I ᴀᴘᴏʟᴏɢɪᴢᴇᴅ ᴇᴠᴇɴ ᴛʜᴏᴜɢʜ I ᴋɴᴏᴡ ɪᴛ's ʟɪᴇs.. [sᴇᴍɪ-ᴀᴅᴠ. ᴘᴀғᴘ]

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    Plot::
    Ryan disappeared for weeks. She had a major break down and just went poof. Nobody knows where she went, and when she finally comes back, not only are they relieved she came back, but also furious at her sudden disappearance. Her best friend, [insert male name here], was the most angry, and refused to talk to her unless she apologized and meant it. The first few days, Ryan can find nothing to say, no words to excuse herself from what she had just done to her best friend, deserted him in a time where he needed her most, while hid parents got into a rough divorced after a sixteen year marriage. Fifteen year old Ryan still has nothing to say.


    On Thursday, six days after she returned from her sudden wipe off of Earth, she calls up her friend. When he doesn't answer, she fills the message with fake apologies, just wanting her friend back. She wasn't sorry for disappearing. She had her reasons, she just wasn't ready to tell.. Afterwards, the two slowly start hanging out again, their situation and the air between them still tense, until Ryan gets hit by a car in the middle of the night, when escaping trouble in her own home..
    will the two became thick as thieves again?
    will Ryan come clean with her reason of leaving?
    will they ever be the same again?


    Rules::
    --Please be active. I'm telling you I'm on all the time. If I don't respond, its the site freaking out. I suggest bookmarking and checking every few days if a reply doesn't pop up.
    --Please be semi-adv or adv. I type a good paragraph if my muse is low, but I can type stories for you xD please be able to do at least a good descriptive paragraph.
    --Please have a real picture for your guy character. I dunno if I want romance or not xD umm btw he's sixteen.
    --just jump in with a name and pic, don't ask to join!! Once someone joins I'll post a first post.

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    awesome thanks for joining! I'll make the first post later in in the middle of a zombie game on black ops xD

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    //Im always the last one surviving when I play online ;-;


    I was coming home. I didn't want to, not with my moms boyfriend most likely still around. He abused me, more than just physically, mentally, sexually, and that was the only reason I left. But I couldn't come clean about that to Kelly... He would never look at me the same. He probably won't ever want to talk to me. Ever. He would be disgusted because I just let it happen. Then again my mom didn't do anything about it, and man, her boyfriend, Ralph, was much stronger than I was. I sighed quietly, slowly slipping into the house. It was midnight, and I came only so everyone would be asleep when I came home.


    I examined the dark living room and noticed a sleeping figure on the couch, it wasn't Ralph. I noticed the handsome features, and I realized it was Kelly. I slipped a hand over my mouth. Why was he here? I knew both Ralph and my mom acted civil around him, but I didn't like the idea of him being a lone with Ralph. I gently set the keys on the counter, turning and stepping up the stairs, flinching as they creaked. I didn't want to wake anyone up.


    after safely making it up the stairs, I slipped into my quiet room. It looked just how I left it, clean, and normal, just how I liked it. I pulled off my clothes and took a quick shower, not having one for a couple days, before pulling on shorts and a tank top and slipping underneath the covers of my bed. I closed my eyes, and I cried. I just cried. I hadn't cried at all while I was gone, but now that I was home, back where Ralph had full access to me, I could cry. I had a reason to cry. Hugging my pillow close to me, I attempted to calm down, breathing heavily as more salty tears left lines on my cheeks.

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    [ lol, I usually don't play online but I sometimes I last pretty long with my friends && so I want to make sure, Kelly's parents got a divorce or was it Ryan's? ]




    I came to her house again. It was the third time this week. I had been sleeping on the couch. One of the only reasons I've been coming here is because I wanted to find out why she left and I haven't found anything so far. It was so stressful trying to find things before I fall asleep and before they got suspicious. I fell asleep early that night.




    I had a weird dream. It was me but I could see myself. I was running in the woods away from something but I couldn't see it. I didn't see anything. My vision was blurry. Then it got interrupted when I felt a hand on my lips. I kept my eyes shut, thinking it must have been Mrs. Smith, or rather Ms. Smith. I didn't think anything of it but then I heard the shower going. I opened my chocolate eyes and saw the dark room I was sleeping in. I then saw light coming from under the door to the bathroom and figured maybe she had something to do this morning. I looked at the clock. 5:47 am. I frowned, either she had an appointment somewhere or I was dreaming.




    I got off the couch when I saw someone walk into her room. Now I really frowned. This has never happened before or not that I know of. I made my way up stairs, taking two at a time. Finally I got to her rooms door. I started to breath heavily. "R-ryan?" I whispered when I saw a small figure, a girl's that fit Ryan's completely, shaking as if the person was crying. I walked over to her bedside and put my hand on her shoulder. "A-are you okay?" I found myself tearing up and pushed it down. No. I couldn't. Why was I caring so much? She left me when I needed her. She probably wasn't even here for me so why should I be there for her? I didn't say anything just in case she did come back for me. One thing still bothered me though. Why did she leave in the first place?
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    [well ryans parents have been divorced since she was younger, but when Ryan left, Kelly's parents were in the middle of getting divorced, if that makes sense.]


    I jumped at the feeling of a hand on my shoulder and quickly sad up, wiping the tears off my cheeks and looking up at my best friend. The boy I abandoned. I still couldn't bring myself to apologize right this second. What was there to apologize for? I was protecting myself. Ralph could've easily killed me, and more of the bruises were starting to show. I didn't want him to know. If he knew I just knew he would hate me. I couldn't help myself. I quickly shifted my position, slipping off my bed and throwing my arms around his neck and hugging him close, burying my head in his chest.


    "I know you hate me right now Ryan but I missed your arms, please just hug me once before you blow up on me." I didn't expect him to hug me back, not at all, but I kept my arms around him anyways, sobbing into his shoulder. I couldn't bring myself to apologize. I could only cry, knowing he probably hated my guts right now and wanted nothing to do with me. But I could stop touching him. I missed him so much. I leand back slightly, feeling his neck, his face, his taut jaw. "My god I missed you so much.."

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    [ yeah it does don't worry ]




    I couldn't move a muscle as I watched her get up and hug me. She asked me to hug her back and yet I stood there frozen. I then slowly brought my shaking hands up to her back and placed then there, wrapping my arms around her body. I felt her shaking against me, felt her hands on me. "I've missed you-" I felt my voice crack, "a lot." I didn't want to say it but I did. "My parents..." I drifted off and then swallowed the big lump forming in my throat. "they got divorced..." I purse my lips, resisting the urge to cry. "I needed you Ryan and you left me. Why? Why did you leave me?" I felt my voice rising a little so I took a deep breath to calm myself down.




    [ sorry I have low muse ]
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    It hurt, hearing his voice crack, hearing him struggling to stay calm. And I did this to him? I felt a few more tears roll down my cheeks. I didn't know what to tell him. I couldn't say sorry because I wasn't sorry for getting the hell out of here before Ralph killed me. That would be leaving forever, and I couldn't leave Kelly alone forever like that. I took another deep breath, trying to calm down but it wasn't working... I started to sob harder, clutching tightly on to him. "I'm sorry.." I mumbled, before continuing. "About your parents."


    like I said I wasn't sorry about leaving. I wasn't going to stress that. I took a deep breath, trying to calm so I could speak clear enough. "I was protecting us both... Our feelings... My own life..." I didn't go into detail. I just wanted him to know a vague reason. Maybe then when and if I did tell him the truth he wouldn't hate me so much for it.

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    I struggled to breathe. I pursed my lips and found the part of me that wanted to keep talking. "I-" I shook my head and felt her hold tighter. She started talking. I was still speechless and when I did talk it was in a whisper. "Yeah me too...." I said to her about my parents comment. Then she continued. I felt anger bubble up into my chest and it came out. "What do you mean you left for us?" I tried to calm myself but it didn't work very much. "If you left for us then you would have taken me with you. There is no us. Not anymore because of what you did. You know there are consequences to your actions." I looked at the wall. That was the only thing I wanted to look at. It was plain and boring even with its color. I just kept shaking my head.




    A cold laugh came out of my lips. "I can't believe you would say that you left to protect our feelings. Our feelings.you left for your feelings." I couldn't get a hold on my thoughts they just kept flying away from the empty jar that said COLLECTED THOUGHTS. I just wanted to scream and cry until my throat was raw, kiss her until I had her trying to practically eat me whole, and run until my lungs felt like they were burning. I knew I couldn't do any of those things so I just kept shaking my head. This though was a nice whisper, "I just want to know why you thought you had to leave because you didn't have to...I didn't want you to..." I sounded sad because I was sad and I knew she knew it. I had nothing more to say so I hoped she continued.
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    His bitter laugh made me flinch and I immediately released him, backing away. "I didn't leave for my feelings." I hissed, glaring at him with frozen eyes. "Why should I have to tell you anything? I'm nothing to you now right? You just said it yourself." I couldn't keep the tears from falling, even though I knew how angry I sounded, I still cried, practically sobbed. I stepped back towards the door. It would be easy to leave again. I wondered if he knew what he just did tore my heart to shreds.


    "I left because I was scared. I left because if you know anything, even just a little bit, if you noticed the f-cking signs, the bruises and scratches you would at least get an idea, but you're so unobservant. You always flip the tables so everyone else is bad, for once you need to realize people have reasons and they aren't always selfish. I was protecting us. If I stayed, the things that could've happened... That would've torn you apart much more than me leaving for a few weeks ever could've."


    At that point I could find no more words to say and I just sunk on to the ground and started to sob. I swear if he touched me I would explode, and that wouldn't be good because then my mom and Ralph would wake up. I felt another hard sob shuffle through my body and my chest heaved violently with how hard I was crying. I wonder if he could just see how much he hurt me. I-I... I get it Kel, it wasn't the best choice I could've made... But you don't have... Have to rub it in my face that I messed up and probably lost the only thing I loved in my life.."

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    It felt like the guilt pierced me through my heart. I watched as she yelled at me and then went on the floor. I just stood there while she sobbed. Then I flinched. "Love...?" I was thinking out loud now. "You loved me...?" I could feel the guilt taking over but part of me was still mad about her leaving. "Okay look I understand you left for a very good reason but you could have at least told me you were leaving first." I looked down at her and found myself on my knees. I held out my hand to touch her arm but I decided that might not be such a good idea so it ended up landing on the floor in front of me.




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    "Tell you? I was terrified, it was a spur of the moment thing I just left! I wasn't planning on it at all but everything just caved and became too much... You know I don't handle stress well, and running away is the only thing I can do best." my eyes stayed down on the ground and I sniffles gently, unable to really meet his gaze. I watched his hand and I tended, waiting for it to touch my arm, but instead it dropped to the floor. I slowly relaxed, wiping my teary face, wanting them to stop falling just so I could talk and not cough to death.


    ?You weren't the only one that was hurting while I was gon Kel... I couldn't stand being separated from you. But I couldn't come back, no not with what was happening, not with what my mom would've done... And Ralph... Oh god Ralph..." I slowly leaned forward, falling into Kelly's arms and curling up into hid chest, just sobbing. I knew after tonight he wouldn't talk to me until I apologized. But again I didn't want to apologize. I had nothing to apologize for. "Yes love." I murmured, my answer delayed. "I love you Kel, and I need you in my life.."

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    I sighed, wrapping her up in my arms. I felt her shaking again from sobbing. "Just calm down." I was going to say I'm sorry for not thinking of you but instead I didn't say anything at all. I rubbed her back, hand going in circles. "Just..." I was still angry with her but I just didn't know what to say. "Are you going to do that again? Run away I mean? Can I help with anything? Anything at all?" I wanted to be with her but I didn't at the same time. It was so confusing.
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    I slowly shook my head. No I wouldn't run away again. But I couldn't manage to say anything. I just looked down, sobbing gently. My crying had calmed down, but I didn't stop, it was hard to stop, knowing I would probably most likely never have these arms wrapped around me again. I was an idiot. Why did I always have to mess up so bad? Why was I even in love with him this way? He didn't love me like that, let alone like me that way. Hell I wasn't even really a friend to him anymore, just because I had freaked out in a bad situation.

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    [ hey here's a better quality picture for Ryan (same picture just a different size so it's clearer) click<<
    I was somewhat taken aback when she shook her head. I didn't expect her to say she wasn't going to go again. She was silent so I was silent. It was very unsettling.




    I finally brought myself to speak. "Maybe I should go..." I looked at the ground, my eyelids feeling unnaturally heavy. I started to let her go, feeling uneasy. Was someone up in the house? It felt as if someone was...watching. It was probably my imagination but it still felt unsettling. "Yeah I should go..."
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    //thanks sweetness, I'll go fix it now.


    I wasn't going to tell him to stop. What was the point? He wouldn't listen, he didn't want anything to do with me anymore. I slowly slipped from his grasp, crawling on to the bed. I looked up at the hidden camera I had found before I left. Ralph liked to watch everything I did, make sure I wasn't "bad". Creepy I know. I knew Ralph was awake, the red light was no barely visible, indicating the camera was on. I looked over at Kelly, and deep sadness in my eyes. "Bye..." I mumbled gently, before laying back.


    I pulled the covers up over my head, not wanting to watch Kelly leave. It would hurt too much, mostly because i could see the pain in his stance, and I knew I caused that.. It would just be too much to handle after today.

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    I heard her bye and I couldn't anymore. I was crying. I stood up, not caring about leaving her alone. I walked out of the house with satisfaction and guilt. Oh so much guilt.




    I was the park down the street from her house. I was cold and alone since I only wore a black T-shirt and jeans. The brisk air of the early morning was almost unbearable. I looked around and then reached into my pocket, collecting my phone. I turned it on and saw the missed calls from my mother. She must have been worried that I was with dad. Man she's paranoid. She's been ever since Ryan left because she thought I was going to do the same. She still thinks so even though I've reassured her I'm not. I decided to ignore the calls and just locked the phone and stuck it in my pocket again, where it should be. I shook my head. Why try when you know what's going to happen?




    I walked over to the swings and sat on one of the black seats that tended to hurt my hips. I held onto the freezing metal that kept me from falling backwards or forwards. I sighed, breath showing in a faint white cloud. I felt cold and alone and there was nothing I could do about it because even when I was with either of my parents I still felt alone.
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    I looked up as he began to leave, just to see him one last time, and I saw that look on his face. God he was satisfied. Happy about what had happened. Maybe he never really did like me at all... He didn't even say goodbye to me. I looked up once more as my door opened and I saw Ralph standing there. I felt tears spring into my eyed. "You've been a very bad girl." he murmured, shaking his head and cracking the belt he held in his hand. I let out one sharp scream, before my world went black.


    ---timeskip to Thursday---


    The next few days were full of beat downs from Ralph, swearing from my mother, and ignorance from Kelly. He refused to answer any of my calls, texts, emails, Facebook messages, I tried everything and he refused to answer. I hurt, a lot without him, without his comfort. I was going to explain to him why I left if he trusted me enough. I decided to try one more time. I picked up the phone and called him.


    //im changing the plot a little. Instead of waiting a few days for the for them to hang out, he's not going to get her apology message until late at night. He calls her back but her mom answers and tells him about the accident and yeah xD

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    [ okay that sounds great and sorry for typing a novel XD ]




    I found my bearings that night and walked home with the street lamps guiding me to my mothers house.




    I woke up late that Thursday. It was two in the afternoon and I still wasn't ready to wake up but I did. I took a shower, haven't taking a shower in what felt like weeks. When I got down stairs my mom was yelling at my dad on the phone. Typical afternoon. I sighed and walked out the front door still feeling like I've been awake for a year.




    I made it to a cafe near my house. It was small and had really nice people there, the occasional bad people, but nice people none the less. I ordered a medium caramel coffee and the man at the counter, who I didn't recognize, rung it in for me, taking my money. I then stood at the other end of the counter waiting.




    My eyes averted to the door of the place. Three people walked in. The schools bullies. I rolled my eyes at their stares and looked back at the empty counter top. Then the unfamiliar man handed me my coffee. I nodded and told him to have a nice day and he said you too. Cliche response. I turned around and found the three staring down at me. "Well? What? Whatever it is I'm not doing it because I don't want to deal with you today. I feel like I got hit by a truck and I don't want to get hit by a..." I looked the largest man, all muscles really, up and down. "A gorilla." I knew that was a bad choice of words but I also knew I could run faster then all three combined. Soon enough I was out the door.




    When I went to the park I sat on one of the many benches. I put my coffee down and felt the cool breeze rustle my hair. It was a nice feeling. I closed my eyes and laid my head down on the table. I was ready to fall back asleep. Then a hand touched my back. I shot up and looked at the man who stood there. It was my dad. He told me what my mom was yelling about and I nodded, not caring. "Look dad I came here to be alone not to be comforted by the person I don't want to see." He looked taken aback and it felt good to make my old man do that. Flinch. He walked away without another word and I was left with the comfort of my warm coffee.




    My phone vibrated in my pocket but I didn't move from my bed. I lay, tucked in the covers like a little kid. My pillow seemed softer than before and my head seemed to fit perfectly. It was perfect.




    I awoke with five missed calls. Mom, mom, dad, dad. I stopped. Ryan. I was going to change her name to MotherF*cker but I decided to keep it the same. I then listened to her voice mail.




    When it was done I played it back and back and back. I cried harder each time I listened to it. I was then on the floor, sobbing into my knees.




    I tried calling her back but she didn't pick up. Each time I tried I got nothing. It was frustrating really. I looked back and realized the number was wrong by one digit. I swore loudly to myself. I then called the actual number. I heard a females voice but it wasn't Ryan's. "Hello?" I asked in a shaky voice, feeling as I might cry again. Honestly I just wanted someone to talk to and that person was Ryan.
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