Hold me until I know I'll be okay... {B x B}

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    Hold me close to you tonight
    Hold me tight and near
    I might just be gone in the morning
    And you may never even know



    Ooc~


    You and Broken Smiles have been friends for about two years. You became friends when you rescued Broken from bullies. After that, you two became friends. Now, Broken is going through a bad depression. The bullying doesn't help his situation, and neither does the abuse he receives from his drunk father. His mother was killed in a car wreck a few years ago, and he's still upset about that. You know about the abuse he receives, and the bullying that goes on at school. However, you don't know that for the past four months, Broken has been cutting himself. He would lock himself in his room, and cut his wrists and legs. One day, while you two are hanging out, his sleeve slips up and you see his scars. To get him to stop, you tell him you love him, something nobody's ever told him...



    Ic~ It was a Friday afternoon. I was at mine and Dad's small house, in my room. I was getting dressed to meet my friend at his house. I gazed at myself in the mirror. I could see almost every small cut I've made on my body. So many painful memories that will never go away with each scar...
    I sighed, pulling a black longsleeve shirt on. I pulled my dark gray jacket on over my shirt. After slipping on a pair of my black skinny jeans, I left the room. As I was headed out the door, Dad snapped at me, "Broken! While you're out, buy me more beer!" I turned towards him. "I-I can't...I'm not old enough..." He grabbed me by the arms roughly. "Did that ever stop me?" he spat. "There's no d*mn excuse you can give me. Just buy me my d*mn beer and don't give me lip!" He released me, storming off into his bedroom. I sighed softly, walking out of the house. I started walking down the street towards my friend's house. He lived a few houses down, thankfully. When I reached his house, I started knocking on the door. I slid my hands in my hoodie pockets, the sleeves of my hoodie raised over my hands.

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    I hear a knock at my door and quickly jump up from my seat on the couch. I knew just who it was so I hurried to the door. I turned the knob and pull. I look outside and see Broken. A smile crosses my pale pink lips and I gesture for him to step inside.
    I've known Broken for a while now, and not once has our friendship faltered, not even a little bit. Ever since the day I stopped those bullies from hurting Broken, I realized something different about him. He looked like a cool guy so we started to hang out and now we were close friends. Broken knew a lot about me, but what he didn't know was that I had some extra feelings stored for him. Ones that you would use to love someone.


    clicky for Kaleb.
    Minus the gauges.
    [/size]


    Hold me close to you tonight
    Hold me tight and near
    I might just be gone in the morning
    And you may never even know



    Ooc~



    Ic~ I walked into Kaleb's house. "Hey," a small smile rose to my face. I brushed my bangs back, combing them out of my eyes. I hated when my hair did that. I gazed at Kaleb, asking, "What would you like to do today?"

    [size=7pt]I look around the house. "Well, we've got the whole house to ourselves, so we can basically do whatever we want." I say, reaching up to scratch the back of my neck. I always get a bit shy around Broken, but only because I never know what to say to him. I glance over at my room and remember that I just got it repainted. "Before we do anything, I want to show you something." I grab Broken's arm and gently pull him towards my small room. I push the door open and point to the once green but now blue walls. "My mom painted them while I was gone. What do you think?" I ask, silently wishing he likes it. [/size]


    Hold me close to you tonight
    Hold me tight and near
    I might just be gone in the morning
    And you may never even know



    Ooc~



    Ic~ I gazed around the room. "Cool," I smiled. "I really like that shade of blue." I loved the color blue. Not just any blue. I prefered the darker blues, like midnight blue. It was just a majestic color, with a mix of blue and black, if you will.

    I let out a silent breath of relief. "Thanks." I say, releasing his arm. I look at my bed and notice the piles of drawings on top. I sprint to the bed and frantically pick them up. One flies out if my hands and glides over to Broken's feet. And it just happened to be a drawing of him. I bite my lip, knowing now that he's going to see it.


    Hold me close to you tonight
    Hold me tight and near
    I might just be gone in the morning
    And you may never even know



    Ooc~



    Ic~ I picked it up, gazing at the drawing. I blushed a little when I recognized the drawing to be me. I gazed up at Kaleb. "That's an amazing drawing," I smiled, handing him the paper.

    I hid my face in my hands, fighting a major blush. "Thanks," I said through my hands. I looked up and gave him an awkward smile. I took the paper from his hands and set it on my desk. "I just started drawing faces and I wanted to see how well I could draw yours, and yeah.." I say, staring at my floor as if it suddenly grew interesting.


    Hold me close to you tonight
    Hold me tight and near
    I might just be gone in the morning
    And you may never even know



    Ooc~



    Ic~ I sat down beside him. "It looks really good though. You're better at drawing than I am," I told him softly. I pulled my legs to my chest and wrapped my arms around them.

    I blush and lightly punch his shoulder, much like a friend would do. I fall back onto the bed and stare at my cieling. "Thanks," I chuckle, laying a hand on my chest. "So is there anything in particular you want to do?" I ask, turning my head to look at him. I gaze around the room while I wait for a reply.


    Hold me close to you tonight
    Hold me tight and near
    I might just be gone in the morning
    And you may never even know



    Ooc~



    Ic~ I thought for a moment before shrugging, "I don't know. What do you want to do?" I shifted to face him. I didn't realize it at the time, but my sleeve had slowly drawn up to the point where you could slightly see where my scars began.

    His sleeve falling down his arm distracted me for a moment. I stared at it and began to notice something. My eyes widened and I shot up. I grab his arm and pull down his sleeve even farther. "Broken..?" I stare at the cut marks on his arm for a moment longer and then look into his eyes. "What the hell is this?" I point to his forearm.


    Hold me close to you tonight
    Hold me tight and near
    I might just be gone in the morning
    And you may never even know



    Ooc~



    Ic~ My eyes widened in shock. Crap! I should've been more careful! I scolded myself mentally over and over at how careless I was. I bit my lip, swallowing hard before mumbling softly, "I-it's nothing..."

    I don't tighten my grip but I feel my body stiffen up. "Nothing? Bullshit!" I rip my hands off his arm and quickly stand up, putting my fists into my hair. I take furious steps around the room, breathing out heavily. I whip around and face Broken, a few tears going down my cheeks. "Do you know how much that hurts me to think you harm yourself?" I say, stabbing my chest with my index and middle finger. I twist around again. "Why do you do it, Broken? At least tell me why." I say, walking towards him.


    Hold me close to you tonight
    Hold me tight and near
    I might just be gone in the morning
    And you may never even know



    Ooc~



    Ic~ I lowered my gaze to the floor. "I..." I felt my voice crack slightly, and I knew I was on the verge of bursting into tears. "...It relieves pain...Pain that won't go away...Emotional pain..." I gazed up at Kaleb. "I'm s-sorry..." I choked out, tears forming in my eyes.

    I lean forwards and pull Broken off the bed. I pull him close to my chest and wrap my arms around his smaller form. "Why would you need to cut? It doesn't do anything but hurt the ones who care for you," I say, placing my hand around Broken's wrist.


    Hold me close to you tonight
    Hold me tight and near
    I might just be gone in the morning
    And you may never even know



    Ooc~



    Ic~ A few tears started trailing from my eyes. I buried my face in his shirt, murmuring in an almost inaudible voice, "I-I've had the temptation for years...I finally gave in when I had a really b-bad day...I just couldn't take the temptation anymore..." I was making an attempt to not have a meltdown.

    I wrap my arms tighter around him. "Please don't..for me. I..I.." I trail off. "I love you, Broken, and seeing you hurt yourself just hurts me." I begin to cry. I lay my cheek on the top of his head and cry softly.


    Hold me close to you tonight
    Hold me tight and near
    I might just be gone in the morning
    And you may never even know



    Ooc~



    Ic~ I wrapped my arms around him, hugging him quietly as he cried. A few tears were escaping my eyes as well. He loves me...He...he loves me...? I'm possible to love...? I tilted my head up slightly. "It's okay, Kaleb," I murmured softly. "I love you too..."

    I feel my heart dance inside my chest. I look down at him and smile. I lean down and gently kiss his cheek. I back up and sit us down on the bed. I twine our fingers together and I stare warmly at him. I lift his arm and look over his cuts and trace a few with my fingers before gently pressing my lips to them.