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[fancypost bgcolor=transparent; border: 0px inset transparent; width: 550px;][justify][font=times new roman][sup][color=black]first name! gabriel. -a biblical name meaning "god is my strength", or "strong man of god". his father might not be a religious man, but the name just seemed to suit the boy. his father thought of him as strong since the day he was born, and again, though he may not be religious, he thought 'gabriel' would be the perfect name for such a strong boy.

middle name! chord. -pretty self-explanatory, really. his father's obviously in love with music, and 'chord' just seemed fitting. the boy had loved music since forever, and he wouldn't change his middle name if his life depended on it.

surname! ashby.

nicknames! most people just call him gabe, or by his middle name. if you call him by his full first name, there's most likely something wrong; as in there's probably someone dying, there's a fire, or something equally horrifying.

stage name! gabe, or chord, followed by his last name[of course]. i guess a majority like to call him by his middle name, though.

birth date! the thirty-first of october; halloween! not as fun as you'd think it'd be, actually.

birthplace! little gabriel was born at some hospital nobody remembers in chicago, illinois.

age! eighteen

zodiac sign! scorpio

gender! male

sexual orientation! homosexual; panromantic

theme song! hold on till may pierce the veil
you're not alone of mice & men
the langdon house issues
sleepwalking bring me the horizon
forest twenty one pilots
i'll take you there sleeping with sirens feat. shayley bourget
famous last words my chemical romance
follow my feet unlikely candidates
and so many freaking more

[fancypost bgcolor=transparent; border: 0px inset transparent; width: 550px;][justify][font=times new roman][sup][color=black]physical appearance & clothing! gabriel is rather petite, for being a male of his age. he might stand at a not-so-short-but-not-tall height of five feet and seven inches, but he is quite tiny in weight. he does have a little muscle, like his father, and weighs in at around one hundred seventeen pounds. his collarbone is easily definable, as well as his hip bones. the muscle certainly comes from banging on the drums so much, and definitely not from doing any sports. with his girly legs, he could run a mile in under five minutes, but it's not like he'd ever do it. his legs are much thinner than most boys' his age, leaving him to have to wear girl jeans, which are not-so-surprisingly still baggy on him, and loose on his hips. most of his articles of clothing are loose on him, of course, being the petite teenager he is.

his skin tone is rather pale, a sort of porcelain. sometimes he can get a nice creamy color, and other times he's almost literally as white as snow. sometimes it's hard to tell if he's sick or not, him being so pale, and whatnot, but there is one thing that can tell you whether he is sick or not; when he gets dark circles under his eyes. of course, there are some personality-related things that could help you determine whether he's sick or not, but you know. anyway, his skin is rather soft - it's as soft as it looks. though with being soft, his skin is also utterly sensitive. he bruises pretty easily; just a single poke could leave a little that spot poked a little sore. of course, if you just ever-so gently poked him, without any force at all, it wouldn't do anything.

gabe's face is a sort of oval-ish shape; i guess you'd call it a pretty normal shape, right? his eyes are a brilliant, odd amber color, always glittering in dark or light. they're a round almond sort of shape, big, but not too big. they always seem to be so full of life, so bright and and, well, bright. his eyelashes are long and thick, though not too thick, adding on to the list of reasons why you could mistake him as a girl. along with those reasons; his lips are full and fit perfectly on his soft face, colored a pale peachy-pink. they are almost never chapped, and almost always as soft as his porcelain skin.

his hair is what you'd describe as the style 'scene', a shiny brunette, with natural golden-dirty-blonde highlights, making it seem even shinier. it's feather-like in touch, soft and not too thick, but not too thin. his hair isn't too long, but it's not considered short, either, but rather a sort of perfect length, for him. most of the time, it's quite unruly, with all the head banging and stuff he does, but sometimes it just stays all nice without him trying.

the teen always wears skinny jeans, no matter the weather. for shirts, he usually wears other band tees/tank tops, v-necks, or flannels. sometimes he'll wear button-ups and ties, because why not? they're cool, in his book. when the weather calls for it, he'll wear a hoodie or sweatshirt, or some type of jacket. no matter what, he wears either converse, vans, toms, or chuck taylors. every other shoe brand just doesn't really.. go with him. it's not his 'style' i guess. gabe also never really wears sunglasses unless he absolutely feels the need to, like if the sun is shining a bit too bright directly at him. he wears tons of bracelets on his wrists, and always has an ankle bracelet around his left ankle, even if no one can see it. he also always wears the same necklace, which has an eighth note on it.

oh, and no; he doesn't have any piercings nor tattoos. none. zip. zilch. zero. though he does have quite a few scars littering his hips and his thighs - not really anywhere where anyone would see them - from his own doing. scars are also littered around his ankles, and few on his legs below his knees. hence why he's not too fond of wearing shorts, even when the weather calls for it.

[fancypost bgcolor=transparent; border: 0px inset transparent; width: 550px;][justify][font=times new roman][sup][color=black]archetype! the sweetheart

traits! sweet & loving, protective, strong-willed, humble & shy, forgiving, empathetic & sympathetic, gentle, lyrical, calm & content, creative & imaginative

personality!
[ sweet & loving & loyal ]
gabriel is too sweet for his own good, being that person who loves everyone, no matter what. and i mean no matter what. you could be a murderer who's killed five million times, and he'd still love you. sure, he might dislike you, but he holds a soft spot for everyone. to go along with this sweetness, the boy is utterly loyal. once you get to know him, and once he gets to know you, he'll be there for you till the end. he's like a dog - he'll never let you do anything stupid on your own. he'll always be by your side, even if he physically isn't. if you need him to literally be by your side, all you have to do is give him a call, and he'll be there.

being as sweet, loving, and loyal as he is isn't always such a good thing. sometimes he'll catch himself smothering a loved one without even realizing it at first. which he knows is annoying, but sometimes he just can't help it.

[ protective & strong-willed & determined ]
gabriel can be a bit protective over the ones he loves, and even complete strangers. actually, that was kind of an understatement. if someone is in trouble, you better believe he'll be there to protect them; if he knows they're in trouble, of course. he can't save everyone, now can he? even though he wishes he could, he knows it's highly improbable. though he tries to help out as many people as he can, and as much as he can. there are obviously those people who try to push him away, but gabe is always determined to make that person smile genuinely, even if it's the smallest of smiles. some say he's stubborn, but if you told him that, all he'd say is 'nah, i'm just really a determined guy.' or something along those lines. his heart, although having been trampled on, still beats for those around him, determined to help those in need of it.

being so determined and protective has its cons, of course, just like most everything else. sometimes he gets himself hurt, with all his determination and such. he can get so protective that he doesn't even think before stepping i front of that person he's protecting. it's just out of instinct, i guess, though he wouldn't mind taking a blow for another person, whether they 'deserved' it or not.

[ humble & shy & awkward ]
though he might be protective and strong-willed, chord is easily described as a humble, awkward sort of character. he has these little quirks that make him as awkward as they come, always the one to stay quiet during interviews. he might answer a few questions here and there, but usually he'll just laugh that awkward, almost feminine laugh of his almost as feminine as his singing and regular voice, and keep a sweet smile plastered on his face. now, he might be a little shy, but he's not too mysterious, or anything. he's just that guy who has a small, quiet voice, always looking down and letting his hair fall into his eyes. the one who fiddles his thumbs, taps his fingers, rocks back and forth on his heels, worries at his lip; all out of old habit. and sometimes nervous habit. the habits that make him oh-so awkward, so seemingly humble and shy.

though being humble and shy isn't always a good thing, let me tell you that. it can get him a lot of bad 'reviews', i guess you could say. like, 'oh, he's just hiding something dark', or something equally as bad or worse than that. words don't really phase him, anymore. he's learned to shew those words away, and kill haters with his kindness. sort of.

[ forgiving & gentle ]
there's not much to say, here, besides he is indeed forgiving and gentle. chord is probably the gentlest boy you'll ever meet. his touches, his voice, his choice of words; he's gentle overall. he's careful with his forgiving, though sometimes he can't help himself. he always stares into those eyes of another person, or persons, and can't help but forgive them. though, like many, he never forgets. and being so forgiving, as you know, isn't such a good thing. you could get yourself hurt badly, though that doesn't seem to really be on chord's mind when it came to forgiveness. he has always believed in second chances. and third chances. and - you get it.

[ empathetic & sympathetic ]
despite his humbleness and his awkwardness, chord is on of the most sympathetic people you'll ever come to know. no matter who you are, you'll always have his shoulder to cry on. and he won't ever tell you he understands, because surely everyone has their own different problems. sure, there are many people out there with depression, anxiety and such things, but each case is different. hell just tell you he's been through it before, and that he knows it gets better. because look at where he's gone to!

of course, this sympathy has a downside. with all the sympathy he holds, he holds no empathy nor sympathy for himself. he's too busy trying to help other, holding others in his arms that he doesn't make time for himself. he just simply doesn't look after himself, probably why hes such a skinny little f.ck who looks tired all the time.

[ calm & content ]
no matter what emotion he has, he's always calm about it. there's always a calmness to his laugh, and calmness to his smile. alongside his humbleness, chord is a very calm young adult. he literally never yells, mostly because he just can't bring himself to do it, and he just always seems to be content. of course, he's not always content, but he sure seems like it. there's just a sense of calmness in whatever he does, even when he's banging his head, banging on the drums. he's the most calm, the most content, when he's writing music. though he is usually alone in a quiet place for that, or somewhere he finds calming and comforting. like a park at night, or a little coffee shop 'down the street'.

[ lyrical & creative & imaginative ]
yes, if you haven't already noticed, gabe is a very creative, imaginative soul. he pours his heart into the music he writes, very lyrical, or musical. obviously. his mind is full of wonder, questions, and answers, somewhere where no one would want to be. it's filled with all of these thoughts that more than likely no one would be able to piece together, or comprehend. mostly no one, anyway. not only is he creative when he's writing, but he's also artistic. he loves to draw, though isn't very fond of painting, or coloring in his drawings. he'd rather his drawings be black and white - there's just something about black and white that appeals to him, and catches his attention. of course, anything else that is colored he likes, but black and white drawings or paintings find to be more suitable for him.

public image! lots of people who don't really know him tend to think that gabe is that guy who just can't do anything for himself; helpless. they think he is always in need to depend on someone else, because he's so 'delicate'. they think he's that one kid who is breaking on the inside, and needs someone there to pick him up every single time he falls. that he's just covering something negative up with his smiles and his laughs. he might have had a bit of a tough past with lying and such to make people believe he was fine, but he's nothing like that now. i guess, in the least of words, people, who don't actually really know him, think he has this facade of happiness going. hurrah.

likes!
{ artsy stuff }
{ music, of course }
{ playing the drums. duh }
{singing. obviously }
{ reading }
{ helping others }
{ smiles and laughs }
{ water }
{ antique stuff, like old books }
{ oreos, mhm }
{ gummy bears }
{ cuddling }
{ hugs }
{ stuffed animals }
{ those sad, sappy romantic movies }
{ coffeewith lots and lots of sugar }

dislikes!
{ bullying }
{ people harming themselves }
{ sadness & anger }
{ fights/fighting }
{ any soda besides 7-up or sprite }
{ when someone's too seriousscares the sh.t out of him }
{ crying in front of others }
{ those weak moments he has }

disorders! a.d.d., anxiety, isnomnia

[fancypost bgcolor=transparent; border: 0px inset transparent; width: 550px;][justify][font=times new roman][sup][color=black]relationship status! single

love interest! tbd

appearance (what you look for in~)! appearance doesn't really matter, to this young lad. he is panromantic. though a nice smile and eyes that are full of life are always a plus.

personality (what you look for in~)! personality is the biggest thing gabe looks for in a person. he's not too picky, but he'd never fall for that stereotypical jock type. gabe likes a guy who is sweet, but not too sweet; as in not too sweet as he would do literally anything for gabe. in other words, he would appreciate it if you didn't smother him. the boy is very forgiving, though, and most of the time, he'll fall for that 'bad boy' type. you know, the ones who are totally misunderstood and just hide their true feelings. he likes a guy who isn't too serious, but can be serious when the time calls for it. someone who not only can hold him, but will let him hold them when they need it or even want it, is a guy he'd date; someone who doesn't act all tough and mighty - at least, not around him.

[fancypost bgcolor=transparent; border: 0px inset transparent; width: 550px;][justify][font=times new roman][sup][color=black]'brief' history! i'm going to keep this brief, yeah? well, gabe was born in chicago at 3:39 a.m., and blah blah blah, let's fast forward a few years. he'd been pushed around since elementary school, though it, of course, wasn't until he was in sixth grade that he started harming himself. the cuts weren't deep enough to scar, but he'd make little shapes, such as hearts and stars, and names like his father's or his few select friends'. nobody knew until he actually did, accidentally, scar his hips, and they ended up bleeding when he was eating dinner with his dad. his dad, along with his few friends - and of course music - helped him through all of it, even when he started losing weight almost too drastically.

he got better, and soon stopped his habits when he got into the eighth grade. it didn't last long, though, and they came right back when he started ninth grade - the first year of high school. then he started to purposely scar his hips and his thighs, where no one would be able to see. he wanted a reminder, at the time, of how weak he was and such. he was just pushed too far, being stuffed in lockers, called names, being beat up all the time. just like in the movies.

though when it came time for him to graduate, which he did at seventeen, he finally came to a stop again. his dad had found out, and soon after his friends did, too. he didn't want to hurt them, so he stopped for them. now look where all that bullying got him. if it weren't for him being bullied, he wouldn't be here right now, would he? he might have, but he'd be a totally different person. which wouldn't be what the universe wanted. what he wanted.

yup. he's been clean of his self-harming - not only cutting, by the way - for a year, now, and he feels pretty good. especially when he's helping other people with the same problems he had, and even different problems. blissful.

parents! father - alan ashby & mother - ??

pet(s)! why, of course! his little kitten, bambi. he's not ashamed that he named him bambi.
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most precious item(s)! the necklace he always wears, even when he's sleeping, and the old books of 'alice's adventures in wonderland' and 'alice's adventures in wonderland - through the looking glass' he got when he was only three years old. not even his drum set is more precious than those three items.
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[fancypost bgcolor=transparent; border: 0px inset transparent; width: 550px;][justify][font=times new roman][sup][color=black]fears! well, his biggest fear is letting those fans down. though he does have other fears, of course, such as small, confined places, and getting angry. he's deathly afraid of hurting someone else, whether it be verbally, physicallywhich will never happen, or mentally. or a combination of both or all. just the thought makes him shiver.

talents! he is, of course, talented at playing drums and singing. he could have probably been a lead vocalist, but drumming has always been his biggest passion. he is not only musically artistic, and holds hobbies of sketching, painting, and photography. when he isn't playing or messing around with music, he's usually sketching something in his notebook, painting something he's already sketched out, or taking photos with the camera his father bought him for his fourteenth birthday. of course, that is, if he also isn't hanging out with his best buddy.

hopes & dreams! well, he's already full-filled them, really. he's always wanted to be in a band, saving people's lives. it's a dream, and hope, come true. it's the most amazing feeling in the world, knowing you're saving more than one person's life.

musical inspiration! well, of course there's his father, then the music he listened to when he was in a bad spot. he's always had the dream of helping people. he wanted to save people's lives just like his daddy, and i guess you could say the fans are his biggest inspiration. saving lives, helping others, that good feeling it brings him. there's not much else to say other than that, so i'll leave you to explore further into your mind about all this. unless you have something better to do, which you obviously do.

band! tbd

position! drummer & backup vocals (and he writes music, too~)

face claim! n/a

other!
to help me show, hope to all
that are lost and sick in this dying world