Someone please help me!

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    I didn't want to make this thread, but I feel like there's nowhere else I can go without being judged.
    A couple of years ago, I began to have trouble sleeping, so I started going on my laptop and phone at night. After I got bored of that, I got my friends who were staying with me to go out with me or meet me somewhere without telling anyone. It was fun at first, since we were free to go where we wanted, in people's gardens, on the lane, in woods. But then my friends went back to where they came from, and no one who goes to my school would ever do that with me. Then when I tried to go to sleep, I couldn't, so I took sleeping pills. The thing is, I can't ever go to sleep without them now, and I spend all my money buying them because I don't want my parents to know. If I don't take them, I feel really ill.
    Also, I have no friends at my school because the only person I would be friends with would rather not know me. Everyone else is horrible to me and I just want to go back to my old school in another country.
    If I think about everything to hard or if it's dark or if there's a storm I get all cold/hot and my breathing goes all weird. After, I keep shaking and my heart beats really fast.
    Sorry for all the writing :( I just don't know what to do. Please tell me if you know anything or have anything similar!

    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 0px; width: 460px; font-family: timesnewroman; font-size: 11px; text-align: justify;]So, you really can't go without the sleeping pills? I have heard they can be pretty addictive. I really do think that you should tell your parents about this situation. It might be hard at first, but if you inform them of the problem I'm sure that they will want to help you out. These other problems involving your health, they could be caused by the sleeping pills, or perhaps stress? I can't relate to these things very well, but I think that telling your parents would e the best bet.


    I've never been one to really have friends, either, certainly not at school. I'm learning how to deal with this myself. What I like to remember is that it doesn't matter what people think of you; it doesn't matter whether they don't want to call you a friend or not. You aren't perfect, you have your flaws, but that is what makes you unique and what makes you, you. Things will get better if you try. You can't give up an trudge along an expect everything to start going uphill, you have to claw your way up there, and it all starts with facing your problems. You should tell your parents about your health problems and perhaps try to quit the sleeping pills. Try to be confident, and if those people at your school don't want to be your friend, then ignore them! You will always have many friends here who love you, hon, and even though we can only really talk to eachother from screen to screen, you can always feel free to come to me whenever you need someone to talk with.


    It's a tough thing, moving from one country to another, and I understand it. But if people at your school are purposely putting you down then you can just ignore them, tell someone or play along with their teasing. Be confident and show them that no matter what they say or do, you always have someone there for you behind this screen. If its just verbal, fight against them! But if it gets physical then you should really talk to your parents and teachers. I can't help you so much with the sleeping pills problem, and the only advice I can give you is that you should inform your parents of what is happening. Though, I can relate to you on the school level, and you should know that you can always come to any of you friends, because we are your friends, on this site.
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    Thanks! I really appreciate you helping :3 I'll try to tell my parents, though I'm not sure how to tell them something like that without them getting mad.
    Somehow it's nice to know I'm not the only one without many friends. But it just really sucks that people hate me for no reason. Most of them are people I've never spoken to either, and I've never said anything mean about any of them. Plus, I can avoid my 'friends' all day and they won't notice until they need something. I've known them for quite a while now and it just really hurts that I mean that little to them.
    That's why I love this site though. Everyone's always here to listen :)

    [fancypost bgcolor=; border: 0px; width: 460px; font-family: timesnewroman; font-size: 11px; text-align: justify;]Most certainly. I can be rather antisocial at time, I am rather terrible at conversing with people, therefor I've need been one to have many friends. I have had "friends" who only come to me when they want help with school work, although, and now I basically just ignore them for that reason; they didn't even like me, and yet they still continue to pester me when they want someone. So, yeah, I can feel you.


    I'm glad I could help, even if it was a little. c:


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