i'm not crazy... advanced pafp

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    //I haven't rped in a looooong time, so I would love it if someone joined c:}
    "My name is Ryan. Ryan Felicity Teagan. When I was nine years old, I was diagnosed with schizophrenia. Even back then I had a lot of trouble handling it, keeping it in check. I lashed out at people a lot, talked to myself, locked myself in this solitary world where no one could reach me, whether violent or kind. At one point, trapped in my own world, I became afraid of myself. I couldn't escape from the cage inside me which the disorder kept under lock and key. I wanted help, I needed help, but I didn't know how to get it. At the age of fourteen, my mom and dad made the dire decision to lock me in a mental hospital. Me and my other half, Sara, argued a lot there. She always wanted to take control. And she was mean. She bit at the nurses' fingers, gnawed on the zip ties that kept her trapped to the bed, and screamed and threatened the doctors, who grew more violent each time. Even when Sara got tired, I was exhausted, and could do nothing against the brutal attack of these doctors.


    "After two years, I believe Sara gave up. She still yelled at me a lot, but no longer begged for control. I stayed the head of the house, but she still continues to breathe down my neck, fight and argue with me, tell me I was doing everything wrong. It got worse everyday. I heard Sara and I's doctors and nurses outside our prison one day, saying they might have to put me down. I didn't know what that meant, but Sara did. *They're going to kill us Ryan! God damnit they're going to kill us!!!! You have to get us out of here!!!* But I was too weak. I couldn't get me and Sara out of there. Turns out what they meant as in putting us down was just putting us under medication that kept us drowsy, if not asleep most of the day. This made me weaker. I could no longer fight with Sara. She yelled but I heard nothing. I knew she could feel I was giving in, and she would have all the power.


    "Whenever my mother visited me, they wouldn't give me the medication, let me actually talk to her. She told me she only put me in here because she wanted me to get better. But I was getting worse. I wondered if she could tell. I would talk to her about Sara, but she just told me it was all in my head, that Sara didn't actually exist. This let me know she had given up on me. She knew Sara was real. She had experienced Sara's wrath... Did she and dad hate me? Dad never even came to see me and Sara.... Soon they made mom stop visiting me. Told her I was becoming too dangerous. But I wasn't... It was Sara... My sixteenth birthday soon came around. Me and Sara celebrated together, more or less. I was under influence of those drugs, but Sara seemed stronger than ever. She took over, and she fought with the doctors, and they had to administer and extra three ounces to knock her out. I knew they had loss faith in my case too.


    "About a week later, the doctors let me watch tv, because I was really calm surprisingly. Well Sara was really calm. We watched the news. It was cool knowing what was going on outside my little cage. Terrorists had apparently invade the united states, and were bombing hospitals. It fascinated me. Why hospitals? And did that mean they would attempt to bomb the hospital I was in? I asked the doctors about it, asked why they weren't evacuating or something, and they simply told me the people here were too dangerous to be saved. I couldn't wrap my head around that, but Sara understood. She grew more harsh everyday, and began to hurt me, using the zip ties to cut deep lines in my skin. And then it came. The bombers, they came to our hospital. I felt the vibrating. So did Sara. She screamed, pounded on the doors with her restrained hands. I had given up. I let her do this all.


    "More shaking, and the building seemed to slouch a little, making my body slip slightly to the right. What was happening? It was yet another thing I couldn't quite wrap my head around. Sara, Sara knew everything. She knew our doom was coming if she didn't get us out. The electricity went out. The dark scared me. I screamed, screamed and screamed and screamed. I wanted out. I wanted help. Sara yelled at me, told me to suck it up and shut it up. She continued to try to get out of the door, but I knew it was useless. *I'm not dying this way!!!!* Sara kept screaming, but I knew this was our end. She soon gave up. We sat on the floor, talking to each other. I tried to soothe her, tried to tell her it was okay, but she ignored me, crying, using the zip ties to cut deeper cuts in my arms. What was the point? She kept thinking, wondering why she hadn't ended it earlier.


    "The door suddenly opened. Nurses. Sara got our body to its feet. I was too weak. Blood slipped down our wrists, and the nurses paid no attention, grabbing them and dragging us. I screamed inside and out, it wa too much pain. The building slouched more. I could tell it was going to collapse soon. I didn't know if Sara knew though. There was a lot of fire. I dont remember getting out, but I remember the fire, the blood, the cuts, the burns... It was horrible. When I woke up, it was just me and Sara, laying there, staring at the sky. The hospital was destroyed. Dead body parts everywhere. I could hear sirens in the distance. I didn't know if me and Sara would be okay. Did I even care?"


    So I hope you understand the story by now. Ryan is a schizophrenic, and she named her split mind. The two suffered two years in a mental hospital before the hospital was bombed by the terrorists whom invaded the US. This is where your character. Firefighters arrive at the scene, police men and paramedics as well. Your character [male] can be a police man, firefighter, or paramedic, your choice, whom gets assigned to get the only survivor, Ryan, to a hospital. From then you glue to her side after getting news that her parents had been killed. We start from when your character arrives at the scene. Just post a pic, name, and your first post c:

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    haha yes, that makes me really happy actually. my first thread in almost a year and you sound really excited to join.


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    can't believe you haven't rped in that long... it sure explains why I'm so intrigued by the plot, there aren't a ton of plots that interest me often to where it's a pafp thread.


    haha, I'm excited because I suddenly have a buttload a muse for this!
    ( creating his fancy and gifs now. )


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    //yay!! Well I'm waiting cx I haven't rped in awhile cuz my depression took over for awhile. I used to be obsessed, and I hope I can get there again, because I love to write, so much.

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    NICKNAMES;; almost always he is addressed simply as Sullivan, but his close ones may call him Sully.


    AGE;; he is twenty two at the time, recently turned it.
    [ wasn't sure what the age range was, but I do imagine him older since he is a police officer. I kinda like older guys so yeah. heh. ]


    RANK;; he is a police officer, has been enrolled since he was 19, processing great connections.


    NOTABLE TRAITS;;
    • grouchy
    • temperamental
    • opinionated // stubborn
    • valiant // bold
    • convincing
    • often sophisticated
    • intelligent at survival


    HISTORY;; I'll sum it up quick, because I'm eager to start and I need to stop babbling.
    when he was young, his father was never there. well, he actually was constantly at home, but never emotionally there. as most fathers go, Sullivan's was an alcoholic and a slob. his mother was an angel, and sully loved her dearly. she worked, though, all day in order to support them all with her husband unemployed.
    Sullivan's father was cruel to him, as sully was a scrawny kid, he called him names and threw junk at him. he was a bum, and dangerous not only to Sullivan, but also to his mom.
    at the the age of 10, Sullivan's mom decided enough was enough. she grabbed sully and her purse, and jumped in the car. Mark, sully's father, chased after her, cursing and screaming and banging on the car, but she drove off, crying in the middle of the night with Sullivan in the backseat.
    Sullivan vowed to never be like his father, and grew up with no fatherly figure in his life. his mom is still alive, and is still sweet as ever, and it's his passion to make her proud.


    STRENGTHS;;
    + incredibly valiant
    + very respected
    + intelligent with survival skills
    + quick-minded
    + very fit // strong


    WEAKNESSES;;
    - not very fast
    - young for his occupation
    - not smart with math or english etc.
    - can be too stubborn
    - huge fear of heights


    ok, I know I didn't have to make a form but I have so much muse for him..
    anyways, I'm creating the post now. c:


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    no no, it was nice to have a little background, helps me understand him more. I'm here once you've finished c:

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    his foot pressed further onto the pedal, urging the vehicle to speed up. he had turned the siren and lights on, and he could hear the wailing of the box atop his car as he sped down the highway. cars pulled aside, and the man had sped red lights multiple times by now.
    another static voice from his radio had told him only minutes ago of a new attack. terrorists were at it again, this time bombing only hospitals.
    "sh*t!"
    he growled, noticing he should have turned right a second ago. the man, being a horrid driver, wheeled his car around into a sharp u-turn, taking the turn once he could.
    he pulled up into the scene, with the large building slouched and torn to pieces. the paramedics still hadn't arrived, only a few police officers and firefighters standing around.
    he parked his car, and stepped out, feeling the gravel crunch beneath his polished shoes. the man was in a suit, as he was just at a meeting for the officers, and was ordered to attend the scene. and it was a peculiar show, as the man in the polished suit stood upon gravel and rubble.
    he quickly strode to the scene, joining a circle of firefights and police as they chattered.
    "is anyone in there?"
    he asked, not noticing if he interrupted the conversation that seemed oh-so dull.
    "ah- sir, we just arrived. we're ordered to wait until the chiefs get here. you can't touch nothin'. they said there's no one in there."
    a police officer replied, country accent thick beneath his bushy mustache.
    obviously irritated at how work was organized, Sullivan pushed through the group, and walked straight to the pathway that lead to the rubble of what once was a mental hospital.
    "sir! sir!"
    a few people called, but Sullivan kept walking at his usual lengthy strides. entering the building, the ceiling was slouched and the walls crumbling. a few fire sparks were here and there, but nothing too majorly dangerous.
    his footsteps echoed amongst the walls as he quickly strode down the halls, his piercing emerald optics scanning every crevice and room thoroughly in only seconds. after about ten minutes of waking around, he entered what once was a room. there in the midst of rubble was a young girl in a white shirt, the ones only dangerous patients wear. he cautiously approached the body, the white shirt now streaked with crimson blood. the man kneeled down, turning the girl's chin so her face turned to him. he examined her briefly, seeing as one, she was still breathing. two, she was quite young. and three, she needed medical attention immediately. seeing as there were no gurneys and the paramedics wouldn't enter the building, he saw no other choice.
    the man carefully undid the straps on the girl's white shirt, seeing as those were making her bleed with the zips in her skin. he pulled off the white overcoat, to where she wore a thin shirt under luckily. he shed his suit's jacket and draped the large polished cloth around the ragged unconscious girl. he bent down and scooped her up, making sure to be careful with her. she was like a porcelain doll in destroyed rubble it seemed.


    he exited the building, looking like a hero in a movie; carrying the limp teenage girl in his arms, striding out of the rubble. at this time, the paramedics had arrived, and rushed out at the sight of a survivor.
    "take her, she's the only one."
    Sullivan spoke, his voice rough per usual, though filled with an urgency. the paramedics took the girl from his arms, and laid her on a gurney, before wheeling her away in the ambulance, flashing lights leaving the rumble and dust.


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    when Ryan woke next, she could barely breathe, her whole body shuddering, shoulders shaking. she looked up at the white, sterile ceiling, hearing Sara's voice in the back of her mind. "We're dead Ryan. We aren't actually alive. This is just a dream. Close your eyes and die bitch." Ryan flinched. "I don't wanna die Sara... I'm alive, we're alive.. You said you didn't wanna die in there, and we didn't..." in the back of Ryan's head, Sara scoffed. "I said I wasn't going to die that way. You gave up. Not me, you. So close your eyes, and finish what you started." Ryan began to sob, her eyes clenching shut, her breathing becoming more challenged.


    "Stop it Sara, I don't want to!!" the doctors came in, asking her to hush, but she shook her head, screaming at Sara to shut up. The doctors seemed to be able to diagnose the poor girls condition immediately. "Stop it Sara! Stop it!!!" she continued to sob, fighting with the doctors as they tried to pin her down to administer some morphine to calm her. As weak as Ryan was, it was easy for Sara to take over, her voice dripping with ice. "Let me go!" and before they both knew it, more zip ties were wrapped around their wrists and ankles. Next, a morphine shot shoved into their arm.


    Ryan regained control, and just lie their, silently sobbing. Sara began to pull the wrists, same way as she had at the mental hospital, adding more cuts on to Ryan's arms, before they both were knocked out by the strong dose of medicine.

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    the man paced outside the hospital building, cigar in his mouth. a bit nervously, though he would never admit it, he inhaled the drug deeply. letting the swirls of pale gray smoke escape his lips.
    a nurse walked out to meet Sullivan, and upon seeing the nurse, he stuffed out his cigar, and met him.
    "you're here for Ryan? follow me."
    the woman addressed Sullivan, leading him into the building and behind a desk. the woman rummaged a bit through files before setting the girl's information and papers before him.
    "Ryan Felicity Teagan. sixteen years old, diagnosed with schizophrenia at nine. she was placed in a mental facility at the age of fourteen. mother and father recently died, and she's an orphan. she lived in the hospital for two years. calls herself Sara and talks to herself. very violent and dangerous, no one knows what the hell is going on with her."
    the nurse said, as Sullivan read her papers. after reading, he glanced up to the nurse.
    "can I see her?"
    he asked, closing the file and handing it back.
    "see her? crazy... well I guess you can visit her..."
    the woman responded reluctantly, before informing him of the room number she was in.


    Sullivan knocked on the dull white door, before opening it. he stepped into the sterile room, shoes clacking gently. his green eyes scanned the white room, seeing two things that stood out to him. one being the most obvious- the same girl tied to the white bed, with once again crimson lines against her wrists and ankles. and second being the black-gray suit jacket he had draped over her, now hanging neatly beside her bed.
    he closed the door behind him, and nodded a greeting to the doctor who sat in a chair, scribbling notes down on her papers.
    the man sat down in a chair beside her bed, and glanced over the girl. he had no clue what to say, or do, he was awkward at follow-ups... although she didn't even know it was him who saved her.
    "you awake, there?"
    his voice a bit quite, but still the usual gravel.


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    Ryan had woken up, Sara exhausted from the fight the two had earlier. She said nothing, nor did she attempt to fight with Ryan. The doctor left in the room felt bad, restraining Ryan like a dog. He slowly began to undo the zip ties, and once that was done began to tend to the cuts on her arms. She stared up at the ceiling with blue eyes, at first not saying anything, before she turned her head slightly, meeting his gaze. "My parents are dead, aren't they." she murmured with a knowing tone. "And you guys are just like everybody else. You think I'm crazy..." she hook her head slowly. It was interesting, the way she could predict how everyone felt.


    "Well you're wrong. I'm not crazy. I'm just scared and confused and abandoned.. I haven't seen my dad in almost two years, and now I'll never see him again because of something I couldn't handle. In the beginning I was abandoned because of something I couldn't handle.. I cant.. DO anything about my disorder, its not possible, and I'm locked up like a dog because of it." her eyes dully met his. "No, I'm not awake. I've never been awake. You guys, you all made me find a person in myself to keep myself company... And this stupid disorder, is what fuels her to be vicious, is what fuels me to take extreme measures. And hell... You can't blame my condition on me... You really cant."


    She turned her neck, looking back up at the ceiling. She didn't want to look at him anymore. It hurt too much. She knew Sara would wake soon, and when she did, she didn't want to be awake. "Thank you, sir." she mumbled, before sighing gently, relaxing her body as the doctor asked, and allowing him to finish tending to her cuts, feeling the pity radiating off of him. He know had been let into the mind of a schizophrenic, something every doctor ever dreamed of, and he didn't like the information he had gotten out of it.

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    Sullivan stayed silent, allowing the girl to finish her debate. he hadn't been been around anyone with her 'issue', therefore he didn't have much input as to how to respond.
    he was never skilled in comfort, or any kind of social interactions. especially with teenage girls.
    the man shifted in his seat, obvious he had not expected her answer.
    "Ryan, is it? this isn't exactly my expertise, so forgive me if I am an idiot. never been skilled with my social abilities."
    he began, leaning back in the chair.
    "I'm Sullivan Rogers, police officer. I helped you from the bombed building, and sorry to inform you, but you're going to have to put up with me for quite some time."
    he introduced himself, folding his hands. he honestly felt not pity, not sadness, but understanding for the girl. sure, it was an awful life to deal with, but he felt more understanding than pity for the girl. at her sharp response, she was intelligent, and he felt respect towards the young girl.


    [ -- sorry for the short response! ]



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    "Oh drop the act you retard." she suddenly snapped, her blue eyes narrowing and then closing completely. Though she didn't not wrench her arms from the doctors grasp, a different air seemed to cross over her, as though she had become a totally different person. "We dont need your help. Either put us back in a stupid mental hospital, or let us live alone. We are not staying here, because I dont need you swarming over us like we're lost little puppies. I can handle us." The girl flinched at nothing, biting her lip. "Sara that was very kind. He's only trying to help us."
    "Oh shut up Ryan. You don't know what's good for us. you gave up in that stupid hospital, almost just let us die. we could've gotten out you know."
    "No we couldn't have.. If it wasn't for him we would be dead right now. Be kind for once Sara, say thank you." it had become obvious now she was speaking to her other half. "I'm sorry about that sir... Sara isn't really that great at communicating gratitude..."
    "Oh shut the hell up you snot nosed ass-kissing brat." her quiet voiced hissed, and she flinched at nothing once more.
    "I'm really sorry..." she repeated, look at him once with her ocean blue optics, before closing her eyes and placing her hands over them, continuing to have a quiet, incoherent conversation with herself.


    //excuse my short response as well!

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    the man didn't flinch at the new mood thy had taken over the girl. he knew what was going on, and wasn't going to get rilled up over nothing.
    "ah, Sara, nice to meet you- the pleasure's all mine."
    he replied, a hint of friendly sarcasm in his voice.
    "I'd just like Sara to know that you frankly don't have much choice, I'm afraid. I've been to my share of mental facilities, and they aren't my favorite... I mean if you like being drugged and trapped then you really don't have to have me stick around."
    he pointed out. his voice was not hostile or even sarcastic, but genuinely honest and calm.
    "on another note, Ryan, no need to thank me. doing my duty."
    he chimed, smile spreading when the girl turned to look at him with her oceanic orbs.
    Sullivan began to like Ryan, he reminded her of someone he was close to. intelligent yet humble it seemed.
    he did have questions, though. about her alter side. usually, patients with her disorder create their alter egos in order to cope with life changing issues. but, there were no records of dramatic issues, at least, she hadn't told anyone of them.
    Sullivan found himself interested in her the more he sat in the chair. that she was so unique, but also just a normal person. two souls in one body. it was a handful, he knew it would be, but he was eager to grow closer to the girl. to somehow help her. he wasn't looking just to cure her, but to help her cope with it and for others to cope with it as well.


    [ -- Sara's remarks tho >> cx ]


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    Ryan seemed to grow smaller almost, flinching back against the pillow of the bed as though there was a rabid dog being held inches from her face. "SHUT UP SARA!" she finally shouted, slipping her hands over her ears and beginning to sob. Not that it mattered, covering her ears. Sara was inside her, practically eating alive her every thought, making her question her every move. A soft, demonic-like laugh slipped from her narrow lips. "Hush little duckling, and dont yell at me again."
    "Yes Sara..." came Ryan's scared, hushed whisper.


    it soon became clear who wore the dominant pants in the schizophrenic relationship. Ryan was the weak one, bond by the strong ties of Sara. Once the doctor finished cleaning up her wrists and stitching up the deep cuts, he helped her situate her head on a pillow, before propping her bed up slightly. "Alright young lady. This man would like to ask you a few questions. Is that alright?"
    "No it's----" Ryan actually cut Sara off.
    "Yes sir, its alright. I'm sure you would like to understand me... And Sara. I... We will do the best we can to ensure you get the greatest understanding possible."


    Ryan allowed a small smile to slide into her lips. It was a closed teeth smile, one that seemed to reassure herself that she would be okay, that there was no way that Sara would get complete and full control, as long as she could still speak her own mind. "I dont approve of this Ryan."
    "Hush Sara. It cant always be about what you want. I want to be as helpful as I possible can."
    "Oh lookie here, the all mighty humble Princess Ryan, who acts like a little angle but is really a backstabbing crybaby bitch."
    "Hush up!" Ryan whispered, her voice quieter than usual, giving proof her fear for her other half was returning back.

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    Sullivan let the two speak, and he simply pulled out a notebook and a pen. he felt guilty for some reason for having to ask her private questions.
    when his emerald eyes flashed up to look at the girl, she looked terrified. terrified of the side of her she couldn't control.
    feeling it only necessary, he leaves over a bit, and squeezed her hand gently.
    "hey, just focus on me, ok?"
    he said quietly, knowing that Sara was repeatedly trying to gain control.
    he turned to the doctor, and nodded for him to leave.
    he pulled away, and leaned in the chair.
    "alright, so I'm just going to ask some questions, and they're kinda personal. if you ever feel uncomfortable answering, then you don't have to. I want you to know that these answers stay strictly with me only."
    he explained, clicking his pen and writing both their names at the top.


    "alright, first question. the ever so cliché, describe yourself."
    he asked.
    he wanted inputs from them each, as it would describe Ryan's positive and negative outlook on herself and which was stronger, though he already had an idea.


    [ -- these might be a bit short because it's really just q&a, but I have muse! c:
    also, one question: is this a romance or a friendship? I'm cool with either, and I can lower his age a bit! ]


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    //i could care less to be honest cx I never really got that far with this whole plot idea lol. This post will be shortish cuz I'm kinda tired. I am kinda in the mood for romance tho.

    Ryan bit her lip as he squeezed her hand, and she stared.up at the ceiling, not quite knowing how to answer his question at first. How did she describe herself? She blinked before looking st him, smiling slightly, that no teeth smile once again taking over her thin lips. "Kind perhaps... I like that word. Kind. Caring. Perhaps scared like a little rabbit. But I'm okay with that.. Intelligent, sure. I have quite an high IQ. Gentle. I hate seeing things in pain, unless its myself... In that department I could care less, more because of a certain someone." she whispered the last part of her statement, obviously referring to Sara.


    "I also see myself as selfless... I would always allow Sara to be safe. Even though she can be real mean sometimes, that doesn't mean I wish pain upon her in any way." the girl shrugged slightly, crossing her arms over her chest and biting her lip, before Sara surfaced and snapped her answer. "No no no that's all wrong. You're so stupid Ryan. You're stupid and scared, and weak. You can't handle yourself and you need help from me all the time. It gets annoying how needy you are, but I care too much to leave your scrawny ass alone to rot."


    Ryan flinched again, licking her dry lips, blue eyes widening slightly at her other half's harsh description. it lingered in her mind if she was really like that, or if Sara was just being the usually bully she was. She took Sullivan's advice, turning her gaze to meet his and focusing in on his vivid green eyes. "You have wonderful eyes..." she whispered, smiling, this time her pearly white teeth showing a small bit. She covered her mouth with her hands, blushing crazily, before a sharp "Shut up!" slipped from her mouth and she obeyed, looking down at her feet at the end of the bed, avoiding the man's gaze.

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    the man jotted a few of the adjectives down, though mainly listened to her speak.
    - kind, gentle, timid, intelligent, selfless, and caring.
    - needy, scared, weak, and stupid.

    he wrote down each response, already seeing how this was going to go. he started the first response, the one from Ryan.
    he nodded, lightly after she answered, and looked back up to her, to hear her compliment followed by a harsh demand.
    "thank you, Ryan. though I've always loved blue eyes."
    he chimed, smiling at the timid girl.
    he glanced back down to his paper, seeing he second question laid out for him.
    "alright, now this one's very personal. tell me about your childhood up to age fourteen."
    he said, voice a bit lower than usual. he hated meddling in her life, and already exposing her secrets while only introducing himself about thirty minutes ago. it wasn't like him, really. but he needed information in order to try to help her get through this. he wanted to force Sara down, and to being out Ryan.


    [ -- that's fine! c: and good, cause I was aiming for romance too! I'll make him twenty then, so it's still realistic! ]


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    This question made Ryan visibly hesitate. This proved that there was something that had caused her to create Sara. She looked anywhere but his eyes, biting her lip nervously, before Sara broke through, barking out a few sentences. "Lets see. This kid, was put into foster care as a child, and she went to a few abusive homes. She went to the couple that put her in the mental hospital only a few weeks before they locked her in there. The poor child." she snickered meanly, before Ryan placed her hands over her eyes. "I didn't want him to know that Sara..."
    "Too bad so sad, now get over yourself."
    "Sorry..." she kept her eyes covered, a few tears slipping down her cheeks.


    she hated recalling the nine years fourteen years of jumping foster homes, hated to think about the abuse, the times she was hurt so bad she was hospitalized. She hated remembering the eight different families who hurt her for no reason, and then remembering the abuse getting worse after she had been diagnosed with schizophrenia. She still wanted to know what she had done do wrong to deserve to be beat everyday. She still had nightmares, there were still scars, and Sara seemed to reanimate every one of those nightmares everyday because of her viscous attitude.


    The subject touchy on Ryan, she gently began it sob, her hands still covering her eyes. Her shoulders heaved, and she had her head tilted downwards slightly. The emotion was so intense that Sara couldn't even slip out a rude remark like she usually would. You would wonder if there was remorse inside of the girl, after being the way she treated herself, but it was very unlikely. She just sat there and sobbed, didn't want to answer anymore questions, didn't want to look at anyone anymore, and most of all, didn't want to talk to Sara.


    //awesome! Glad this all worked out c:

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    the man paused, before writing down that she went to foster care and then abuse. but before he could even finish spelling out the word 'abuse', she began sobbing.
    Sullivan immediately stopped writing, filling with guilt. he sighed lightly, rubbing his eyes with his hands.
    suddenly, the man ripped out the paper, and crumbled it up in a ball before tossing it in the trash.
    "hey, hey, shh..."
    he cooed, scooting up to the bed, gently pulling her hands from he face.
    "hey, look at me."
    once her hands weren't shielding her face, he nodded almost approvingly.
    "stick with me, kid? no one's gonna hurt you now, ok."
    he whispered, then and there taking a vow to protect her. he wiped away her tears, keeping her gaze.
    Sullivan hated seeing people cry, especially younger girls. it was like someone just punched his chest. felt this awkward guilt. unbearable.


    [ -- me too! c: ]


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