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Echo Emerson||Age:17

I was never the most popular girl in school, I was probably at the bottom of the school food chain. I was smart, but I was shy. I had a hard time with people touching me, it made me think about my father and the bruises along my arms. I didn't want to complain though, some people had it worse than I did. I hated complaining about stuff, I thought it would make people dislike me even more than they already did. I didn't have any friends, which was kinda sad. Even the other nerds had friends, but I was too shy to ever speak to them. I was currently eating my lunch that I had brought from home, chicken soup with soda and a cupcake. It was one of my favourite meals, it made me all warm inside when I ate it. I looked up too see Xander Delacroix looking at me for a quick second, why was he looking at me? I had a pretty huge crush on him, but who wouldn't. He was hot and popular, he had also played with me once when we were kids. I highly doubt that he would even remember it. I had been crying and he just walked up to with a batman action figure. He asked me to play so we did. That was when we were three, I had pretty good memory so it wasn't hard for me to remember. I've had a crush on him ever since, but he won't give me the time of day. He hasn't spoken to me since that day and his been with his girlfriend for awhile now. People ignored me a lot, but I never really minded. I had to focus on my school work so I could get into a good college far away from here. I wanted to become a doctor, but one that worked with kids. I sighed softly as I finished my lunch and got up from my seat, heading over to the library. It was always quiet in there and a very good place to study. I walked out of the lunchroom, walking past Xander. I tried not to stare at his handsome face, but it was no use. I ended up bumping into a pillar, causing some people nearby to laugh. I blushed as I covered my face with red hair, my face was nearly as red as my hair. God, why did I have to be so clumsy?

Echo Emerson||Age:17

I froze when I felt someone touch my shoulder, I turned around to see Xander there. I felt my legs turn to jelly, why was he here. The populars never talked to people like me, they thought we weren't worth their time. It upset me sometime and I was angry at myself for falling for one of them. It's not like I wanted to, but I just did. I looked up at Xander as he spoke and my eyes widened at his, he wanted to go to the dance with me? I pulled down the sleeves of my sweater, that was another thing that I was teased about. I always wore sweaters, I had to. People would see the bruises and they'd start to be nice to me, but it would only because they felt bad for me. I didn't want to make friends out of pity, I wanted real friends. I was still suspicious as to why Xander wanted to go to the dance with me."You think I'll say yes.."I muttered softly, looking at the ground. My voice was nervous and shaky."You don't even know my name and you haven't spoken to me since we were three, but I bet you wouldn't remember that."I said as I forced my voice to go steady."So I'll go if you can tell me why your interested in taking me to the dance."I said firmly. My greyish-blue eyes met his brown ones, what was wrong with me? I usually couldn't speak to anyone, but all of the sudden I could speak to the boy I had a crush on? I didn't understand, but maybe fear was the reason. I was scared that he was just messing around with me that he really didn't like me at all. I think that would break my heart, but I was willing to give Xander a chance. I knew he was more than just another jock, he was better than all of them. I smiled slightly at the memory of the day we spent playing together, he taught me that life didn't suck all the time."Do you even remember me? The time we played together? You had a batman action figure and I was playing with a Godzilla action figure."I told him, feeling happy at the memory. I was pretty sure that he wouldn't remember, things have changed so much since then.

Echo Emerson||Age:17

I smiled softly when he said he remembered. I was glad that he remembered, he had no idea how important that day was to me. I use to think that all people were bad, but he wasn't. I then listened to his reason and I couldn't help, but start laughing."Thank you, but none of that is true really. I don't try to be different, I just am."I told him with a small shrug. I was flattered that he had even taken the time of day to speak to me, a boy had never done that for me before. I then frowned slightly, I couldn't go with him. We barely knew each other and I bet that he didn't even know my name."First, I know that you have probably forgotten my name. It's Echo and you barely know me."I said as I bit my lip before I turned my back to him."Take me out first then we'll see."I added. He was right, I wasn't like the other girls. I had a huge crush on him, but that doesn't mean I was just gonna throw myself at him. My mother had taught me that much before she died, she told me to get to know a boy first before I fall completely in love. She always said she made that mistake with Dad, but luckily I didn't have to deal with him that much. His job causes him to travel a lot so that meant I usually had the house to myself."I don't care where we go, but we should get to know each other first. I'm not just gonna say yes, I'm not that easy."I said with a smirk on my lips.

Echo Emerson||Age:17

I felt my breath hitch in my throat when I saw him smile, Xander had a nice smile. When you saw him smile then it made you want to smile back at him."M-Meet your parents?"I asked nervously. I was generally shy when talking to other people, but I was comfortable around Xander. I did perk up when he said that his mother had a library and I smiled gently."My Mom had one too, she loved reading and so did I."I told him happily before I blushed lightly, I was such a geek sometimes."How about I come over tonight? After school, my dad isn't in town so I won't get in trouble."I said with a grin. I always tried to play it off as the coolest thing ever when my father was away, I got to do whatever I want. It would be fun, but I never did anything bad. All I did was stay home and study all the time."You know, the day we played together when we were kids...that day meant a lot to me."I added with a blush. I had always wanted to tell him that, but I just never got the chance. When we got into junior high, Xander's good looks started to show and he became popular. I was happy that he was happy, but I was also a bit sad. I knew that I could never fit in with all his friends and I didn't want to try being someone I'm not. I hated wearing skirts so I wore jeans and t-shirts. I didn't really wear make up either, I thought it made my face heavy.

Echo Emerson||Age:17

I nodded in confirmation when he repeated my words and then grinned happily when he agreed. We were seniors so we only had two more hours after lunch, we got to eat last. I was really excited to spend some time with Xander, I had so much faith that he would be different. I then blushed even more red when he spoke of my memory."Y-Yeah, I have a photographic and identic memory. I was crying and you just randomly ran up with a batman action figure, asking me if I wanted to play with you. God, we played the same game for hours. It was the Adventures of Batman and Godzilla."I told him with a chuckle. I noticed his hand started to reach up, but he retracted the hand. I wondered what was going through his mind? I shook my head at the thought and my eyes widened slightly when he said that he wanted to hang out with me, in school. It was one thing to hang out with me when nobody could see us, but in school when everyone could see us. I nodded at his words."I was going to the library, I was going to check out more books. I've read most of them, so it's a little dull. I can't get a library card since I need my guardian to get one."I said as I rubbed my arms. They were sore and they hurt whenever someone gripped them too tightly. My Dad hadn't hit me in years, but he used just had to grip my arm to hurt me. So, the bruises have never really healed up. I was kind of hot with my jacket on, but I had grown use to it.

Echo Emerson||Age:17

I could see the confusion in his eyes and I wished that I could just tell him everyone. I wanted to tell about my Dad and my Mom, but I didn't want to dump all that on him at once. I also didn't want him to feel bad for me, I didn't want anyone's pity. I then looked up at him and smiled at his words."You think that she would let me borrow some of them?"I asked softly. I'd pay money if I had to, I loved reading that much. Books were able to take me away from this world and this life, I loved it. I looked up at him with a small grin when he mentioned playing with the toys again."You still have your batman action figure, Mr. Cool?"I asked him with a smirk. It vanished when he offered me his library card, he actually wanted to let me use it? I looked at him before I took the card, tucking it safely in my pocket."Why do you hang out with them? Your not a mean person, but you act like one."I said as I looked into his eyes.

Echo Emerson||Age:17

I just smirked at his question, I actually thought that it was cute that he still had some of his toys. I kept a few of my stuff animals, but I was a girl. We girls loved to keep collections of stuff animals in our rooms. I then saw him grimace at my question, I almost regretted asking him the question. We were having so much fun talking and now, I had to bring up some stupid question, I always ruined things for us. I listened to him speak and I frowned at his words, looking down at his feet."You wouldn't be a nobody to me, you never were. You'll always be someone to me, no matter what anyone says. Even if you were a nobody, so am I and we could be...nobodies together."I said the last part softer than my other words. I shook my head before I grinned."Come on, we should find a book that you would like. They make tons of books based off of the video games that you boys like to play."I told him with a smile on my face. I figured that his group of friends wouldn't even bother opening up a book, but I bet I could find a book that Xander would like.

Echo Emerson||Age:17

I couldn't help the way I felt about him and I wished that my feelings could feel differently about him sometimes. I hoped that what was going on between on us now would last awhile, but I doubted that it would. I would enjoy the moments I could with him, because I really did think he was fun to hang around with. I then chuckled at his words."I just thought that it would be easier for you to get interested in."I told him with a shrug, but grinned."Well, if you wanna read Shakespeare then read Romeo and Juliet and Edgar Allen Poe is a good book too."I said with a smile. I followed after him with a smile."I think you'll like Edgar Allen Poe better unless you love sappy romance novels."I told him. I ran to catch up with him, stopping to walk by his side."I love the stories of Sherlock Holmes, you should read those."I said as we came to the library. My eyes lit up with joy, I loved going to the library. I always dreamed that my life would be like a story from a book, but I guess that's not like is really like.