Rebel Love Song

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Alyssa Vivian Fuentes
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[font=georgia][color=black]"Mikey, are we almost there?" I groaned, laying my back up against the couch. My outstretched arms immediately went behind my head for extra support. I kicked my legs out, shifting my body into a new position so that my legs rested gently on my brother's lap. He emitted a soft chuckle, shoving my legs off of his lap as he flashed me a devious grin.
"I am more than ready to get off this bus, please Lord just let me off. I don't want to be stuck in here any longer with my brothers and their annoying friends." I said shooting a glare at Jamie as he walked past, snickering under his breath. "Why don't you like me, Lyssa? Am I that bothersome?" I gave Jamie the death glare as he mocked fear and ran off squealing like a pig. I heard him tattling out to Tony like a damsel in distress. "Tony, you have to save me from the scary monster!"
I fell back onto the couch bursting out into a fit of laughter. I looked over at Mike who was buried deep into his phone. I gently placed my head onto his shoulder, causing the sleeve of his T-shirt to ruffle up with wrinkles. "Are we almost there?" I asked, batting my eyelashes. He sighed in exhaustion, obviously sick of hearing that. "Probably about 15 more minutes." I jumped up from my comfortable spot on the black, leather couch. I began to dance, very terribly as I may add, as my favorite song came on the radio. I began to belt my heart out as it came to my favorite part. "So take your hand in mine, it's ours tonight." Mike jumped up from the couch to join in with me. "This is a rebel love song!" We fell over in a fit of laughter as Vic rolled his eyes at our childish behavior.
"Hey Lyssa, guess what?" I sat back down on the couch, looking up at Vic with a questioning look in my eyes. "Black Veil Brides is going to Warped Tour with us." No lie, Kellin heard it from Biersack himself." I jumped up in excitement, attacking Vic with a huge bear hug.
Once they arrive...
"We're here!" I jolted up as those words sounded like liquid butter to my ears. I popped up running for the door and dramatically pounding on the door. Suddenly, the door flung open, causing me to topple out, earning howls of laughter from the boys. "Assholes..." I mumbled under my breath as I took off running. I stopped as somebody grabbed me and threw me over their shoulder. A familiar voice rang in my ears. "Not so fast, Lyssa." I squealed at Kellin, squirming in his grip. "Let me go, asshole!" I yelled, struggling to free myself. "Not until you go meet somebody."
We approached a big black bus, Kellin's hand covering my vision. "Kells, can I look now?" I heard a soft knock and an opening door, along with shuffling footsteps. Kellin removed his hand, allowing me to see. I gulped, in healing sharply as I realized I was face to face with the Andy Biersack.

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Alyssa Vivian Fuentes
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[font=georgia][color=black]I took a frightened step back as I watched Andy hover over me, his great glory almost singing to the heavens. I turned to face Kellin, his eyes gleaming with excitement, almost ushering me to speak to Andy. I opened my mouth hesitantly, trying to push out some words, in an effort to show politeness, that of course which I didn't have. My hands felt cold and clammy and I could feel my entire body trembling in my nervous state. Why the hell are you so nervous, Lyssa? Just talk to the guy. My self conscious was obviously fed up with this shy behavior I've had lately, but I couldn't help it, it was Andy f*cking Biersack in front of me!
Hesitantly, I held out my hand, it slightly trembled in the air as I waited for his to greet mine in a friendly hand shake. I opened my mouth, a few words finally tumbling out in a quick attempt to make a conversation. "I'm Alyssa. Alyssa Fuentes." I said slowly, watching as his head perk up at the word 'Fuentes'. He obviously knew who I was, considering just about everyone did around here. I was Vic and Mike's little sister, and apparently they have been spreading the word that I would be here today. His hand finally reached out from mine, but instead of a firm handshake, he pulled me into a tight hug, something that I was for sure wasn't expecting.
I stifled a small chuckle that was muffled into his chest as he continued to hug me. He smelled exactly like what he looked like. Smoke, cologne, and regret. I pulled away, not wanting to make the situation any awkward than it already was. Kellin finally spoke up, his voice sarcastic and exasperated from the dead silence fogging up the air. "Are you guys just going to stand there in awkward silence, or come watch me play the show?" He asked impatiently, a grumpy frown splayed across his soft features. "I'm coming!" I shouted, snapping out of my weird, shy phase. I hopped up onto Kellin's back when he wasn't expecting it, which caused him to let out a muffled groan. "Watch it, dollie, you aren't as light as you think." He said with a chuckle as he headed towards the back of the stage.

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Alyssa Vivian Fuentes
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[font=georgia][color=black]I giggled softly at Andy's well noticed observation. Of free I was as hyper as my two brothers, I was related to them now wasn't I? I stopped abruptly, the cheesy smile smearing off my face like mascara does when you cry. My thoughts swirled around like a hurricane inside of my head, tempting me to through a panic attack and freak out. I climbed off of Kellin's back as he ran off onto stage, screaming out at his shouting fans. I starred down at the plain, black surface of the stage, kicking nervously at the ground in a small effort to reduce the troubling thoughts in my head.
"I'm going for a walk." I mumbled under my breath so that it was barely audible. I ran off quickly, throwing my Misfits sweatshirt over my sweaty shoulder and taking off down the sidewalk. Sometimes I couldn't handle the fact that my real family had abandoned me, and at heart my brothers weren't anything related to me. It really would get to me sometimes, making me throw tantrums and have panic attacks. At one point, it was so bad I threatened to kill myself with self harm, which only led to me adopting self harm as a bad habit.
I sighed as I sat down on a hot bench, the heat of the blazing sun burning down onto my back. Although it was furiously hot outside, I felt cold and lost inside as I pulled the sweatshirt onto my now trembling body. I buried my face into the oversized sleeves, muffling my soft crying noises.

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Alyssa Vivian Fuentes
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[font=georgia][color=black]I let out a soft gasp as I felt a warm hand press against my back. I immediately assumed it was Vic or Mike, here to comfort their forever crying sister. I have always been the worried one of the group, the crybaby who's afraid of taking a harmless risk. I stopped and looked up as I heard a deep voice there to comfort me instead. I knew it had to be Andy sitting next to me. But why would he be here for me? We had only met a few mere minutes ago and now he's acting like he's known me for years? I wouldn't be rude though a turn down his sweet offer to try to help me.
"Well Andy...it may be hard for you to understand, but I'm not really a true member of the family I'm with. Sure they treat me like I am and comfort me, and act as if I were born into their family but deep down they know I'm not really a part of them. I was adopted years ago, when they were both young and barely knew anything. But I've always felt out of place, like a crooked book in a straight row of library books. It sucks Andy, and lately it's gotten much worse."
I said inhaling sharply as I tugged on the loose fabric of my sweatshirt sleeve. It revealed the soft, pink scars rutted deep into the skin of my wrists. I knew it was wrong to do, and nobody knew about it except for Andy who now knew about it all. I bit my lip hard, feeling my lip stud pop out and fall back into place after a second, looks like I didn't screw it tight enough. I burst out into another outburst of sobs, they were racking and painful, causing my whole body to shake in discomfort and loneliness.

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Alyssa Vivian Fuentes
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[font=georgia][color=black]I buried my face into my black sleeves, feeling them soon grow damp with my salty tears streaming down my face. I couldn't even bear to look at Andy, or anybody, my secret was out and now he would probably spill to everybody else about my server mental issues. I turned away from the bench so that my back was facing him. I hunched over as I tried to hide my face from him, avoiding his baby blue gaze. My body was overwhelmed with painful, racking sobs that made my body tremble like an earthquake every time I emitted a sniffle. I hated it when people would see me like this, I couldn't take it and nobody has really ever been able comfort these outbreaks.
I sharply reached from my hood, pulling it down over my face as I sniffled out into the air. I was sure my mascara was dripping down my face, I must look like an ugly, hot mess. A silence hung in the air, between us interrupted occasionally by a soft sniffle from me. I only hoped Andy would forget all of this and would let it slide past us without a hitch.
I felt a sharp aching feeling in the pit of my stomach, without Andy noticing, well at least I don't think he was looking, I slipped my sleeve up and looked at the deep scars rutted into my wrists. I hated myself for doing this, some were new and others were old from months ago.

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Alyssa Vivian Fuentes
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[font=georgia][color=black]i removed the black sleeves from my face, giving Andy full view of my red puffy, mascara covered face. I bit my lip, forcing the tears that were brimming at my eyes to go away. A strand of hair fell into my face, covering my left eye as I tilted my head downwards so I was able to look down at the ground. I inhaled sharply, taking in a deep breath of the hot, humid air from outside. I did the only thing that could comfort me! I sang! softly of course since I hated it when people would hear me.
"I ruled the world! with these hands I shook the heavens to the ground.
I laid the gods to rest.
I held the key, to the kingdom lions guarding castle walls.
Hail the king of death.

Then I lost it all
Dead and broken
My back's against the wall
Cut me open
I'm just trying to breathe
Just trying to figure it out
Cause I built these walls to watch them crumbling down
I said, "Then I lost it all."
And who can save me now?"
I stopped letting the silence soak into both of our thoughts, filling us with feelings we have never experienced. I loved that song, it means so much more to me than most things in my life do. I closed my eyes, breathing in, letting my husky breaths fill the air.

(I actually cried while writing this)

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Alyssa Vivian Fuentes
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[font=georgia][color=black]I smiled softly, my eyes still closed in Harmony and peace as it flooded my nerves, coursed through my veins and filled me with a feeling of Serenity. "I'll only sing more if you sing with me." I said laying my head down on his lap as I sprawled my body out across the bench. His lap was warm and welcoming and I hoped he wouldn't mind that I had claimed it was my pillow. I looked up at him with brilliant blue eyes that gleaned into the smiled ring sunlight that all of the sudden didn't seem so smoldering any longer.
I breathed in deeply, preparing myself for another song, but this time a duet with Andy. I pulled my sleeve-covered hands close to my chest as I looked innocent and adorable, laying here in defeat on his lap.
"Here in the echoes,
Madness grows
The years of sinning,
Teach me to show.
A heartless feeling of pain and regret.
These wounds were open,
Like lines in the sand.
The world is sleeping,
But they still have hope so,
I'll pray for morning
I swear I'll never let you die.
These saints within us can bring this moment back to life.
And my hearts held high with this battle cry
On the shore
On the horizon
We will, resurrect the sun."
I smiled up at him, a single salty tear rolling my mascara-covered cheeks. I hoped he wouldn't notice but hie could he not when he was looking directly at me the entire song?

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Alyssa Vivian Fuentes
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[font=georgia][color=black]I nodded and stood up brushing myself off and wiping the remains of makeup off of my face, just so Vic wouldn't be too worried about me or anything. I'm pretty sure he had a good idea about here I was and what had happened, considering it happens often. I let my sleeves sink back over my hands, concealing them in fabric until I took the sweatshirt off. I was about to start walking when Andy bent down and kissed my cheek. I stopped abruptly, my heart began to race and I felt my cheeks burn red furiously. Did Andy just kiss my cheek?? Mine?!
I gulped hesitantly and began to walk, trying to brush off the fact that he had just kissed my cheek. Sure it was only my cheek but his lips still touched a part of me. Cheek or not. It mattered that's for sure. I tried to keep my cool and proceeded to meet Vic behind stage.
After what seemed like hours of explaining to my brothers where I was and what happened they seemed less tense and reassured that Andy was with me to make sure I didn't do anything unreasonable. "Thanks for going to find her Andy, it made me feel better that she was with someone." Vic said with a smile aimed in Andy's direction. Sleeping With Sirens filed off the stage, waving behind them as they headed back towards their tour bus to freshen up. Next was Pierce The Veil, and then Andy's band would be the last show of the day. I sat down on an unplugged amp behind stage, humming to myself as I sat alone in the corner.

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Alyssa Vivian Fuentes
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[font=georgia][color=black]I looked up as I heard a thump and saw Andy's tall figure sitting beside me. I immediately stopped humming to myself, a soft, crisp breeze blowing over us. I huddled myself up into a tight ball, helping my body warmth to radiate through the rest of my body. Although it was summer, the nights could get much colder and especially since a large storm was on the way. I gently rested my exhausted head on my knees, glancing over in Andy's direction.
I gave him a soft glad smile and responded with a sweet fretting. "Hiya." I said, before returning to humming a song. I stopped and decided I would rather sing than hum a song. I hoped Andy was okay and not uncomfortable with the fact that I would be singing around him. I rarely ever sing around anybody, but for some reason I felt strangely attracted to Andy and was comfortable doing things that I normally be myself in front of him, that includes singing aloud.
"I believe that we all fall down sometimes. Oh, oh, oh.
Can't you see that we all talk down sometimes? Oh, oh, oh."
I said stopping and humming the rest of 'Lost It All.' I knew it would be wrong to start finding a liking towards him, considering I just met him only but a few hours ago and I would seem like a total slut. I watched as large gray clouds rolled in, covering the once sunny sky into a depressing black color. "I hope your show doesn't get rained out, that would be absolutely dreadful. I wish Vic would let me sing with him on stage, I've been asking for months and he still hasn't replied back about it."