. I stumbled to keep up with him. He hand was huge compared to mine, but was so warm. It felt nice. He practically dragged me into the sunlight. As I stood there, it hardly made a difference. I still was cold and tried to suppress a shiver.

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    [font=times new roman][color=black]Liam Adams


    I looked at her with a slight frown, and rubbed my hands up and down her arms, trying to warm her up. "Come on, isn't at least a little hot? I haven't even been out for a minute and I'm burning up." I tried to keep the mood light after realizing how small she was. It wasn't normal for someone in high school to be that tall yet so light, so it made me a little nervous. "Before you know it, you're going to have to take that giant jacket off... I swear, those things just absorb heat!"

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    At the thought of taking my jacket off I was terrified. My arms were heeling from cuts I had put there a couple days ago and they were probably abnormally skinny. I looked up at him, trying to hide the fear in my eyes. Everyone would stare. She shivered again, looking down at her feet and letting her hair fall into her face. "I don't think it'll help."

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    [font=times new roman][color=black]Liam Adams


    I crossed my arms stubbornly, and shook my head. "Okay then, you'll just get super hot in that... but hey, it's your choice." I smiled softly, suddenly ducking to get a better look at her face. So far, all I've been able to see were her eyes and nose; the rest was a blur as she moved. Or, I just wasn't looking hard enough. I squinted slightly, blinking to focus. My eyes had always been bad, but near her I just wasn't able to really see anything but her eyes.

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    [color=black][tt]|| Andy Lites||


    I looked at him carefully, letting my eyes stay with his longer than I wanted them to. He was funny, but what was I suppose to do. Laugh? giggle? Smile? I did not do any of that very well.. I felt anxious at trying to find something to say, but my mind came up blank.

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    [font=times new roman][color=black]Liam Adams


    I grinned at her somber face, hoping that she could brighten up. "Come on, you're as still as a statue! Are you hungry at all? I bet I could snag some food from my friends if you want any." I laughed slightly, knowing very well how annoyed my friends would be if I took any more of their food than usual.

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    I shook my head too quickly, hoping he didn't see how sudden my response was. I averted my eyes to the dirty cafeteria floor, noticing how dirty it was and it made my stomach churn. I ran a hand through my dark hair, before looking up at him. "I.. I don't think so... Um thank you though." It was the only words I could muster.

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    [font=times new roman][color=black]Liam Adams


    I shrugged, smiling softly. "Okay, if you say so. But seriously, they have some good food..." I smiled, looking away slightly. I could feel that she was getting uncomfortable in the cafeteria, so I started to walk to the door. "Hey, want to go back outside? It's pretty nasty and dirty in here..." Maybe she had a problem with dirt. I could understand that, with all the girls wearing white these days. The only thing was she didn't have anything that could get dirty...

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    [color=black][tt]|| Andy Lites||


    I was relieved when he suggested we go outside. I quickly followed him outside. Suddenly I got a wash of dizziness that spread through my entire body. I leaned against the side of the school, not wanting to pass out. This week my dizziness had gotten worse. I passed out three times this week. One in the bathroom. One at home. And one while walking home.. but never at school. No.. I didn't want anyone to notice as My vision partially faded, but I fought to stay conscious.

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    [font=times new roman][color=black]Liam Adams


    I cast a worried glance at her, setting my hand on her tight shoulder. "Hey, are you okay? Was there something in there you didn't like?" I was nervous that she had some kind of sickness or allergy, and because I didn't know about it, I was killing her. "Hey, how about we sit down? Would that make you feel any better?" I hid my other hand behind my back, trying to conceal the fact I was shaking.