should have know right from the start [pafp] you didn't have a human heart

lets just say we are far from normal

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you took this heart and put it through hell
E L O I S E
{its cool I'm not picky c: sorry if this is kinda short Im sort of tired}

I lean against the cool glass as we drove down a long narrow strip of empty road. The sky was grey and was rather depressing. This whole situation was kinda depressing. I mean I couldn't help but feel a little guilty about the fact that we left Sam and Dean in the middle of the night with not even a note. Right after there dad died too. It just seemed like the right thing to do at the time. It was painstakingly hard not to answer there calls the first few weeks when we assumed they were looking for us. But then after a while the calls stopped. No more messages. Nothing. So we continued hunting and making sure we went nowhere near them.

Any case that looked like they would be checking out we left and went to the next one. I swear they had tried tracking our phones, but we took out the chips. I guess it was a good thing we knew them well enough to know they would try that. But I sometimes wonder if was Genevieve and I did was the right thing. I mean they might think we we're dead. I squeeze my eyes shut still leaning against the window and try to suppress the recurring guilt. I open my eyes and let out a breath. I sit up in the my seat and resume looking out the window.

This was interrupted when I felt a buzzing in my pocket. I dig out my phone from my back pocket and look at the caller ID. Thats when a large lump begins to form in my throat. I look at Genevieve with slightly wide eyes before taking a deep breath and answering the phone on the fifth dial tone trying to act professional "Dean, Its been a while."


ten years old without a voice, nothing's really changed now I'm just a little older
S A M
[font=georgia](this may be short gah sorry)

I felt a gust of wind smack my face and I groan a little shutting my eyes even tighter. I lay there for a minuet like that before I realize that if I was back in our motel there would be no gust of wind or smell of dust. I open my eyes and jolt up when I realize I have no idea where I am. I furrow my brow and look around standing up trying to figure out where I am. I see light filtering through the old window in a part of the room. I locate the door and with a few shoves it opens. I squint against the harsh light as I step into the sun.

When my eyes adjust I can feel my stomach sinking just a bit from where it normally sat. I was in some abandoned town and had no idea why. And Dean had no Idea where I was and he was most likely about to pull out his hair. I needed to get out of here, wherever I was. I began to wonder if anyone else was here. Or even why I was here. "Hello?" I say loudly walking down the dusty road in one part of the small town. I wouldn't have just been left here all by myself, it made no sense. There had to be someone else her if not a few others. I was sure of it,

you took this heart and put it through hell
E L O I S E
{I totally understand, My brother stays up all night playing video games in his room and its right next to my room.}

I wince at his comment. But you could never know how glad I was to hear his voice. Yeah I had missed them but hearing his voice again just made the pain and guilt even more real. Looking back on what we did I was starting to regret it. Like really regret it. I rest my elbow on the ledge of the door and rest my head in my hand "Okay look I know what we did was wrong " I say looking to Gen, "But we didn't think it was a good idea to stay after what happened." I say pausing remembering what happened to his father. "So why did you call? Like you said, Its been two months." I questions biting my lip waiting for him two answer. Right now I was just imagining the worst scenarios. Bobby was dead. The car was missing or blew up. God I actually really missed that car. Even if it wasn't always the best car and Dean's taste in music was terrible I still missed it. I missed a lot of things. It felt strange transitioning from us four to just us two again. I look up at the sky again. Still grey, well this just seemed to get more and more depressing by the minuet. God I really hopped it didn't rain, if it did all we would need was an Adele cd and we would be ready to veer off the road and crash.


ten years old without a voice, nothing's really changed now I'm just a little older
S A M
[font=georgia]{sorry if I get some of this part a bit wrong it's been a while since I have seen it}
I continue to walk around trying to get my bearings. I reach in my pocket but my phone isn't there. "Crap." I mutter remembering it was on the bedside table at the motel, where I should actually be right now. I began to wonder what was happening. Dean had probably already called bobby, and if he was really desperate Genevieve and El. I actually really kind of missed them. It had been sort of not as fun hunting without them if that even made sense. "Hello? Anyone?" I say. I see a flash of movement in one of the windows in one of the buildings. I open its door and begin to enter when something tried to throw a punch at me "Whoa calm down!" I say putting my hands up as to surrender seeing a taller black man in an army uniform looking like he was going to throw another punch at me. "Who the hell are you?" He asked "Well Um I'm sam" I say "Why am I here? One second Im in Afghanistan and now here." He said "Well, Um-" I look at the tag on his uniform "Well Jake, I guess we are going to have to figure that out." I say "have you seen anyone else?" I ask heading back out and continuing to look.

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